Chapter 21:

Kate sat on the couch for hours, lying in Sawyer's arms, thinking about Jack. Why would he try to kill himself? Did he feel that his life was really that worthless? She just didnt understand.

Carefull not to wake Sawyer, she slowly stood up, and made her way towards the bedroom. She wanted to ask Jack why he did what he did, and she wasn't going to pussy foot around.

Knocking twice on the door, Kate stepped into the room, and headed towards the bed,where Jack was soundly sleeping. Kneeling down beside him, she gently shock him.

Jack opened his eyes slowly, and immediatly closed them again as the light from the hallway hit him.

He felt like shit, putting it lightly. He didn't remember much of what had happened the night before, just the odd detail. The pills,some vile tasting concuction, and vomiting. A lot of vomiting.

Turning his head slightly to the right, he saw Kate sitting next to him, her face unreadable.

"Hey" He whispered. It hurt him to talk. It even hurt him to move.

Kate just looked at him, lying there so helpless infront of her. She was almost not going to ask him, but she knew that she had to get to the bottom of his overdose one way or another.

"Jack." Kate started, trying to figure what her next words would be. It was harder than she expected. "Why did you try to kill yourself?

Jack just stared at her, taking what she said in. She thought he tried to kill himself? Didn't she know him better than that? But even as he denied it, deep down he was questioning himself. Did he try to kill himself? Is that why he took the pills?

Jack was bought out of his thoughts by Kate's voice, and her hand upon his own.

"Jack?" She said. She could tell he was thinking about what happened, and judging by the look in his eye, he really didnt know.

"I,I wasn't trying to kill myself Kate" Jack told her, barely above a whisper. "I just wanted to get away from everything for a while, it was just to much for me to handle, so I,I took some sleeping pills, and next thing I knew, everything went black, and..." But even as he spoke, the events in the jungle came back to him, and he had to close his eyes and stop speaking. It was too much.

Kate just looked at him, wondering whether or not to believe what he was saying, but as soon as he reopened his eyes, and looked into her's, she could tell that he was telling the truth, that he didn't mean to overdose.

"What happened yesterday in the jungle Jack? What made you do this to yourself?" Kate asked, not knowing if she really wanted to know the answer.

Jack took a shuddering breath, and launched into the story. After he had finished, both he and Kate sat there in silence, neither daring to speak a word.

After afew minutes, they could hear Sawyer waking down the hallway, and stopping in the doorway. Kate looked regretfully at Jack. It wasn't that she didn't want to be with Sawyer, infact right now that was all she wanted, but she also didnt want Jack to have to go threw more questioning right now. Not in his state of mind. Not yet. So she did the only thing she could think of. She stood up slowly, and flashed Jack a small smile, a moved towards the door, and down the hallway.

Sawyer stood there for a few seconds longer, then spun around, and followed Kate, away from the bedroom.

AUTHORS NOTE:

hey peoples!

another chapter done! yay! Sorry if the writing is crap, but it's late and im tired, lol-thats my excuse and i'm sticking to it!

Its also kinda short, so soz bout dat too...

So yeah, as always...review!

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