Amu's POV
Another Monday, another boring school day.
I sat at my desk, but I wasn't just sitting there doing nothing. I was actually paying today since this history lesson was actually kinda interesting.
"Amara." I turned towards the whisper to see Kukai holding out an envelope to me. Nikaidou's back was to us so he wouldn't get mad.
"What is that?" I asked, slowly taking it from his hand. I turned it around a few times in my hand, but decided against opening it.
"You'll see when you read it." Kukai turned away and I just shrugged it off, tucking the envelope into my book.
I continued taking notes, easily keeping up with writing things as they came out of Nikaidou's mouth. I'd had to deal with taking notes at a much faster pace before, so this was kinda easy.
But, eventually, my interest passed. So now I was staring out the window while writing notes I was only partly paying attention to.
Today it was cold outside and it was raining. It'd been raining all day. Rain always affects my mood. It calms me down and dulls me in a way that, if something super shocking happened, I wouldn't be as effected the way I usually am.
Finally, lunch time came around. If there was one thing I was grateful about in school it was that the surprise of me being here had lessened to the point where I wasn't crowded around like at first.
But I still stayed in the class when everyone-including Nikaidou-left the room. I wasn't really hungry so it didn't matter that I had nothing to eat with me. I only really had to take my vitamins, so I did.
I sat on top of my desk, legs crossed, and stared out the window. I was honestly bored. I had a concert tonight, but Marzia still made me come to school.
The sound of footsteps brought my attention back to the room and I turned around to see a familiar blonde.
"Tadase." I said in aknowledgement before turning away to face out the window.
"Did you consider our offer?" Tadase asked and I turned back to him.
"Offer?"
"The envelope Kukai gave you."
"Oh. I haven't bothered reading it." Tadase looked at my book and saw the envelope. I hated how close he was and had to hold my hand by the wrist to keep from punching the bastard.
He slipped the envelope from my book and held it out to me. "You should read it."
I glared at him, but took the envelope and opened it. I pulled out the letter and was about to read the letter when a soft knock at the door caught my attention.
"Yo." Ikuto stoof in the doorway, Yoru and my Charas behind him.
"Hey Ikuto." I said, not moving from my spot. Ikuto looked around and his eyes landed on Tadase as he walked over.
"Kiddy King." Ikuto said as he pasted him and stopped by me. Ikuto leaned down, hands resing at my hips and gave me a kiss.
"Hands off her, you theiving cat." Tadase demanded and Ikuto pulled away from me, smirking at him.
"Why? I can touch her all I want since she's my girlfriend." Tadase blinked, shock obvious on his face.
"G-girlfriend? Since when?!"
"Since Friday night two weeks ago." I shrugged. "Not that it's any of your bussiness." I glared at him and then turned to Ikuto. "But why are you here, anyway? School isn't over yet."
"I just came to see you since I was bored." Ikuto looked down and sat the letter in my hand. "What's that?"
"A letter from the Guardians, I assume. I was about to read it when you came in." Ikuto snatched the letter from my hands and, honestly, he could rip it for all I cared.
He skimmed it before looking at Tadase. "She's gonna say no."
Tadase glared up at Ikuto. "You don't know that."
"She's still mad at you, Kiddy King. Amu will refuse." I raisd an eyebrow.
"Just what will I refuse?" Ikuto wordlessly held the letter up for me to read. As he had, I skimmed it and immediatly grabbed it from his hand, ripping it in two.
"He's right." I told Tadase. "I refuse." Tadas frowned.
"But Amara-" I slid off the table and cut him off.
"I said, I refuse. I never, under any circumstances, will ever wish to rejoin you stupid guardians. You kicked me out, remember? Why the hell would I want to rejoin?" I crumpled up the papers and tossed them towards the trashcan across the room. Somehow, they made it in. "Honestly, are you that shameless?"
"Amara, it wasn't us that kicked you out! We weren't ourselves!"
"You weren't yourselves?" I spat. "Well that's a crappy excuse. You seemed to be perfectly fine and like yourselves when you kicked me out. I saw your true colors, and I'm not surprised. Very few people in this world are actually nice at heart. You guys were pretty convincing though. I was fooled so easily. But now it's obvious to me how it's gonna be."
"Sorry to interrupt your hissy fit, Amu." Castiel said and I whirled around toward the window. Castiel was crouched on the window seal, grinning.
"Castiel? What the hell?" I asked and walked over, pulling him inside and shutting the window.
"Aw, you do care about my health." Castiel cooed and I glared at him.
"Not really, but if your sick, it just means more work for me. Now, why are you here?"
"Well, we've got X eggs to create and gather."
"X eggs?!" Tadase asked, giving me a shockked look. "You've been doing that?"
"Duh." I rolled my eyes. "It's my job."
"And you're letting her do it?" He demanded from Ikuto, who remained silent.
"He may be my boyfriend, but he's not the boss of me." I called over my Charas and we headed for the door. "See ya bitch." I called over my shoulder to Tadase and, once in the hall, I looked at Castiel.
"Follow me." Castiel said and off we went to gather X eggs.
All my life I've been good but now
Ooohhh
I'm thinking "What the hell?"
All I want is to mess around, and I don't really care about
All my life I've been good but now
Ooohhh
I'm thinking "What the hell?"
All I want is to mess around, and I don't really care about
If you love me, if you hate me
You can't save me, baby, baby
All my life I've been good but now whoa "What the hell?"
The concert was going great. Most of the audience was singing along to the song.
Tonight was my concert rivalry with Utau. Marzia, as she had promised me months ago, had arranged for my concert to be the same date and time as Utau's. Right now, someone from Easter was gathering information to see if I had a bigger crowd than Utau, which I bet I do.
I pushed my competitiveness away for a second as I switched to the next song. This song has always been the closest to me an personal on many points.
Nothing I say comes out right,
I can't love without a fight,
No one ever knows my name,
When I pray for sun, it rains.
I'm so sick of wasting time,
But nothings moving in my mind,
Inspiration can't be found,
I get up and fall but,
I'm Alive, I'm Alive, oh yeah
Between the good and bad is where you'll find me,
Reaching for heaven.
I will fight, and I'll sleep when I die,
I'll live my life, I'm Alive!
Every lover breaks my heart,
And I know it from the start,
Still I end up in a mess,
Every time I second guess.
All my friends just run away,
When I'm having a bad day,
I would rather stay in bed, but I know there's a reason
Now that part was definatly true. I've known it for a while an still, I do it and end up in a mess. 'All my friends', that refered to the Guardians how they left me when I was having my bad day after the attack.
I'm Alive, I'm Alive, oh yeah
Between the good and bad is where you'll find me,
Reaching for heaven.
I will fight, and I'll sleep when I die,
I'll live my life, I'm Alive!
When I'm bored to death at home,
When he won't pick up the phone,
When I'm stuck in second place,
Those regrets I can't erase.
Only I can change the end,
Of the movie in my head,
There's no time for misery,
I won't feel sorry for me!
I won't feel sorry for myself. Doing that would result in nothing my time wasted. Only I can change things and I am changing this. I'll change the end of this movie.
I'm Alive, I'm Alive, oh yeah
Between the good and bad is where you'll find me,
Reaching for heaven!
I will fight, and I'll sleep when I die,
I'll live my life, ohhh!
I'm Alive, I'm Alive, oh yeah!
Between the good and bad is where you'll find me,
Reaching for heaven.!
I will fight, and I'll sleep when I die,
I'll live my life,
I'll live my life,
I'M ALIVE!
I held that last 'alive' for a good amount of time, hand on my stomach as I leaned forward a bit, putting all the feeling into it. Then, when I brought it to a close I straightened, punching the air.
"How was that, guys?" I asked the audience and they all cheered in responce. "I hope you're having as much fun as me." Another roar of cheers and I grinned, smoothing out the front of my dress. For this outfit I was in a black dress with dark blue converse hightops, much to my pleasure. I'd only do three constume changes for this concert and this was my second one.
The concert went on until, finally, I reached the final song.
I throw all of your stuff away
Then I clear you out of my head
I tear you out of my heart
And ignore all your messages
I tell everyone we are through
'Cause I'm so much better without you
But it's just another pretty lie
'Cause I break down
Every time you come around
Uh, Oh Uh, Oh
So how did you get here under my skin
Swore that I'd never let you back in
Should've known better
Then trying to let you go
'Cause here we go go go again
Hard as I try I know I can't quit
Something about you is so addictive
We're fallin' together
You think that by now I'd know
'Cause here we go go go again
You never know what you want
And you never say what you mean
But I start to go insane
Everytime that you look at me
You only hear half of what I say
And you're always showing up too late
And I know that I should say goodbye
But it's no use
Can't be with or without you!
Uh, Oh Uh, Oh
So how did you get here under my skin
Swore that I'd never let you back in
Should've known better
Then trying to let you go
'Cause here we go go go again
Hard as I try I know I can't quit
Something about you is so addictive
We're fallin' together
You think that by now I'd know
'Cause here we go go go again
And again and again and again!
I throw all your stuff away
And then I cleared you out of my head
And I tore you out of my heart!
Uh, Oh Uh, Oh
So how did you get here under my skin
Swore that I'd never let you back in
Should've known better
Then trying to let you go
'Cause here we go go go again
Hard as I try I know I can't quit
Something about you is so addictive
We're fallin' together
You think that by now I'd know
'Cause here we go go
Here we go again
Here we go again
Should've known better
Then trying to let you go
'Cause here we go go go again
Again and again and again and again
"And the verdict was..." Marzia said, pulling out the information gathered from the envelope it was in. I sat up, eagerly awaiting the answer. Mariza looked at me, frowning.
I froze in horror, thinking Utau had gotten more people at her concert than me. But then Marzia grinned and I couldn't help the un-Amu like squeal that left me.
"By how much?" I asked.
"You had double her audience." Marzia read off the page and my Charas let out a round of applause.
"Cool! I got the top concert!"
Marzia left after delivering the news, warning me to remember that on Thursday I had a photo shoot with Kaname and that skank Shizuka. Lovely.
I had just finished changing back into a sweater and jeans when my door opened and Ikuto walked in.
"Ikuto!" I screeched. "You have to knock before coming in! I could've still been changing, you know!"
Ikuto calmly walked over and pulled me into his arms, nuzzling my neck. "Would that really be so bad?" He whispered in my ear with a tone that made me shiver.
"O-of course! We've only been together for two weeks!"
"But I love you, Amu." My face went red and I looked away.
"So you keep saying." Ikuto made me look at him.
"I mean it Amu, that's why I'm still here."
Only one thing went through my head when he said that.
Castiel said the same thing.
As if reading my thoughts, Ikuto pulled my tightly against him. "I'm not Castiel, Amu. He's red and I'm blue."
"Whatever." I said, pulling away. "You still need to knock when you come into my room."
Ikuto just nodded, saying "Okay, I'll do that next time." It was obvious he didn't mean it."
My hand pinched the bridge of my nose, shaking my head. "Remind me again why I'm dating you?"
Ikuto wrapped his arms around me, nuzzling my neck affectionatly in a way that rememinded me of a cat. "Because you love me."
"I guess your right." I messed up his hair with my hand, looking away. "I guess that's why..."
Honestly I wasn't sure how I felt. I couldn't admit that I loved him.
I just couldn't.
So...very boring chapter, in my opinion. I'd rewrite it, but I'm to lazy. XD Next chapter, though, I think will be a bit more dramatic. *Shuffles through papers* I do have a little idea, but I'm not sure whether I should save it...Wait, how long had Amu been in Japan? 3 months right? *Mutters to self* That means I have nince months left to plan...
Anyways, Merry Christmas or whatever and I'll see you in the next update! Bye!
((All rights of the songs go to their writers and stuff))