Chapter 21

"I do not know who you knew but I am not them and you are not selfish you have given me anything I want and you sent money to my family to help them and you let me send that song that I wrote for Ginny for when she got married. I know she would hug you for that when she gets married. I know my family would need to meet you to see how kind you are since they would never believe me if I was to tell them. I can also say that your family loves you since they did stay with you that tells me that you are a good person. What I cannot understand is why you cannot see it in yourself," I tell her. "They stayed so that I would not be alone and your family would not believe that I am a good person even with meeting me. I cannot even see myself as a good person anymore," she says. "You might not see it but those that know you can. I can see it in you and I think you need to learn to see it as well B. for it will help you," I tell her.

"Josh you are kind but I can tell you that only you and my family can see me as anything but a monster," she says while leaving the room. I follow and say "I think that is wrong she Ginny does not think you are and she is not your family," I tell her. "She has grown up with those that are part of my family and knows the story of my family. So she knows the way I was when I was human. As long as I am a beast, only those that knew me then or know who I was when human will not think I am a beast. Well almost everyone since you do not think I am a beast and refuse to call me one as well," she said as we walked to a room that turned out to be a tearoom. "I will see you later for I wish to be alone you a while if you do not mind," she said as she entered the tearoom. Only did I realize it was the tearoom that was connected to the room for Isabella. So she is Isabella then so I have found the name that she wanted to keep hidden.

So I decided to go for a walk in the gardens with Twilight Queen. She is a good horse; she is use to B. and has gotten so use to her that she even lets B. stand right next to her as long as she does not try to pet her. Strom Cloud is not as calm here as Twilight Queen is so I have not tried to introduce him to B. yet for I do not wish to lose his trust as B. said I would with Twilight Queen. I do not know if I can make her wait for a month before I agree to marry her not since, she seems to become sadder and sadder by the day. And I cannot stand to see her sad if there is something I can do to make her happy. I have been so unsure of wither or not I should marry her that I did not think if she wanted me to marry her.

I know that if I say yes than that might free her from this spell but if it does not then I do not know what to do for I do wish for her to be free her so that she can have kids and I do hope I can be there even if she decides not to marry me. Twilight Queen is walking with me and seems happy to be out of the stall I put her in the pen that I built and go and get Strom Cloud and put him in the pen as well. That is when I notice that he is flirting with her and she is not quite sure of his advancements. "Storm Cloud I do not think she wants to have a foul next year. So if you try do not be too shocked if she kicks you to get you to leave her alone," I tell him but he does not listen to me and tries to mount and sure enough, she kicks him. "I told you she would kick now come here she does not need a foul right now," I call to him and he does not listen to me. So I call for Twilight Queen instead. "Twilight Queen come here now," she comes and I have to shout at Strom Cloud, "get Storm Cloud do not bite at me." I get her out, lead her to her stall and go to get the old boy but he does not come and I think if I take him, back to the stable then he might try to get out and to Twilight Queen.

I look around and see that a pile of wood had been placed near an opening that I made to have two ways in and out of the pen. That's it make a barn for him so that he will be in at night but be able to be out in the day. I start working and find that I have help from invisible workers as well. I would ask B. normally, but I had found a note that was from her saying that if I wanted to make a barn for Storm Cloud I can. Since Twilight Queen would go into heat and they would need to be in separate stables for a bit. I am glad that she is letting me do this even before she knew that Twilight Queen has just gone into heat. I know I have to thank her now since it has happened. I have been working for hours when a second note appears from B. It said that she would like to ask me something about my family.

As I leave the barn that is halfway done now since I have had so much help from the servants. I can only think of what it is that she wants to ask me as I get close to the palace now. I see her at the main door and see she is a bit worried and that is not something I see often. "B. what is it? You look worried so it must be something," I say. "I was just wandering if I sent a letter to your family if they would come to visit you so that they can see that you are all right and not hurt. And you can see your family that I know you miss," she says. "I do not know if they would come but you can ask them and find out since that is the only way to find out if they will. So yes send the letter and we can see if they can come and not the whole family will be able to come since they do have houses and cows and chickens to tend to," I say. I do hope they come so that they can meet B. and see how kind she is and that she is not a monster.

"Then I will send the letter and in a few days we will see if they will come to visit you. If they do come, I will stay away so you can be with them and they will not be afraid of me while they are with you. If one does wish to see me bring them to my tearoom for that is where I will be," she says. "All right but I do wish you would at least greet them when they arrive or at least greet the ones that are grown at least once the little ones have gone to bed. The little ones might not be able to understand what is going on," I tell her.

"I will greet them then after the little ones have gone to bed. I do not think they will like me but we will find out then. That is all I had to ask you and I noticed you are building a barn so I guess that means Twilight Queen is in heat," she states. "Yes and I found your note saying it was o.k. to build one so I started to build it and I do like having so much help with the work since if I was the only one working on it she would be out of heat before I finished it," I tell her. "Yes I asked them to help you so that it could be done as soon as possible it will be big enough to hold five horses when finished so that way if you do let them breed then there would be room for the fouls after they are born," she said.

"Yes well one day I will let them but not right now since she might not like having a foul while you are still well," I could not finish that sentence. "While I am still a beast, that is smart the foul would not know me and would try to run and not live without Twilight Queen and she will not leave without you, so it would not live," she said. "That and the fact that she might lose it from stress she is use to you but I do not wish to have her expecting here not till I can find a way to free you," I tell her. "That is nice of you but how can you be so sure you will free me?" she asks. "I believe I can so I will find a way to free you," I tell her. "Well that it is good to believe but it will take more than thinking to free everyone here," she says, "Josh I will let you go back to the barn so that it can be finished as fast as possible for we may need it to be done if your family come," after she says this she walks away. "See you later B." I call.