30 minutes later Mac turns to leave saying "I think I have enough to get started on your defense Sarah."
Sarah ran down the path after her looking at Mac, Sarah says "Thank you for telling me your story."
Smiling Mac tells her "You're welcome Sarah."
"After hearing it, I know I can get through this!" Sarah told her
Sarah you're not alone! Mac told her with a smile.
Smiling Sarah replies, "I know I have my mom & dad, but talking about the abuse I went though in front of them..."
"It makes you feel uncomfortable Sarah?" says Mac
"Yes" Sarah told her.
"Do they know Sarah?" Mac asked.
"Yes, but not everything I had a flashback once it was a bad..." Sarah explained.
"You were afraid to tell them?" Mac Asked.
"Ashamed would be more accurate Mac" Sarah told her.
Mac looked at Sarah telling her "You did nothing wrong what happened, it was not your fault!"
Sarah looked at Mac asking, "If I did nothing wrong then why do I feel dirty?"
"Sarah rape is not about love it's about control and power, you did nothing wrong." Mac repeated.
Sarah stood there in silence looking at Mac for the longest time before asking, "Help me!"
Mac could hear the peading in her voice and as a mother it tugged at her heart Mac thought Anything you need.
"Um ..." She looks at Mac asking, "My I call you a friend."
"Yes Sarah of course" said Mac.
Sarah whispers, "You are my first friend." Nervously biting her lip Sarah asks, "Mac does it ever stop."
"Does it ever stop hurting?" Yes in time Sarah "But you have to let love in she told her."
"OK, Mac if I did nothing wrong then why do I feel so dirty!" Sarah asked.
Mac reaches out and hugs Sarah again saying "He told you that this is your fault didn't he!"
Unable to speak Sarah simply nodded her head in response. "You did nothing wrong what happened, it was not your fault!" Mac told Sarah "Your uncle was a sick man."
"I think what I am most ashamed of Mac..., I started to look forward to the encounters!" Sarah said tearfully
"I know Sarah, I know!" Said Mac
"I would like to tell my mom and dad that part tomorrow, would you be here when I do!" Sarah asked. "Sure Sarah, then maybe we can go to someone I trust for some help!" Mac told her
Nervously biting her lip Sarah looks at Mac saying "O..Ok I wuld like that"
It was noon the next day when Ziva looked out the front window "Sarah" she said "what is Your" Lawyer doing here?
Looking at her mother yet trying to avoid her eyes Sarah replied, "I asked her to come here mom!"
Looking at her daughter Ziva asked her "what's wrong Sarah?"
Sarah looks from Mac to her mother saying, "not until dad it here I'm not sure I can say this more than once mom."
Unsure of herself Sarah looked to Mac who told her "you can do this Sarah."
"Mom can you get dad, I don't know if I can say what I need to more than once!" Sarah explained.
Ziva ran to get Gibbs from the basement coming back with Jethro within moments. Everyone has a seat Ziva looks at her daughter and sees the fear on her face Sarah! Jethro her father tells hem you can tell us anything.
Looking at her parents, Sarah asks, "Will anything I tell you change the way you love me!"
Gibbs stated "Never Sarah"
Sarah looked at the floor saying, "Mom, Dad you know that I was abused by Ari right?"
Ziva's anger starts building in anticipation of her daughters next words her face turning evermore crimson. She clinches her fists so tightly they start bleeding
Trying to stop herself from even saying the name let alone think it. Before Sarah can stop herself she hears a voice saying the name "Ari...rape" in one sentance and the voice is hers is her own she points to her bum.
The flow of her tears increases as Sarah says in a low fearful voice, "Towards the end, just before you killed him mom, I started to enjoy it."
Sarah looked at her mother asking, "You don't hate me?
She reaches for her daughter's bloody palms Ziva told her "Never Sarah... the only thing I hate that you had to experience something that ugly Sarah."
Leroy looks at Sarah "I couldn't have said it better myself sweetheart."
Mac dials a number on her cell phone saying, "Jordan, could you see a civilian client of mine?"
On the other end of the line is Lt. Cmdr. Jordan 'Jordi' Parker replies, "What's her name, Sarah!"
Mac told Jordi "Sarah Gibbs."
Jordan told Mac "Sure when would you like to come in?"
Mac told Jordan "just a moment!" Covering up the phone with her hand, Mac turned to Sarah telling her "that friend of mine I told you about will see you whenever you want Sarah!"
Sarah turned to her mother and father saying "Tomorrow Noon?"
Gibbs looked at Sarah saying "Sure princess."
Sarah tuned back to Mac she notices her mother's hands "mom you're bleeding."
Ziva Said, "Mine are not the only ones"
"Can you fit her in tomorrow at noon Jordan" asked Mac.
"No problem, see you then!" Jordan told her.
It was noon the next day as they walked down the long corridor to The Office of Lt. Cmdr. Jordan Parker.
Mac looks at Sarah telling her "Here we are!"
"Looking around she says but this is a military base not a hospital!" said Sarah
Sarah the person we are going to see is in the Navy and she does see the family of milatary personel" Mac told her.
"I'm not in the military!" Sarah reminded her.
In unison, her parents said, "We are because we work for NCIS."
"The other reason is she is doing this as a favor for me." Mac told her
"I am Lt. Cmdr. Parker you may call me Jordi" The woman told her as she looked at Sarah.
Sarah says "OK... I guess... I had another FlashBack last night!"
"Of being raped?" Jordan Asked.
"UH HUH" Sarah told her.
"You don't have to talk about if you don't want to" Jordan told her.
"It's not that Jordan, could Mac stay... Please?" Sarah said
"Why?" Jordan Asked.
"Because she... she understands..." Sarah told her
"It's OK Sarah she can stay" Jordan tells to her.
"Thank you Jordi" Sarah told her
Take your time Sarah! Says Jordan!
What I tell you, you can't tell anyone else right?
"That's right Sarah" Jordan told her
Sarah started what was a long and complacated narative
I was abducted from my mother at the age of 7 by age 9 he was raping me. Sarah looks at the floor. Sarah's crossed legs intertwine tightly her shoulders move forward as she begins to slouch crossing her arms and gripping her triceps so tightly that her knuckles start turning white. Looking at the floor in silence finally telling them can't..., I just can't say his name the sound of it makes me feel ill,
Jordan looked at Sarah MacKenzie. Mac wrote a name on a piece of paper "The terrorist, Ari Haswari"
Jordan's eyes grow wide as she tells Sarah Gibbs Continue. Sarah eyes pleaded with Jordan "Help Me" I need to backtrack a moment she told her
"It's alright" Jordan replied.
"The person who abducted me" Sarah told them "He was my maternal grandfather, he wanted to turn me into some kind of Mossad super spy, but Ari had other ideas."
"What were they?" Jordan asked her
Sarah sat there in silence for what seemed like hours then she told Jordan "To turn me into a sleeper agent for Hammas, as it was I became Ari's second in command!"
"I see!" says Jordan whose mind was realling by this point.
"Around 10 or 12 once my hands were big enough they had me field stripping AK47s and various hand guns blindfolded!" Sarah tells them.
"Could you demonstrate that for me!" Jordan asked her
"Do I have to" she asked Mac. "It brings back bad dreams" Sarah exclaimed
Mac tells Sarah "It will make a case for them seeing you as nothing but a tool for them to exploit"
Jordi reaches into her desk and takes out her Beretta 92.
"Do you have a blindfold?" Sarah Asked
Reaching into a draw Jordan pulls out her own Sleep blindfold here, she says handing blindfold to Sarah. Sarah puts on blindfold saying "Time me Mac, tell me when to start!"
"Now" says Mac
Sarah striped down the Beretta 92 and puts it back together in two minutes and thirty seconds working on nothing but touch. Putting it on the table Sarah said, "Your fireing pin needs replacing"
Stunned Jordan looks at her asking, "Sarah how old are you?"
Sarah removes her blindfold commenting, "It was 2 minutes 30 seconds wasn't it?" Tearfully Sarah said "Jordan no 17 year old girl should know how to do what I just did."
Jordan looks at Mac asking "Time?"
Mac looked at her watch telling Jordon "She is right!"
"If I couldn't do in less than 3 minutes I was beaten." Sarah admitted.
Staring out the window Sarah tells Jordan "Ari knew how to hit and not leave a mark, not even a scar."
Mac told Sarah "I can't even strip hand gun and put it back together that fast... I am a Marie!"
Wiping the tears away, Sarah flashes a weak smile as she told Mac "You didn't learn how to do it at age 10"
"Five years later is when..." Sarah told them pointing the doll just below the waist
"At... 15" Mac asked Sarah
Sarah looked at the floor again saying yes
"Yes, I was asleep one night only to be woken up by a searing pain and feeling his weight on my back as he moved he moved here." Sarah said turning the doll over pointing to the bum
He sodomized you Asked Jordan.
Sarah flinched at hearing the word but moves her head up & down in acknowledgment
Jordan asked, "What's wrong Sarah?"
She hesitates before saying "Jordan I...I started to enjoy it, does that make me a bad person?"
"No Sarah, it doesn't make you a bad person... the fact that you're asking the question proves that." Said Jordan
Sarah asked "Jordan Can... Can I come back and talk to you!"
"I am going it insist on it Sarah" Jordan tells her
Sarah looks at Mac and smiles saying "I like Jordan"