Shocks and Reactions

Where Are You Now?

The whole way home Andre sung to me keeping me smile as the wind ripped through my hair and relaxing me. His voice was smooth as his lyrics touched me even though it was a little cheesy it was what I needed to make me laugh.

Now I can see it girl,
You aint gotta say nothing,
Your lips are calling me,
Like they wanna do something,
I feel the chemistry,
Yeah you're into me,
A little kiss is a definite possibility,

I felt my mouth watering as I watched his face so sweet like a milk chocolate bar waiting to be savored and devoured my lips which had been dry now felt wet with anticipation.

He parked the car on top of a hill over looking La I could see all of Hollywood it was breathtaking as we got out to sit on top of the car he wrapped his arms around my waist as I turned to him.

So a kiss huh?

Yea baby but only if you want

Oh I want but I want ..

What do you want baby?

I want...

He never let me finish as his lips descended onto mine my whole body melted into his arms and lips and I didn't fight it I just enjoyed it closing my eyes as he lowered me to the car and we kissed and kissed till our lips were sore and numb.

So does this mean were like

Um Boyfriend and Girlfriend?

Yea I believe it does Andre

A smile spread through his lips so wide it made me blush and bury my head in his chest. We laid there for a long time watching the stars till sleep started to take over and we headed home.

Trina's car was there so were my parents but it was strangely quiet I started to worry. Calling out no one answered for a few minutes Andre squeezed my hand whispering to me that it was late and everyone was prob asleep. I giggled feeling his hot breath on my neck as we went to check on Cat and Jade. My bed was empty and the bathroom light was on.

I called out and Cat's voice squeaked out I wondered if she was alright then she appeared grinning.

Wiping the sleep out of her eyes she came over grabbing Jade's bag.

Once Jade had the bag Cat came out sitting on my bed grinning as she looked at us.

Oh my god are you two together?

Yay ! Oh rainbows and sunshine keep shining I'm so happy

Jadey Jadey wait till you hear...

Ah...

Andre and I ran into the bathroom when we heard Cat's scream I covered my mouth as I saw Jade sitting there with a needle in her arm. Her eyes went wide as Cat trembled crying full tears I wrapped my arms around her.

Jade no why Jade why please stop please

Your hurting yourself and me please I love you

Don't do this you don't have to

Cat I'm sorry but I ..

No! I'm sick of sorry

I want you to stop saying

I'm sorry and I want you to stop using!

Please Jade take my hand I will be your strength I will be your rock

You don't have to shoot up

I promise you I will be your arms that catch you when you fall

Jade..

I saw Jade swallow as Cat dropped to her knee's taking Jade's face in her hands something I would be to afraid to do as I gripped Andre's hands. Jade's hands shock as she slowly took the needle out of her arm her she looked at Cat who wrapped her arms around Jade and lifted her up Jade rested her head against Cat's shoulder. I breathed a sigh of relief Andre squeezed my arm going over to take the needle Jade's eyes followed him making me nervous it was never a good idea to try to take a needle away from a heroine addict. I prayed silently that Cat could handle her.

Andre was slow as he went over talking slowly Jade's eyes followed her knee's shaking as he gently

Reached over gripping the needle pulling away.

No!

Jade screamed and lunged I screamed as she leaped for him but Andre was too fast as he pulled away Jade's face was full of panic as she fell to her knee's throwing up. Cat held her as I ran to Andre shaking. He held me comforted me just as Trina ran in.

What is going on in here?

I need my beauty sleep why are you freaks..

Oh...my should I get Mom or Dad?

I looked at Cat she shock her head pleading for her not to swallowing against better judgment I shock my head to Trina still not wanting to talk to her she sighed and turned and left.

Tori I know your mad at me for telling the truth but if you need me..

I said nothing she sighed..

Whatever get over yourself little sister we all make mistakes

She closed the door looking sad was I being immature? Whatever I had bigger issues to think about like the fact that Jade was sick all over my floor and Cat was scared to death.

We got her cleaned up and helped her over to the bed Jade was shaking all night sweating Cat and I held her Andre stayed by us all night as I felt myself almost get sick as I saw her eyes roll to the back of her head.

Sighing Andre started to sing as I closed my eyes holding Cat who was holding Jade all I could do to keep from crying was to concentrate on his voice the whole time I wondered where was Jade? Was she lost in her own little world? Where was Cat for that matter? She looked so scared so young yet she seemed to possess a maturity we had never seen from her as she held Jade stroking her hair humming softly. Andre's voice lead us all to another place I smiled as I felt sleep come over me.

Where are you now
When I need you the most
Why don't you take my hand
I want to be close

Help me when I am down
Lift me up off the ground
Teach me right from wrong
Help me to stay strong

Take my hand and walk with me

I need you to set me free yeah

[Chorus:]
Where are you now
When nothing is going right
Where are you now
I can't see the light

Where are you now,
When I need you the most?

I need you
To need me
Can't you see me
How could you leave me
My heart is half empty
I'm not whole
When you're not with me

I want you
Here with me
To guide me
hold me
and love me now

Why don't you take my hand?
I wanna be close.
Take my hand and walk with me, yeahh.

[Chorus]

So take my hand and walk with me.
Show me what to be, yeah
I need you to set me free, yeahh.

Where are you now?
Now that I'm half-grown.
Why are we far apart?
I feel all alone

" You'll never be alone Jade not as long as were all drawing breath..

I whispered it but I think she heard me cause I got a scowl..