Author's Note: OK, so I know I promised Lexi and Danny, and it's coming, it's written, but I wanted to post this one, because I love it. Also, I just did two in a row second generation, so I figured we should get some first in here. Also, it's been a while since we heard from Heather and Adam.
Disclaimer: I don't own any of the songs of Duck characters. I do own my OCs
Timeline: About a year and a half after "Looking for Myself"
Situation: Heather gets fed up with being second, and gives Adam an ultimatum
Song: All or Nothing by O-Town (NO LAUGHING!)
I know when he's been on your mind
That distant look is in your eye
I thought with time you'd realize
It's over over
"Adam!" Heather sighed, calling him back, "Where are you tonight?"
"I'm just a little distracted," he said, "I'm sorry."
"Yeah," she said quietly. She knew why he was distracted. Whenever he was distracted, as he called it, it just meant that he was thinking about Julie. Sure, this week was particularly bad because Julie had called and said that she was getting married. But couldn't he see that it was hard on her too? Until Adam, Dean was the only man she had ever loved. She had come in second place there too; always the understudy to Julie Gaffney, Heather knew her place. "You know I've been thinking,"
It's not the way I choose to live
And something somewhere's got to give
As sharing this relationship gets older older
You know I'd fight for you
But how I can fight someone who isn't even there
"Heather," he said, "I swear, in a few days,"
"No," she said, "Not in a few days. We are having this conversation now. I know this is hard for you OK? I get that, but I'm here, now, and I want to be with you."
"Heather can we please not do this tonight?" Adam asked, "I just, I can't yet."
I've had the rest of you now I want the best of you
I dont care if that's not fair
"I need to know that you're in this," she said, "because if you aren't it's not worth it to me."
"I've been here for almost a year haven't I?" Adam answered. "And what do you mean it's not worth it."
"I'm giving up my best friend to be with you," Heather reminded him, "By being with you, I know that Julie will never be in my life in that capacity again. And I'm fine with that. But I need to know that you're in, that you want to be with me, that this isn't just because I'm here, that you choose me."
"Heather," he started, "I don't know what else to do."
Cause I want it all
Or nothing at all
There's no where left to fall
When you reach the bottom it's now or never
"Why can't you say you love me?" She finally said. "Why? And if it's because you still love her, then I have to leave, I have to move on. I did the whole the man Julie didn't want thing before, I'm not doing it again, ever. I deserve better than that."
"I've told you that I'm always going to love her!" He shouted, "I thought you understood that."
"I do understand that," Heather said, "But I don't understand why you can't say you love me!"
"Because I can't!" Adam said, "Because I don't know how to love anyone but her."
"Fine," Heather nodded, "That's fine. But don't think that I'm going to wait around for you to learn." She stood up and walked out on him.
Is it all
Or are we just friends
Is this how it ends
How could she have been so stupid as to do this again? She knew, knew that he wasn't going to get past her. She knew that he wasn't ready. Their first night together he had made it clear that he hadn't moved on, that he just wanted to be her friend. Why had she let herself fall for him? She angrily pulled out her cell phone and dialed the only number she could think of.
"Hello?" she heard Julie's voice on the other end.
"What exactly do you have?" Heather said, "What is it Julie?"
"Heather?" Julie said, "What's going on?"
"Why do they love you?" Heather started to cry. "Why can't they let go?"
With a simple telephone call
You leave me here with nothing at all
"What happened with Adam?" Julie said quietly, beginning to understand.
"He doesn't know how to love me," Heather whimpered, "because I'm not you. What's so great about you?"
"I don't know!" Julie sighed, "I don't Heather. I'm sorry."
"Oh don't apologize," Heather laughed realizing how ridiculous she was being, "It's my fault."
"This is goodbye for us isn't it?" Julie said, "I mean, we can't be what we used to be."
"Yeah," Heather said, "it's good bye. We had a good run though."
There are times it seems to me
I'm sharing you with memories
Late that night Heather began packing her bags. She would go back to New York. She still had friends there, until she got her life back together. It wouldn't be too hard. She couldn't stop cursing herself for falling into it, for doing what she had always told herself she wouldn't do. It had been over ten years, was she really the same girl she was when she eighteen? Did she really let herself do with Adam Banks what she had always done with Dean Portman? As she contemplated her phone rang. She looked at the caller ID, great, exactly what she needed.
"Adam, what?" She said picking up the phone.
"What are you doing?" He asked.
"Packing," she said, "I'm going back to New York in the morning."
I feel it in my heart
But I don't show it show it
"Don't" he said, "Please don't."
"I don't know what else to do," she sighed, "Do you have any suggestions?"
"Stay?" He asked, "Don't give up on me."
"Do you love me?" She asked, flat out, no beating around the bush.
"Yes," He answered quickly.
And then there's times you look at me
As though I'm all that you can see
Those times I don't believe it's right
I know know it
"Say it," she said.
"What?" He said surprised.
"Say the words," She whispered. "I need to hear you say it."
"I love you," he said, so quietly, so perfectly. "I do, I love you."
Don't me make me promises
Baby you never did know how to keep them well
I've had the rest of you
Now I want the best of you
It's time for show and tell
"You mean it?" She said, "You're not just saying it."
"Heather, you did the impossible," He said, "You fixed me. You know the last time I saw her, do you know what she said to me? She made me promise to move on, and I told her I never could. But then you came back, and you were my reason to move on, and I love you."
Cause I want it all
Or nothing at all
There's no where left to fall
When you reach the bottom it's now or never
"Adam will you marry me?" Heather asked.
"You mean like someday?" He asked.
"No," she shook her head, "I mean now, tonight. Not have a wedding, just hop a plane to Vegas and marry me."
"You don't want a wedding?" He was confused.
"I want to be married to you," she whispered, "I don't need the wedding."
"Have you been thinking about this?" He asked
Is it all
Or are we just friends
Is this how it ends
With a simple telephone call
You leave me here with nothing at all
"Yes," she said honestly, "A lot, actually. Adam, I mean this is the most gentle way possible, if you don't want to marry me now, you're not going to want to in the future. So, what is it? I'm getting on a plane, no matter what."
"Let's go," Adam said, "We'll go, we'll get married."
"We won't tell any one," Heather giggled, she felt like a child, "until we get back."
"No one?" He said quietly. "What about,"
"We said goodbye," Heather said, thinking she knew what he was saying. "Earlier, I called her."
"Oh," he said, "Well, I didn't mean her, I meant Charlie."
Cause you and I
Could lose it all if you've got no more room
No room inside for me in your life
Cause I want it all
Or nothing at all
There's no where left to fall
It's now or never
"Charlie can come." Heather shrugged, "We need a witness."
"OK," Adam said, "Great. I'll come pick you up, we'll go to airport."
"Really?" She squealed. She couldn't believe she just proposed to Adam over the phone, she couldn't believe that the ultimatum she had been considering actually worked.
"Really," he smiled, "I'll see you in a few minutes."
Cause I want it all
Or nothing at all
There's no where left to fall
When you reach the bottom it's now or never
"Hi Heather," Charlie said, yawning as Heather climbed into Adam's car with a small travel bag. "You really had to decide you wanted to get married at 2 in the morning?"
"I'm an impulsive girl," she smirked, and kissed Adam. "Are you ready for this?" She asked as she pulled away.
"Yes," he nodded and smiled, "I am definitely ready for this."
Is it all
Or are we just friends
Is this how it ends
With a simple telephone call
You leave me here with nothing at all