regine.c: Usagi's got a difficult role to come, but its one that she chooses. With Rei she needs to see that she can be happy and that her crush will never come to pass. Fine mamo's hot looking, but when your best friends with his soul mate, and he obviously loves her more than anything, its time to let go. Yuirchio gives her that emotion and physical bond that deep down she needs, just like what mamo does for usa and visa versa. As for the jager, he was upset, and besides I didn't want to turn him into an alcoholic, just be upset and face reality. Alcohol for most is a way of dealing without feeling the pain. Thing with that is said person isn't really dealing, their just numbing themselves to the pain. He needed to feel the pain.
CaughtInAFantasy: he has to but for a reason. Deal with reality that way he can face what he needs to go through and be there.
AimlesslyGera: no your not, lol! I loved writing that. He finally had his breaking point, and he was dealing with it. the lose of his true love took its toll on his heart and emotions.
GotQuidditch: I know, thing is as much as I enjoy reading about him as a rich bad boy that turns good due to usa, not every rich guy is a bad boy. Some rich guys are just lazy ass's, bankrolling off of their parents or predecessors funds. It's the whole 'look at me, I'm better than you' attitude, when really their nothing without their trust funds. At least with mamo sometimes he's actually a really busy business man, otherwise he's a trust fund kid that doesn't get along with his parents. Go figure. But thank you for the compliment, he isn't truly given a lot of depth in the series so that part was more of what I thought he could be like once these things in his life happen, things that he has/had no control over, things that he in the end started and had half the responsibility of.
Mitsumeteiteyo: thank you, I like the depth I've given him.
jade21: pretty much. Mamo's got to realize part of being in a relationship, is handling your problems together, not trying to solve every big bad thing on your own.
Maeko11: yeah, the doors, were the first thing I thought of for that chapter/episode, they were also the main thing I wasn't sure people would get or like. As for the vines, thank 'Shaydoe' that was purely her imagination, I just added.
shantie1984: wish I could say sorry, but I'm not. ;)
xSapphirexRosesxFanx: very interesting. LOL!
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adoore (Guest): I think she always needed loving from her honey, she was just to shy to ask for something she figured he would know about, or be more automatic about. He was the who held back on anything really. Its even mentioned that in the Supers series that she visited his room quite often…I think…or at least a few times, but he wasn't the type to be PDA about his relationship, she was. And yeah Chibi Usa was a pain in the ass for me to. Its why she's there but she's not the focal point. Though for a sequel, if there's anything you'd like to see, other than loving amounts of romance between our couple PM me.
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Sailor Moon R 'Roses and Diamonds' ch. 21
The moon was heavy in the sky that night, a dark blanket of velvet was hugging the tranquil sea. So wide and expansive in its splendor it was over whelming in a romantic almost mystic sort of way. A warm wind blew off the ocean filled with the scent of paradise and hope. All of his senses were aroused that night, filled with a euphoria and delight at the pure reckless abandon they had cultivated between them.
He saw himself lounging upon the top of a large stone before the sea. His dark dress pants soaked at the cuffs, his white dress shirt loose and untucked around his hips. The moon hanging full in the night sky, casting the sand and sea in a silver glow. It warmed the natural radiance of her skin, the sparkle of her beaming smile. The ethereal glow in the timeless cerulean pools of her eyes, as she locked her loving, yet longing gaze with his.
She danced before him, swinging her hips alluringly, while twisting her arms over her head in a seductively erotic way. Silently enticing his lust with every subtle movement, every small look she cast him over her slender shoulder as she moved to the music only she could hear.
Mamoru watched the memory unfold that night as he knew they both could feel the bold playfulness she was exuding through their link. He remembered engaging her many times, over the coarse of their trip down the beach, in various intimates, igniting the fires of the passion between them. He laughed along with his counterpart in satisfaction that the angel was so fulfilled with him. That she sought to seduce him for a change...
Using her charm and erotic wiles, Usagi who still believed she was Serenity moved into him upon the stone. Twisting in his reaching, almost languid and dreamy grasp, with her arms entwined over her head. Giving him her arching back, as she thrust her butt over his crotch with a giggle of pleasure. Straddling his legs she lightly brushed her bottom against his crotch. Back and forth in an erotic manner, twisting away from his latching hands as he sought to push her down upon him and end her teasing.
Moving away with light feet she began to caress herself alluringly, smiling slyly at him the whole time.
"Were did you learn to dance like this?" He breathed, the erection in his pants becoming increasingly uncomfortable.
Usagi looked puzzled for but a moment. "A friend taught me." She answered, moving in upon him once more. Swaying her hips as she crouched low, brushing her hand down his thighs making him shiver. As her wide innocent blue eyes kept contact with his drawing him in and holding his heart.
He lightly brushed his fingers down her cheek as she rose up. "You are so beautiful...you know that." He breathed in awe of her.
She merely paid him a knowing smile, backing up once more shaking her hips and turning in place. Her eyes closing in pleasure as she lost herself to the dance. Her hands weaving into the long golden stands of her hair along the side of her head, tossing it up on top as an unruly mass. It cascaded over her face, creating a wild exotic goddess before him.
"Oh Endy...you tease me all the time..." She taunted him with her beautiful yet sensuous movements. Giving him a meaningful smile, as she spun and swayed.
Mamoru was nearly losing his mind with want, lust and need as he watched her sweet erotic movements. He couldn't take his eyes off of her sweet body to save his life, it was as if she was casting a spell upon him. With every sway of her hips, every fluid bend of her long slender arms he was falling deeper into a lust filled trance. He wanted her so badly he could scream. She was teasing and taunting him, with her hands, her thrusting bum. Bombarding him with almost touches against his sex, using her hands, thighs, her butt driving him insane.
The lust filled looks cast his way briefly as she danced up and down and around him. Like the moon's orbit to the earth...so close but not yet one. The sight of her caressing herself in such a bold and sexy manner, brushing her moving hips with her fingers, caressing the contours of her breasts... it was pushing him over the edge!
The silver grey bikini she wore seemed to shine in the moonlight, radiating with an allure all it's own, as it complemented her tantric thrusts and sways. Glowing brighter and brighter as his need to touch her mounted. Her teasing and tempting brushes against him only growing more bold.
"Com...ere..." He growled, lunging off the rock for her as she drew close yet again. Usagi squealed with delight, turning on her heel to run away. Her bare feet digging into the sand as his large warm hands caught her around her waist. Laughing long and hard at finally having his temptress in his grasp. He drew her back against him, holding tight as he nuzzled her neck through her long golden hair. His hot breath sending shivers up and down her body.
Usagi moaned with pleasure her heart content, as he suckled the tender part of her neck behind her ear, his strong arms holding her tight against his warm toned chest. Wanting nothing more than to be in his arms forever. The swim suit flared as their shared passion for one another grew beyond what it could handle. Mamoru cupped one of her breasts kneading it hungrily, as the fabric heated up under his palm.
Usagi yelped in pain as the suit began to burn her skin, wiggling out of his grasp in a panic. Mamoru loosened his hold, at her frantic cries wondering if he had hurt her by holding to tight, or fondling her to strongly. She squirmed out of his grasp darting for the ocean as the suit combusted in a cloud of dark smoke un able to handle the reverse effects from darkness. Leaving her nude before him in the soft moonlight.
The fifteen year old girl once more rose to the surface, casting her innocent blue eyes wide and stunned upon him. Her whole body blushing a rose pink, as she sought to cover her modesty with her arms, and slender hands. Then thinking better of it, she turned and dashed into the midnight waves giggling playfully. Mamoru watched her swim away for a few meters, the cusp of her perfect bum cresting the surface as she dove deep into the sea.
With a deep rueful chuckle, Mamoru watched as his memory self, quickly shed his clothes tossing them to the sand. This was everything he dreamed of and more. He knew his mind at that time was still trapped in a haze, his reason locked and barred away deep in his subconscious. Dashing naked into the surf he swam and dove threw the waves to play with his true love. As he broke the surface further out, his feet just touching the sandy bottom.
Usagi's sweet face popped out of the water a few feet away, her bare breasts arching into the air. Perfect mounds of pink flesh with small pert nipples thrusting out to the cool air. Flipping her golden hair over her head as she shot up from the surface of the rippling water. The strands gleaming in the moonlight soaked from the ocean. The water droplets, shimmering upon her head as if the sea had crowned her with fine jewels.
She beamed at him with that fond smile of sharing she gave only to him. As she wadded in the water waiting for him to approach. Mamoru was breathless, the moment was to perfect. He saw how his self that night was overcome once more by the purity of her almost goddess qualities in the moonlight.
In time the tide itself had drawn him to her side, he grasped her now bare hips with his strong hands to keep her near. She in turn pressed her palms against his bare chest. She cuddled into his chest as he held her, her breasts pressed softly against his chest her breath short and breathless.
"Am I dreaming..." She whispered, the haze still heavy upon her mind but doubts began to surface that this moment may be real.
Mamoru lifted an eyebrow, drawing a hand lovingly down her hair. Stroking it tenderly the intense lust he had been feeling for her tempered by her honest words.
He was wondering now if this was a dream as well? Only from looking at them now he knew that truth. As it was he was still in a state of shock at what was or what had happened that night.
Usagi rose from his chest, running a small slender hand down his cheek. Staring up at him with such trust and love it spoke to his very soul. She was all he needed, all he wanted...the nightmare be damned! He could not go on living without her for one more second. He cupped her chin in his fingers, keeping her steady by wrapping his other arm tight around her waist pressing all of her against him.
As he leaned down and kissed her long and deep. Usagi responded to his passion, her hands braced against his cheeks as she rose up a little out of the water pressing down upon him. As her tongue darted into his mouth with a moan of desperation.
The kiss became hot, unrestrained and far more passionate. As he traced both of his hand down her sides to grasp her butt meaningfully. Usagi drew away panting and out of breath.
"It's really true...this is happening...this isn't a dream." She sobbed briefly, overcome with joy. As a clarity began to form in her mind. She drew down once more kissing him with all that she had. Needing nothing more in life then to be in his arms kissing him just like this...Forever.
Reluctantly, He drew away from her sweet lips, pressing a kiss upon her cheek, then her ear tracing down her jaw line with his lips till he reached her tender neck. Usagi squeezed his shoulders overcome by the shuddering sobs of pure unrestrained love she felt. Her whole body trembling uncontrollably, moaning with sudden delight.
As he drew his lips away from nibbling upon her neck, she stroked her hand over the taunt muscles of his broad chest. Then began laying sweet kisses were her hand had once been, giving a suckling teasing kiss to his hard nipple. Causing him to groan with longing, his hands weaving into the golden hair at the back of her head holding tight.
"Not fair..." He breathed. "I should be able to kiss all the same places on you that your kiss on me..." He stated plaintively.
Usagi giggled mischievously, jumping slightly and wrapping her legs around his waist for leverage. As she rose from the water, arching her back, inviting his lips upon her breasts wordlessly. He leaned down with her wrapped in his arms, trailing kisses down from her collar bone ever downward towards her breasts. Her breath fell shallow, as her heart beat quickened upon every impression of his lips upon her sensitive skin.
Upon every puff of hot breath against her cold skin. Finally he drew a stiff aroused nipple into his mouth and sucked upon it with vigor. Causing her to cry out to the heavens with the surge of pleasurable sparks that rocketed over her body.
The haze of the drug was lifting from him, yet the feel of her hot flesh against his was making his head spin. The feel of her beautiful body under his roving hands made him moan with rising need. The waves seemed to lap at them in the same rapid pace as their breathing. As the heat between them rose, unconsciously her womanhood positioned itself before the tip of his shaft. He suddenly felt the warmth of her folds surrounding him.
She swallowed nervously, as she felt him nudging upon her entrance. Pulling away slightly, from sensually nibbling upon his neck. To stare down at him with such a deep love and commitment that it banished the last of his worries. This love between them was strong, fierce and unbreakable. The nightmare was false, an evil lie cast upon him to make him weak, make him doubt. No evil could befall her if she was safe in his arms! He had been a fool! He had so much to seek forgiveness for...
"Ashiteru...My Usako...now and forever." He breathed, as he leaned down once more with a thankful smile finally giving her the words she had needed to hear for so very long.
She smashed her lips against his, silencing his apology before it began. Wrapping her arms around his neck, as her long slender legs weaved around his waist holding herself in place. Mamoru crossed his arms over the small of her back, keeping her aloft, as his hands cupped her shapely bottom.
She invited him inside by softly rocking her hips against him. He moved gently into her at first allowing her time to adjust, using the flowing rhythm of the waves as a guide. Closing her eyes with anticipation towards the ecstasy she had only felt within her dreams. Her breath began to grow sharp and breathless as the excitement grew within her, at this final act of love finally happening between them.
Mamoru closed his eyes as well basking in the feel of her small body in his arms, her soft sounds of delight as he thrust within her a bit more forcefully. Her inner core caressing him, holding him tightly as he sought to delve deeper. The lapping waters around them acting as a lubricant to their bodies. Allowing their first coupling to become smooth and painless for her.
Usagi fingers gripped the corded muscles along his shoulder blades as he held her up close to him within the ocean's embrace. The continual pounding of his flesh against hers, as he growled from the passion that was mounting an inferno within her belly. Hanging on as he took her, closing her eyes as she cried out to the stars, over and over, as the pleasures kept building. Her skin growing rosy from her continued arousal, her insides quivering at every thrust of his hips, seeking more from him and for it to never end.
Her body was shivering from the intensity of their coupling. As she noticed he was shivering as well, though be it from the cool water or the notion of being on the edge with her she wasn't completely sure of.
Opening her eyes she stared down at him, finding his midnight blue eyes looking deep within her own. Communicating to her the depth of his love that he felt for her. A passion rising out of his control, seeking to end their misery he put them through and complete their link now and forever soul bond, though unknowing in that goal. Only knowing they sought to complete themselves within one another, to give the other their soul and make themselves one.
He moved into her hot, tight warmth again and again, making her crane her neck back crying out to the moon. As she then resumed her passionate stare down upon him. Bouncing in his arms as he took her, she brought a hand up to his face, caressing his features. When one finger dipped into his mouth and began a rhythm she had only ever remembered her past counterpart do, it undid the rest of his control.
Pulling her hand away he then crushed his lips upon hers, the tremor's intensifying in both their bodies as he thrust himself harder and deeper. Feeling the need to be as deep inside of her as possible, to make her know it, make her know he would be the only one to ever be with her like this again. "You're mine Usako…" he growled, feeling the last thin thread of his control slipping, feeling himself on the verge of pummeling her insides with his length.
Feeling his thrusts turn more primal in their efforts as he sought to make her his in every way he had ever dreamed of. Usagi found herself whimpering as Mamoru began to sate every desire she ever had of him as well.
"I'll always be only yours…Mamo – chan…" She panted, holding on as he took her. His member reached deeper within her than either one of them thought possible, touching a tender spot that made her pleasure soar higher than ever before.
It was making the reality so much more exhilarating and more intense than any fantasy or memory could provide her. He clung to her now, arms wrapped around her slender sides. Amazed by her, thrilled by her very touch as she hung onto him as if for dear life while he pounded away. Reaching new depths and new sensations wanting to give her everything he had and let them both never forget to whom they both belonged to.
Whimpering pleadingly, she once more found his mouth with hers. Her lips swollen from long sessions of deep, passionate kisses.
Her hot breath within his mouth sent his desires to the brink, encouraging him to take them both over the edge, to stay there.
She was lost to a realm of pure pleasure, a moment of ultimate sensations and release she did not want to enter alone. Her insides suddenly clenching upon him with obvious intent, as her body exploded into a fit of ecstasy she'd never felt in this life before. She wrapped her arms around his neck, calling out yet again. He tried to hold on to this moment, to never let the feel of her muscles clenching around him end, but somehow she got her way and he would no longer be able to hold out.
Feeling the spasms within her continue on they dragged him with her and he climaxed within her body, spraying her insides with everything he had to offer her. Never having felt that type of emotional release as much as it had been a physical one as well. His nights of pleasuring himself to aid in his fantasies of her couldn't hope to compare to what she had for him. They released together, their voices ringing to the stars of two souls becoming one.
It took them several minutes to come down from their bliss filled high. Shielding her face into his neck making soft sounds of comfort, assuring him with her love as she kissed him tenderly. Mamoru shuddered, holding her tight as he let himself stay within her tight warmth. Wanting to savor and relish the moments of their first joining for as long as possible. They had become one under the watchful glow of the moon. The night seemed magical, timeless as he carried her out of the waves to the shore, her form still tightly wrapped around his.
Several minutes later a warm peaceful sensation began to overtake them both as he finally slipped out and let her go. Her feet reaching the sea bed softly, as he clasped her hand striding ashore together. They both collapsed upon the sand, their mental and physical strength at their limits. She turned to him with a satisfied smile, running a limp almost lazy hand through his hair as he lay on his side propped up on an elbow.
He chuckled at her, his eyes sparkling with a warmth that she treasured. A goofy smile and shine of deep love for only her, that she would always hold in her heart of hearts.
"I love you Chiba, Mamoru...never forget that." She breathed her eyes tearing with joy. Carrying a seriousness in her tone, that made his throat tighten with deep emotions he could not name.
Until today...it was fear. She knew that night during that moment of clarity between them. That Diamond's obsession with her might doom their love.
She knew...the consequences before they happened.
When Mamoru woke up he had two very curious and befuddled women sitting before him. "I don't believe it we…" he blushed remembering the night in all its bliss filled glory. "We…" he was stunned as he put his hand up to his mouth. Mistaking the shock for one of mingled regret Rei leaned forward, "Mamoru – san what did you see?" she asked testily. Wondering if her theory had been correct.
"I…we…" Mamoru suddenly felt very protective of his time with Usagi. Di had tried to ruin them, and did himself but they reconnected in the most bliss filled of ways possible. "Just know that I can feel Usako much better now. She is no longer in physical pain, but mentally…" he could feel her struggling to maintain whom she was on the inside. "Mamoru – san we need to know how so I can use it to - " but Mamoru cut her off, "What happened was private!" Rei cut to the chase, "You had sex with her admit it already!" she sighed exasperated.
He flamed up, "How…?" he uttered, "I found a plastic friend of hers and figured it out from there. Why else would she have it?" Rei blurted, un caring. "She has had ulterior motives with you for last few months." The miko stated, crossing her arms and giving him a no nonsense look.
"So she wouldn't be tempted to jump Mamoru – san?" Ami suggested becoming redder by the second once the words were out. Rei and Mamoru both gave her quizzical looks, "It just struck me okay!" she explained. "Whatever!" Rei pinched the bridge of her nose in irritation.
Her theory nearly went up in flames but she followed through and was right, "Point is we have a better access to her mind now. Mamoru – san you can work on that when her mind gets better I guess but in the mean time we all have to go to the temple. We've got a pink haired child to interrogate." Rei stated without much enthusiasm. She cared for the pink haired child but things were different now. Besides no one got to beat on the Odango but her.
If the dark forces were going to torture her because she didn't obey she'd kill them. Well she'd kill them anyways but at least this way Usagi would be safe again and she'd come back having learnt to NOT trust people so easily. To many snakes in the world that preyed on innocents like her. It was why she was so fierce and tempered. She knew of the evils and protected herself mind, heart and bodily from them. Granted it left little room for her to find love even if it was right under her nose but as far as she saw it, she had bigger things to worry about.
"Come on, before Minako – chan and Makoto – chan make it there before us." She gestured towards the door. Mamoru finished getting ready as they waited at his apartment door, "By the way…" Rei said as he locked up, "Gotta love the remodeling in there. It screams 'I've just 'fucked up my love life'." She remarked as if it was a big statement to make. He looked worse for the weary, "Fine timing." Ami pinched the fire senshi in the arm, "Its true…" then she looked over and saw the error of her words.
"Gomen." She said as she walked towards the elevator. Pushing the button she looked back to see Ami trying to comfort him. A small pep talk and he was able to pull his emotions back in check. The pain level was still too high to try and crack even a simple joke with him. Once again her brash words did more harm than good. Boinking herself in the head, with a reprimanded fist she murmured to herself, "Fine timing indeed you dolt!"
With Mamoru behind another closed door, sitting out on the outer veranda. A blank cold mask over his face, lost in his troubled thoughts. Able to hear it all from the other side, the girls made sure to block the two exits to the tea room. Minako sitting in front of the one rice divider, and Ami the other. While leaving Mako and Rei to coral the stubborn, child.
Chibi Usa would have nowhere to run from her inner demons today. Nor would she have Mamoru to run and hide to. She always ran to him and used him as a buffer. Plus Mamoru had a fatherly type of love and kin to the pink haired girl that he nor anyone else could understand.
Not to mention she would run to him for help when she couldn't go to Usagi. The girls felt bad for what they had to do. Prevent her from leaving if she tried, and pry into her mind if necessary, but she needed to talk and it seemed with her running away from her problems this would be the only way.
"So where's Usagi – chan?" she asked them, curious as to where her technical guardian was. The girls all acted as her guardians here and there but being that she lived with Usagi she was her technical guardian from the group.
"That's what we need to talk to you about. Usagi's been taken by the bad people who are after you. We need your help." Makoto stated, her curt, soft yet stern in a motherly fashion. Her friend, the first one to not look at her and think trouble maker or fighter, and fellow comrade was missing, somewhere in the future…she wanted answers. Chibi Usa looked shocked and scared, "What, who took her?" she asked, looking like she was genuinely interested in helping.
"Does a man name Prince Diamond. Ring a bell?" Minako asked, her leadership coming out more so. Arms crossed, leaning against the rice divider she as guarding.
Chibi Usa though, didn't know the name. She shook her head, "No mama never told me their names, only that they were part of some Dark Moon. A bad place, full of bad people." She was beginning to get scared. If Usagi was gone where would she go? She had to stay in the house where she had a chance for survival, maybe she could stay with Rei now.
"Chibi Usa, we know he's from the future, where you're from and frankly I'm tired of pleasantries, we need to know everything you do." Rei told her, wanting to find their princess and fast. Leaning down and confronting the little girl eye to eye. Dressed in her red and white flowing Shrine Robes, fully prepared to invade the little girls mind with a Fire Reading if absolutely necessary.
"I don't remember, there was a big blast and….I don't remember! I swear!" she took off running for the door when Makoto grabbed her by the back of her white bunny backpack and pulled her down gently into her lap, preventing her escape, "That big blast, whatever it was, took your mother and hurt her, am I right?" Rei demanded. Chibi Usa nodded, "Mama shoved me away to protect me. Then she disappeared. Everything got loud for second then…I don't know it got blurry after that." she began tearing up.
"The next thing I know 'they'…" her eyes became blurry before nearly bellowing into Rei's face, "They – you should see what they did to her!" the young girl was obviously distraught and in fear of her own memories.
"They who?" Makoto questioned, looking to Rei for answers as well. Chibi Usa, not knowing whom they really were just yet blurted, "The sailor senshi of the future!" the girls either were stunned or gasped in shock by the revelation.
"They said it was to protect her from what the blast brought, but my mama won't wake up!" she obviously felt the sailor senshi, them in the future, were responsible for her mother's current position. Regaining herself Rei cleared her throat, wondering how things went down for such drastic measures to be taken from them in the future. "We can see and help you out with what that blur is. If you let me I can use the Sacred fire to see what you're obviously blocking." She tried sweet talking the girl, giving her an encouraging smile.
Chibi Usa looked to scared to try. "How do we know she even saw anything? She could have hid from everything." Minako suddenly clarified.
Rei considered it, "No, if that were the case she wouldn't be this scared for a fire reading." The pink haired girl gulped a little at Rei seeing right through her. She felt the child was hiding something, something she was afraid of seeing once more, so she tried to reason yet again, "Sometimes kids block out memories when their too painful to look at. It's a coping mechanism." she explained with a shrug.
But Chibi Usa looked even more frightened, "No. I can't." she thought by disagreeing they would let up like they always did and leave her be. She could pretend just a little longer that her memories weren't completely real. That she didn't feel responsible in some way. Every day that she put even one thought into it she felt that overpowering guilt, till she managed to once again lock it away in a safe place. After all guilt wouldn't save her mother, no that overwhelming weight was on her shoulders alone.
Something her father felt she was capable of handling. As much as she loved her papa she thought he put too much on her shoulders for this task. But of course he didn't know her little scared secret. The one where he would be upset with her if he found out. She knew if he knew, he never would have entrusted her with her mission and she wanted to help out her mother. It didn't mean she wasn't terrified to get in trouble if he found out, terrified of the disappointed look on her father's face.
She was a 'daddy's girl' after all. He very rarely punished her for her offences, no that duty was mostly her mother, whom knew how devious and a kind of 'manipulating' the child could be when she wanted to avoid punishment for her little troubles. Her father, due to his own childhood growing up usually let a lot of things go. But her mother knew her mind better, 'like mother like daughter' she would say, so she kept her secret and buried it so deep even she herself felt it was nothing more than a bad, terrifying little dream.
But she was wrong, "Chibi Usa, we love you, we do, but right now you're our only link to finding out where Usagi - chan is and what happened to your home in the future. Don't you want us to help you?" Ami tried. The pink haired child, looked down. This wasn't how she wanted the girls to help out. She needed the senshi's help. They were only Usagi's friends to her. Besides if they found out the truth, if she couldn't hold herself up to Rei's fire readings they would want to punish her to.
"NO!" she screamed, nearly fighting Makoto off, as futile as it was. Ami hung her head low, feeling for the scare child. "Gomen a sai, demo, how are you ever going to help your mother if you won't give the people you need the answers, they need?" Chibi Usa looked up to the bluenette, "Only the senshi can truly help me!" She blurted. Feeling she just let a vital piece of information out she let her head drop, "Chibi Usa…" Ami said, "We are the sailor senshi." She shot her head up as all the girls nodded their heads.
"Demo…demo…" no more excuses to fall behind she dropped her head again. If they found out what she caused they would punish her to, perhaps even hate her, it wasn't something she could fathom, so she hid from it all in her mind…again. Attempting to bury herself further in there, to shove the memories away, to hide herself from them and their torturous truth. She covered her eyes up not wanting the others to see her childish weakness.
It was all the signaling Ami and the others needed, "We have no choice then." Minako told the pink haired little girl. They all hated to force her to do anything but sometimes desperate times call for desperate measures. Their world as they knew it along with their princesses life was being threatened so yeah…the senshi were desperate. "Demo – demo – I don't wanna!" she tried cried in fear and slight anger, looking to Ami for help. The bluenette looked saddened by their choice, but determined.
With a resolute sigh, Makoto wrapped her arms around the child's chest in a locking grip. Standing up with her held tight, Chibi Usa wailed and twisted in the brunette's strong grasp. As the girls left the tea room, headed down the hall towards the Prayer Room. Mamoru sat stoically out on the veranda, listening to cries of fear. The little girls frantic pleading falling away, as the Senshi made their way deeper into the Temple's inner rooms.
Makoto held Chibi Usa still, but made sure to keep her grip light to avoid actually hurting the girl while Rei prepared the fire for a reading. Tossing various herbs into the flames. The flames sparked and flared, sending forth a cloud of musky air to fill the room.
With Chibi Usa and Makoto in the middle, the girls surrounded them, sitting near the back divider. As Rei humbling knelt upon the bamboo rug before the roaring fire. Remaining silent as to help for Rei as she chanted. The priestess's hands and fingers flew through various gestures, as her voice muttered reverently through her series of mental exercises in invoke the fire. It took several minutes, with a heavy sweat beading upon Rei's forehead.
The fire began to surge with new life, flaring with an unearthly energy as sit roared toward the ceiling. The tips of the flames glowing blue as Rei made the spiritual connection, images forming deep within the heart of the flames. Chibi Usa whimpered at seeing her painful memories, but it was in bits and pieces, nothing to clear.
Mamoru had followed the girls a few minutes later wanting to stay out of way. He was now kneeling on the veranda, the outer divider pulled aside just enough to provide him a good view of the side of the Fire. He watched the tragic images, gritting his teeth as his stomach roiled with anxiousness. The horrible images moving through the fire, felt as if he was nearly seeing his visions all over again.
"Chibi Usa is from where I saw Usagi getting repeatedly killed in my visions." He muttered to himself, his eyes misting with emotion. The fire reading showed Mamoru more of where Chibi Usa was from. It looked like the grand insides of a palace it was so large. Clearly they were seeing it from a child's eyes. He saw a flash of a lavender like cape and a cane before Chibi Usa spoke breaking his focus on the details.
"Rei – chan please…the memories, they hurt." She tried to stop them, but it seemed the further Rei looked, the further Chibi Usa became engulfed in what they were seeing to, "…they hurt mama…" Chibi Usa whimpered, struggling to not see any more destruction of her home.
"Hang on a minute." Rei snapped, seeing more. She saw some buildings falling but more importantly she saw the blinding white light of an obvious explosion engulfing the entire sky, right before a beautiful golden haired woman dressed in white shoved the viewer out of the way.
The figures face was the only thing clear as day once Rei opened her eyes. She shot them to Chibi Usa's and made the connection clearly. "Kami!" she whispered, shock in her voice. The girls saw it to, as did Mamoru from his hiding place.
"Is Chibi Usa's Usagi's daughter?" He asked himself stunned. Then felt angered at a sudden dose of betrayal. Feelings that ANY child Usagi had should be his as well came roaring to life within him.
It was a fierce need he had always had that he stowed away till it would be a proper time to have kids with her. His need to make a family with her was deep, and considering he'd never had a family growing up it made his need and want for one even greater. Brief glittering memories of thoughts many months back. Of actually day dreaming of the future with her, of impregnating her, of seeing her grow big with his child.
Just the image of her pregnant alone made him nearly give in at one point or another. But his iron clad will prevented the images from doing more harm than good at her early age. His testosterone seemingly to be more harmful to his mind's eye at the time. It was one of the reasons why he kept himself far from her at times as well. To fear full of giving in and NOT using protection when he knew he should.
But now it seemed the future was changing, and NOT to his benefit. He nearly growled in anger at his betraying thoughts that seemed to nearly over power his previous more memorable thoughts of her. The memories of the twisted delusion Rebeus provided him with resurfacing. With her and Diamond making love many times over crashing in again and somehow with his anger proving even more detail than before. It sickened him, as much as it enraged him how easily Rubeus had played him that night.
Then his envisioned nightmares of losing her made him ask himself not only, "Was I listening to the dreams the wrong way? I know I practically sent her his way but for this result?!" but, "Whose Chibi Usa's father then?! Diamond?!" he had after all broken up with her. It made his chest feel an unknown pressure of a greater loss. Just thinking that she had had a child with Diamond instead, not just another Prince but an evil Prince at that.
Then the beach memory started to bring him to clarity when he told himself, "If Chibi Usa's from the future she could be mine or his." The thought that Chibi Usa, that any child Usagi had could be fathered by anyone that WASN'T him hurt as much as it infuriated him. "I never thought I'd say this at this time in our lives but please kami let her be pregnant with mine." Mamoru's distressed and panicky thoughts of Usagi and whom might have fathered Chibi Usa were confusing him.
He heard Ami speak up. "Oh my…" She was thoroughly shocked. Feeling Chibi Usa's distress and hearing her whimpers of mental pain, Luna P rolled into the room. Her antenna blinking, as she buzzed and beeped in agitation. Mamoru walked out from behind the fire, revealing himself to the now startled little girl. Mako held her still, as Chibi Usa attempted to wiggle out of her grasp once again. Not allowing her to distract them from task by attempting to seek Mamoru's comfort right away.
He needed to get answers and not more confusion from his own mind frame. He didn't want to jump to conclusions on what he HOPED with all of his heart, body and soul was just his own doubts about how his actions were false. "I think we might get more answers from this 'thing' than her." He supplied, staring intently down at Luna P. As Chibi Usa finally leaped from Makoto's hold and into his welcomed arms.
Rei went to talk when he spoke up again, "Her memories are buried because she wants them there. Only she can retrieve them if she wants to. Or if there was a powerful source to pull them from her. My guess is your power alone isn't enough through the great fire to pry them without excessive use of harmful force." Mamoru explained calmly.
Feeling snubbed that her power alone wasn't enough without using a harmful force that she knew she'd never truly use she said, "I got her last few moments before the battle happened, it was something. Better than nothing." She crossed her arms in stubborn frustration.
He nodded, holding Chibi Usa to the side with one arm while crouching low before the mechanical ball. "Luna P, I feel you can understand us so do us a favour and put us in contact with someone who can help us get Usako back from Prince Diamond. NOW!" he bellowed, making Chibi Usa jump. He was already tired and angry that his beloved was being held captive and in pain. He could feel so much from her, but a part of her was blocked off. He had a bad feeling about it. It made his already doubtful mind become more confused and frantic.
The ball glowed, becoming transparent as a tall woman with long black hair with tints of hunter like green came into view within, wearing a darker toned senshi uniform. Holding a long silvery grey like staff that looked like a giant key. With a red strobe shinning in the middle of it, she looked up to face the stunned group. At this point Luna and Artemis showed up, keeping aloof on the fringe of the room, out on the veranda. Having found no readings of evil energy from the house Diamond had been in.
"Could it be…" Luna asked astonished, "Another senshi?" Artemis finished off. She opened her eyes, "Small Lady, I sensed your distress and…"She looked to Mamoru, "I heard your words my Prince. Gomen a sai for your pain, all of you." He looked shocked as well. To the rest of the girls, and the two cats she remarked, "My name is Sailor Pluto, I am the senshi and guardian of time and space. While I cannot do much here in your world I can help you if you come to mine." The girls all looked over to Luna and Artemis for guidance.
"Sailor Pluto, where can we get to you if you're in the fabrics of time and space?" Luna questioned, having not seen this woman in a very long time. Her memories coming back little by little of her. Remembering seeing her as a young twelve to thirteen something year old senshi as Queen Serenity gave her the keys of time to protect. She had grown up and looked only a few years older than the senshi in the room.
Pluto looked over and as if remembering the feline, regarding her with that of a cooler warning filled air. For Luna it reminded her of how Mamoru used to speak to the girls when they first met, only Usagi saw past that and saw who he really was. Luna was starting to realize how little credit she had given the blonde girl over time. Placing so much of her duties as royal advisor over everything else and ignoring what the blonde really wanted to do, placing what she considered should be Usagi's only focuses in front of her.
So many times she pulled Usagi away from the beginning of a date or the prospect of one to make her train to be more ready to become a Queen. Though now she was asking herself, 'What type of Queen would Usagi make if she was alone without her King. Without Endymion in her life.' She even got to the point of telling him that Usagi's grades were falling so he would break off the dates and tell her to study more.
Now she was seeing how foolish her little white lies were. Usagi had been improving but not fast enough for Luna's expectations. Then Diamond slipped providing her with the attention, understanding and unconditional affection she wished for. Pulling her away from all of them, literally. The cat felt bad now for unknowingly aiding in helping Diamond. It also made her want to claw his eyes out for making her feel bad. She only wanted what was best for her charge, she just didn't have the best methods was all.
After all, all Usagi wanted was to have a few dates with the man she loved, and instead whether it be for amusement or what they felt was right, she and the girls ended up helping in the break up process. Pluto's words caught her attention, "If Prince Diamond has truly captured her then you must get to the future soon so I can properly take you to the place where everything will be explained. I can meet you at the water front tomorrow at noon."
She then turned to Chibi Usa, "Small Lady use your key then, it will work for you this time. I will make sure to keep a small area open enough to form a portal." The senshi disappeared leaving the girls and Mamoru a bit confused but feeling better that they had a plan of action to go with. Luna P reverted to her old self, beeping and twittering away into a corner.
"Another sailor senshi?" Ami asked. Luna bit her tongue on her bitter thoughts knowing she'd have to come clean to Mamoru about her subtle date sabotage.
She had yet to be told about the real reason why he broke things off and assumed it was due to her end of things. "I remember there being a senshi of time from the silver millennium days. Queen Serenity kept her at the time gates, for all eternity. Its taboo to break a time seal and open the portals for anyone, but I guess these are dire circumstances." Luna laughed bitterly.
"So we prepare for tomorrow. Mamoru – san…" Minako stated standing up.
He looked over to her with a cool eye, wondering mildly what she had to say.
"Keep up your meditation exercises as Rei taught you. Keep a link with Usagi – chan strong. We may need it sooner than we all think." She left the room, an air of authority still humming around her. As Mamoru nodded, those exercises were his only hope right now.
Chibi Usa had wanted to go home with him but knowing Ikuko would want to see her so called 'niece' home soon he couldn't. Besides…his place was still trashed and torn. "Keep Chibi Usa safe on her way home." He told Rei. The miko nodded her head and guided the now bitter pink haired child out of the temple.
Mamoru for his part was barely out of the temple's walkway when Luna nodded for him to follow her. He quirked his brow but followed. "What's up Luna?" he questioned. She looked guilty, "I must confess, I feel as though I should tell you before we go to the future to get Usagi, home safely." She told him.
He looked concerned, "Confess what?" he didn't want to be upset but it seemed the cat really looked guilty. Did she send the visions to him somehow? The thought was absurd but she did have that crescent beam that came from her forehead.
"I was trying to get Usagi to study harder, to become more of the princess she's meant to be. All the dates with you I felt were distracting her, and I figured she'd succeed in bringing her grades up faster if you two weren't seeing each other as much." The dark cat hung her head in remorse, not meeting his now bitter gaze.
His eyes narrowed, but her confession didn't make any sense to him…till now, "So I told you that she wasn't doing well in school when she really was starting to improve in her classes. Ami had been helping her to."
The cat began, head hung even lower, feeling horrible since her charge was somewhere in the future having kami knew what done to her mind and body. The feline cringed at what that dark prince was doing to her sweet charge right now. She could only hope that Usagi was holding herself together till they rescued her. "I followed you on your dates and came at the right moments or told the girls to come in that way there would be less of a distraction."
He was stunned, "You lied to me to get us to stop dating?" he was upset by her actions but it wasn't completely relevant to what was going on.
"I needed her to be more focused on her duties not on love matters with you. And then you broke up with her and for a short while I felt this was what she needed, to be away from you so she could throw herself into her studies. But then that Diamond came into the picture and…" Luna began to prattle on in an agitated state.
Mamoru waved his hands in front of the feline gaining her attention.
"Luna your ramblings aren't making any sense. Do you think I broke up with her due to actions on your part?" he asked.
She nodded dumbly, "Didn't you? I mean I know it was nearly two months ago now but…why?" now she was weary of what she just spilled.
"I broke up with her because I was having visions of her death every night. I feared it so much I broke up with her. It was the most agonizing decision I'd ever made." He confessed, casting the feline a tight smile of regret.
Shocked by the admission on both ends he finally got out, "Why Luna? Usako and I were fine, we were even studying together." He admonished. "I…oh dear…" She remembered Usagi telling her that to, "I foolishly didn't believe Usagi when she told me that. All I thought of was the two of you in your apartment alone. I didn't even know she was there till she got home at night." Now she really felt like a heel.
She didn't believe her own charge and started to bust in on her dates feeling she was drifting from what she deemed to be more important. However one look on his face read something else, "Or was I correct on part of that?" She demanded with a wiry grin.
He sighed, "Believe me, we both wanted to, I could read it in her face…her body language practically shouted 'what are you waiting for?!' and I ignored it." He admitted with a heavy sigh, brushing a hand through his hair.
The feline let out a mental breath of relief.
He looked ready to rip out his hair for a moment as if stuck in a memory, "I didn't believe she was ready to go past some basic kissing when in reality both of us were practically vibrating for more." he chuckled darkly, casting his face up to the heat of the sun. Needing to distract himself from more regret and self loathing.
Luna wasn't too thrilled with that part of his confession but sighed knowing nothing ever happened. "Well that is good, after all stu - " Luna's word fell suddenly silent.
Mamoru loomed over her, his shadow making her want to cower in fear. She RARELY got that feeling.
When she looked up she knew why. It wasn't just Mamoru looking at her it was Prince Endymion looking at her. Had it not been for her Lunarian Mau history and genetics she would have submitted to the dominating look of anger he presented her with. "While yes studies are HIGHLY important they don't dominate our very minds existence." He scolded the feline, still angered that she could interfere as she had.
It spoke to him of lack of trust in himself and in Usagi. For him he could ALMOST understand it, he was an older young man after all, but for her to not trust Usagi, his love, he knew would hurt and anger the young princess and therefore hurt and upset him. He'd never truly once their memories were regained gave Luna a reason to NOT trust him, and neither had Usagi, yet she still assumed.
"I LOVE Usako, more than anything. But how are you helping her along by tampering with her relationship with me when I was doing a stupidly great of it for us both?" He spat out bitterly, having made it to the bottom of the long flight of stairs, down from the Temple grounds. He tiredly slumped down upon the last step, leaning over his knees in defeat. Clasping his hands behind his head and holding tight, as he fought back a scream of extreme frustration.
Luna opened her mouth unsure of what to say. She wasn't sure if he was more angry at her or himself for their actions taken. She walked over towards his now bent over, head between his legs form, barely hearing his words, "I wish I had remembered taking her on the beach the next morning. I wish I had done SOMETHING more to make her NOT want to give up even a little and date him." he looked up spooking her a bit. His eyes moist, "You want to know how I found Usako so fast and easily last night?" he demanded.
She nodded, "I couldn't figure it out myself till Rei got my mind to open up to me. The memories of what happened on the beach the night before she was taken, clarified it for me." Luna's paw reached out as he smiled, "We made love - oh god it was so perfect!" A fond smile pulled upon his lips, as he relived the beautiful moment yet again.
The feline was about ready to scratch him for touching Usagi like that before they were married, but remembering some of the rumors that she choose NOT to believe from the Moon Kingdom resurfaced in her mind.
Apparently their physical love carried through into both lives. As her mother's advisor and her future advisor she firmly kept the rumors at bay. Talk of the Moon Princess carrying on a sexual relationship even with her soon to be husband was still a forbidden thing. Not to mention wishing she hadn't walked by the princesses chambers some nights. That was an earful she wished to NEVER have heard…ever, nor wanted to hear again! "It seems times do repeat themselves." She muttered with a sigh.
Queen Serenity had never known the depth of how close they became and Luna had feared the day she would have. After all what mother in ANY time frame wants her barely 16 year old daughter to have sexual relations BEFORE marriage? At least in her mind's eye she felt that way, she never went too inadvertently ask her herself. Seeing Mamoru's happiness she knew Usagi felt the same way.
"Does she know?" she asked him, "I don't know. I was planning to use our strengthened connection thanks to completing our bond, to find her and get her back." He admitted, rubbing his now sweating palms up and down his legs as he stretched his back.
Luna looked confused, "How was it strengthened…?"
He smiled knowingly, "Usako and I making love on the beach was our way of completing the bond. Our bond, even as undeveloped as it was in the past, I knew where she'd be to protect her from Beryl's minions."
She seemed to grasp that knowing and finding out later on that he seemed to have a weird 'bunny – radar' on her charge to find her when she was in trouble. But to know it was strengthened and completed through love making wasn't something she was fond of. "I mean the memories of our past lives together alone…they don't compare to how it really feels." He looked lost in his own memories of that night.
Thing is with Luna there as said girls mentor she felt angered that the young man took her charges virginity. One swipe with her paw and he had deep claw marks on his ankle, "OW! What the hell Luna?!" he snapped in anger. Covering his now bleeding wounded ankle.
Fur standing up in anger just as is had that night when Diamond was in Usagi's room she snapped back, "You sir took my charges virtue that night. You – you MAN!" Luna roared, her ears pressed back completing her rant with a finishing hiss.
Mamoru had the nerve to laugh at her anger. Which only infuriated her more.
"Luna you seem to have forgotten a bit about the past we used to live in. She and I were no different, well actually we were. Back then we were so in love but we just couldn't stop ourselves from - " seeing the venomous look the cat had he patted her on the head. He didn't need to give the poor cat a heart attack. Though she deserved the slight torturous thoughts he gave her for her interference.
"Never mind, point is if it weren't for our bonding I wouldn't be able to find her and keep in mental contact with her. As it is I can feel her pain and hear some of her thoughts. Their not exactly complete but I think that's due to her being filled with dark energy. She's mentally fighting it off. We may not see her for a few days." It hurt to say it but it was the truth. "I'm going to get her back." He promised, his eyes shining with a fire of conviction and hope.
Her own words to follow were, "When you do…just one favor…" he looked back seeing her paw in the air as if to halt him. His eyes quirked, "Please tell me you used protection? And that you will till your both are ready for children!" her first inquiry took him back to his tortured thoughts of her being pregnant with either his or Diamonds child. "I can assure you in the future we will, till were ready for kids."
He wasn't going to make any promises on NOT having a sexual relationship with her in the future. Now that he knew what she felt like and could remember everything, the thought of NOT making her his many times over in the near future was something he couldn't fathom. He would win her back, and yes they would use protection in the future, didn't mean they couldn't carry on a sexual relationship. He wasn't making the same mistakes twice.