Hello Dearies, I don't really have much to say today. I'm trying to get as much writing out there as possible. So please be patient. This chapter deal with suicide, it may be triggering. Anywho on with the story.
Naru pov.
Once I fell asleep the night before I was out cold until about 4 am. I woke up to sobbing coming from the bathroom. I shot up immediately and looked to my side to see that Mai wasn't there. I rush to the bathroom and open the door quietly.
"Mommy, daddy I love you guys so much. You guys taught me all you could before you left me. I jus-st need you guys right now so please come back. I only have Naru but I have to be strong for me but it hurts. I've lost so much in my life. I just want you guys back. I met my brother and then he tried to kill himself. Dad I didn't really get to know you but I love you just as much as mom. I'm so lost right now. I am so tired of life right now mommy. I just want the last hug from you both. Or a goodbye kiss. I just want to be selfish, I want my parents back. My mind is so dark I'm scared of what I could do. I haven't slept in three days now. I'm so tired mentally, emotionally, and physically. I just need you guys back. I want this thought to go away. I want it to stop. Please make these thoughts stop mommy." She sobs everything out and that's when I see the gleam from the light hitting the object in her hands.
A knife.
I fall to the floor behind her, ripping the knife out of her hands throwing it across the floor and bringing her into my lap. She starts to sob into my shirt and I let silent tears fall down my face. She was thinking about leaving me, forever.
"I' sorry. I'm so sorry Naru but it won't go away. my mind is telling me I'm useless and I'm just a waste of space on this earth." She rambles out and I hold her closer to me. But then I suddenly pull away. I rip the long sleeves of her shirt up her arm. I almost start to sob at the sight of her arms. They are both so bloody. She carved words into her arms.
'Fuck up', 'wasted space', useless', 'hated', etc..
.They were deep. T oo deep. These cuts could kill her. I can see her eyes are starting to droop. That's when I hear Akemi scream from right behind me. I whip around to see her staring at my hands full of blood and Mai's arms.
"Baby girl I need you to go into my room and get my phone. I need you to call 119 baby. I need you to tell them ambulance and that mommy is bleeding a lot." I say and she runs into my room and grabs the phone.
"Mai stay awake. Stay with me please, please stay with me." I keep telling her. I hear the ambulance coming. I can hear Akemi opening the door and leading them to us. I can feel them taking her lifeless body from me. I can hear Akemi screaming at me for us to go get mommy. That mommy is being taken. But all I can do is sit on the bathroom floor crying, with her blood on my hands.
"Daddy. Did you hurt mommy! Are you going to hurt me now to daddy? My last daddy wasn't nice to me or mommy. He made mommy hurt and bleed. Daddy, we need to go save mommy. Daddy. Daddy comes on we need to go save mommy." She keeps saying these things and she's crying and pulling on my shirt begging me to go get mommy back. I wipe the blood on a towel next to me. I bring Akemi into my lap and start rocking us back and forth. I'm crying and she screaming and crying trying to get out of my grip. Trying to go get mommy. I run my hand over her hair and I just keep doing that until she cries herself to sleep.
I move and stand up. I bring her to my bed and lay her down on Mai's side. I grab my phone from the bathroom floor and call Lin.
"Naru I'm at the hospital why are you calling me and this early too!" He reprimands over the phone but I cant hold it in anymore. I start to sob through the phone. I just can't seem to stop. I go out onto the balcony and sit out there crying on the phone.
"Naru what's going on?" Lin sounds panicked.
"Mai she's in the hospital. Her heart stopped she cut herself, Lin! I need Mai I need her Lin. She is my world." I sob into the phone and I can hear him texting someone.
"Naru listen to me. Gene will be there soon okay?" He asks.
"Okay," I sob into the phone.
"He going to go there and he will help you okay."
"Okay," I whisper weakly.
"Goodbye, Oliver."
"Bye Lin." with that I shut my phone. I start to cry more and more. I see Gene rushing out of his car and into my apartment. He comes out onto the balcony and he see's me once and pulls me into his arms.
"Gene she's gone!" I sob out and he just holds me, reassuring me that everything will be okay, even though we both know it won't be.
"Where is Akemi Naru?" Gene asks me after I calm down a little bit.
"She asleep in my bed on her side," I whisper.
"Okay, I will go call the hospital. We don't know anything yet don't jump to conclusions okay? Go lay down and go to sleep for a few hours I]ll wake you up if I get any information okay?" He says and I nod my head saying a silent okay. I walk into my room and lay down on my side of the bed. I bring Akemi onto my chest and lay with her on top of me, I silently cry myself to sleep so I won't wake her up.
Okay, you may all hate me now. I promise you this is not how it ends. I also swear to you she is not dead. I know you all are probably bawling your eyes out right now. I must say I was even crying while writing this because it hits very close to home for me. Anywho bye bye. Good luck.