09.04 AM
I can bet this is the worst day ever: the tube is closed, I called a cab half an hour ago and I'm still on the front door waiting for it to come. I have a full time at Vogue and tonight there is a dinner with some NYADA friends.. I woke up two hours ago and I'm already tired. Your plans for the day? (You know? Writing down that was so familiar it actually scared me. Good morning, H.)
09.06 AM
Usually if you wink and shake your booty, someone stops and lets you get in. But it depends on your sex appeal.
09.10 AM
I live in the suburbs, here people who drive by are probably drug sellers.
09.12 AM
And you'd never get in a car driven by a drug seller, right?
09.15 AM
I'm worried they could put me on a corner to sell it. You know, big blue eyes and everything.. I feel like one of those grannies we read about on the news, apparently innocent and then selling cocaine in the backyard of churches.
09.16 AM
This last text could have been written by someone who's already high at 9 am. Are you sure you didn't buy anything from those drug dealers-drivers?
09.20 AM
Definitely sure. Or maybe I'm just confused cause I DIDN'T SLEEP AT ALL BECAUSE OF YOU. But this is just a theory.
09.23 AM
You can sleep once you reach Vogue. And don't try to tell me that you guys WORK when you're there.
09.25 AM
Oh, shut up. I've plenty of work to do today. What are you gonna do?
09.34 AM
Just finished my daily gym session. I'm attending a three-hour American history class - boring! - and then... Warblers practice until 5 PM.
10.03 AM
Pretty awful day for you, too. How is my friend Sebastian? Still an asshole as last time I checked?
10.54 AM
Unfortunately, he's an asshole but he's not stupid at all. In fact, he's way too witty. He's trying in every way possible to find out who I'm texting to everyday. He's pretty annoying.
11.04 AM
I understand why you're so afraid he could find out.. Still, try to relax. Don't undervaluate him but don't overrate him either.
11.32 AM
I won't.. Thanks babe..
11.40 AM
Kurt. I'm Kurt again, to you. Please.
11.43 AM
Why do you care so much about your name?
11.45 AM
It's something that helps me taking distance from people. Just a few people I trust can call me names.
11.51 AM
Woah. So, what I should get from your sentences is that you don't trust me. Fine.
11.55 AM
I don't know if I can trust you again. Last time I did it I got hurt.
11.56 AM
You're a no-second-chance guy, I should have known that.
11.58 AM
This isn't the second chance I give you, H. You have already treated me bad so many times.. I have to figure out what I want.
12.04 PM
Will you tell me then?
12.06 PM
I'll tell you, I promise.
xxxxx
05.21 PM
My co-worker is wearing tight pink pants with big roses print on them. My lips are screaming in pain but I cannot laugh in front of him. He's so proud of his outfit.
05.48 PM
Oh, someone's made a decision, I suppose. Otherwise, why would you send me random texts about things I really don't care of?
05.50 PM
Cause I miss you, and you used to care about things that happened to me. But I don't like your tone so I won't write any other random text.
05.53 PM
I asked for a second chance, but apparently you're not giving me one.
05.54 PM
Is this a gay thing? To be so frustrated and inflexible?
05.59 PM
I AM GIVING YOU ONE. If I wasn't, I would have stopped texting you. I just want to keep this slow.
06.02 PM
You want to state everything, don't you? Btw, okay.. I accept your conditions.
06.04 PM
Cool. Cause I can't imagine my life without your texts. They've become part of my day and I don't wanna quit them. Every time you disappear.. It's just a pain. Knowing you won't answer me, you'll just ignore me.. The first time you completely disappeared, was a shock to me.
06.08 PM
What about the "let's take it slow"?
06.10 PM
Taking it slow doesn't imply I can't tell you how bad you made me feel.
06.11 PM
As long as you're making me feel guilty it's okay, right?
06.14 PM
I don't think you'll ever feel guilty.
06.17 PM
That's true, but potentially I could. At least, that's your purpose.
06.19 PM
I'm not that mean. I just felt like saying that, and I did. You are not making things simple. You are exactly like Blaine right now.
06.22 PM
Then leave me alone. This is how it works, right?
06.25 PM
What should this mean?
06.28 PM
If Blaine's so annoying, and I'm behaving exactly like he did - does? - maybe you should cut it out, just as you did with him.
06.31 PM
Don't try to judge me about Blaine. You don't know anything. And I didn't say you are annoying, I said you are just like Blaine cause you are again, acting like it's all my fault, and you are being all sassy and rude.
06.34 PM
You should totally tell me what to do, then. That way you're gonna love me.
06.37 PM
Love you?
06.39 PM
Do you really think that'd be so hard for you? I know, I'm not that popular here at Dalton, but some of the Warblers love me, or at least I think they do..
06.41 PM
I already love you. You mean a lot to me.. That's why you hurt me so bad. Still, I can't tell you what to do. You are not me, I'm not in your mind..
06.43 PM
Well, technically you're ON my mind for the longest part of the day.
06.46 PM
But my silly texts annoy you.
06.59 PM
Well..
07.02 PM
Well?
07.04 PM
Okay. You're right. Sometimes you're really annoying. But that's because.. Well, you should trust me without asking me the reason why.
07.06 PM
I already trusted you about lots of things. Maybe you can explain this one to me.
07.09 PM
Gotta go now, I'll tell you later, okay?
07.11 PM
Okay. Bye, H.