Carlisle's POV

I sighed and looked at my wife. Esme. my beautiful wife. She was positively glowing. I had to tell her. She needed to know. I collected my thoughts and slowly began,

"Alright, I'll explain everything." I told her. She smiled a bit and sat back, relaxing. "It started in Italy, while I was staying with the Volturi. That's when I first gained knowledge of fertility vampires. One of the guards had seen a pregnant immortal, wandering the dark streets one night. He brought the woman to the Volturi. She explained hoe she met this vampire who promised her a child, bearing immortality as well. She was kept with us and I tended to her, having a medical background. None of us had any idea what to expect. When the child was born, we were not aware of the damage it had done. The mother was to badly destroyed to try and fix. Aro decided it would be of best interest to burn her. But we kept the child. Aro was the one who noticed the child had immortal capabilities. And before the child reached its 1st birthday, Aro destroyed it. It was considered an immortal child. And that was only shortly after the ban on Immortal Children was placed. The Volturi were forced to track down the last of the fertility vampires. This was only a year or so after I joined the Volturi. Eleazar had seen some before, but they were all hunted to extinction. So as of now, Nicole is the only known fertility vampire." I explained my story to Esme, as her eyes widened in horror. She stuttered,

"C-Carlisle? I understand why you would be afraid for me. But I want to know what I'm to expect" she pleaded. I took an unneeded breath.

"Ok. Fine. Here it goes. I talked to Eleazar, and it seems that when the fertility vampire grants an immortal a child, there's reasoning behind it," I said. Esme raised an eyebrow, clearly confused. Now this is where the hard and hurtful part comes into play, "The only reason Nicole was able to plant the child inside you was because you were pregnant before-" I explained but was cut off,

"Carlisle I already know this," Esme protested,

"Yes but its what and when it happened Esme." I said. Now she looked even more confused. I took a breath again, "Listen. When Nicole touched your hand that night... who was running through your mind?" I asked gently. Her confused look turned to a pained one.

"William.." She said quietly.

"Yes... and when Nicole touched you, all of the images and memories were placed into her mind. So when she granted the fertility, her power obligated her to think of him..." I said. I looked into Esme's eyes. She truly did look pained. But I continued on, "The images and memories were somehow transferred to the egg she placed-" I said, But Esme had become frustrated,

"Just get to the point Carlisle," she said, sounding irritated. I was too, with this. If she didn't want it sugar coated then she wouldn't get it. Time to rip the bandage off.

"Esme! The point is... because of this...When the baby comes. All your memories of the human baby will vanish. They'll be gone forever. And no thing or person can bring them back. They'll just be a black spot in your memories." I said, raising my voice slightly. She just stared at me. Pain etched into every crease on her face. I saw her lips quiver,

"What?..." she choked out. Utter disbelief cover her face. "Why?" she asked, sounding scared.

"Because... And even I can't make sense of this...When the images and memories were transferred from Nikki's mind to the egg... Her powers created an exact replica of William. That's what's in you right now.." I said, pointing to her stomach. She looked down and her face softened a little.

"The baby will be an exact copy. Personality and all," I added. She looked up.

"Then why do I loose all of my human memories of him?" She asked desperately. I sighed. All this explaining was hard,

"Because... Ok. Let me out it this way... The meaning behind a fertility vampire is to give back to an immortal what they had to loose or leave behind in their human life. This is the only reason you can have the baby, and not Rose, or even Alice. Or Bella. When you lost the baby you were traumatized. And now when you see this one, that is exactly the same, it will traumatize you. All memories of the human version will disappear." I explained. Esme looked as if she could cry right now. There was a moment of silence between the two of us. Her lips continued to quiver. I pulled her into my chest as she sobbed. I was unsure if they were tears of pain because she would loose the memories of her human baby, or tears of joy because she would, in a way, be getting him back. "See..." I said, "I knew I would upset you..". She looked up.

"Carlisle...Its ok...I'm ok...really...if that's the price I have to pay to see my baby again. I'll take it," she said, and smiled faintly. There was more silence. Until she looked up again. "Carlisle? You said the delivery wouldn't be like Bella's.." She said. I sighed again. I looked her in the eyes,

"No.. It won't.. It will be more like tearing the child from you,". The confused look returned to her face "I guess you need an explanation on that too?" I asked. She smiled a bit and shrugged

"I just want to know what I can. I wanna be prepared," she said. I smiled.

"Ok then... I'll you analogy's. During a human labour, you would normally dilate and the baby would crown. During this, it a thousand times more painful... Dilation for a vampire 'birth' Is the baby ripping its way through the several layers of crystal like womb 'material'. The child can only get so far. That's when another vampire has to help from the outside, tearing through the marble hard skin. Its then that the child is removed. But its the next part that scares me. Once the child is out, there's the healing processes for the mother. It could take anywhere from a few hours to a day or so... But being torn open, is what will knock you out. It's like a human being on anaesthetics during a C-section. They're asleep for several hours afterwards. Esme...I'm scared.. because I don't know if or when you'll wake up... and I don't want to loose you." I confessed. My wife looked at me passionately in the eyes,

"Carlisle. Your worrying to much. Everything will be fine." Esme tried to assure me, "I'm due any day now... so please...just try to relax." she begged. I had to give in,

"Ok. I'll relax. But I'm still worried," I agreed, and we headed back to the house.