Chapter 21 The end

It had been 5 days 14 hours 5 minutes and 26 seconds. That's how long it had been since Jill's death. Spencer knew from the moment.

He had stood there and watched as the doctor and nurses rolled her away. Stewie and Spencer had waited in silence.

When the doctor returned the profiler in Spencer knew what he was about to say.

"I'm sorry."

Neither Spencer nor Stewie was interested in the reasons my Jill was lost. She was gone.

Stewie immediately began work on her requests. He had seen the form the Army had made her fill out that described her final wishes. That was what he did. Stewie made the arrangements for her body to be cremated. He would then transport it back to Quantico.

Jill didn't really have any close family in Carolina. The ashes would be taken back for a memorial ceremony at her church. From there they would be deposited over the lake in Michigan where Chris' ashes had been spread by Annie and Steven.

Stewie had called Agent Myers and let him know had happened. He had walked down to the BAU and told Agent Hotchner what had happened to Jill.

When Reid had returned to Quantico, he immediately went to the BAU. The team was there waiting for him. He fell into J.J.'s arms and just cried. She just held him and let him cry.

Today though, it was the memorial service.

Spencer was sitting at his desk. He was holding the picture of Jill in the fishing boat.

"Hey, Kid." Morgan said. "We need to get going."

"I'm not going." Reid said still staring at the picture.

"You have to go. You need to express your grief." Morgan said. "It will eat you up if you don't."

The entire team was hanging back. They had all agreed to go and be there for Reid.

"You don't think I don't know she's dead." Reid said. "I was there."

Morgan took a seat next to Reid and looked him in the eyes. "You can't just not show up. You haven't spoken since you've been back what is going on with you?"

Reid leaned back in his chair. "It's what she said to me." He gave a very pensive expression.

"What you two didn't fight again?" Morgan asked seriously. That was the last time he had seen that look on Reid's face.

"No," Reid said. He told Morgan about how Jill was asleep when he got to the hospital. Reid talked the conversation that Stewie and him had while they waited for Jill to wake. "Stewie asked if Jill was right, if I was going to ask her to marry me." Reid said that he placed the ring on Jill's finger while she was still asleep.

Morgan didn't speak. He only let Reid talk. The team was still in earshot. But they likewise just let Reid talk.

"When she woke up she saw the ring and said she would marry me. Jill was awake for a while after that. She seemed fine, she was her usual self. Jill said she was tired and went back to sleep. When she woke up she said she felt strange."

This was when Reid broke. He started crying.

Garcia quickly stepped up and took his hand.

"I felt her forehead she was running a fever. I had Stewie get the doctor. She looked away for a moment. Jill knew she was going to die. She asked me to say goodbye to her. Jill told me that she heard angels and that she was going home. She said that she would watch over me and us from heaven."

"Jill went without pain and she wasn't scared." Morgan assured Reid.

Rossi went around so he could face Reid. "Jill was a faithful person. She believed in God. Jill gave her life to her job, no one can argue that she didn't believe in it. If she said that she heard angels then take comfort in that. Now I suppose we have our own. Reid we should honor her memory."

With that Reid decided to go.

They arrived at the chapel. It was full of FBI agents and members of the local police force. Reid sat in the front. Morgan sat next to him along with J.J.

Stewie had taken a seat next to J.J. Julie had shown up as well.

Pastor Phillips conducted the service. He told stories of Jill's life. Afterwards everyone stayed in the chapel and talked.

Reid made it through the memorial service without incident. It helped having Morgan and the rest of the team for support.

When everyone left, Stewie approached Spencer. "I never did understand her faith in God. I didn't know people could be like that until I met her." He reached into his pocket and pulled out Jill's cross. "I know this cross was very significant for her and I honestly believe she wanted you to have it."

He handed Spencer the necklace. He took it without a word.

During the next few days Spencer and Stewie went through Jill's apartment. Most of her stuff was donated to charity. Stewie took her computer, it had FBI information on it he needed to clear. Spencer took her collage.

The rest of her personnel items were boxed up to be given to Steven and Annie.

Spencer and Stewie had escorted the items together to Michigan. The ashes were then spread where Jill had wanted.

After about a week Reid felt himself start to feel better. He had determined that it was the fact that Jill had made sure he had said goodbye to her.

The feeling came at a very strange time. Reid was cooking dinner and was working on a dish he knew Jill had cooked for him. He didn't know the name of it. He was only copying what he had watched her do.

Reid realized that the dish didn't look right. He went back through his memory to see if Jill did anything else. That was when he heard a thud behind him. The basil had fallen off of the spice rack.

There was green in the dish, this was probably where it had come from.

It was at the time that Reid knew that Jill would always be with him.

The End.