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"Perhaps I should light a few of these lamps" Edward said. He struck a match carefully and lit each lamp one by one. He placed them around the bed so we'd have some light. He lit the last one and sat back on the bed next to me.
My heart started to pound in my chest. No longer was it just the light from the moon, but now the soft glow of the glass lamps. I couldn't hide behind my hair, or even the dark, I was there for him to see.
He touched my hair, ran his long fingers through it. He then placed it behind my shoulder and put his hand on the back of my neck. He bent his head down to meet mine and kissed me again on the lips.
"Mmmm" I moaned as his tongue moved into my mouth.
"Bella, you're my deepest desire." Edward said breathlessly as he continued to kiss me tenderly.
The attic was silent. The only sound came from our breathing or the slight squeak of the old bed. This was it. The two of us were alone. Alice hadn't returned from the hospital and the whole mansion was asleep. I knew we wouldn't have any interruptions or hesitations. Just the quiet urgency we both shared for each other.
Edward slipped his tuxedo jacket off of my shoulders and it glided slowly down. I felt like every inch of me was awake and ready. He looked at me quietly.
He had that look on his face that made my heart skip. The look; where his beautiful green eyes were low and concentrating. His hair that pomade couldn't hold for long had come free with large wavy curls. The bow tie was loosened around his neck, it hung down on both sides. He was so handsome...and he wanted me.
He touched my shoulders slowly with just his fingertips. I wanted him to touch me everywhere.
"May I undress you?" he asked. His eyes gazed deep in mine as he asked for permission.
"Yes," I said softly.
Carefully he pulled the sleeves down. The dress fell to my elbows and at first I wanted to hide, to cover my chest from him, but I didn't. I only pulled my arms from the lace and let the dress bunch around my waist. I sat straight up with my hair behind my shoulders.
I didn't wear a brassiere because the back was so low on the dress. I was bare breasted. Edward's mouth opened slightly. He mumbled something I couldn't understand and looked back up to my face.
He stared in my eyes to see if it were OK to go any further and I nodded. Nervously, I put my legs across his lap. He ran his hands gently up, pulled the dress down slowly. Instead of watching his hands, I watched his face. I wondered what he thought. He looked as if he thought about something serious.
After the dress was slipped from off my feet, he placed it neatly on the floor. He looked back at me, at my legs. I hoped he wouldn't notice the small run in my tights. But he did. Even in the dim light he noticed. He ran his finger over it. Then he bent his head down and kissed it.
He squeezed my thigh; brought it closer to his mouth and I felt his tongue through the ripped stocking. "I want to kiss you everywhere. Every single inch of your beautiful skin" his voice was even more raspy and lower. His fingers unhooked the snaps of my garters. He rolled the stockings down and I held my breath.
And just like he said, he kissed me everywhere. Kissed and licked my skin. On my ankles, all the way up to my knees. His tongue even licked inside my thighs and he stopped right between my legs. My panties were still on and they were stuck to my wet skin.
He looked up again at me and then back at my panties. He pulled them down along with the garter belt slowly. When he pulled them off, he placed them on top of my dress.
"Are you going to take your clothes off too?" I asked shyly with a nervous smile.
"I am...I just want to enjoy you first and keep myself calm so to speak. I have an extremely hard erection Bella...and I don't...I don't want to...w-w-want to." He started to stutter "Why you just look so gorgeous and, and…" His nerves had started to get the best of him. The Casanova had left, and in front of me was Edward. The nervous; extremely shy college man that I once knew.
He wasn't smooth like Jake or even a sleaze like Emmett. He was sensitive, and thought too much. He had doubts like I did, but he had no need to be. He was perfect to me. I got on my knees and kissed his lips.
"I want to say I know what I'm doing. I know the physics of it...the particulars. I could explain to you the biology of how our bodies act, how they work. But that means nothing. I don't want to hurt you, but I know I will...but I swear Bella. I swear to the gods that I will do my best to make you feel wonderful" he said.
"We're in this together Edward, you and me. I don't know what to do either, but we can figure it out. Everything else we do together feels so natural. It's so great, ain't it? Making love is just like dancin'. That's what I heard. Don't we dance so swell together?" I said softly as I touched his hair. He smiled at me slightly.
"May I have this dance?" he asked.
"Always" I smiled. Then I unbuttoned his shirt carefully. I could feel his heart beat fast in his chest. We did feel the same, but we would learn together. I knew if I sang it would relax me, it would relax him too. I took a deep breath and began."Someday he'll come along the man I love..." I sang. I smiled at him and he gave me his crooked smile. Then I helped him take his shirt off.
"And he'll be big and strong, the man I love." I ran my hands down his bare arms. "And when he comes my way, I'll do my best, to make him stay." Edward pulled off his undershirt over his head; it made his hair even messier.
"He'll look at me and smile. I'll understand. Then in a little while, he'll take my hand..." I went to take his pants off and he helped me. "And though it seems absurd...I know we both won't say a word."
Edward pulled his pants off and took off his socks and the garters that held them around his calves. He sat close to me in his underwear. I put my hand on the top of his bulge he was so nervous about. It did feel hard, but warm in underneath my hand. It moved a little...
"Maybe I shall meet him one day," I sang as I pulled his white underwear down. "Maybe Monday, maybe not. Still, I'm sure to meet him one day..."
It sprung out of his underwear and sort of bobbed straight in the air. It was long and blushed. My voice shook a little as I continued to sing. "Maybe Tuesday will be my good news day."
He grabbed me, held my face and kissed me passionately. His tongue filled my mouth. Then he kissed my neck and gently bit me over and over. I managed to finish the song.
"He'll build a little home, just meant for two," my voice started to squeak as I started to breathe harder. "From which I'll never roam. What...would... you? And so all else above..." He slipped the panties off of me quickly, his movements like the night before when he came into my room.
"I'm dreaming of... the... man... I... love" we kissed each other deeply. We touched each other. He pulled me closer to him. He laid me down gently; he knelt between my legs. I could feel his body heat. I could smell his cologne. I felt the hair on his legs tickle my legs. I could feel his manhood as it brushed against me.
He kissed between my breasts, all the way down my stomach. His green eyes looked up at me while he did it and watched me quietly. Each kiss made me move a little, I couldn't stay still. It felt so good.
When he passed my belly button he held my hips in his large hands. His fingers gripped my behind firmly and he kissed in between my legs. He opened my legs and touched me there softly. "So wet..." he growled. Yes, it sounded like a growl. And the shy man was gone; Casanova was gone too. On top of me, with desire in his eyes was someone I seen once before. He was that same passionate man that entered my room not so long ago…
He came up from my private area and started to kiss passionately against my breast. Suddenly I felt his longer finger ease inside of me. He moved it back and forth smoothly. I closed my eyes as he started to kiss me deeply. His tongue moved back and forth like his finger. I moved my legs a little more open as I felt him enter one more finger.
"Ooh" I sighed.
Back and forth he moved his fingers and his tongue. Then with another finger, he started to rub the point above my opening...I was overwhelmed by the feeling. I couldn't speak, only sigh and moan.
I opened my eyes to find him staring into my mine breathing heavily. He bent down and kissed me again as he rubbed me faster. Two fingers moved back and forth, the other moved in a circle. He applied more pressure and my hips started to move with his hand. I reached my hands up to pull him closer to me. So I could kiss him deeper. I touched his thick hair, my fingers getting lost in his messy waves.
He removed his fingers and I felt the tip of his manhood pressed against my opening. "Hold on to my shoulders. Just like when we dance'" he said, so I did.
He moved his hips forward slowly. I could feel it try to go in. I opened my legs a little wider and felt the pressure. Edward started to breathe heavier as he moved his hips back and forth. Inching inside of me...I breathed out my mouth. And then it went even further inside. He closed his eyes.
"Oh f-" Edward moaned as he went deeper in. I dug my nails into his shoulders as I felt the sharp sting of my skin stretch and rip. I bit my lip to hold my cry in. It stung. I knew it wasn't over yet. Edward was so long, so much of his manhood had to enter. He looked down into my eyes worried. His eyebrows furrowed. He kissed me passionately. He rubbed his nose against my face.
"It won't hurt for long I swear it." He said his husky voice caring in my ear. "I love you so much Isabella..."
Isabella...he hardly called me that. But I loved to hear him say it. I hugged my arms around him. Wrapping my legs closer to him, I closed my eyes to block out the sting.
"Just like dancin' Isabella. Dance with me my love."
So I danced with him. I moved my hips against his hips. We moved back and forth together. And the sting felt less. I felt only Edward's wonderful, sweaty body against me. I felt him myself get full from him moving back and forth. Each time deeper and deeper, more and more of his length. And it started to feel so good. I relaxed my muscles...I melted into him. His slow pace started to pick up.
I moaned out loud every time he moved forward into me. I couldn't speak...just moan and sigh.
"Does it feel good love?" He asked.
"Oh yes...yes" I sighed. It felt better than anything I ever felt before.
"Oh f-! Isabella..." he moaned. He moved one of my legs a little higher up so my foot was over his shoulder. My other leg, he bent my knee closer to my shoulder. One of his hands held my thigh in place; the other gripped the metal headboard behind my head. We kept that same rhythm as he looked down at me. The bed squeaked, as it kept beat with our bodies.
He slid back and forth. Forward he moved a little harder, I could hear where our bodies connected. I looked up at him as I moved against him. That familiar feeling rose inside of me like when I touched myself. Only it felt much larger. Oh I couldn't hold it in! It felt so good! I threw my head back and gripped his arms tightly. I surrendered my body to him... He swore over and over again. I closed my eyes...the feeling had taken over me...I felt myself shiver as the feeling spread everywhere. In my hands, my feet to the top of my head.
"Ah! Ooh!"" Edward!" I moaned loudly. He continued his pace deeper into me, against my body as it shook. Now, he kissed my mouth and my face. He scooped my body up. My legs no longer spread wide, but hugged his body close to me as he moved faster and faster. Oh he moved harder and our skin rubbed slippery and wet together.
"Isabella!" He groaned deeper, his rasp voice rough and wild. His body shook and he collapsed on top of me. Edward panted for air. We lay there like that for a moment...just to catch our breath. His sweat mixed with mine. His heart beat fast on my chest. Then carefully he eased out of me. He stroked my hair around my face lovingly and smiled shyly at me. His handsome face was flushed. Hair stuck to his forehead. His beautiful eyes looked deep into mine.
"My love" he whispered. "I love you with all my heart and soul. Everything part of me...is devoted to only you." He kissed me sweetly on my lips. My body shivered. I wanted to say the same thing, but I was too full; full of love and his happiness and my own happiness. My body felt different, but it felt the same. Tears glided softly down my cheeks as I smiled quietly at him.
"I love you..." was all I managed to say softly.
Even later that night, almost early morning, I was still with Edward. We were naked and lay very close together in the tiny old bed in the attic. Edward was almost too long to fit, but he bent in a way that he did.
The lamps on the floor still glowed in front of the bed. Our bodies made soft shadows on the ceiling. The shadow of metal frame from the bed looked like a large garden gate. I was caught in my own thoughts. Trying to remember every single moment of our night together...
"How do you feel? Are you very sore?" Edward asked me. His raspy voice was soft and concerned.
"A little sore...but I've felt worst." I said. His kissed the top of my head and rubbed his large hand against my shoulder slowly. My head was on his chest. I listened to his heartbeat as my fingers gently played with his chest hair. His pale skin still had a slight flush to it.
"I'd love to make love to you again" he said. His voice was still raspy and low. I bit my bottom lip; he wanted to do it again? It meant that he really loved it! I bent my head backwards so I could look up at him. My heart started to beat fast all over again.
"On the square?" I whispered. He nodded and kissed my nose.
He held me tight and rolled me over so I was on my side. My hair fell all on one side on the bed as I looked over my shoulder at him. Edward wrapped one hand tightly across my chest. His large hand squeezed my breast.
His other hand ran down my thigh and he moved my leg so it was bent. Then, he placed himself slowly inside of me. My skin was still tender, but it felt good with him back inside.
"Oh..." I moaned as he stretched me and started to fill me.
I closed my eyes and we danced again with each other. Slow and deep. He gripped my hip tight and brought me harder back into him. I heard him grunt and pant in my ear. I got wetter between my legs; the more it felt good. I moved my hips in a circle to feel even more of him.
"Yes. Keep moving like that..."he growled. So I did, until my body started to shake with that special feeling. Edward held my shaking body close as he started to pound his solid flesh into me. Then he stopped suddenly.
"Isabella!" he said as he shook slightly. His body rested on mine as he still held me close. Carefully he eased out of me. He kissed my shoulder and draped his arm and leg over me. I felt protected and safe in his arms.
"I wish we could stay just like this..."I whispered.
"We only have a few more hours before everyone wakes up. Before my fantasy is over...and my beautiful fairy flies away from me" he said sadly.
"I'd never fly away from you." I said. I yawned softly. "Never" I closed my eyes.
"I've prayed to every god that you won't... have wished upon every star to keep you in my arms...forever." He whispered.
So, Bella and Edward finally gave in to their feelings. Was it well worth the wait? Tell me what you think in a review or private message! Thanks everyone for the support and thank you for everyone who reads and reviews consistently. Thank you for everyone who has newly started reading, don't be afraid to review!
Special thanks for my great beta Mimigirl who helps make my story more readable lol. And thanks to ThouArtLove for promoting my story in the ff "I See You"!
And the song that Bella sang to Edward is called "The Man I Love" sang by Ella Fitzgerald, it's one of my favorites. Are any of you jazz lovers or enjoy any of the songs I've included? Let me know! Have a great weekend and upcoming week :D