ELLO! I know it's been a while, and I'm sure some of you are waiting for an update of I Shouldn't Love You, and that'll be here soon. But! I haven't gotten anything written lately because my computer froze on me and I had to get it fixed, and turns out I lost all my documents and AHHH! It was crazy the past week. But! Thankfully I knew what I wanted for this chapter (and for the next one of ISLY!) and I know it's short, but it's a James POV, and they always are and I wanted you guys to have something to read.

Alright, I shall stop ranting and let you read this. And Review?

James

She was pregnant. I still had trouble really perceiving it, but I wasn't angry or upset. I couldn't just blame it on her, because in reality, it was all my fault. I was the one who initiated everything, the one who took her to my house and got her into my bed.

But could I see myself with her, for the rest of my life? Could I see myself married to her, raising this child? Yes.

Some people might say it's too early for this. But Autumn was special, and I didn't have a doubt in my mind about her, about us. I knew since I met her that she was different, and she was. I wasn't worried about having any big problems with her that would lead to a huge argument and end our relationship. I knew her like the back of my hand now, and we didn't disagree on much. What I'd learned so far was that they were all little petty things that didn't really matter.

Right now, I was lying in her bed, which had that sweet floral scent that she always smelled like. She hadn't wanted me to leave, and I didn't have to be at the studio until eleven, so I gladly stayed.

I knew that Autumn was having trouble with this, still getting used to all the changes, and to be honest, I was too. I didn't really know if I was completely ready to be a father, but I had nine months to prepare myself, and it's not like I was doing this alone.

And I didn't have a doubt in my mind about Autumn. I knew she would make an amazing mother, seeing how caring she was toward me and her sister and everyone else.

I looked over at her in the dark, and smiled at how gorgeous she looked. She was lying on her side, her arms curled up under her face, her wavy hair falling all over the place. I could see the fading tan lines under her tank top, from the thin strapped bikini she wore at the beach a few days ago.

I took her to the beach the other day, to try and get her mind off of everything, and it worked. We spent the day there, laughing and smiling, and it was just perfect. Not that things now weren't perfect, because they were. They really were. We were thrown an obstacle, and we were going to get through it.

I woke up the next morning to dim sunlight and violent coughing. I sat up quickly, blinking a few times as I adjusted to the light. I rubbed my eyes as I looked over in the direction of the bathroom. The door was closed, but the light was on, and I heard water running. I got up and walked over to the door, then gently knocked on the door before opening it.

Autumn was there, wiping her hands on a towel. Her hair was a mess, and she ran her hands through it and pushed it out of her face.

"You okay, babe?" I asked her, stepping closer. She closed her eyes and nodded her head.

"Just morning sickness," she said. I nodded. "But I'm okay now. I just want to go back to bed."

I grinned, then swiftly picked her up, and she laughed a little, wrapping an arm around my neck. "I'll accompany you," I said. I laid her down on her bed, and she looked up at me.

"Sorry for waking you," she said. I smiled, then hovered over her for a moment, and kissed her softly.

"Don't be sorry," I said, then kissed her again, and I let her kiss me back before lying down next to her and pulling her toward me. She laid her head on my shoulder, and I could faintly smell her shampoo, and I wrapped an arm around her back. I stroked her hair, and she curled up next to me and closed her eyes.

"Are you worried?" Autumn asked softly. I looked down at her.

"Worried about what?"

"About everything. Our relationship, your job…our baby?"

To be honest, I hadn't really thought about how this was going to affect my job and her going to school. How could I be so damn stupid not to even see that? I'd have to take off of work, which probably wouldn't make the producers too happy, so I probably had to tell them about this soon. Would Autumn even be able to finish school at all? I mean, money wouldn't be too much of a problem, with me being on the show and concerts and events and things like that, but she was someone who always finished what she started. She took the bull by the horns, and succeeded at everything she did.

All I could hope was that it would be the same now.

"No," I told her, pulling her closer, and part of me knew that was true.