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Italics- Beast Boy's thoughts

Italics underlined- The Beast's thoughts

Beast Boy

Beast Boy ran towards Robin, his face a dark brown from the hot blush he felt. Raven was important to him before the accident, as far as he could tell, and now. When she was staring at him for some reason he saw something else. He saw flashes of her sad, speechless, and in fear for them her friends. He knew it was a flashback because she was covered in weird red markings that were no longer on her. Plus he didn't see the future. He just impulsively said something in hope to make her feel better. He really hoped that one day a genuine smile would be aimed at him.

"You alright BB?" Cyborg asked as Beast Boy ran past him.

"Y-y-yeah." Beast Boy's blush grew as he heard Cyborg and Robin chuckle. The knowing look in their eyes told him that they knew what, or more precisely who, was on his mind.

"Let's go then." Robin walked towards the course opening. It looked like a plain field but Beast Boy somehow knew that there was concealed danger lurking. "You can turn into anything to pass the course, just focus on that." Robin ordered. Beast Boy nodded and got into a starting position like Robin. "If anything happens I'll be right here."

"Got it. And there's nothing else I have to do?" Beast Boy asked seriously. He wanted to do this right. He remembered how Dr. Lucas would either punish him or take a test again because he did it wrong. And Beast Boy would have to be poked again and again. Or how Max would beat him for not changing. Beast Boy subconsciously rubbed his side, remembering the pain that was received. Sometimes by a knife, which had left a constant reminder. The worse punishments were the ones where they starved him. A whole night turned into a day, which turned into two which-

"Beast Boy!" Robin yelled jarring Beast Boy back to the present. Beast Boy blinked and the past became a lingering memory.

"Sorry Robin." Beast Boy said nervously, rubbing his neck. Robin's hard gaze softened.

"We don't have to do this." He said again. Beast Boy heard the concern in his voice. That pushed Beast Boy harder to accomplish the stupid course.

"No. I can do this." Beast Boy got into a starting sprint position. They need to see the recent Beast Boy. Not the one drowned with memories. Be careful. The Beast warned. If we remember, we might, I know. Beast Boy knew that there was something wrong with him before the whole current situation and now. Something was wrong with his instincts and his mind. His recent lack of memory didn't help any. But he felt more, primitive. Beast Boy didn't know if it had something to do with the Beast that was in his head or something, deeper inside of him.

Beast Boy heard a horn blowing and he ran off. Robin sprinted ahead of him. Beast Boy wanted to sprint ahead too, but he figured it would be good to see what was ahead. He heard something coming out of the ground. Then a laser came towards Robin but he back flipped over it. Which Beast Boy thought was totally unnecessary. Beast Boy felt one coming toward him and instinctively turned into a cheetah. Funny, it barely hurts to shift. Beast Boy dodged a couple more and even had one of the other guns hit the other. When could I do that? He thought as he looked back. After the laser field, as Beast Boy dubbed it, Robin and him ran around the corner. Robin began stepping in a weird pattern, but while he was walking a net shot out at him. Robin dodge the net but when he stepped back he was electrocuted. It wasn't as paralyzing as what Dr. Lucas did to Beast Boy but he could see that it still hurt. Robin continued on and Beast Boy followed as a spider monkey. While he was going through the course a net came at him. Beast Boy couldn't help but remember how Carl and Max captured him. He turned into a green human and froze in fear.

Garfield ran through the trees his breath heavy and heart pounding. He willed his body to turn into a lion or some other predator, but he was too exhausted. The smoke of the fire that burned the village behind him filled his lungs.

"Come here you little freak!" One of the men taunted. Garfield dodged a bullet aimed for his shoulder. He looked back to see that the bigger man had the gun and they were only a few feet away. Garfield ran harder and faster but he didn't see the root that stuck out of the ground. He tumbled to the ground and hit his head on a rock. Garfield groaned in pain. He knew that if he didn't get up now the bad men would get him. But his body didn't want to move. Or maybe it was the moving trees that were causing him problems. Garfield willed himself up but all of the sudden a net came at him and-

"Ow!" Beast Boy had stepped back in order to avoid the net in his memory. He stepped on an electronic step and the minor shock brought him to reality. He realized the net missed him by an inch and Robin was at the end of the field looking at Beast Boy with a mix of concern and shock. I'm kind of getting tired of that look. He jumped up and turned into a spider monkey in mid-air. Wow! I've gotten a lot better at this changing thing. Beast Boy speeded through the rest of the obstacle.

"Nice job. Do you-" Beast Boy ran past Robin. Beast Boy knew that Robin would probably be annoyed with him but Beast Boy had to finish this. In the corner of his eye he saw Robin catch up with him. They came to a canyon with towers in it to jump across to the other side. Robin jumped on one but as soon as he did the tower started shaking and it descend downwards. Robin jumped on to another tower and it did the same thing. Beast Boy's first instinct was to fly but he had a feeling he would fail the test if he did that. So he changed into a wolf. It wasn't the most logical choice but it felt normal for Beast Boy. He went across the tavern jumping onto the towers. But as he was getting close to the end with only three towers to go he saw a blonde hair girl there. She was in a long sleeved mid-riff t-shirt and khaki shorts. At first her face held a wide smile but then her face began to lose its happiness. Beast Boy shifted to his usual form, curiosity making him forget reality. Her blue eyes showed a deep sadness and regret at first but then it was quickly turned to malice as her eyes shined yellow.

"Terra?" Beast Boy didn't know how but he knew her. He knew that she was mad at him and didn't want to do anything with him or the Titans. Something told him that it was his fault.

"You never understood!" Terra yelled as she lifted her hands and closed her fists. The tower Beast Boy stood on shook violently and began to descend downwards. Beast Boy quickly realized his predicament and shifted back to his wolf form and jumped to safety. He was glad he chose a wolf because he barely made it to the other tower and had to climb it as it began to descend. The wolf's claws had become sharper and gave him friction. Something's wrong. Change into me. No. I can do this. Why did everyone assume I can't do this stupid obstacle course? Beast Boy made it to the other side but he was frustrated and angry. He began panting and he felt out of it. He felt wild. He saw something comes toward him and growled. When he looked up, he realized it was Robin and cowered in submission. Robin however wasn't angry but he seemed to be overly cautious. Beast Boy heard weird noises and shook his head. The noises became clearer as he recognized it as Robin's voice.

"What's wrong?" Robin's voice was authoritative and it rubbed Beast Boy the wrong way for some reason. He opened his mouth but Robin held up a hand to stop him. Beast Boy huffed in frustration. "And don't say nothing's wrong or ignore me." He commanded. Beast Boy glared at Robin and barked at him. BEAST BOY! Beast Boy shifted to his usual form and grabbed his head. What's wrong with me? I never got this sucked into an animal's behavior. Beast Boy breathed heavily trying to reign his instincts in. "Beast Boy?" Now Robin stared at Beast Boy in concern and caution.

"I'm ok. Just going a little wild." Beast Boy chuckled nervously. Robin didn't look convinced. "Let's finish this." Beast Boy walked past Robin hoping to leave whatever was going on with him behind. Robin stopped him with a gentle but firm hand on his shoulder.

"You know, you don't have to do this. This isn't a test and if it's about remembering, I rather that come with time." Robin's eyes were full of sincerity and concern. The anxiety from before came back to him.

"Something tells me we might not have time to wait." Beast Boy said ominously but he shook Robin's hand off ending the conversation. They walked in tense silence to the last obstacle, a cave.

"This is a bit different. It's pitch black but random stones will be thrown at you. The cave is only half a mile. Good luck." Robin ended tersely. He ran into the dark cave and easily disappeared from view. Beast Boy took a deep breath and ran in. Robin was right to say the cave was pitch black. Beast Boy couldn't even see his hand in front of his face. Beast Boy turned into a snake. Since they couldn't see anyway it would be easier to zoom through the obstacle. And it was at first. Beast Boy would be able to see the heat that the shooters produce when they shot the rocks and he was able to dodge them quickly. Yet, three quarters into the obstacle Beast Boy saw a different heat signature. This one was tall muscular and a bit warm but mostly cool. It was some type of robot. At first Beast Boy thought it was a part of the obstacle course and dodged the robot. Threat. The Beast snarled in warning but that wasn't what stopped Beast Boy. The robot began say something in a deep smooth voice.

"You're just going to ignore me dear boy. After what happened with Robin." Beast Boy saw a flash of Robin in a weird black and red suit with a silver neck piece and belt with a S buckle. "Terra." This time Beast Boy saw the blond girl again but with a hard look in her eyes and dressed in a metallic suit similar to her regular clothes but with a S button on the chest. "And especially Raven." Raven with a defeated look on her face with all the markings came to mind again. "Perhaps you truly have-"

"Shut up Slade." Beast Boy said coldly as he shifted to himself. He didn't remember everything about the man named Slade but he knew that this man ruined the Titans lives enough. He hurt them, broke them, and played them. Beast Boy didn't hate much but he hated Slade with a burning passion. He even strongly disliked anything that resembled the man named Slade.

"Ah, so you do remember." Beast Boy could sense the robot circling him.

"I remember enough to know that you shouldn't be here. Well at least your stupid robot look-a-like, coward." Beast Boy growled.

"Smarter than you look and act. Who knew?" Beast Boy shivered at Slade's calculating voice. But it wasn't in fear, it was pure rage. "You really are a mystery aren't you?" The robot leaned in close to Beast Boy whispering in his ear. Beast Boy whipped around and scratched at the robot's chest. The robot just backed up but the voice laughed. "Four-inches deep and I was at least two feet away. Impressive."

"What do you want Slade?" Beast Boy yelled. The robot chuckled again, grating Beast Boy's nerves even more. He was beginning to see red and every instinct in him growled and begged to fight the threat he faced.

"I want you. Specifically, I want you to kill your friends and join me." Beast Boy was stunned. Him? Slade wanted him? Slade was going to use him to hurt the Titans, his friends. To hurt Raven!

"NO!" Beast Boy roared and lunged at the robot. The robot dodged by jumping in the air. For a few apprehensive seconds the robot wasn't in Beast Boy's range of senses. Then he heard the robot come down right above him. Beast Boy rolled out of the way, landing in a crouch ready to strike. "Leave! You don't belong here!"

"Do you dear boy? You who has so much potential and power to hunt and kill, yet you confine yourself to nothing more than a green clown." Slade drawled out.

"YOU DON'T KNOW ME!" Beast Boy cried out, rage consuming him. He launched forward as a gorilla and smashed the ground where the robot stood. A sense of deja vu hit Beast Boy when the robot punched him in the face.

"Relying on old tactics will get you nowhere." Beast Boy growled and shifted into a puma and pounced on the robot. He landed on the robot his vision turning red. Beast Boy's chest rumbled with a low threatening growl at the robot. The robot head butted Beast Boy away before he could crush the robot's throat with his teeth. BEAST BOY! Calm down. Something's wrong with us. NO! He's going to hurt them. I'm going to end him. Beast Boy shook off the effects of the head-butt and the conversation but the robot took advantage of Beast Boy's vulnerability and attacked. Beast Boy received a few jabs to the face, turning him into his usual self, before the robot really tired to take him out by punching his stomach. Beast Boy grunted and moaned in pain as he lay on the floor. "Is that all you got boy? No wonder why you lose the people you love. You're too pathetic to even-" The robot didn't get to finish for Beast Boy grabbed and crushed its throat. Except this Beast Boy's eyes and parts of his skin were red. He threw the robot across the cave and then he attacked the robot ripping it to shreds. Metal threat dead. Food? The Beast Boy that was slowly turning red began to rip the robot apart looking for food when a rock was shoot at it. More threats. Beast Boy growled and began attacking the rock shooters. He barely noticed his more animalistic hair and looks. He was too busy using his dagger teeth and claws to destroy the shooters. When he got to the exit of the cave the nearly red Beast Boy paused. Mate, Pack, Food. Attack. NO! I will not let you hurt anyone! Must attack. Don't want to be hurt. Don't want to be caged. Then let me go. I will not- NO! You are the protector. You let me get hurt. Because that's better than others getting hurt! Let me OUT! NO! I MUST ATTACK! Beast Boy stumbled out of the cave his body convulsing between the red Beast Boy and the Beast. The growls and snarls between the two emanating from his mouth. Beast Boy's senses were on overdrive and fighting each other. This made the world a swirl of colors and sounds, which also made him volatile. So when he felt something close to him the Beast swung at it trying to keep it away from him. Something else came near him and the red nature of Beast Boy tried to throw something at it but the Beast made him miss. The growls between the two continued to grow as he felt more things coming near him. He either swung at them or tried to throw things at them. They came at him and hit him with things Beast Boy registered as stunners or physical hits. This only agitated his red nature more. He felt something trying to enter his mind. The Beast pushed it out and the red nature used this and took over. He tried to claw at the mind intruder. The Beast held the red nature back just enough so that whatever he attacked wouldn't die. But that didn't stop the cry of pain.

"AH!" Raven cried out in pain. MATE! RAVEN! NO! In a flash the red in Beast Boy's vision disappeared. He shifted to his normal self, except most of him was still red. He realized that everyone was staring at him in either caution, fear, or shock. Robin, Jinx, Starfire, and Cyborg had their defenses up, against him. Beast Boy cowered and began to whimper. But the scent of fresh blood with a hint of old parchment and lavender filled his nose. He turned and saw Raven. Her face and body showed caution as she cradled her bleeding arm. Yet her deep violet eyes showed something Beast Boy was always afraid of. They showed fear. He wanted to explain but he couldn't. Somehow he forgot how to speak and the words couldn't form in his mouth. And he was exhausted. His head wasn't just pounding it felt battered. His body was crippling under him, black beginning to rim his vision. But he wanted to tell them, tell her something, anything. Finally his mouth and brain cooperated.

"R-R-R-Ra-Rav-Rave-Raven.." He called out. Beast Boy would've cringed at his broken voice but he didn't even have the energy to even care. "S-s-s-s-sorry. S-so sorry. S-Slade." And that was all he could say before he promptly fainted.