hello everyone, sorry this took so long, i had some internet problems...anyway, i probably wont be able to update this story untill april...yeah for easter break. sucks dont it. im gunna miss being on, but dont fear, this story is not over yet! hope you like the awesomeness, for it will continue! i promise! without further adue! its christmas!
*Zexion is sitting in the library avoiding everyone yet again*
*axel walks in with an angered look on his face, with a Santa hat on his head and sits down across from Zexion* merry fucking Christmas…
Zexion: ho freaken' ho…what's wrong with you?
Axel: you will never guess who I got for the gift exchange…
Zexion: well there are a limited number of people so I will eventually guess correctly…
Axel: ill save you the trouble. *throws the piece of paper at him and holds up two fingers*
Zexion: ew gross…have fun with that. *turns page*
Axel: so what's up with you, all anti social and stuff. Do you want me to rub your shoulders? *grins*
Zexion: um…no…I don't celibrate Christmas
Axel: and…um…why?
Zexion: just don't. too much hugging…too many people…and I don't understand the concept of one person getting presents for another ones birthday…
Axel: oohhhhhh…okay…so you're like a scrooge?
Zexion: I am not a Scrooge!
Axel: just admit you're a scrooge! A total bah humbug!
Zexion: I am not! God! You are annoying today…
Axel: *makes a face*fine if that's how you feel, I'll let you be a bah hum bug by yourself! *gets up and starts to leave*
Zexion: what makes me so….whatever you said?
Axel: I don't know…*shrugs a bit* I was just trying to make you laugh…
Zexion: and…insulting me is meant to make me laugh?...that's a new concept…*closes book* well…I have to go shopping…
Axel: have fun…*turns for the door* hate fucking Christmas….*walks out of the library*
Zexion: *walks after him* um…that was kind of an invitation for you to join me…
Axel: *rubs his arm* sorry…random anger…*turns back with a very small smile*
Zexion: I can see that….i have to get something for Demyx…but…I don't know what to get him…why…do you hate Christmas?
Axel: *pinches the bridge of his nose*it's a very…unhappy story…
Zexion: do you want to talk about it?
Axel: *looks away from Zexion* yeah…I do but…
Zexion: but what…
Axel: I don't want to make you sad…
Zexion: I'm always sad axel…
Axel: *bites his lip* why are you always sad?
Zexion: that is unimportant; just tell me why you hate Christmas Axel.
Axel: …It was the last Christmas I had as a somebody…*closes his eyes* she was still alive…it was a happy day…I found her sitting by the small tree…and she had a present in her hand….*looks at his feet* she was so happy to give it to me…he told her I didn't deserve it…that I had been bad…and he threw it in the fire…she was so sad and angry….that was the first day I had to call an ambulance…*winces as if slapped, reliving the memory as he tells the story, and is engulfed In his memory*
Zexion: *grips Axels' hand to snap him back to reality* you gunna be okay?
Axel: *blinks and gasps a bit, wincing*i…I'm fine…
Zexion: are you sure?...need some water?
Axel: sure…*takes a deep breath* why are you…always sad?
Zexion: well…Namine broke up with me…
Axel: *shock crosses his face and he squeezes his hand* hug?
Zexion: if you want, she had a good point so…I'm really not hurt…we're still good friends.
Axel: what was her point? *tilts head*
Zexion: well…we're both young…she didn't feel ready for a relationship, and we…were really…not a perfect match. We make better friends…it's not too bad actually. We hung out the other day and…it felt better that way…we had more fun.
Axel: good. That's good. *smiles* I'm glad your first relationship…didn't end in heartbreak…
Zexion: so am i…but…now…I'm available so don't tell anyone!
Axel: oh…I won't. *waggles eye brows*
Zexion: and you are taken! So don't try anything! Name will still kick you! She's acting like she's my mom! *laughs*
Axel: *pouts* awe…why would she kick me! I'm good!...ish…
Zexion: *laughs* anyway…I have to find a good gift for Demyx.
Axel: Demyx huh…he catch your eye?
Zexion: *blushes* n-no! I got him for secret Santa!
Axel: but you stuttered…so you like him?
Zexion: shhh! *blushes* …Luka likes him…
Axel: oh…she's gunna be so mad!
Zexion: not if she doesn't find out!...anyway…Namine and I realized…our tastes have changed…she likes "bad boys"…I like *clears throat*…well…goofballs…*smiles*…she's after Riku and I have to say…they are pretty cute.
Axel: awe…and where do I fit in on all of this? Now I feel all left out.
Zexion: you are a goofball.
Axel: but a hot goofball right?
Zexion: uh….suuuuuuurrreee…
Axel: (mouth drops and he lifts his shirt* are you telling me none of this is attractive to you?
Zexion: *blushes and turns away* d-don't do that!
Axel: see you now it's hot! *pulls his shirt down* though my body was broken, its mended nicely.*rubs his side* annnnyway what are you getting Demyx? Have you thought about it?
Zexion: that's why I need your help…
Axel: well you've come to the right place…I would try Journey…and Pac Sun and Hot Topic…he loves band shirts and vintage cartoons…head phones are always an option…
Zexion: hmm…good ideas. I like that. *smiles and a faint blush come to his cheeks*
Axel: *smiles also* I can see you really like him…maybe you should talk to Luka…
Zexion: no! she'll kill me! She acts all sweet but shes really a demon in skinny jeans!
Axel: *laughs* that's funny! I like that!
Zexion: thank you, I try
Luka: my jeans aren't as tight as yours!
Axel: *busts up laughing* that's true you know…skinny jeans are really, a lovely jean…they show off all the right curves. *grins*
Luka: um…stop creeping on my brother…
Zexion: my jeans aren't…shut up…
Luka: so why are you calling me a demon…
Axel: (as smoothly as ever* because you're so hard to buy for…we were going through ideas for Christmas gifts, but we can't think of anything you truly need. And I asked him how you would feel about a card, and he said you might kill me. *smiles*
*Zexion gets a glare from luka and holds his mask for a good amount of time but caves and twitches*
Luka: ….liar…now tell the truth.
Axel: *pushes Zexion through a portal* see yeah! *leaves*
Zexion: see what I mean!
Axel: *sighs* you couldn't hold your mask for another minut? *slouches forward* shes going to kill you now…
Zexion: well…I was mever able to lie to her…she always got it out of me…
Axel then maybe you should try a little bit harder…*small smile* now…lets wander the mall and see what we can find…
Zexion: *looks around* oh…mall…didn't realize…
Axel: were else would I portal us off to? The desert?
Zexion: shut up smart alek!...lets just start shopping…
Axel: alright…so…you could always get him a "toy" for you and him to use when you start *doezs 2 pelvic thrusts*
Zexion: ehhhh? No! you are disgusting!
Axel: *shrugs* yet you still love me…*smiles* im just kidding simmer down.
Zexion: *rolls eyes*…I'll let you lead…
Axel: is that an uke seme joke? Just kidding! Sorry!...*smiles*
Zexion: what the heck? Is it your mating season or something?
Axel: mating season? Im not an animal…except in bed…I mean! *covers mouth*
Zexion: I would leave you right now…but I don't want to get kidnapped…
Axel: ill kidnap you…and-*slaps his hand over his mouth once more* god what is up with me today!
Zexion:…did you drink the eggnog?...you know that stuff makes you act funny…
Axel: *nods* but it tastes good! Just like you! Gah! *walks into journeys*
Zexion: *blushes and fallows him*…you need to calm down…
Axel: they just keep poping out! Like babys! *rubs his face* look around and see if anything catches your eye if not we move on…
Zexion: *looks around* demyx! *blushes and hides behind axel*
Dem: hey guys! What are you doing here! *runs over*
Axel: oh nothing just shopping. *grins*
Zexion: *hiding his face*
Demyx: hey zexy! Yooohooooo! *gets right in his face* whats up?
Zexion: n-nothing…
Demyx: cool! Well, ill catch you later! I have to buy tones of presents! Bye! *hugs Zexion and runs off*
Axel: smoooooooth…
Zexion: *blushes*…shut it. Ugh…he thinks I'm a dork…
Axel: if he thought you were a dork you would know it. The fact he hugged you means he likes you somewhat.
Zexion: really?
Axel: yeah, notice he doesn't hug Larxene…or just about anyone except you, me Namine and Roxas?
Zexion: hmm…I didn't realize…
Axel: oh, and Luka of course. *sighs a bit and leans against one of the poles in the store*
Zexion: she's going to turn this into a competition…
Axel: and she is going to be so sad and angry…if she loses…
Zexion: so what do I do?...it isn't fair! She can get anyone she wants!
Axel:…and it seems like she wants Demyx…*frowns a bit*
Zexion: who are you rooting for?
Axel: it's not a competition Zexion, I'm not taking sides.
Zexion: yes you are!...oh forget it…she'll end up winning him over…let's just get him a present and go…and pick something you like while we are here.
Axel: *motions for Zexion to walk over* Zexion come here…*once he comes closer he places a warm hand on his shoulder* I don't want to see you sad…so please don't get so consumed by this competition, that if you lose…just don't okay?
Zexion:…okay…
Axel: *moves some hair out of his face* you're my best friend…and a bit more…and I hate to see you frown…I hate to see you cry…
Zexion: ill try to cheer up…
Axel: *takes his hand and squeezes it* I'm sorry if that's demanding…oh…and I don't want anything for Christmas…well…except one thing…
Zexion: *tilts head* what?
Axel: your happiness…that's all…*kicks off the wall and starts walking to the entrance*
Zexion: *small smile*…hey wait up! *follows him again*
Axel: maybe we can find something more fitting at Hot Topic…oh…and I need to stop in at Spencer's. *makes a face*
Zexion: ew…Xigbar is a creep…
Axel: yeah…and I know…the perfect present…*shivers*
Zexion: *shivers* I don't want to know…*phone rings* hello?...i never said that!...okay so what if it's true?...Luka that isn't fair!...wait no!...dang it…*closes phone*
Axel: what was that all about?
Zexion: well its official…we have a competition…"whoever he kisses, gets him"…I don't like it…
Axel: well…better get to getten I guess…we have to get you…a kiss…
Zexion: *sighs* …just a real conversation would be nice…
Axel: yeah…*bites his lip and goes into the hot topic entrance* anything catch your eye?
Zexion: …hmm…Basshunter t-shirt.
Axel: *shrugs a bit* maybe…*goes and looks at all he gauges and chains. And then at bracelets* you could get him a David Bowie stocking and fill it with candy…
Zexion: hmm…I've got it…*sees a poster for a David Bowie concert*
Axel: tickets…very nice. *smiles a bit, and then frowns* I don't know what to get you for Christmas…
Zexion: I don't want anything...*calls the ticket place and sweet talks his way to two front row tickets*…*hangs up* 700 freaken munny…
Axel: *raises eyebrows* that's a lot of munny *just kinda looks around the store not really seeing anything and buys the stocking* that's what I'll get him…
Zexion: it's worth it…that way he can take whoever he wants…plus…he's sweet. *smiles*
Axel: it really is the perfect gift…
Zexion: I hope he likes it…maybe I should get him a t-shirt too…
Axel: you just spent 700 munny…you don't need to buy him anything else…*leaves the store to spencers*
Zexion: this store makes me nervous…
Axel: yeah…it would…*grabs something off the rack that Zexion can't see and goes into a changing room* Hey Zexion I want your opinion on these clothes…*acts like it's just a pair of jeans*
Zexion: um…okay?
Axel:*opens the door and pulls him in not wanting anyone else to see…he's wearing lingerie similar to the previous piece except the feathers trimming the edges are white and the red is only slightly see though, the dress ends a little bit bellow the top of his leg* what do you think? *smirks*
Zexion: *blushes intensely and covers his eyes* y-you jerk!
Axel: *grins* oh come on zexy you like it! *looks in the mirror and twirls a bit* Xigbar should like this…*pulls on a Santa hat he grabbed that's made of silk*
Zexion: *whimpers* can we leave this store please…
Axel: *tilts his head* I'm sorry i…*opens the door so he can leave and puts his clothes back on and just sits on the bench for a minute*
Zexion: axel? Are you done?
Axel: *looks down* y-yeah…just give me a minute…
Zexion: what's wrong?
Axel: nothing…lets go home…*opens the door and walks out leaving the items he intended to buy in the store*
Zexion: Axel come on…talk to me…
Axel: there's nothing to talk about…
Zexion: obviously there is…
Axel: there's not okay! *wipes his face* theses just not…
Zexion:*jumps a little*…okay…
Axel: I'm sorry… *pinches the bridge of his nose* I made you uncomfortable…and there's just…a lot of crap swimming around my head okay…
Zexion: well..i would like to know what that is…
Axel: *looks up* its not important Zexion…lets just go home…
Zexion: *feels like he shouldn't push the subject any further and looks down*
Axel: ill tell you…when we go home…*walks to the bathroom and opens a portal*
Zexion: *walks through first and they realize there in his own room*
Axel: *sits and is very quiet* I feel terrible…
Zexion: why?
Axel:*shakes his head and looks down* so many things…Roxas and I just aren't working…were always fighting…always screaming at each other…it's to the point I don't want to be in the same room…I feel so bad…
Zexion: oh…I'm really sorry…if this is turning into a toxic relationship it really isn't good for either of you…
Axel: all I want is to just get back at him…I want to just sleep around so he'll just leave…I want to…to…*puts his hands to his face* he said he'd leave me is I ever did it again…anything to just get him to leave…
Zexion: don't do that axel…just…talk to him. Tell him you can't do this anymore…cheating will just make it worse…
Axel: *leans back against the wall* I just…want something really…really….bad…
Zexion: well…you cant have it…just…cut it off…its hurting you both…
Axel: and then…I get to watch a competition…*looks to the side away from Zexion and down at the ground* and it hurts…and I cant help but think…if that would have been demyx in that changing room…you might have laughed…or swooned…but it wasn't…it was me…and you whimpered…*he closes his eyes and two tears leak out* all I want for Christmas is your happiness…but were does my own come in…*bites his lip*
Zexion: I whimpered…because…it was a gift for Xigbar..
Axel: you're just saying that…*won't look at him*
Zexion: axel…I'm going to be totally honest…if it had been Demyx…I would have had the same reaction…things like that…just make me uncomfortable…it doesn't matter who is wearing it…please…you have to believe me…
Axel: I do…but…I made you whimper…*looks a bit pained*
Zexion: axel you know I like you…I'm really sorry…
Axel: he's a better match for you…*stands* he'll be accepted…and i…won't…he'll be laughed with, I'll be laughed at….he'll be hugged…I'll be hit…*shakes his head* it's just not fair…
Zexion: *frowns* axel…
Axel: starts breathing quickly* he's just all around better! He won't hurt you, he's not rude, he loves to make people smile, and he is lovable he is obviously the better choice…*starts to sound panicked* I'm too big, ill hurt you, I'm rude, lazy, I don't care what people think. I cuss, I control fire! Fire! It's so deadly and hurtful! And water is soothing and soft and *makes a gasping sound*
Zexion: *quickly gets him to shut up by kissing him full in the mouth*
Axel: *eyes flutter shut and he wraps his arms around him*
Zexion: *does the same and gently parts* axel…I already told you I love you…you need to calm down…
Axel: *starts taking deep breaths* i…I love you…but that's why…I have to let you be happy…even if it means…your with Demyx…*tears start falling down his face like a dam breaks* I don't want to…but I'd it means you're happy…
Zexion: *hugs him tightly* …thank you…
Axel: *just continues to cry* I love you so much…I'm just not good enough…I want you to be happy…*wiggles out of Zexion's hug and opens a portal* see you later…*bites his lip to stop crying and stands there for a moment*
Zexion: wait…where are you going…
Axel: i…have to go cut something off…be back in…a little while…*can't seem to stop crying*
Zexion: oh…make sure you come back…
Axel: *takes a few deep breaths* kay…*wipes his eyes but more tears fall and he walks through the portal*
Zexion: *sighs* …..*walks out of his room*
Vexen: why the long face?
Zexion: drama…how are you?
Vexen: good…but the question is how are you.
Zexion: I'm….fine…
Vexen: that doesn't sound very fine. *raises an eyebrow*
Zexion: okay…since you asked…I like Demyx but so does Luka…axel is sad because we still like each other but him and Roxas are having problems
Vexen: oh…what kind of issues…*they hear something break from down the hall* oh…those kind…
Zexion: yeah…I don't know what to do…
Vexen: Well…fallow you're…non-existent heart…or for better terms….your gut.
Zexion: my gut feels queasy…
Vexen: *rubs it a bit* just sit down and think about it…listen to what it says, and how it feels…even though we don't have hearts, we still break them…
Zexion: *sighs* okay…*sits down in the hall*
*he listens and hears a lot of crying, and a door slam, and watches as Roxas runs in the opposite direction of himself* *then he hears nothing*
Zexion: well…that was bad…
Vexen: that looked bad…time heals all wounds…even nasty emotional ones… *they can tell a portal is being opened, but the end doesn't lead to Zexion's room*
Zexion: great…now I have to find him…
Vexen: he'll come to you…besides…I don't think he's in the castle anymore…
Zexion:…nnm…queasy…
Vexen: you should go and lie down…
Zexion: *stands*…good idea…oh…tell Luka to leave me alone please…
Vexen: okay…ill make sure to tell her…*small smile* things will turn out…I promise…
Zexion: I hope so…*goes into his room and lies down*
*back with axel, he portaled back to Spencer's and bought that outfit and stuffs it in his closet* maybe he can pound some of this…sadness out of me…*closes the closet and sighs*
Xigbar: who can do what now?
Axel: *jumps and wipes his eyes* what? I didn't say anything! *wipes his eyes again*
Xigbar: awe. You're crying sweet cheeks!
Axel: *bites his lip and looks down* Roxas and I just broke up…
Xigbar: awe so you want me to pound the sadness out of you?
Axel: *gulps a bit and walks to his closet* i…am your secret Santa…*pulls out the bag* if you wait 2 minutes…I'll let you have it early…*is in front of the bathroom door and turns to look at him* are you willing to wait?
Xigbar: I don't want it…
Axel: *tilts head* why not?
Xigbar: because…that's not what you need right now…
Axel: *closes his eyes and stands there* I thought you would jump at this…
Xigbar: normally yes I would…but..this is different.
Axel: *wraps his arms around himself* thank you…*looks down*
Xigbar:*looks at him*…go find your friend…
Axel: I'm in love with my best friend Xigbar…I don't want to worry him anymore…
Xigbar: hm…you feel conflicted because someone else caught his eye…
Axel: yeah…that's…right…*looks down* they say you should always go with the second one you fall in love with, because if you truly loved the first, you wouldn't have fallen for the second.
Xigbar: *small laugh*…well…you still have time…*puts a hand on his shoulder and gives him a grin*…try to win him over!
Axel: he winced…I showed him your gift and he winced…that was a real blow…
Xigbar: he doesn't go for that kinda stuff…he likes fluff. You have to try or you'll regret it for the rest of your life.
Axel: I know…it just…hurt…*shrugs* ill try…
Xigbar: you better, or I will make you!
Axel: *small smile* thanks…*surprising Xigbar he hugs him, and buries his face in his shoulder*
Xigbar: *eye goes wide for a second but he hugs him back*…go get your emo boy.
Axel: *pulls away a bit* sometimes you really really helpful…others you're a real jerk…its…funny. *kisses his cheek* thanks *runs out the door*
*back in Zexion's room* *falls asleep*
Axel: *looks down at him and smiles at how peaceful he is* *sits on the edge of the bed and brushes some of the hair out of his face*
*curls up near him*
*lays on the edge of the bed and just watches him sleep*
*wakes up after about 15 minutes* …mmm…hi
Axel: hey…*combs some of the hair out of his face* how are you?
Zexion: better…you?
Axel: better….*small smile* I feel lighter…
Zexion: *smiles*…you smell like Xigbar…but…not intensely so...I'm glad nothing happened.
Axel: yeah…its funny, he said no. he does have some decency.
Zexion: *smiles and sits up*…so…what now?
Axel: I dun know…*small smile* we could watch a movie? I could make some pop corn…
Zexion: mkay…I always fall asleep during movies…
Axel: well…what so you want to do?
Zexion: *shrugs*…wanna go snowboarding?
Axel: where are we going to get two snowboards?
Zexion: I have one…but…it's too small for you…
Axel: oh…well…I'll slide down the mountain *smiles*
Zexion: this will be fun! *smiles broadly and starts pulling out his winter clothes* where is my…oh here it is! *pulls on a sock monkey hate* its cute right? *joking tone*
Axel: actually, it kinda is. *smiles* then again…anything you wear looks cute…*looks down his cheeks gaining a red tint*
Zexion: *smiles and pulls the hat's tassels a bit*…go get ready and meet me back here.
Axel: okay…*small smile as he goes to his closet and comes back with boots, thermal shirt, puffy red vest, fingerless gloves and snow pants*
Zexion: *is wearing a pea coat, his hat, a purple scarf, skinny jeans with leg warmers, and mittens* ready? *looks excited*
Axel: yeah! *looks at him* your cute…*smiles* am I over doing it with these pants?
Zexion: well if you plan on falling then…not really!...I'm cute?
Axel: well yeah…*looks down at his pants hiding his face*
Zexion: *smiles at him* let's go! *grabs his bored*
Axel: *looks at Zexion* um…can we rent a snowboard or something?
Zexion: uh…yeah…I think we can. You want me to buy you one?
Axel: no no no. snow boards are expensive, plus…I've never been snowboarding before. Besides I don't want you to spend that much munny on me…
Zexion: Axel…I actually get paid because I do my job. I have the money.
Axel: but I don't want you to spend it. I have my own munnies.
Zexion: *smiles* axel…you are…different you know that?
Axel: different? I'm not sure I fallow…
Zexion: most people would jump at the chance to get a gift. You don't want me to go to the trouble…
Axel: you know why? Because no matter the gift, if it's just a gift, it really doesn't mean anything. *shrugs* I would rather hold your hand then have you give me a gift…*smiles*
Zexion: *smiles at him*
Axel: *smiles and grabs his hand* it's more special…
Zexion: *blushes and smiles*…it is…
Axel: *smiles* when I was growing up I watched the people around me get whatever they wanted, and It seemed like that's how they were measuring love, when I know that my mom loved me, even though she couldn't get me everything I wanted…
Zexion: cute…I mean…
Axel: *blushes a bit* sorry If I was rambling…
Zexion: it's okay…your hands are nice and warm…
Axel: thank you…*smiles* I'm sorry I freaked out earlier…I didn't mean to…
Zexion: it's okay…
Axel: I made you sad…I'm sorry…*looks down*
Zexion: well you are making me happy now!
Axel: *smiles* good…now…lets go snowboarding *grins*
Zexion: *nods and makes a portal*
Axel: *makes a gasping sound* c-cold!
Zexion: of course it's cold…its snow *goes over and rents a board, and then they go to the top of the little hill*
Axel: *smiles* cool snow board…*picks it up* how do I put it on? *looks confused and helpless*
Zexion: sit…
Axel: *sits on the ground and looks up at him* now what?
Zexion: stick out your feet! *lines up the board with his feet and straps him in* mkay…*helps him up and puts his own board on* follow me! *goes down the hill*
Axel: *blinks a few times and pushes forward, gaining speed way too quickly, and flips and lands right on his butt at the bottom of the hill*
Zexion: *un-straps his board* are you okay?
Axel: ow…that really hurt…but I'm fine…*sits there for a moment and stands*
Zexion: how about we just sled…it's safer…*smiles* plus I'm not really an expert at this…
Axel: *rubs his butt* that sounds good…*looks away like he is looking at his surroundings and makes a pained expression* *turns back with a smile* where do we get a sled?
Zexion: just use the snowboard! *smiles*
Axel: *raises an eyebrow* and how do we do that?
Zexion: like this! *sits on the snowboard in between the boot holders*
Axel: *sits on the snowboard gently* alright! Let's sled!
Zexion: *pushes down the hill* weeeee!
Axel:*fallows him down and starts to laugh* this is fun!
Zexion: *smiles and reaches the bottom shivering a bit*
Axel: *once he reaches the bottom he lays down in the snow next to Zexion* that was a great idea!
Zexion: thank you! *laughs a little*
Axel: *sits up and puts and arm around him* you look cold…*blushes*
Zexion: *blushes too* y-yeah a bit…
Axel:*sets his head on his shoulder and moves it a bit, not really making any sort of move*
Zexion: *obviously enjoys the fact that he isn't forced into anything*
Axel: *pulls him a bit closer and puts his other arm around him and still just rests his head on his shoulder* this is…nice…
Zexion: *nods and leans into him*
Axel: *content sigh* did you ever wonder why Vexen and I don't like each other?
Zexion: I assumed it was the whole fire and ice thing…
Axel: *nods a bit* we both have the power to severally hurt the other. Fire can melt his core, making him have to freeze all over again, while ice can freeze my core, making me have to start my fire all over again.
Zexion: oh…I don't really know what my opposite is…I mean… you and Vexen…Demyx and Larxene…xaldin and lexaeus…
Axel: Xemnas and Roxas…*sighs and snuggles his head on his shoulder* not everyone has an opposite…
Zexion:….really?...
Axel: you are classified as illusion, and what's the opposite of that?
Zexion: …reality….
Axel: and what kind of power is that?...
Zexion: I'm not sure…the ability to change reality?
Axel: Zexion that's illusion. *smiles*
Zexion: *smiles* well then I guess normal people are my opposite!
Axel: *laughs* that sounds good! *nips at his pea coat like a dog and whines a bit* its cooooooooolllldddddd out here! *smiles*
Zexion: then make some warm!
Axel: *laughs* Zexion, what are we in right now?
Zexion: oh…right…let's go to the rest lodge.
Axel: *smiles and gets up, and helps Zexion up* let me take your board *grabs it and carries them both*
Zexion: mkay…so…we can get cocoa If you want!
Axel: *smiles* that sounds really good! *walks with him to get cocoa*
Zexion: *gets two cups* here you go!
Axel: *starts to drink it* yummmmmm…*smiles*
Zexion: oh…don't get mad but…I bought that board for you…*smiles*
Axel: Zexion! *sighs a bit and puts an arm around him* that's really nice of you…
Zexion: *hums a bit* I wanted to…so I dud.
Axel: well I guess I cant complain…I always do what I want…well…most of the time. *smiles* thank you, I really do like it.
Zexion: I'm glad. *sips the cocoa*…so…what do you want to do now?
Axel: figure out what to get you…*sits next to him on a love seat thingy*
Zexion: I told you I don't want anything.
Axel: I told you the same thing, and I got a great present *smiles and sips his coffee* ill think of something…I'm sure…
Zexion: axel seriously…I don't want anything.
Axel: *looks over at him* but…I want to…
Zexion: I know…but…I just can't think of anything I want or need…id rather get something that meant something…not a token gift…
Axel: *smiles* I think I might have just the thing. *takes his hand in his*
Zexion: *smiles and seems content*
Axel: *rubs his thumb on his hand* Zexion…will you do me a favor…*leans forward exposing the chain on his neck*
Zexion: oh…yeah…*gently unclasps the chain, his finger lightly brushing Axels' neck*
Axel: *makes a small sound and the hair on his neck stand up* thank you….
Zexion:…I'm sorry…things turned out the way they did….and…I'm really sorry I whimpered…
Axel: I brought you to a place that made you uncomfortable, and I put you in a position that made you even more uncomfortable…I thought you would laugh and tell me I was being stupid, or look at me thinking wow…it's my fault…
Zexion: but…I made you feel bad and now…
Axel: now what? *looks over at him*
Zexion: I'm…confused….
Axel: about….what…
Zexion: about…my feelings…about you…about demyx…I don't…I don't know…
Axel: *rubs his back a bit* it's okay not to know…im sure…you'll figure it out…
Zexion: I hope so…but…I don't want to hurt anyone…Demyx wont care…because he doesn't know…but…I just…*shrugs*
Axel: you don't want to hurt me…or Luka…nobody said it was easy…*sighs* Zexion…whoever makes you happy, is who you should choose…
Zexion: I guess…time will tell…
Axel: *nods his head* only time will tell…*brushes some of the hair out of his face*
Zexion: *sighs*
Axel: hey…turn that frown upside down mister…*neals infront of him and puts his index fingers at the courner of his mouth and pulls them into a smile*
Zexion: *kicks legs a little* keh!...okay okay! *laughs a bit*
Axel: *smiles and sits next to him once more* you don't look like your in the mood to snowboard anymore. Do you want to go home?
Zexion: if you want. *small smile*
Axel: you look like…you could use some cake, a blanket, pillow, and a good movie. *smiles* just the thing to rest with…full and warm…
Zexion: *smiles and turtles up at the cozy thought* I like that.
Axel: *stands and takes his hand* then that's exactly what we will do.
Zexion: *a small blush finds his cheeks*…mkay. *picks up his snowboard*
Axel: *Picks up his board and they portal to Zexion's room* while you get changed ill find some warm cake and you can find a movie. *smiles* I'll be back soon.
Zexion: alright. See you soon!
Axel: *smiles and walks to his room and puts on some sweats and a thermal and makes his way to the kitchen*
Demyx: aaaxxxxxeeeeelllllll!
Axel: hey Demyx! What's…up?
Demyx: watchyeah doin'
Axel: getting some cake, and you?
Demyx: Luka told me something…
Axel: and that something…is…*his happy face pails*
Demyx: that…Zexion likes me…but you like zexion…and luka likes me..and Zexion likes you…
Axel: yeah…that's…true…*bites his lip* how do…you feel about…them…
Demyx: well…*looks down cutely*…I like them both…but…I don't know what to do…
Axel: *looks up debating on telling him to go with Luka or to fallow his gut, no matter the outcome* you should…
Demyx: …love is confusing…and…you were there for Zexion when he needed you…I wasn't…he'll probably pick you…
Axel:…keep your options open…don't choose anyone…*small smile* they'll choose you…*small sigh* I don't know why I bother…
Demyx: what do you mean?
Axel: I'm…not good enough for him…*shrugs* it's alright I mean it's the truth…
Demyx: …he likes you…isn't that all that matters?...oh don't tell him okay…I want him to find out I like him on his own…
Axel: okay…see you later demyx….
Demyx: *hugs him*…seeya! *runs away*
Axel: *small chuckle as he walks into the kitchen and opens the lid to the chocolate cake, and opens a drawer full of knives, and just closes it and leans against the counter*
Namine: oh…hi axel.
Axel: hi…*grips the counter a bit* how are you?
Namine: im okay…how are you?
Axel: not to horrible…
Namine: okay…did um…zexion talk to you?
Axel: talk to me about…the break up?
Namine: yeah I guess he did…
Axel: all I know is…that you guys just weren't the perfect match…
Namine: that and…I could tel it was getting hard for him..you two…are really a perfect match. Oh guess what…
Axel: *blinks a few times and whispers* perfect match…*coughs a bit* what?
Namine: I have a date with Riku!
Axel: *smiles* good. You two look like a cute couple.
Namine: I'm so excited! This is so great!...and…zexion is still my best friend, im so glad he doesn't hate me!
Axel: I don't think he can hate anyone. *small smile* im really glad your happy.
Namine: now…*gently touches his arm and smiles* I hope you can be happy too. Byw axel! *leaves*
Axel: *watches her leave and quietly opens the drawer and cuts the cake and puts it on two plates, grabs two glasses and the milk* I hope so too…
'zexion: *sitting on the bed in yoga pants, a soft long sleve shirt, and wrappes in a comfy blanket* *kicking legs like a little kid*
Axel: *smiles at the sight* I brought cake!
Zexion: I picked a movie! *holds up toy story three*
Axel: I haven't seen that one! *hands him cake and sup and sits down next to him after pressing play*
*makes it to the end of the movie this time but is struggling to keep his eyes open*
Axel: *takes the plates and throws them away and crawls back in the bed* Zexion? *pulls the blanket over him*
Zexion: mm?
Axel: *smiles* you made it through the movie. *chuckles* go to sleep.
Zexion: *small smile*…stay here tonight?
Axel: you want me to?
Zexion: *nods and falls asleep*
Axel: *smiles and snuggles up against him, and wraps an arm around him protectively and falls asleep*
Zexion: *wakes up in the exact same position* nn….what times it?
Axel: *eye lids flutter abit and he snuggles closer to him* iggdnno
Zexion: *looks at the clock* ugh…10…I have to go…saix and I are to decorate the castle…
Axel: *holds onto him* nnnu uhhh…sleep time…*opens his eyes and squeezes them shut*
Zexion: *laughs a bit*…axel…I have to. We both promisedxemnas that we would.
Axel: *pouts* but…
Zexion: sorry..ill find you afterwards and we can hang out.
Axel: mkay…*sits up and in one fluent motion wipes his eyes, taking the contacts out* *blinks a few times* I forgot to take them out…again…*small chuckle*
Zexion: your so forgetful…*getes changed in the bathroom, putting on nothing special, just jeans and a hoodie. Didn't feel like putting in contacts so he wears his glasses* see ya later.
Axel: *smiles* bye! *grabs his hand and squeezes it gently and lets go, portalling to his room*
Zexion: *walks to Saix's room and knocks on the door*
Saix: *opens it looking in prestine condition* are you ready to decorate the castle? *puts his hands in his pocket*
Zexion: yes. *doesn't say much*
Saix: okay…lets go…*starts walking to the storage closet*
Zexion: so…how do you feel about Christmas?
Saix: like most people…I like it…*looks over at him* axel used to come over to my house on Christmas eve…it was kinda fun…*hint of a smile comes to his lips* and you?
Zexion: oh uh…I never…celebrated it…
Saix: hm…why?
Zexion: I told axel it was because I didn't like the gift giving and stuff..well
Saix: well what?
Zexion:*looks down abit* I uh…
Saix: go on, spit it out…
Zexion: im not sure I believe in god…
Saix: your not the first who doesn't…but why exactally?
Zexion: I lost my parents when I was 6, and everythings been down hill from there.
Saix: *nods* I can see why your not sure…
Zexion:…well….your the only person ive told…
Saix: …*seems to be thinking about something* im flattered…*actually looks genuine* Christmas is hard as nobodys. It's the time when you remember the most about your past, often having vivid dreas, and the whole point is that your celibrating the "savior" though we can not be saved…
Zexion: I just felt…you wouldn't judge me…anyway…
Saix: *small smile* so word has spread of your love square.
Zexion: *blushes* so who did you talk to?
Saix: *sighs a bit* Larxene has a huge mouth
Zexion: oh well…I doupt its going to end well anyway…
Saix: I bet it could…*shrugs a bit* tell me about your relationship with axel…I know him very well…as you know….
Zexion:um…well…ive known you both wince I was little…not well but..you know…he…was there when I needed him…and….he makes me smile….
Saix:*small smile* he always liked you…not in the lovey dovey way he does now, but he loved picking you up…"hes so cute and little! I just wasn't to play with him all the time!" he would say.
Zexion: *small snort laugh, covers mouth* …sorry. He can be really sweet and nice but…I worry about his temper and…we are really different….
Saix:*frowns a bit* that's something you deffinatly have to watch with him…but…*sighs a bit* I don't know what he would do if you picked demyx…*closes his eyes sadly*
Zexion: and that's another issue…I don't want to be the cause of hardship…
Saix: theres something you should know….*pulls out a very recognizable dream journal* ever since I was little I read his journal, I was interested in phychology…si he let me read it…as of late…the majority of his dreams, are all about you…
Zexion: *looks at him then the journal*…w-what?...
Saix: there about your first kiss…about you heping him…about you just hanging out…with axel…he always dreams about the biggest things in his life…for the longest time it was his father…its like…you pushed him out of the spotlight, only for you to be alone on stage…
Zexion: *eyes widen a bit*…i…didn't know…am…I the reason that axel and Roxas…
Saix: axel and Roxas split because they couldn't compunicate anymore…Roxas was jelouse that he never, not once was the center of Axels dreams…axel cared for him a lot, ohhhh yes he did…but…*shakes his head* they just weren't a match made in heaven.
Zexion: oh…id rathr not be the center of anything
Saix: you don't get it…*shakes his head* he loves you so much he dreams about you, him and his fuck toy split, he stopped cutting, hes actually doing his job, and most importantly, keeping out of most trouble…
Zexion: he's…*looks at him utterly bewildered*…doing all of that…because he loves me?
Saix: *nods* he is. He wants to prove to himself hes worth you…that he deserves you. That maybe, just maybe you might see all his hard work and progress and think "wow, hes really improving"
Zexion: *looks down and closes eyes*…I don't…know what to say…he's…trying so hard…
Saix: its your choice…crush his dreams or give it a try. *shrugs* whatever you choose…if you make a mess I expect you to clean it up.
Zexion: I understand…*looks back up at him*…
Saix: *small snile* now…christmas decorations…*grins at all the lights and stuff*
Zexion: kay…*smiles*
Saix: alright…ill grab the tree, and you can grab the lights…
Zexion: *nods and grabs the large bag of lights out of the closet*…woah…how did you ge thte tree up so fast…I was only gone like…five seconds…
Saix: what can I say? Im just that good. *chuckles*
Zexion: *small smile* okay…don't get a swollen head…
Saix: *grins* okay okay. Now for the fun task…untangling those lights. *sticks out his tongue*
Zexion: ew…*pulls out a tangled mess of lights*
Saix: *sighs a bit and picks up one end of the lights, and pulls just right and it streightnes and he pulls the strang from the other few* *grins*
Zexion: *looks at him with a shocked expression*…is there anything you aren't good at?
Saix: nope! *grins* im good at just about everything.
Zexion: *rolls eyes*…well it doesn't seem like theres anything I can do here….
Saix: *pouts a bit* but I was having fun…*flings the lights around the tree and it wraps around*
Zexion: fine…ill sit and watch. *smiles* so…why did dad ask us to do this?
Saix: he wanted us to bond…because he thinks ill be around a while…*a faint blush crosses his cheeks*
Zexion: ohhh…that makes more sense…wel…I find the best way to get to know someone…is to play 20 questions!
Saix: axels influence no doupt. *smiles and strings another set of lights somewere else* alright, you first.
Zexion: hmm…what was your first impression of me…I mean…when we met as nobodies.
Saix: that you were to young to have this happen to you…
Zexion: …oh…when I met you…I was intimidated…
Saix: everyone is. *small smile* im just intimidating.
Zexion: okay now its your turn to ask a question.
Saix: alright…when we were somebodys, you never talked, and I always wondered why.
Zexion: my mom always told me not to talk to strangers…at that point everyone was a stranger…people scare me.
Saix: *nods a bit* the only sound I heard you make, was when you were riding on lea's back…he giggled.
Zexion: …I only ever spoke to Ansem…
Saix: even I was afraid of Ansem when I was Isa. *smiles* even though I thought he was kinda cute…*blushes and looks to the tree*
Zexion: *small laugh*…have you…ever wanted to beat me up…other than the Halloween thing?
Saix: well…I cant say that I have…you usually follow the rules and I cant really complain…are you someone who is concerned about what people think about you?
Zexion: well…I always say…that I don't care but…I guess…I just always worry about it.
Saix: *nods a bit( I try not to worry about it, infact, I try not to let other people see it…think im weak. *shrugs a bit*
Zexion: does…Xigbar try to rape you?
Saix: *chuckles* the first day I was here as a nobody, he came on to both Axel and i…*chuckles* Axel tried to fight him, and I kicked him in the crotch and ran for Xemnas.
Zexion: I see…well…uh…your turn…
Saix: what your favorite thing about the castle?
Zexion: um…the library…I have access to any book I need!
Saix: *grins* that's good…knowledge is power!
Zexion: I love to learn…anyway…be completely honest…should…should I date Axel?
Saix: im not going to tell you what you should or should not do. But Zexion, what are you afraid of? You seem so cautious to start this relationship.
Zexion: i…I'm worried I'll mess something up…and ill lose him.
Saix: everyone makes mystakes. You two have been through so much, I doupt something like that will happen.
Zexion: …okay…maybe…..i should…give it a shot. How did…you and Xemnas get together?
Saix: well..it was one of the first nights I was a nobody…and I was scared…and axel was off being his usual "im fine just leave me alone" and I started walking the halls, and…I just sort of ran into him…
Zexion: oh…I understand…
Saix: he made me feel a lot better…he still does…
Zexion: okay….i think were done with the tree…
Saix: yep…wait…*puts a star on top* there…
Zexion: are we done?
Saix: yeah, I have to hide the mistletoe, but other then that, yeah. *smiles*
Zexion: okay…see you later then!
Saix: good bye Zexion. Make sure you talk to that idiot pyro today! *laughs*
Zexion: *rolls his eyes but smiles* …I'm going to now!
Saix: good *smiles*
*once Zexion arrives at axels room, he knocks and gets the okay to come in. hes wearing just jeans and a tee shirt, and smells like he just got out of the shower, hair is a bit damp and is wearing his glasses, is knealing on the ground prying up a floor board* hey
Zexion: whats up?
Axel: oh not to much…*the board flys up and hits him in the face* just flying boards…*rubs his chin*
Zexion: if you're looking for your dream journal…it isn't there…
Axel: well, I was looking for that, but no that's not it…*brings up a very dusty box* I was looking for your present *smiles at the heavy box*
Zexion: *looks at it confused*
Axel: *pulls the top off and pulls out a hard bound book, blows the dust off* when I was about 17 my mother bought this book for me…it's a book that's about desiphering dreams and about the human mind and things…I never got around to reading it…*strokes the cover* and when you told me a sentimental gift, this is what came to mind. *smiles up at him*
Zexion: *keeps looking between axel and the book and a smile creeps across his face*…axel…that's really sweet…
Axel: I thought you would enjoy it…I know its not much…I mean its kinda old, and dusty but…it means a lot. *smiles and pats the floor next to him once*
Zexion: *walks over and sits next to axel*…I love it…very much.
Axel: *gently sets it in his lap* I was hoping so…*smiles*
Zexion: Axel…I was talking to Saix…and he said…he read your journal.
Axel: he used to read it all the time…*tilts his head abit* so he has it…what did he say?
Zexion: that…you are dreaming about me…it made me realize…how many things you are doing…and…how much of it is fore me…
Axel: *blush creeps onto his face* Zexion I love you…so much…I just want you to see it…*small smile*
Zexion:…I didn't before…but….i do now…..and axel…. I think…I want to take a chance on you….
Axel: *smiles* r-really! *practically glomps him*
Zexion: *hugs him back tightly* really. I just want you to ask me though…it would make me happy…
Axel: *snuggles up to him* Zexion…will you go out with me?
Zexion: yes! *face lights up immensely*
Axel: *nuzzles his face on zexions shoulder* im so happy! *so happy that tears start dripping down his cheek*
Zexion: *hums happily* I love you…
Axel: I love you to…*pulls back abit and kisses his forhead lightly* *smiles*
Zexion: *smiles back*…merry Christmas axel.
Axel: merry Christmas Zexion. *kisses his lips shourtly and sweetly*
Zexion: *nuzzles into axel chest* …warm…
Axel: *leans back against the bed and pulls him into his lap and wraps his arms around him protectively* remember that time…we went on that adventure?
Zexion: what adventure?
Axel: remember, that time! You know! *laughs* remember that time when we had to be vexens experiments? Cause you got grounded. *chuckles*
Zexion: ugh…yes…*curls up sweetly*
Axel: *puts his head on his* and that time we went to that rave…and the time we went to the fair…*starts rocking him abit* that was my favorite…sitting under the stars…*sighs contently*
Zexion: I like that too. *smiles*
Axel: I hope so…*nuzzles his head abit*
Zexion: …so…what are your dreams like now?...
Axel: there a lot…nicer…I don't wake up in the middle of the night in a cold sweat…there sually memories…sometimes I have the old ones, but most of the time…its just you, smiling, laughing…being amazing… *squeezes him abit*
Zexion: *laughs a little*…saix said that you always liked me. That you liked picking me up and everything…
Axel: yes…you always brightened my day…even days when…well…*shrugs a bit*
Zexion: it made me happy to see the both of you each day. It was fun.
Axel: but you never talked…you didn't need yo…I knew you were happy.
Zexion: my mom said not to talk to strangers…I thought everyone was a stranger..*small smile*
Axel: *chuckles* well, I hope you don't think that way anymore. *smiles* ide hate to think that im a stranger.
Zexion: well im talking to you now!
Axel: *chuckles* and im thankful…*nuzzles his shoulder a bit*
Zexion: what do you want to do?..we could go to the zoo…and look at the lights!
Axel: *smiles* that's…a great idea!
Zexion: I know…I have good ideas!
Axel: *chuckles and stands* when shall we go? Now, *looks out* wait…its only 4! *laughs*
Zexion: it starts at five. We can get an early dinner!
Axel: *smiles* were should we go? Should I change?
Zexion: well…it will be could…
Axel: okay…*opens his closet wide* wanna…pick out my outfit? *smiles*
Zexion: um…sure! *hopes over to the closet and looks through the clothes*
Axel: *ends up wearing red skinnys tucked into knee high dock martins, a black thermal shirt and hooded vest, red scarf, and for a laugh, a santa hat*
Zexion: y-you wanna pick mine?
Axel: *smiles* sure! *they portal to Zexions room and looks at all the clothes* *axel ends up dressing him really cutely* *smiles* you look really cute! *drags him to the mirror and hugs him from behind in the mirror*
Zexion:
*is wearing very tight skinnies with legwarmers again, a warm jacket that laces in the back and has three buckles up each side, a cute purple scarf, his glasses, and a newsboy cap with matching gloves*…I forgot I had this…
Axel: *smiles* you have a lot of clothes I haven't seen before. *moves his head ontop of his* do you like it?
Zexion: *smiles* yeah I do!...i just…don't wear my more elaborate clothes because…people stare at me…
Axel: *squeezes him abit* they only stare because they think your cute…just like I do…
Zexion: really?...you think that's why?...
Axel: I really do…*kisses his cheek sweetly* well at least…that's why I would stair…*smiles*
Zexion: *blushes lightly* lets go!...dinner first?
Axel: yes…im starviiiing! *smiles* were to?
Zexion:*shrugs*im not sure…just somewhere!
Axel: alright…somewere it is! *opens a random portal to a random resteraunt*
Zexion: *sits down at the table and picks up a menu then looks up*…oh my god…axel look! *points to the waiter walking to their table*
Axel: *chuckles* it is a Christmas merical! *snuggles up close to Zexion*
Waiter: oh god! Not you guys again!
Zexion: sorry! How have you been buddy?
Waiter: good until now…
Axel: so are you getting rid of that homophobia? *grins and sets his head on Zexions shoulder*
Waiter: uh…um…yeah?
Zexion: oh really?
Axel: so…lets sau if we kissed in front of you, you would be okay with that?
Waiter: well uh…no…n-not at all!
Axel:*grins a bit* what if I grabbed your butt? How would you feel then? *nuzzles zexys shoulder abit*
Waiter: I would punch you!
Zexion: *looks at axel* and so would i!
Axel: *hugs Zexion reassuringly* im sorry baby…I just wanted to know his reaction…forgive me? *pouts*
Zexion: hmmm…okay…
Waiter: can you please just order?
Axel: *looks up at him and glares* sir, are you being so pushy because this is a same gender relationship? *rubs Zexions back abit*
Waiter: well..uh…no i…just…um…
Axel: that is so disrespectful! I want a new waiter!
Waiter: thank god!
Stacy: hello my name is stacy and I will be serving you today!
Axel: *turns on the charm* hello stacy…I was hopping to start out with drinks, and while your gone take a look at the menu. *smiles*
Stacy: oh don't mention it! I will be right back with your….
Axel: a water and….
Zexion: a water please…
Stacy: illberightbackwiththat! *fast talker*
Axel: *smiles at him*
Zexion: your really funny…
Axel: how so? *grins*
Zexion: you don't care if people judge us…you just wanted to mess with that waiter…*smiles* it was funny…
Axel: *grins in return* yeah, you know its really fun…although I do feel a bit guilty about it later, Its entertaining for the moment.
Zexion: *laughs* I suppose it is…you know…you could have kissed me…
Axel: *tilts his head twords his* well, I didn't want to make you uncomfortable.
Zexion: *smiles and blushes* i…like kissing…
Axel: *smiles and brings there faces closer* well your in luck, so do i…*precess there lips together gently*
Zexion: *makes a small noise*
Axel: *smiles and brings Zexion closer, and when they hear glasses being placed on the table, they part, though axel pulls on Zexion bottom lip a bit while doing so*
Stacy: sorry! I was trying to be quiet…
Zexion: i-its alright…*bluuuuuush*
Stacy: are you ready to order?
Zexion: ill have a salad.
Axel: *hugs Zexion abit and points to something on the menu* actually I think we will have…this if you don't mind Zexion*looks at Zexion*
Zexion: *looks down a bit*
Stacy: kay! Ill be back with your food!
Axel: hey Zexion…whats wrong? *tilts his head up to look at him*
Zexion: I just haven't been hungry lately…im not sure whats wrong…
Axel: is there anything else? Fever? *puts a hand on his forhead under all hi hair*
Zexion: *sighs* …nope…nothing else…I mean ill get headaches from not eating but I just don't have an appetite…
Axel: *puts a hand on his tummy and rubs it a bit* come on get an appetite! The food will be delicious!
Zexion: *giggles abit(
Axel: *sets his head on his shoulder and just rubs his tummy* I hope its nothing…bad…*snuggles up to him*Zexion: *sighs* me too…
Axel: *kisses his cheek* aren't you going to guess what were eating?
Zexion: um…I have no idea…
Axel: come on! Its in one of the most romantic scenes in all of Disney movies! Spaghetti!
Zexion: lady and the tramp?...wait…im not a lady!
Axel: but you're the uke! *smirks*
Zexion: *blushes intensely*
Axel: okay okay ill let you be seme…sometimes…*smiles*
Zexion: *blushes more but laughs a bit*
Axel: okay ill let you be seme half the time…but no more! *laughs*
Zexion: *laughs even more*
Stacy: okay here you go boys! Enjoy!
Axel: thank you! *kisses zexions cheek* you feel like you can eat? Just a bit?
Zexion: *shrugs*…I can try…
Axel: how about…I feed you? *smiles*
Zexion: *blushes a little*…that would be nice…
Axel: *pulls him to wear he is pretty much leaning on him and puts a fork full by his mouth* open up zexy. *smiles*
Zexion: *opens mouth and he eats the spaghetti*
Axel: hows it taste? *puts a forkful in his own mouth*
Zexion: its good! I like garlic but it makes my breath smell…
Axel: well let me try a bit of yours? *presses his lips to his* mm…tasty *smiles*
Zexion: *smiles* wanna try the llady and the tramp thing?
Axel: *nods and puts one end of the noodle in zexions mouth, and the other in his own*
Zexion: *they both start to eat there end until there lips meet in the middle*
Axel: *he presses Zexion closer to him by placing a hand on his lower back*
Zexion: *snuggles a bit closer*
Axel: *licks Zexion lower lip*
Zexion: *makes a small noise*
Axel: *pulls apart after a few moments* that time it tasted sweeter…
Zexion: spicy on this end…*gently toughes his lips and makes a pained expression*
Axel: *whispers* whats wrong? Did i…*trails off*
Zexion: i…think you burned my lips…
Axel: oh im so sorry I didn't…*tilts his face up so he can see his lips*
Zexion: how do they look?
Axel: red…tender…
Zexion: its okay…you didn't know…
Axel: *bites his own lip* i…cant believe…im so sorry…
Zexion: its okay…
Axel: no…its not okay…*looks down*
Zexion: *lightly touches his hand*
Axel *squeezes it abit* that's…never happened before…i…im sorry…
Zexion: im fine…don't worry…
Axel: how…can I not…I live you…but…I hurt you…
Zexion: axel…please…
Axel: *takes his hand and kisses it* can you forgive me…*starts kissing each finger*
Zexion: *smiles* of course.
Axel: *pulls him close and kisses up his wrist a ways and rests his head on his shoulder and whispers sweet things in his ear*
Zexion: *smiles softly*…lets get a box for the food…I wanna go to the zoo…
Axel: that sounds good, stacy? Can we get a box? *smiles and snuggles his head against hif cheek*
Stacy: *quickly hands them a box and smiles* come again soon!
Axel: *waves and takes his hand and they walk out, then opening a portal so there inside the zoo, and don't have to pay* *breeths deeply* nothing like cold to shock your senses! *smiles*
Zexion: *smiles and turtles up a bit due to the cold*
Axel: *puts an arm around his shoulder and they start walking closely*
Zexion: I wanna see the polar bears.
Axel: polar bears are pretty sweet, after that I think we should see the wolves.
Zexion: mkay…I like the wolves…but I really like the foxes…
Axel: you are a fox, my little schemer. *smiles*
Zexion: *smiles* …o really?
Axel: yeah. Your cute, and your hair os soft, and you smell really well, and you're a bit devious. *grins*
Zexion: *giggles*…I suppose that makes sense….you…are a lion!
Axel: a lion? So…why am I a lion?
Zexion: because…of your hair…and you are big…you really like to sleep…and…you are like a big stuffed animal I just want to hug.
Axel: *smiles* are I wanna hug you to! *picks him up and hugs him off the ground and continues walking*
Zexion: *kicks his legs a little*…too tight!
Axel: *hugs him looser* your really tiny…
Zexion: okay seriously…am I really that tiny?
Axel: yeah your like…*sounds distracted*
Zexion: axel?...whats wrong?
Axel: *looks him in the eye* like…when you tried to….to…
Zexion: *whimpers softly*
Axel: shh…*rubs his back* we'll talk to vexen when we get back…lets enjoy our time now…
Zexion: *wraps his arms around axels neck and just nods*
Axel: *axel relaxes a bit and kisses Zexions neck lightly* I love you…
Zexion: love you too…*relaxes also*
Axel: *nuzzles his head against his and walks up to the poler bears* look, theres one walking twords us! *smiles*
Zexion: *looks up and smiles* coooooool…
*the bear walks right up to the glass and looks at them*
Zexion: kinda scary…but…really neat…
*the bear tilts its head*
Axel: I think he likes you…*smiles and puts his hand up to the glass and the bear gets on its hind legs*
Zexion: whoa…huge…
Axel: it looks…unhappy…*looks into the bears face*
Zexion: *looks at it also*…I wonder why?
Axel: *switches Zexion to his back* wild animals shouldn't be caged…I bet she wants to run…I bed she was separated from her family…her mother…
Zexion: *sympathizes with the bear*…poor thing.
*the bear puts its paw were axels is* I wish I would talk to her…
Zexion: axel…I think you kind of are…a lot can be said with little words.
Axel: *removes his hand and she goes on all 4's* i…think she is really strong…
Zexion: *smiles*…like you?
Axel: *looks over at him* you think im strong?
Zexion: *nods and nuzzles into his back abit*
Axel: I guess so…
Zexion: *humms a littlw*
Axel: bye bear…*looks at her watch him leave* *sighs a bit* when I was little I had a strange obsession with wolves…
Zexion: I can see that…your like a wolf and a lion.
Axel: *makes a growling/howling noise* like that? *laughs*
Zexion: *laughs* yeah.
Axel: what do you think everyone else is?
Zexion: im not sure but…I don't really want to talk about them…lets talk about…us.
Axel: *Smiles* about…how much I love you?
Zexion: *hugs him tightly* your awesome.
Axel: your awesome we! *moves him a bit higheron his back*
Zexion: *yips a little*…wasn't ready for that…
Axel: oh im sorry! *tilts his head back so he can look at him*
Zexion: *smiles at him*
Axel: *smiles back* I love you…
Zexion: *sweet closed eye smile* I love you too…
Axel: *switches him so hes hanging on to him from the front and kisses him gently*
Zexion: *smiles into the kiss*
Axel: *seems to hesitate for a second and runs his tongue across his lower lip and parts* did I hurt you? Did I do it again?
Zexion: *jumps a little(…it felt hot…but didn't burn this time.
Axel: *sighs a bit* why does this keep happening?...
Zexion: *looks down*…is it me?
Axel: no it isn't…it cant be…*hugs him tightly and moves from side to side*
Zexion: *nuzzles his chest*…I still love you…
Axel: I hope so…*rests his head ontop of his* because id be very sad if you didn't…
Zexion: *brings hand up and scratches his head but when he brings it down a clump of hair comes out with it* whoa…that's new….
Axel: *blinks a few times while looking at his hand*…werewolf syndrome? *starts walking twords a dark area so they can portal*
Zexion: I don't think so axel…*panics a littla and pulls out another clump then looks at axel with terrified eyes*
Axel: stop pulling were going home…*opens a portal and starts walking quickly*
Zexion: *looks down*
Axel: its okay Zexion…its okay…*rubs his back as he starts tosee the lab*
Zexion: *whimpers nervously*
Axel: *kisses his forhead as they enter the lab* vexen…
Vexen: *jumps a bit* what now…*looks at Zexion and points to the lab table and hes sat down*
Zexion: *just looks down and goes to touch his hair again*
Axel: *sits behind him and takes his hands gently and holds themin zexions lap*
Vexen: explain?
Axel: no appitite…hairs falling out…
Zexion: *looks to the side and bounces his leg nervously*…I don't know whats wrong…
Vexen:…*sits on a doctor stool and slides infront of him* malnutrition explains the hair…no appitite though…hmm…when did you start losing your appitite?
Zexion: *thinks* like…a month ago…
Axel: why didn't you say anything?
Vexen: alright…and when did you start having problems, like stress and such?
Zexion: *looks at vexen* stress?
Vexen: I talked to you the other day, and you said that a lot was happening, and you felt almost sigh…that's stress…stress can cause head aches, neasua, and loss of appetite…
Zexion: I guess…it started after namine dumped me…
Vexen: which was?
Axel: *squeezes him reassuringly*
Zexion: a month ago…
Vexen: well…theres your answer…
Axel: you…didn't tell me any of that… *puts his head on zexions shoulder*
Zexion: I didn't realize…
Axel: *kisses zexys shoulder*
Vexen: yes stress can affect you a lot…so about that choice you had to make…I see you chose axel…
Zexion: *blushes*…yes…I did…
Axel: *hugs him*
Vexen: *sighs a bit* well…be careful I guess…zexion did you bite your lip? It looks a tad red.
Zexion: oh uh…yes…
Axel: *looks down*
Vexen: *stands and gets close* Zexion…that's a burn…*looks at axel angrily*
Zexion: *closes his eyes preparing to be scolded*
Axel: vexen I don't know what happened it just…*looks down*
Vexen: *sighs a bit* howed it happen?
Zexion: it well…um…
Axel: I licked his lip…and it burned him…I don't know how it happened…
Vexen: it can be a few things…A. Zexion makes you lose control. B. you heat up more because your so attracted to him…C. you're an ass hole that enjoys his : im hoping it isn't "c"
Axel: its not…I hate to see you hurt…*moves his head across his shoulder lovingly*
Vexen: im going to tell you to work on your control….*crosses his arms* or ill beat the control into you…you wont hurt him…ever…
*axel freezes at the word beat*
Zexion: *looks at vexen like "don't say that!"*
Vexen: it got him to think now didn't it…*glares at axel* I will…so beware…
Axel: *burries his face in zexions shoulder a bit and doesn't say anything, which is strange*
Zexion: *sighs*…what do you suggest I do for the stress?
Vexen: stress balls, excersize, drawing, reading, music, but most importantlu talk to someone about it…
Zexion: okay…thank you…I'm afraid to brush my hair though…
Vexen: I would just run a wide toothed comb through it in the mourning, just to tame it…
Zexion: *nods* …thank you…
Vexen: no problem…*axel helps Zexion down and goes to stand but vexen slams him to the table* I swear to god if he gets hurt I will beat you…tourture you…I will kill you in the most painful way I can think of. Do you understand? *sounds all growly*
Axel: *eyes widen and nods*
*vexen throws him out of his lab*
Zexion: im so sorry!
Axel: *blinks a few times and just watches the door, looks like hes not really there*
Zexion: *hugs him tightly*
Axel: *makes a small gasp and snakes his arms around Zexion and squeezes abit* terrifying….
Zexion: I'm sorry..he's…really protective…
Axel: its…its okay…just…*takes a deep breath* I had a flashback…its…its nothing…
Zexion: im sorry…
Axel: its not your fault…im fine see? *pulls back and gives him a very small smile*
Zexion: okay…*sighs a little*
Axel: don't worry so much…*kisses his forhead*
Zexion: obviously…I really need to stop worrying….
Axel: yes…and the best way to do that is a warm bath…sadly without me. *small smile*
Zexion: *smiles*…well would you like to run the water for me?
Axel: *small smile* sure. *takes his hand as they start walking to zexys room*
Zexion: *clings to his arm*
Axel: *brings him into a close hug type walk* you know how much I love you?
Zexion: *nods* a lot…
Axel: A lot a lot…*sighs a bit contently* this feels…so good…
Zexion: *smiles* what does?
Axel: you…me…hugging…kissing…*snuggles against him a bit* loving eachother…it feels…perfect…
Zexion: it does…it really does…
Axel: *leans over and kisses him momentarily* *they open zexions door and go into the bathroom* I bet bubbles would make this bath better!
Zexion: *smiles* its possible. *starts to take off his shirt but realizes his ribs are showing*
Axel: *looks at Zexion after turning on the faucet* Zexion…take off your shirt…
Zexion: *shakes head*
Axel: *pulls him into his lap and bounces his knees a bit* Zexion don't worry about me judging you…I make mystakes to…let me be there for you…
Zexion: *closes his eyes*…okay…*slowly takes off his shirt*
Axel: *eyes are drawn to his ribs* its okay…itll be okay…*wraps his arms around him tightly*
Zexion: i…didn't even notice before…I guess…ignorance is bliss…
Axel: *runs a hand down his stomach* it is…*kisses his neck lightly*
Zexion: *shivers lightly*
Axel: *presses zexions back to axels chest and rests his head on his shoulder and starts moving his hands randomly across his stomach and chest*
Zexion: *breath hitches and he arches his back*
Axel: *tolts zexions face to the side and kisses him shourtly while axels hands find zexions sides and runs his hands up them*
Zexion: inhales sharply and gasps lightly* mnn….
Axel: don't hesitate to tell me to stop…*runs hands across his lower back and then back across his lower tummy and up*
Zexion: p-please stop…sorry…
Axel: *wraps arms around him and hugs him close* don't be sorry…this kind of thing is still new to you…*smiles*
Zexion: thank you…I always get worried that if I tell someone to stop…they wont…
Axel: *nuzzles his shoulder* if you say it,. Its done I promise…now I will leave you alone to bathe in peace. *shuts the water off*
Zexion: *smiles and stands* thank you axel…
Axel: *kisses him lightly* no, thank you. *smiles and exits the room and makes a portal to his own*
Xigbar: *laying on his bed* sup sweetcheeks?
Axel: Xigbar! Your going to get your germs all over my bed! Get off it right now!
Xigbar: awe I don't have germs! Don't be a buttwipe!
Axel: don't be a buttwipe! *mocks him and bends to get clothes out of the dresser*
Xigbar: hmm? I like this view! *wiggles eyebrows*
Axel: *makes a face and pulls out flannel pj's* why are you here? *sigh*
Xigbar: I'm soooooooo bored!...so…your single now?
Axel: *smiles and blushes* no…im not single anymore…
Xigbar: what? That was fast! Who'd ya get?
Axel: *plays with his own hand* well…I um…*coughs* Zexion. *loving smile creeps onto his face at the mention of his name*
Xigbar: WHAT? How on earth did you manage that? That's not fair!
Axel: I don't know…its not like I deserve him…*face gets a bit somber*
Xigbar: oh my god…shut up. You are the envy of the organization right now…
Axel: *gives him a strange look* because everyone wants Zexion…well tuff shit hes mine…
Xigbar: chyeah…I get that…but it doesn't mean im gunna lay off either of you!
Axel: *eyes widen a bit and then they turn into a glare*
Xigbar: *glares back*…careful axel…hes quite little…and delicate…he'll break easily…
Axel: *slouches a bit and sits next to him* I know…*looks down and away* I already burnt him…it wasn't bad but…*grips his own leg tightly* it kills me to know I did that…
Xigbar: and you'll do it again…I can assure you…
Axel: I don't want to hurt him Xigbar…*stands and starts to pace* he means so much to me…I cant keep hurting him…I just cant…
Xigbar: hey…listen…your power is fire…its hard to control. The fact is…you have a hard time controlling yourself around him. You are going to hurt him…you need to realize that. I can also tell you…that Zexion will still love you…
Axel: theres got to be soe way around it…*continues to pace* *holds out fingers and names things off in his head, and Xigbar knows there not healthy ideas* no…no…*ticks off fingers* no…
Xigbar: axel…calm down. I don't know what else to say to you…just…be prepared…
Axel: *pinches the bridge of his nose* its not fair…its…just not fair…
Xigbar: *shrugs* I cant help you there..*warps away*
Axel: *just watches him leave* jerk…*grabs his flannel pants and puts the, on along with a beater and goes to zexions room*
Zexion: *sitting on the bed*…you were gone a lone time…
Axel: Xigbar was in my bed…and I talked to him a bit…*small sigh and sits next ti him* I don't know why I confide in him…
Zexion: *shrugs* the bath was nice…
Axel: im glad. *small smile* you look fresh…glowing. *smiles and scoots a bit closer to him*
Zexion: *smiles at him* thanks.
Axel: no problem zexy it's the truth…*takes one of his hands and just sits there holding it*
Zexion: why do you seem so…sad Axel?
Axel: I told him…I burned you and he said its…going to happen again…and again bit he said youll still love me *takes the arm that's connected to his and puts it around his shoulder so hes hugging Zexion* I just don't understand how…
Zexion: because…you make me so happy…youre my best friend and you understand me. I love you.
Axel: *tilts zexions head up and kisses him gently and moves so there laying down*
Zexion: *moans lightly and deepens the kiss*
Axel: *moves his hands up his sides and moves so he is ontop*
Zexion: *gasps lightly and arches up to axel*
Axel: *grinds his hips a little and pins zexions hands above his head and deepens the kiss firther*
Zexion: *makes a soft whimper noise and his body tenses*
Axel: *doesn't really comprehend at first but after a very shourt moment he parts and looks at him* what…..
Zexion: *eyes are closed and he is crying* st-stop!
Axel: *lets go of him and sees his wrosts and lips* I didn't…*jumps off of him and sits him up* I'm so sorry I didn't…I *starts crying himself*
Zexion: *holds his wrists near his stomach and doubles over a bit*
Axel: *kneals infront of him* Zexion im so sorry!
Zexion: *manages to look up at him, his eyes slightly watery*…its okay…
Axel: *shakes his head* no…no its not…*a more tears run down his own cheeks but brings his hand back not trusting himself*
Zexion: *pulls his wrists out and looks at them*..mnn…Axel…im not mad.
Axel: you may not be…but I am…*pinches the bridge of his nose* you don't even want to get even…it doesn't seem fair…*closes his eyes*
Zexion: get even?
Axel: *nods a bit but wont look at him*
Zexion: axel…I wouldn't do that…
Axel: you-you should want to! *sits* I thought that's how everone is supposed to be…*shakes his head a bit, not looks at him, ashamed*
Zexion: *frowns* no that's not true! Please look at me…
Axel: *shakes his head no* I don't…deserve to even look at you…
Zexion: please…*sounds like hes about to cry*
Axel: *finally looks up into his face as more tears pour down*
Zexion: I love you…
Axel: *small smile and closes his eyes* I love you…and I know what I have to do…to keep you happy…**takes his hand*
Zexion: but…I am happy…I don't understand…
Axel: *shakes his head a bit* don't worry about it…*kisses the burn on his wrist* I need to go speak with vexen…ill be back very soon…don't fall asleep, because ill be back I promise…
Zexion: *looks at him confused as he leaves*…*goes to the bathroom and runs his wrist under cold water*
Axel: *walks determined to vexens lab* vexen…I need a favor…youll like this favor a lot…
Vexen: and what is that?
Axel: I need you to…*gulps a bit* freeze my core…
Vexen: *smirks*…im assuming this is for Zexion…
Axel: who else would it be for! *takes a deep breath* just get it over with…
Vexen: *smiles* …I will do this gladly *puts his hand on axels stomach and with one breath forces ice into axels core extinguishing the fire*
Axel: *gasps and forces down a scream and he goes a bit limp against the table* *heavy breathing*Vexen: you are going tofeel very cold and weak for a while. If you want the fire back…you'll have to reignite it yourself…now…leave…
Axel: *keeps his hands on his stomach and opens a portal to zexionsroom and stumbles through it and collapses on his knees near the bed with a groan*
Zexion:*jumps a bit and runs to him* axel?
Axel:*seems pail and doesn't have the glow he used to* cold…very cold…*starts to shiver*
Zexion: *eyes widen* axel why are you so cold…why do you look so different…what did you do?
Axel: *moves his hands to reveal lingering frost* it was…put out…*shivers*
Zexion: *looks him in the eye* …vexen did this to you? Axel!
Axel: I asked him to…I couldn't…hurt you anymore…*closes his eyes* it was the only way…
Zexion: *puts his hand on axels stomach8 no! we have to relite it! Ill get a blanket! *goes to get up*
Axel: *pulls him down and whispers* no…I did this…because I want to…and…a blanket wont fix it…it takes a lot more then that…
Zexion: *looks about to cry*
Axel: *pulls him close* shh…don't cry…please don't cry…
Zexion: *a couple of tears fall* I didn't want you to do that…
Axel: *strokes his hair* well I did…*kisses his cheek* now I wont burn you…is okay…don't cry…
Zexion: *chokes on a sob*…its not…
Axel: yes it is…*snuggles against him* I wont hurt you…we can snuggle without worry…I can kiss you without burning…
Zexion: I didn't care!...i still love you no matter what…
Axel: but…I didn't love me…I was so …frustrated…just…let me try this…
Zexion: *shivers a bit* …fine…
Axel: im sorry…if it doenst work…you can help me…relight it…it will hurt…
*shakes his head* u just want you to be happy…
Axel: I am happy…as long as im with you..*snuggles against him*
Zexion: *sighs*…you didn't have to change for me axel…
Axel: but…I did…and its done…*kisses his cheek*
Zexion: *clings to him a bit*…don't do things like this anymore…
Axel: *nuzzles his shoulder* I wont…I promise…are…are you mad?
Zexion: yes…a little bit…
Axel: do you want to punish me? *chuckles a little and kisses his shoulder*
Zexion: no axel…*just leans against him*
Axel: *holds him close* tiered…*rests his head on zexions shoulder*
Zexion: then…lets sleep…
Axel: *picks him up long enough to set him on the bed and just collapses next to him* I love you...
Zexion: I love you too…now go to sleep…
Axel: *snuggles up against him and wraps his ar,s around him and quickly falls asleep*
Zexion: *curles up and falls asleep against him*