Hey guys, so this has been on my mind for a really long time, and I can't believe it has actually come to this, but I'm putting HPIHT on an indefinite Hiatus. I really don't want to do this, I'm actually shaking while writing this AN because I really love this book with all my heart. If you guys want to see my reasons for why I'm stopping progress on this story, you guys can read on after this paragraph, if you don't care for the reasons, just know that this story will probably never be updated again.
Kay, for all of you that actually really cared for this story and really looked forward to each chapter I post, let me give you my reasons, because you guys deserve to know.
My First reason is that I don't even really care that much for Merlin anymore. It was a fun series to watch, but not one I cared too much about. I lost interest completely in the fandom about a month ago.
My second reason is that some people like to ruin things for others. I recently started to get pretty rude reviews on this story, some make me feel like I am personally being attacked. They're all mostly guest reviews, so when I get then I can just delete them and move on, but they stick in my mind. It has come to the point where I actually feel like I'm going to throw up every time I get an email saying someone had reviewed on this story. I hate it. I hate how five hundred people like this story, yet the reviews of a small dozen is making me feel like this.
My third reason is that it doesn't feel like I'm writing this for fun anymore. It feels like a job, and it's something I literally have to force myself to do every week, and I'm getting a bit sick of it. I don't want to do that to myself anymore, it's causing me more stress than it's worth.
My fourth reason, is a problem that has been present since the beginning. This book is not planned out. You can tell by the first ten chapters. There's so many plot holes and stuff I skipped over because I was too lazy to actually sit down and plan the book. I have been writing improvised up until a few chapters ago. I have no clue where exactly this story will go (or would have gone). I just have small ideas that I connect sloppy bridges to as a go along. I hate how it is like that. I'm a better writer now, and a better planner. I hate how my most popular story is one that I made up because I was bored, I hate how I have no clue where it's going and that scares me most of all. I always fear that every single chapter I update, I will lose you guys, and I don't want to deal with that stupid fear anymore.
The only reason I haven't given up on this story earlier is because of three of you. Loki, Talna, and Koala. Loki and Koala, you two have given me the most sweetest and nicest reviews, to the point where I actually feel like I know you guys. Talna, you have been my beta for a long time and you're the main reason I'm the kind of writer I am today, and I like chatting with you whether it's 2am here or 2am there (silly time zones). I hope you guys know that I really appreciate you, and Koala, I'm so glad you're following Interaction, even though I don't reply the reviews on that series, I love reading yours.
So, this all being said, I guess this is goodbye. Maybe someday I will continue this story, but at this point I really doubt it. I don't know how I feel about someone adopting this story, but if someone is interested, PM me and we can talk it out. I can tell you some of the plot points I planned on making. Same thing with you readers, if you guys are curious of how I planned to end this story just ask me, because I have no problems telling you them.
I have other stories I'm writing if you guys are curious. Interaction is the one in probably going to focus all my attention on now, if you guys like Spider-Man and Avenger fluff that's the story for you. Yeah. I'm just stopping this story, not writing in general.
Anyway, don't want to drag this on because I doubt many of you even care. I love all of you guys that do care. This was a fun adventure, but it was one I don't think I'm strong enough to see all the way through.
Bye~
-Jin