Beautiful Disaster Chapter 21: PaperDoll, an instant star fanfic

Chapter 19

PaperDoll

Exactly an hour later the psychiatrists came and gathered everyone into Jude's room. Everyone congregated around Jude's hospital bed, waiting for the results.

"Miss Harrison, "The woman looked around the room "and company, we have reached a conclusion."

"In the case of Jude Harrison." one of the men spoke up

"Hello! I'm a person, that's right here. Thank you very much." Jude huffed

"Well, Jude, we've come to a decision that both physically and mentally you are ready to go. You have a clean bill of health. But before you go we will have to prescribe you with some anti-depressants, and therapy once a week." The other man stated. The men and woman walked out of the room and went straight to Dr. Lennon's office.

"Wow." Jude said plainly "Well as soon as I get out of here, can we go to the studio, PLEEEASE" she begged Tommy

"Yeah, I guess. And actually while we're there I want you to hear some things."

"Alright." Dr. Lennon walked in and told her that she could go. He handed her the prescriptions, and the card when her first therapy appointment would be. Everyone filed out of the hospital room still processing everything. Jude got dressed and walked out to see everyone still sitting and staring blankly. "Hello people, anyone here?" They all looked up at her "Ummm ok? Didn't you hear them; I'm fine… let's go to that little diner down the street and catch up. Tell me what I've missed."

"Alright" "I'm for it" "Let's go" were some of the replies heard. They all left the hospital and got into their separate cars. A few minutes later everybody arrived at the small 24-hour diner. They got a table and started to talk. Victoria, who had been silent almost the whole time, finally spoke up.

"Jude, Honey I think there's something that you should know."

"umm ok what?"

"Well Jack, Dr. Lennon, and I are getting married. And Sadie is still living with us. I didn't press charges."

"Hold on, What! She's not in jail? Even after…" Jude stopped mid-sentence. She was livid; she couldn't believe that even after everything Sadie had done she had still managed to stay out of jail. Jude got up and stormed out of the diner. Tommy looked at Victoria with the same angry expression everyone else wore. He was the only one to speak though.

"How could you! You heard Sadie confess that she helped Mike! Sadie is part of the reason Jude was in the damn hospital in the first place! I can't even look at you right now." Tommy got up and pounded out of the diner to find Jude. Inside the diner he heard Shay yelling at Victoria. When Tommy found Jude she was in the alley behind the restaurant. It looked as if a hurricane had passed through; Tommy knew Jude had trashed the place. Now Jude was sitting with her back against the wall writing furiously. Tommy cleared his throat and sat down beside her. She looked up at him and hugged him tightly.

"Tommy let's go to the studio, I just wrote something that I really want to record."

"Ok." They treaded to the Viper and got in. Speeding to the studio, Jude was still writing. They got into the studio and Jude started looking around nostalgically. "Jude you wanna record?"

"Yea, ok." They both headed into the studio and Jude grabbed her guitar. She glided her hands over it gently before putting the strap over her shoulder. Playing around with a few chords, she found the chords she wanted and gave Tommy the green light to start recording.

I Look At her In That Paper Dress.
I Wonder Why She Won't Burn.
She's Just A Paper Doll, That's All, Just A Paper Doll.
I Dress Her Up She Knocks Me down

I Dress Her Up She Knocks Me down

I Dress Her Up She Knocks Me down
They Try Her On For Size, she Fits Nice.
One Size Fits All

One Size Fits All

One Size Fits All
Now Her Soul Is Dead, Now Her Bodies Raw, You Can Numb Her Pain
Watch The Blood Run Down Her Face.
But Don't Take Notice.
Watch The Blood Run Down Her Arms.
Please Don't Take Notice.
I Know You Have Her Soul.
(And) I See It In Your Eyes.
She Knows You Have Her Soul.
(And) She Sees It In Your Eyes.
Now Her Soul Is Dead, Now Her Bodies Raw, WASH AWAY HER PAIN
She Wants You To Eat Her Pain.
She Wants You To Eat Her Remains

She Wants You To Eat Her Remains

When she was done she looked up at Tommy. He was standing up and clapping, giving her a standing ovation. She chuckled slightly and ran into the booth where Tommy was. When she reached him she was beaming, she reached up and jumped on him, wrapping him in a warm embrace. Tommy opened his mouth to say something but Jude stopped him with a passionate kiss. 'Oh, god how I've missed this' was the thought that ran across both of their minds. Jude pulled away, when Tommy was about to say something again she put one finger over his mouth to shush him.

"Don't say anything. I don't want to talk about it right now okay."

"Are you sure?"

"Completely. Let's go back home."

"Ok." They hopped into the Viper and went home. Tommy parked the car, got out, and opened Jude's door for her. He picked her up and carried her into the house. That night they made love for the first time in a long time. It was as if it was their first time. The next morning Jude woke up with Tommy's arms tight around her. He was already awake. "Good morning"

"Mmm, mornin'."

"Come on, I want you to see and hear something." Tommy grabbed Jude's hand and led her into his mini-studio. "Close your eyes." Jude did as she was told "Now hold out your hands" Jude obeyed and Tommy laid his CD in her hands. "Ok Now open up." Jude looked at what was placed in her hands. She read the title aloud

"Without You. By Tom Quincy. OH MY GOD! YOUR SOLO ALBUM! OH MY GOD! That's wonderful."

"Now listen to it." Jude popped the CD into the stereo. The first track was 'Fiction (Dreams In Digital), the second was 'Ghost of You and Me'...etc. The CD was filled with ballads of a lost love, rock ballads of missing something in your life. All in all it was a gut-wrenching, depressing album. One of Jude's favorites was track number 12 'Without You." The title track it was slow and full of pain.

I've sure enjoyed the rain
but I'm looking forward to the sun
You have to feel the pain
when you lose the love you gave someone
I thought by now the time
would take away these lonely tears
I hope you're doing fine all alone,
but where do I go from here 'cause

Without you I'm not okay
And without you
I've lost my way
My heart's stuck
in second place ooh
Without you

Well I never thought I'd be
lying here without you by my side
It seems unreal to me that
the life you promised was a lie
You made it look so easy
making love into memories
I guess you got what you wanted
but what about me 'cause

Without you I'm not okay
And without you
I've lost my way
My heart's stuck
in second place ooh
Without you

Somebody tell my head to try to tell my heart
That I'm better off without you
'Cause baby I can't live

Without you I'm not okay
And without you
I've lost my way
My heart's stuck
in second place ooh
Without you...Without you

Her second favorite 'Tonight I wanna Cry' was just as slow and just as sad. It was track number 13

Alone in this house again tonight
I got the TV on, the sound turned down and a bottle of wine
There's pictures of you and I on the walls around me
The way that it was and could have been surrounds me
I'll never get over you walkin' away

I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let got of my pain
To hell with my pride, let it fall like rain
From my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry

Would it help if I turned a sad song on
"All By Myself" would sure hit me hard now that you're gone
Or maybe unfold some old yellow lost love letters
It's gonna hurt bad before it gets better
But I'll never get over you by hidin' this way

The last notes of the guitar played as the song and the CD ended. Jude was in tears. When she spoke her voice was shaky. "It was wonderful. I loved it. I didn't know that I caused you so much pain though. I'm so sorry."

"Don't be, you gave me inspiration to do my solo album, which I've been wanting to do for years." Tommy was about to continue but the phone rang. It was EJ "Hey EJ, what's up?"

"Tell Jude that we're having a party for her and to be here by noon."

"Umm, Do you think that's a good idea?"

"As a matter of fact I do."

"Ok, well I'll ask Jude if she's up for it." He pulled away from the phone and hollered at Jude "OK we'll be there."

"YAY! ok I'll see you then." EJ rushed off the phone excitedly as Tommy rolled his eyes. Tommy and Jude spent the day together then rushed to the studio. For the party Jude was in a black strapless floor-length dress. It had a corset top, with ribbons. The bottom was black lace with rose patterns, behind it was pure black silk. She wore her hair up and a black choker with a cross and slender chains that draped around her shoulders.

Jude walked down the stairs and was greeted by Tommy who was in a black tux with a dark blue tie. The gorgeous pair walked further down the stairs into the crowded room together into the night. They were sure it was going to be a good night. Nothing could go wrong, or so they thought.