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Wow this story is just crazy how many people like it! 128 alerts! I mean wow never in a million years would I have thought I would write a story with that many people having it on alert O.o if everyone reviewed that'd be a whole lot of reviews O.o anywho thanks so much to all those who are reading! Only about 7 chappies left O.o these may go fast and for that I'm sorry!
Thank this chappie on me being bored in Spanish class because really that's when it was written XD
Chapter 21: Bleeding Love
"A boy loves you because he needs you. A man needs you because he loves you." Author Unknown
The raven sat in his temporary room. He didn't want to see Neji, and he didn't want to see Naruto, he didn't want to talk to anyone with a name that started with a N.
He wanted to hit something, or maybe more so he wanted someone to hit him, he wanted to feel some kind of pain other than emotional, anything that would make the pain his heart was feeling go away. His heart felt like he had betrayed Naruto, in a sense that he had done him wrong, but he knew that technically he did nothing wrong. He didn't cheat, he didn't want the kiss – sure he kissed back but he thought of Naruto the whole time that was the only reason he wanted the kiss, when his mind stopped playing tricks on him, he pushed the brunette away. For some reason he still felt as though he had betrayed him, and he didn't want to see him nor the brunette, it was all too confusing.
Sasuke fell asleep that night with his mind going crazy. All he knew was that he was sick of feeling useless, like he had to have someone; he was going to pick himself up.
…..
The next morning, Sasuke woke up with a pair of, practically, white eyes staring at him,
"Good morning," Neji said with a small smile.
"Uh, hi," Sasuke said as he sat up, not looking directly at the brunette.
"Sleep well?" the brunette asked.
"Yeah, I guess," Sasuke said as he continued to avoid his eyes.
"I think we need to talk about last night," Neji said as he walked over to the raven.
"Yeah, about that," Sasuke said, looking even further away.
"I shouldn't have kissed you," Neji said as he got closer than the raven liked.
"No, you really shouldn't have, I told you before that I didn't, you know, like you," Sasuke said as he moved further from the brunette.
"You kissed back," Neji said sadly.
"You took advantage of the state I was in," Sasuke accused.
"I was just trying to make you feel better! I mean why did you even come to me?"
"I didn't know who else to turn to. Maybe I should just leave," Sasuke said sadly.
"No, please, don't, you're welcome here, you don't have to leave, I won't touch you anymore," Neji said as he looked down.
"I'm sorry, I'm just not ready for something like that," Sasuke said as he brought his legs to his chest, wrapping his arms around them.
"But there's a chance?" Neji asked, though they both knew it was probably a sense of false hope.
"I don't know, I have to figure some things out," Sasuke said as he looked away, hating his feeling of weakness.
"I talked to him last night," Neji said as he bit his bottom lip.
"Why?" Sasuke asked with widened eyes.
"Well, I just wanted to make sure that he wouldn't do anything more to hurt you."
"What did you say to him?" Sasuke asked getting angrier.
Neji was about to answer, but was cut of by the door bell, 'Saved by the bell.' Though, he didn't know that the door bell would make it all worse.
Naruto woke up, he ended up falling asleep that night angry and therefore woke up angry. He wanted to punch Neji and punch him hard. Since he wasn't in the right frame of mind, his "friend" Kyuubi came out to play.
'Kill him. He kissed your man, so kill him.'
'Shut up, this is your fault to begin with,' Naruto snapped as he started to get changed.
'I'm a part of you; therefore it's your fault.'
Naruto let out a growl, with Sasuke not around, Kyuubi seemed to com out a lot more.
'Fine, just go talk to him then!'
'Fine!'
Naruto finished getting dressed and made his way to the Hyuuga household.
Neji opened the door and was met with two blue orbs staring at him.
"Naruto, what do you want?" Neji said bitterly.
"I want to talk to him," the blonde growled out.
"Him? I'm sorry I don't know who you're talking about," Neji said in an innocent tone.
The blonde growled and Kyuubi took over, he pounced onto the brunette and they tumbled to the ground. Punches were trying tot be thrown and they both knew it was a fight that was bound to happen.
The raven walked into the room to find the two boys rolling around, trying to beat each other to a pulp. "STOP IT!" Sasuke yelled, fuming over the situation.
The two boys stopped, wide eyes, quickly getting off each other, acting innocent.
"What were you two thinking?" he asked trying to keep his cool.
"I came to talk to you but he wouldn't let me," Naruto said, glaring at the brunette.
"I didn't think that you'd want to see him," Neji explained.
Sasuke's head started to ache, the two people that he didn't want to see in the same room, it just wasn't his day.
"Naruto, go outside and I'll meet you out there," Sasuke said as he massaged his temples, trying to get his headache to disappear.
The blonde nodded before heading out of the house, not wanting the raven to have time to change his mind.
Neji gave the raven a questioning look, "Why are you going to talk to him?"
"When I left, I didn't give him a chance to explain, so now I am." The raven turned to leave, but paused, "And please don't decide for me who I can and can't see, I'm ld enough to decide that for myself."
"Sorry," Neji mumbled.
The raven walked out of the house, the blonde was leaning against the large pole that held the roof up.
"Hey," Naruto said.
"Hi," Sasuke responded as he stood awkwardly near the blonde.
"Can we talk…somewhere else?" Naruto asked unsure, though didn't fail to notice the noise brunette peeking out the window.
The raven just nodded and they started to walk away from the large house in awkward silence.
"So?" Sasuke said, waiting for the blonde to start the conversation.
"Listen, I'm sorry for what happened between us, and I have a reason, but I don't want you to think that I'm crazy," Naruto said as he bit his bottom lip.
The raven looked at him, curiously, "What is it then?"
"Remember when I told you about my family?"
"Yeah?"
"Well, growing up with out parents and in an orphanage, well I kind of went a little crazy and, well, there started to be this voice in my head."
"What does this have to do with what happened?" Sasuke asked, slightly annoyed.
"Well, I used to have it under control, but the voice has kind of come back, and well, I kind of listened to it," The blonde said as he played with the hem of his shirt.
"The voice told you to kiss Gaara?" Sasuke asked doubtfully.
"You don't believe me?" Naruto asked sadly.
"Why didn't you tell me then?"
"I didn't want you to think that I'm crazy."
"It still doesn't make up for the fact that you cheated."
"I know, but it was just seeing him and breaking up the past, mixed with the voice in my head, it was really hard to ignore."
They continued to talk as they got the park, "What else does the voice tell you."
"To kill Neji and Orochimaru," Naruto chuckled. "But all those times you were by me so I didn't, you stopped me from it." Sasuke stopped walking, "What did Neji tell you last night?"
"He told me that you were moving on from me, that you kissed him," Naruto said as he looked down.
"He lied to you," Sasuke said softly.
"What?" Naruto asked with hopeful eyes.
"He kissed me, but I certainly haven't had time to move on," the raven mumbled.
"What was that?" the blonde teased with a smile.
"You heard me," Sasuke said.
"Do you think that you could forgive me?"
Sasuke bit his bottom lip, "Maybe."
"Just a maybe?"
"Well if you like to listen to that voice," Sasuke said sadly. "Then who's to say you won't cheat on me again because of it?"
"I know that I hurt you, but…"
The raven cut the blonde off, "Hurt me? The one time that I thought that I had found someone who'd only protect me, never hurt, and you went and did that! Saying you hurt me is an understatement," Sasuke said as he looked at the ground, momentarily losing control of his emotions.
"I never meant to hurt you," Naruto said as he looked at the raven.
"I know, but that still doesn't make it hurt less."
"I know, but could I prove to you that I wouldn't hurt you again?"
"Naruto, when we broke up, I realized something."
"What?"
"I realized that I need to pick myself up this time, and I don't think that we can work until I do. Last time I needed you to pick me up, but I don't want our relationship to be based on that, I don't want to need you to be there for me to be okay, I don't want to need you to make it so I don't cut, I want you to be there because I love you not because I need you."
The blonde looked down, "I understand, but what if we just take it slow?"
"I don't know," Sasuke said in an unsure tone.
"Please, I love you, I don't want to lose you," Naruto said as he made the raven look at him.
Sasuke felt his heart beat faster as he looked in the eyes that he couldn't refuse, "We can try, but slowly, no moving in together, no sex, nothing that moves too fast."
Naruto nodded, pulling the raven to him, into a hug, not a kiss, nothing that may make the raven think anything was going to fast.
"Are you sure that this is a good idea?" Ino asked as she sat across from Sasuke. He wasn't sure why, but she had become a good friend to him, and he felt he could trust her even if she was a big gossip, she promised to leave him out of it, plus she was one of few that even knew about their break up and the cheating.
"I know that he cheated, but we're going to work it out," Sasuke said as she gave him an unsure smile.
"I still think maybe you should take more time."
"I love him too much," Sasuke said as he looked down at his tea he was currently drinking.
They were sitting in a small café, she was drinking coffee, and he was drinking tea. He had called her; he needed to talk to someone.
"Maybe that's the problem, you can't love someone more than yourself, that's unhealthy."
"I never said that, it's just I feel so different with him, I don't want to lose it."
"Sasuke, you're crazy."
"I don't care, I love him, if I keep pushing him away, I don't know if I can make it."
"You love him because you need him."
"I need him because I love him, there's a big difference."
"No you don't, if you needed him because you love him, then you wouldn't love him just because you feel that he saved you."
"You don't understand, with him it's different, he listens to me, he understands me, that's how he saved me, he saved me because I fell in love with him, I didn't fall in love with him because he saved me."
"If you say so," Ino said as she stood up "But I have to go, you should probably tell your other lover boy."
"Who?" Sasuke asked as he raised an eye brow.
"Neji, genius."
"Whatever," Sasuke said as he got up while rolling his eyes.
"One last thing," Ino said, causing the raven to pause.
"What?"
"Don't let him break your heart this time."
He gave a small, almost nonexistent smile, "He won't."
"For someone so unsure about it, you sound confident about that sentence.
"Hn," was all he said as he walked away.
Sasuke sat across from a wide eyed brunette, "YOU WHAT?"
"We're back together," Sasuke said, avoiding eye contact.
"But, why?" Neji asked angrily.
"Because I love him."
"He cheated on you!"
"You don't know the whole story."
"He's just going to break your heart again."
"We're taking it slow, and he won't do it again," Sasuke said, defensively.
"How do you know?"
"Because, I just do," Sasuke said as he stood up from his place on the Hyuuga's couch.
"So what are you leaving then, are you going to go back to living with him?"
"No, not yet," Sasuke said as he looked at the brunette.
'So there is still time to win him over,' Neji thought as he said, "He's just going to break your heart."
"It'll hurt more with out him."
The fact was Sasuke loved the blonde, he loved his embrace, he loved his kisses, he love the way he made him feel, he love the way that he made everything okay, he loved the way that no matter what the blonde could make him smile, and he loved the way the blonde truly loved him.
"You can try to tell me that I'm crazy, you can try to tell me that he'll hurt me, but I don't care."
"In other words he's like that annoying insect you just can't seem to get rid of," Neji, accidentally blurted out, and mentally slapped himself for after doing so.
"He's nothing like that," Sasuke glared before turning down the go to the room he was staying in.
'You're an idiot,' Neji told himself.
Sasuke sat in his room, thinking about that day, how everyone he talk to told him that he was going to get hurt again, yet Naruto seemed so convincing that he wouldn't. He wasn't even sure why he needed reassurance, but he did.
Sasuke knew that he needed to pick himself up, he knew that he needed to not rely on Naruto, he knew that he needed to be able to love and not be only needing someone.
The emotional damage of the day was draining. Everyone had seen how much he really loved the blonde, he had been venerable, and that scared him to death. He was wearing the scars of the relationship for anyone to see, it was written on his face that he hurt when he doubted the blonde, or when someone else did.
'Don't listen to them; it's about what you want. You love him, don't doubt him. Who cares what other people had to say.' He knew that his heart couldn't take closing Naruto out once more.
I don't care what they say I'm in love with you They try to pull me away But they don't know the truth My heart's crippled by the vein That I keep on closing You cut me open and I
Sasuke looked at the ceiling as he lay on the bed. The raven let out a sigh as he thought about the day. He knew that he and Naruto were together, but it wouldn't be the same, Sasuke wouldn't let it. He wanted to be stronger, he wanted to be able to be okay with out Naruto, or more he needed it.
That night Sasuke went to sleep, unsure about his and Naruto's relationship. Unsure of the choice he made. Unsure of the warnings they gave. Unsure of the life he was living. Unsure of everything that was going on.
What he didn't know was that what was to come would test everything and nothing would be the same. Not to long and he'd be eighteen, his world would turn upside down.
TBC…
Song of inspiration: Bleeding Love bye Leona Lewis
Sorry it took so long to post. It may take some time, depending on the tests that I have to take. My doctor wants me to see a Neurologist and Cardiologist so until I find out what's wrong with me, it may take a little longer to post.
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