"Omg omg omg thank you Rose that was incredible, hell you do my job better then what I do" lissa said as soon as we were alone, she practically jumped on me into a bone crushing hug.

After countless signing of paper work the law was passed so me and Lissa just had the press release to do, finally letting the world know of the change. Throughout the next few days everything was quiet, Lissa had roped Jill and Mia into helping to plan my wedding while I stayed away doing anything but staying in the same room as liss. My mother had actually given me a vail, she said it was my great great great great grandmothers and it got passed down to my mother by hers in hopes my mother and father would tie the knot but that never happened so she is giving it to me as my something old. Honestly it was beautiful, it was still pure white as though it had only just been brought, and if you looked closely you could see the detail of a rose vine all around the outside. I couldn't believe when my mother gave it to me, that she trusted me with something with so much family history and meaning, I will wear it knowing that I will always be a Hathaway somewhere inside.

Know don't get me wrong I really want to get married but lissa wants everything to be big and fancy but I wanted something small and simple with family and friends. Dimitri was guarding Christian and they were also hiding from lissa, it had kind of become a game, Dimitri had said that as long as I'm happy and he gets to marry me then he doesn't mind what the wedding is like. We had tried to have some control over our wedding, Dimitri insisted that we went to look at wedding venues but every one that we went to refused to host a pure Dhampire marriage even if I was a princess, so lissa said that she would deal with it. Dimitri said that there was a tradition in his family where the married couple would go out separately and get the wedding bands so they were a complete surprise on the day. I had gone out yesterday to find one but found nothing, everything was awful and nothing felt special enough to symbolise mine and Dimitri's relationship and future together. I was starting to feel like it wasn't meant to be.

Today I felt like hiding out in the gym, messages came through the bond loud and clear, but I ignored them and concentrated on what I was doing. Defending myself whilst pregnant was a lot more important to me then napkin colours. I was trying to learn how to fight but still protect my baby, there was no chance I was putting my baby in harm's way because I'm not good enough. Everyone else however was being very protective, Lissa had given me guardians originally it had been three but I argued with her for almost two hour saying it was pointless because I can fight myself and also it takes guardians off Moroi who actually do need them, finally I agreed to the one who followed me everywhere. It wasn't that bad though because he was my dad's personal guardian and also my half uncle, who I didn't know I had until recently his name was Pavel and he was good. He could also keep a secret if I threatened him which is why he is helping me practice combat without the others finding out.

"So show the move to block my stomach if they come up behind me" he showed it me again then I had a go with him coming up behind me. I finally did it and we continued learning different moves until I started to feel sick, so I decided to pack up and head back to my room to lie down and continue to hide from lissa.

However I wasn't so lucky, I forgot that being queen meant she could get the key to any room including mine. I walked in and put my bag down, Lissa, Jill and Mia were sitting on the floor surrounded in wedding magazines, notes and my vail they really were mad about planning this wedding.

"Rose! Come sit and help, we have 3 dresses for you to choose from and they are all beautiful" lissa said. I didn't let my face show it but my heart felt a tug, I wanted to pick my own dress something simple that Dimitri would like, but she was queen and my best friend so I bit my tongue and went to sit down. The dresses that they had picked were a work of art and an explosion all in one, the first was a champagne colour with frills and bows at the top then the bottom flared out into a meringue style, it was awful. The second wasn't much better it still had frills, bow and a puffy skirt but it was white. The final one was the best out of the three despite being hideous, being fluffy the skirt on the dress was bigger than the other two but there was no frills or bows only a lot of sequins, they just didn't get it none of them were me they were dresses that were made for the 18th century or the circus.

"Well what do you think? Personally I think you should go with the second one but Mia said the third one and Jill said the first but it's your choice out of the three" lissa said happily but the other two disagreed with what she said. They started to argue about everything, colour, theme, flowers every little detail, that's when I realised this wasn't my wedding they were planning for it was theirs it just so happened I was the one that was going to say 'I do'.

Dimitri, Christian and Eddie came in and saw the scene before them, all three girls hadn't noticed the boy's arrival because they were too busy arguing. The boy's stood there not knowing what to do and neither did I the argument was getting heated and now also included who was going to be my maid of honour, I hadn't even thought about it. Lissa stood up and knocked over her coffee all over all over m vail, she gasped and the room stood silent all three looked at me then looked back at my stained family history. And the shouting began again,

"Look what you both made me do"

"Us, you were the one who knocked it over because everything has to be your way" the shouted insult after insult and I couldn't handle it anymore, bringing my fingers up to my lips I let out a piercing whistle which would defiantly have their ears ringing and get their attention. Everybody, including the royal guardians on duty flinched and covered their ears.

"Stop arguing right NOW!" they stood dead still all afraid to even move a finger.

"I allowed you to help plan my wedding because I have no idea how to but you've completely taken over. This was my wedding not yours but its turning into a circus, all I wanted was something small and simple to express to the man I love that I want to spend the rest of my life with him but everything seems to be against this wedding. And now a vail which has been worn by Hathaway's for centuries is ruined because you were being petty and I've had enough…" I sighed and turned to Dimitri, showing all my emotions into that single look.

"Comrade I love you so much but I'm sorry I can't do this it feels like the universe is against us getting married or even being together, every time I give in to the idea of us being happy something ruins it, the rescue mission proves it" tears streamed down my face and Dimitri took hold of my hand but still didn't say anything but I could tell my words were destroying him.

"I will always love you but this feeling I have won't go away and what's worse is our child will grow up wondering what they are because of who their parents are…" I looked down at my left hand and saw how perfectly the ring fitted there but I slide it off and gave it back to him, tears now pouring from both of us.

"Being together shouldn't be this hard, you shouldn't have to fake what our relationship is in public because we are guardians. I want nothing more then to be with you but right now I just don't think it's what the universe wants us to do. I'm sorry." And with that I ran out of the room and out into the night.

Thank you for being patient and sticking with the story, I'm sorry for not updating. I actually want to dedicate this chapter to someone who meant a lot to me so if you ever read this just know its ok, I hope you can be happy now and the universe decided otherwise. Anyway enjoy the chapter :) xx