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Bpov

Back and forth. Back and forth. Back and forth. "Make it stop." Back and forth. Back and forth. "Stop it." I whimpered, still rocking myself while holding onto my knees, surrounded by the darkness of my room in the middle of the night. Sobs tore through my chest as the truth kept echoing through my head.

Rosalie was right. How could I've not seen it? I was a liability to her family. I should have just left them alone, thanked Alice the night she found me and leave their family be. But no, I intruded their family and forced myself upon them. And look where that got me. Rosalie was just kind enough to point out the truth before things got even further out of hand.

"You are just some worthless child, with no friends or family to look after you, using my family to make yourself feel better and special. And my family, good as they are, won't tell you no." "…I don't care that you are Edward's toy…" "And believe me, it's for the better."

Tears streamed from my eyes as those sentences kept repeating themselves in my head. She was completely right. Alice, Edward, Esmé… they all just took pity on me. I knew right from the start that this was way to perfect to be true, and yet I kept intruding into their family further and further, thinking they cared for me, while in fact they just felt sorry for me. Sorry for me always getting into trouble and sorry for to never have had any real parenting.

But I could stop it now. I could stop forcing myself onto them and leave them be, so they wouldn't feel bad when the time came to tell me the truth. That I was just some pathetic child they pitied.

I thought about Edward and Alice. I would probably never see them again and that thought hurt me more than I thought it would. Especially the thought of never seeing Edward again made me feel like someone had just ripped my heart out and stamped on it. More tears left my eyes and my sobbing increased again. How could he have lied to me like that? Told me I was his mate? And Alice. How could she have encouraged me like that? Telling me she had seen me as a member of their family. It isn't their fault entirely. It's mostly your own fault. You were stupid enough to start believing it. Nobody has ever really looked after you properly, why would anybody start now?

That wasn't true. Charlie had tried. And I had pushed him away everytime, hurting him.

Charlie. What would I tell him? Everybody knew I was an aweful liar. Wasn't there any truth I could put into my excuse for not wanting to go to the Cullens? Maybe I could just tell him I feel good enough to try attending school again. No, that would be a bit over the top. I would just have to convince him that I felt I could stay home on my own now and there was no need to bother any of them. My bruise was starting to fade, and I was able to sit up for quiet some time. Another three days or so and would be perfectly fine. Yes, I could tell Charlie that. I really hoped he would buy it.

My rocking had stopped and my tears were lessening and soon I found myself drifting of to sleep, facing the nightmares I knew were awaiting me.

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"Bells, sweetheart. Come on, wake up." I groaned when Charlie shook me awake. "Five more minutes." I mumbled sleepily. I had barely slept a wink last night after Rosalie's visit. And when I did sleep, nightmares consumed me speaking the words Rosalie had spoken to me. Immediately when I thought of this I sat up at the feeling of my heat clenching.

Charlie smiled. I avoided his eyes and carefully planned my words. "Good, you're awake. Now come downstairs and have breakfast. I woke you up a bit earlier so we have enough time to get to the Cullens." I flinched when he said Cullens, but luckily he didn't notice.

"Dad, I don't feel like going to the Cullens today." I told him, still not looking him in the eye. I chose to look at his forehead instead. At his confused look, of which I knew he was giving me, I explained, or well…lied. "I feel good enough to stay home. You can just go to work. I'm sorry I told you so late, but I just don't feel like getting out of bed now and frankly I don't need supervision anymore. I know what I can and cannot do. If anything goes wrong or I don't feel well I will call you immediately." I could see he wasn't buying it, so I added something else. "I really don't feel comfortable with all these people around me. It makes me have headaches. I'm sure Esmé and the rest will understand. I promise you I'll be fine dad."

Charlie still looked a bit suspicious so I decided to put on a blank face and look him in the eye.

"You sure, Bells? The Cullens have taken great care of you the last two days." I nodded my head. "Yeah, I'm sure dad. But if you're really that worried, I'll call you every two hours, okay?"

I finally pulled Charlie over and not much later I heard him on the phone with Esmé. Huh, guess my pokerface did it.

"Yes. We're sorry for the late message." Silence. "Yes, of course." Another silence. "Of course. Bells! Could you come down for a moment? Alice wants to speak with you!" I panicked. What would I do? Suddenly I came up with a plan. I grabbed some of my stuff, and quickly but softly ran to the bathroom and put on the shower. "Sorry dad, but I can't! I was just standing under the shower!" And with that I closed the bathroom door.

I decided that I might as well take a real shower and clean up a little after waking up sweaty from my nightmares. I still heard Charlie talking in the phone, but I couldn't make out any words.

When I came down fifteen minutes later Charlie was about to leave. He turned around when he heard me.

"I cancelled the Cullens. They seemed pretty upset at that, Bells. That Alice girl and that boy Edward really like you and so does Esmé. But I explained that you get headaches when you're around people to much. I promised Alice that you would call her after you took your shower." He fidgeted a bit, but got himself together again and went into the parent mode I never saw. "I'm going to the station now. I want you to stick to your word and call me every two hours, otherwise I'm coming home straight away. And if anything goes wrong, you call me too." He gave me a pointed look. I smiled. He knew how much I was used to taking care of myself. I nodded. His gaze softened and he leaned in to give a peck on my forehead. "See you tonight kiddo. I will pick up some pizzas. You okay with that?" I nodded and he walked out the door. Maybe Rosalie was wrong about Charlie though. He really did seem to care.

I sighed. I looked at the phone. Why had Alice wanted to talk to me? Wasn't it easier like this?

I looked into the cupboards and the fridge, trying to find something to eat. I grabbed the ingredients necessary and made pancakes. When I was done I cleaned the dishes. Now I felt a little dizzy, so I sank down in the kitchen chair near me. Just then, the phone started ringing, making me jump. I looked at it, wide eyed. Was I going to pick it up? What if it was Charlie?

No, he had just left twenty minutes ago. It was better to just leave it ringing.

So that's what I did. I just left the phone ringing and went upstairs to read, but as soon as I opened my book, my mind went haywire. Why had the Cullens tried to call me? It would be a thousand times better if I were gone. Just when I was about to push any thoughts of the Cullens out of my mind, the phone rang again. I had been upstairs for about half an hour and in the meanwhile the phone seemed to have quieted down. Great. What if they decided that they should me a visit to make sure I shut my mouth about vampires? What was I supposed to do then? I could hardly let them stand outside with their vampire strength and all. They would know I was inside and they would want to know why I wasn't answering them.

With all my thinking I had forgotten the ringing phone completely and by the time I realized I still had to do something about that, it was silent again. Out of nowhere my legs started moving, walking downstairs towards the phone. Please don't tell me they…God no…

Yes, they had. They had left messages. Did I want to hear them? Truly, the answer was no. I didn't want to hear them admitting it. Admitting how they pitied me, admitting how I was nothing more but some worthless girl.

What am I going to do now?

I sighed. God, I really am pathetic. I suddenly longed for some chocolate. Or ice. Ben and Jerry ice. Would it be possible that Charlie had any of those here? If he did I would kill him for not sharing it sooner. I started roaming through the freezer. Damn. No such luck.

Chocolate. Maybe I was lucky and Charlie had some chocolate stacked. I started rummaging through the cupboards.

Thank god! For once in my life luck seemed to be on my side. In the third cupboard I opened I found three bars of chocolate and some popcorn. I grabbed one of the bars and put some popcorn in the microwave. Five minutes later I had put Romeo and Juliet on and started on my popcorn and chocolate. Then I realized that the movie only made me sadder. I kept picturing Edward and me there. An impossible love. But he doesn't love you.

Just as I was about to wallow in self-pity a knock on the door pulled me out of it.

I was doubting if whether or not to act my age and call out "Who's there?" but that would be a bit sad. Instead I braced myself and put on the same pokerface I used earlier to call Charlie.

The steps it took to reach the frontdoor seemed the most dreadful steps I had taken in my life. As if I were walking towards my deathbed. How bad can it be? You already know what they're going to tell you. It can't possible be worse then last night.

When I reached the door the person on the other side knocked again. I head voices now. They sure were impatient for creatures who had eternity, but I guess they just didn't want me snooping more time from their magical lives. I took a deep breath and let my hand cover the handle. One movement and I would be face to face with them. Lets just get this over with. Like a band aid. Rip it off quickly so it won't hurt so long…And then you will just eat the rest of the chocolate…Yeah, that's a good plan. Now be a big girl. I straightened my back, pushed my chest forwards and my chin upwards.

I didn't suspect who stood on the other side of the door though and the biggest smile started to grace my face.

Sorry people. I had a testweek and it was tough. I really need to pick up on my schoolwork again or I will fail this year and have to sit it again. Not cool. So I hope you like this chapter. I'm going to talk to my beta after this chapter and ask her what she sees happening further in this story. Also, I'm addicted to reviews! If I get some tonight, I might update once or twice this week again!