-1Disclaimer: I do not own Beyblade. Just the plot, Wednesday and Michelle Marquez.
A/n: Thank-you for the reviews.
Not To Fade Away
Chapter 21: Michelle, Diary III
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12/18
5:12pm
Must pack these things:
-2x coats -2x cardigan -5x singlet -1x
parka -snow shit
-2x jacket -4x leggings -6x jeans -5x pair of
socks -8x long shirts -5x beanies
We leave tomorrow. I pick Hilary up at 8:15am in the morning. In my brand new BMW. It's so hot. The GP's gave it tome as a top-student reward: YER RIGHT! More like, we want you to not live with your mother.
Who, I am mad at. She got up me cause I won't clean my closet out. I hate my room. It's too small for two people. I could move into the attic…. There is nothing in there.
7:25pm
I'm in my new room. Mom gave me the all clear. It took an hour for me, Alicia and mom to move my crap into there. I had a sneezing fit. This is totally cool. Finally at last I get my own room. Alicia asked why I kept every magazine that I owned. It's part of me. I own like 2000 anyway. Man, Melissssaa.
I just fell off the bed. Trying to get to my gum. I haven't spoken to Ray since Thursday night, the night of the dance. Which was just me and him having sex on the oval.
Like always. I don't know anymore. Our relationship is just…. Sex. Great. I have turned into a whore.
12/19
6:34pm
We got here about midday.
Unpacked. Had a snowball fight. Dinner. I'm sharing a room with Ray. I don't feel like it, but everyone else is sharing with their bf/gf's so I thought I had too.
Do I really love him? No.
Should I still be with him? No.
Am I a fool? Yes. A huge one? Yes.
This is wrong. I am moving rooms.
12/19
11:57pm
I did. And Ray asked me why.
"Cause I want some space" is what I said- which is totally true. And then HE glared at me. Wednesday helped me. She said if I really like him, I should stay. I told her everything. She's spending the night in my room. She's so sweet. No wonder why Max likes her.
12/20
1:12pm
Ignored Ray all day so far. Or he's ignoring me. Feel good. Hilary gave my hair a trim. She said I should let it grow. I don't know.
Maybe… I've been thinking. My relationship with Ray isn't the greatest thing. Maybe, we should break-up.
I should.
Later:
I did.
12/21
12:02am
I don't know what I am doing.
I just.
I'm in my car. I've been driving for hours. 8 maybe. Re-filled once. At a diner. I should've been back in Bridge Waters by now. I think I went the other way. I have my cell, gum, my journal and my wallet. That's it.
I ran away. Like a baby. Just like Hilary. I'm useless. I'm just a whore, only good for sex. I don't know what to do anymore. Maybe I should ring them. Tell them where I am. That I'm okay.
1:52am
No reception. Maybe, If I re-trace the way I came.
I'm scared.
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