Please not that dream again. I'm just not getting it. Well maybe this time there will be more to see.
Same old, same old. What am I telling you, Jazz that's making you so mad? And why does Rose fight with you and not me?
'I never asked to be Rose. I won't let that happen!' Wait there's something in your hand.
What? Why is he holding a bib? Did I give you that, but that would mean that I'm …? No way! I can see it now. My hands rest protectively on my slightly plumper belly.
He tears the bib apart and throws it at my feet, before he leaves the house not looking at me once.
Oh my god. What if I'm really and that's not just a dream. We never talked about things like that and remembering what I saw of his past he never was near any kids. He never had a reason to also but still. What if he really thinks like that.
"Bella?" Oh no. He must have felt me and judging and by the look in his eyes he knows it's directed at him. "Bella, love, you alright? What got you …?"
"Nothing! I'll go get ready. Could you tell Rose to wait for me I'll be down in a few and tell Mum I'll get something to eat at the mall, okay?"
He hesitated but went anyway with my fearful gaze following him out the door. Afterwards I grabbed the first outfit I could find, not bothering whether it matched or not and got ready.
I run down the stairs not tripping for once and practically dragged Rose out to the car and hurried her to go.
When we finally reached the parking lot of the mall she stopped the car and looked expectantly at my still crying form. "I know it Rose. My dream. I know what it meant."
"And? It can't be that bad. Whatever it is I think you're surely just over …"
"Oh no. I'm not. Although I know it's not real, it just frightened me to no extend. My 17th birthday is a lame joke compared to that. For me at least. This would hurt me more."
Rose now was looking afraid too. They all knew what happened back then and none of them could think of something more evil, so I told her what happened in my dream, why I was so afraid of Jasper, because with that one sentence he would be able to break me beyond repair.
"Oh my … Okay. First of all is it even possible for you to be pregnant. I mean yes you had sex but you told me you weren't capable to … and he's a vampire after all, so … oh …"
"What? Why are saying 'oh'? That's a bad 'oh', isn't it."
"Well that depends on the way you see it. You remember when we told you about the change and everything and how the venom repairs any damage done to your body.
We never threw in how our saliva isn't the only venomous body fluids.
Maybe that night it wasn't only your psyche that got a bit repaired. Then maybe you weren't really sick this past week but showing first signs."
"Oh god, Rose, what if's this real. I don't know how to tell him. And what if he really reacts like in my dream. We never talked about that. It never was an issue and normally it would never have been. I can't do that. Rose you have to help me, please."
I was crying again, while Rose was desperately thinking of a way to help me.
"Okay. First of all we are to find out whether this has to be an issue. I think there's a pharmacy in there. We'll go there and buy a stupid pregnancy test – maybe more just to make sure. You take them and then we will plan from there on, okay?"
I nodded, dried my eyes and followed her into the mall. She bought six tests for me and led me to the restrooms. The following five minutes were purely one of the most torturous of my life.
"Please Rose. Can you take a look? I can't do this now."
She went over to the sink and turned test after test. The half sad – half happy smile she gave me declared the result. I indeed was pregnant.
I couldn't move, couldn't think. For the moment there was only shock and fear, because of the dream, but somewhere deep down in my heart I felt joy. Pure and all overtaking joy. Feeling this made me even forget that stupid dream and slowly but steadily a smile was creeping on my face.
Rose of curse saw, came rushing to me and we both started jumping hand in hand like two 14 year old, who just got told that their school crush's wanted to go to prom with them.
"I can't believe I'm really pregnant. I always wanted to have kids but thought I never would after everything that happened. Oh my god Rose I … I … I just got the best idea of my life."
I packed up the tests and dragged Rose behind me through the mall. Last time I was here I saw a shop that was selling baby clothing, they even got those silly T-Shirts saying 'Best Aunt' and things like that.
Rose saw where I was going and soon we both were drowning on baby clothing searching for the right fabrics.
We got little onesie's saying:
Best Uncle (for Emmet and Edward each),
Best Aunt (for Alice and of course Rose each),
My Daddy loves me (for Jasper),
My Granny loves me (for Mum) and My Gramps loves me (for Dad)
God I felt so silly but I just couldn't stop smiling the whole way back home. Rose was the same, but when the house came in sight I wasn't that sure anymore as the fear from this morning came back. Not that strong but it was still there underlining all this happiness.
Rose recognized my mood swing immediately, so she led me to the back of the house and led me in the woods motioning for Jasper to follow. When we were out of hearing range of the others we sat down and waited for Jasper to come. He fell back while we were walking. I think he did it to take read on our feelings and partly for us to prepare.
When he came through the wood I started silently crying again but was smiling the same time. He of course felt the fear and the happiness. Rose was gently nudging me forward. "Just give it to him. You already know the worst to happen. I'll be here for you no matter what."
She was right. I did imagine the worst already. Come on Bella, get this over with. So I took the onesie I chose for him and just gave it to him.
He kept looking at me quizzically but all I was looking at was the onesie in his hands, so he looked down too.
The moment he realized what he was holding his face snapped back up to look at me with wide eyes. It was the most surprised face I ever saw on him.
"Does that mean you're …?" I just nodded.
"And I'm gonna be …?" Again I just nodded.
"Are you sure?" Instead of just nodding this time I showed him the tests I took only an hour ago. He looked at them and before I could do anything else he grabbed my face and kissed me senseless. There was so much love and joy laid in this one single kiss.
"You just made me the happiest man alive or undead. Whatever. Since when do you know and was that the reason you've been that afraid this morning?"
"Only since this morning and yes it was the reason."
"Why?" It was clearly saddening him that I had felt this way towards him so I told him what I saw just like I told Rose before. We talked for a few more minutes until my grumbling stomach told me I forgot to get him fed.
"Sound like someone is demanding food, doesn't it?"
"Well it sure does. I'll have to eat for two for who knows how long."
"Don't worry, love. We'll ask Dad about it. He'll know what to do. He got the day off today and the others too are home. It's winter break after all."
"That's good I've got presents for them as well. So please hide your thoughts from Edward, okay?" They both kept grinning like maniacs but nodded anyway. So made our way back home.
The rest of the family already waited for us in the living room. They were worried too, of course. Okay, I hope they'll be as happy as Rose and Jasper.
"What are you two hiding from me and Jasper you know I hate that song. It doesn't change just because you sing it in Russian." Before Jasper could answer him I spoke up.
"Okay, now that everyone is aware that there is a surprise waiting, you are to close your eyes and reach your hand out. And remember keep them close until I tell you to open them. You know how my surprises work."
They did as asked with the exception of Rose and Jasper of course. I draped the onesie's in their hands so they could read the words when opening their eyes. But instead of just telling them to open their eyes I slowly walked over to the kitchen.
"You don't have to wait for long. When I'm finished talking you can open your eyes. Oh and Mum do you mind making me some lasagna. I forgot to get something at the mall and am really hungry. I'm really craving it since I'm eating for two now, you know?"
"No problem honey … Wait! What did you say?" she threw an incredulous look to the onesie in her hand before coming to me. Alice was joining her soon after and we did the same Rose and I did in the restrooms of the mall.
After that the others too came to congratulate me and Jasper until my stomach cried for attention again and making Mum remember the promised lasagna.
After I ate me ad Jasper drove with Dad to the hospital to get some proper tests and an ultrasound done. You could even already see a small point on the screen, indicating that there indeed was a live growing inside of me, before we knew the test results.
Oh my, that has to be the happiest day of my life.
I really don't know what's going on today but that's the 4th chapter today
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