Author's Note: I'm glad you guys are liking the perspective switch. It's time to learn some more about Jackie. And why she's with Rick.
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Chapter 21: Spy: Jackie
I'm not proud of myself. They were right, I didn't have to sleep with him. I know that. But the thing is, in that moment, when he was kissing me, I didn't feel like I was spying on him. He kissed me, and I just felt like a girl, who's boyfriend wanted to make love to her. I hadn't felt like that in a long time, and I liked it. Not to mention that Luis is great. Better than Rick, that's for sure. I used to think Mindy was crazy, but now, I get it. And I have to get away, I can't be here anymore, and I can't be with Luis, because if I am, he won't be safe.
"Hey," Rick walks into my room, I look at him, "Look, I'm sorry, I just hate it, you know that."
"Whatever," I say coldly turning away from him. He sits down next to me, when he tries to put his arms around me I shrug him off. He looks down at the bed and sees the suitcase I was packing.
"Are you going somewhere?" He says lightly. I shrug, by back still to him. "Things are going to get better Jackie," He says, "When we win."
"After tonight, you're still so sure we're going to win?" I laugh and turn to him. He looks at me.
"You think we won't?" He says, angry. Ooh, I pissed him off, now I'm scared. I shrug. He can't do anything to me and he knows it. Even if he were going to try some of those powers he's copied on me, I'd just heal right up. "Who's side are you really on here Jackie?"
"The danger of a spy right Rick? You never know who they're really for." I smile and stand up and look down, "I'm not going to tell you what you want to hear just to placate you. If that's what you want, get another girl," I whip around, "Except you've already got one who'll do that right?" He walks over and raises his hand, I grab it. "Don't touch me!" I knew he would snap with that, nothing makes him more angry than criticism of his precious Izzie. She didn't disappoint him, she proved much more useful than I did. He laughs.
"You stand up for yourself now Jacks?" I look around, and swallow, as he shakes me off. "Did he teach you to do that?"
"He loves me," I say quietly.
"No he doesn't," He laughs again, "He loves the girl that I sent to him. The confused wide eyed little sweetheart, who doesn't understand what's happening to her, and just wants someone to talk to." I shudder as he circles around me and then grabs me from behind. "Forget about all of this and come to bed."
"No," I say, he laughs coldly and kisses my neck. I jerk away from him.
"You can't leave me Jackie," He whispers, "I know, remember? And I'm the only one who knows." He runs his index finger over my neck and stops right in the indent where my skull ends. "Right there, that's the spot. One bullet there and it would all be over. You're not really invincible Jackie." He kisses the spot. "And don't think I wouldn't find you. I can, I know how to do that." I shudder, "Now put the suitcase away, and come to bed."
"They'd protect me," I say. He laughs again.
"They barely trust you now!" He says, "When you go them, and say that you betrayed them, you think they'll trust you then? And he'd probably have you out of his bed so fast that pretty little head of yours would spin." I turn around to him and he kisses me tenderly, "Now, be a good girl, unpack that stuff and I'll see you in ten minutes." He walks away. I sit down on the bed. It wasn't always like this. Last year, before everything, when he asked me out I was thrilled. I couldn't believe that of everything other girl, Rick wanted me.But that wasn't it, he didn't want me. They wanted me, and they knew that he could secure me to their side. Once my power manifested, he told me about his, and about them, and what they were trying to do. It all felt so important, and when he said that they wanted me to be a part of it, I could hardly believe it. So he took me to them, and I was trained, I learned how my power worked, how I could use it to my advantage. And that was when Rick changed. It started slowly, he was rougher in bed, he would yell at me, always with an apology and a kiss coming after. He would be cruel, and short tempered. Then he hit me the first time, I fell down and hit the spot. I passed out for a few days, and when I woke up, I was in one of their labs, and some guy in a white coat told me that they had brought me back. I had been technically dead for twenty four hours until they removed a piece of wood from my spinal cord. That brought me back, but it took time for my nerves to heal themselves, if they had been permanently severed, I would have stayed dead. Rick can erase memories, I don't know who he took the power from but its there and he erased the knowledge from everyone else who had it, and he's used it to keep me in check in ever since. That's why I can't leave him, no matter what he does. They why I put up with the way he treats me. And that's why I have to go to him now. Until my cell phone rings. I smile.
"Hey," I say picking it up.
"Hey," Luis says, I can hear him smiling. He's actually happy to hear my voice. "You want to get together later, I want to talk to you."
"I'll see if I can get away," I say softly, "And I'll call you OK?"
"Alright," He says, "I love you Jackie."
"I love you too," I swallow after I say it. Bye."
"Bye," He hangs up. I slowly make my way up to Rick's room, I knock.
"Don't bother Jackie, just come in," I sigh and open the door. "You're late." He walks over to me and kisses me.
"Rick, I have to go," I say softly as he nuzzles me. He pulls away. "He called me, he wants to talk. Probably about tonight, he might even bring me to the base."
"Good," He smiles, and lets me go, "Go, go ahead." I nod and walk out, "And Jackie," I turn and look at him. "I still want you tonight do you understand me?" I nod. That means I have to get back here by morning. I can do that. I've been being two girls for a long time now. Tonight won't be an exception. I just wish that I could really be the girl that Luis loves. Instead of the one who'll be back in Rick's bed my morning.
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