Sorry, I got like total writers block plus finishing school and then I went to my dads then it was my bday and well yah.

FINALLY 15!

Anyway, this is the last chapter, however I still need you guys to vote because it's very important! Vote on the next character POV (from the list you guys)

If you want it to be a third person POV then just tell me that, otherwise tell me who.

This takes place a few months later.

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It's been three months since Jordan's death and I still can't get over it. Everyone keeps telling me it's normal, and I thought for a moment it was, but I don't think I'll ever get over it.

Oh well, I guess lifes not fair.

My parents took me to his grave today, for the first time since his funeral I can finally look at it. They decided to leave me alone, and that's when I pulled out the letter to him.

Jordan,

Must be cool huh? What's heaven like? I don't know how I know your there, I guess its just because your a sweet kid, and they'd be crazy not to accept you. It's like college in a way, 'cept you don't have to apply to heaven. We miss you down here, miss you more than anything. To us, you weren't only a friend Jordan, you were something special. I guess God had to take you to prove that he only takes the best of them. Oh well, at least your not getting hurt by your dad anymore.

Speaking of your dad, he's in jail now. Your mom finally came clean to the cops and they took him, I don't think he's ever going to get out. She won't date yet though, because she feels like she's going to do something to hurt you by trying to get someone else to make her life happy. She doesn't think she deserves to be happy because you never got to be happy when you were here. We told her she was wrong. Through the tears there was always a smile Jordan and no matter how hurt you were you were always laughing.

Kayla's just finally accepting that your gone, not to come back. It's really hard for her you know? You were like a brother to her, the one she wished she had instead of Dally, though she loves Dally to death too. A.J. has been trying to help her, but he just doesn't understand like we do. It wasn't as real for him. Kayda's first word was daddy, but her second word was Jordan. That just made Kayla cry all over again, but I'm not sure if it was because your gone or because Kayda remembers you. She's really smart.

Matt and Stephen are trying real hard to do things the right way. They never want to leave the house anymore, but they have a hard time staying too. You wouldn't believe it Jordan, they keep pictures of you everywhere. Everytime they leave the house they hug a picture and they say they'll come back soon. It's like they know Jordan, they know that your there in spirit even though your not there in person. They love you Jordan, and they've accepted that your not coming back, but it doesn't make it any easier.

Corey's graduating soon, then he's going to go off to New York for college. He said you once told him you wanted to go there, so he's going to go there and do everything right and succeed and when he's known around the world he's going to say it's all because of you. He wants to be the president of the United States someday. It's not a far fetched dream for him though, because Corey knows how to do things right, and he'll do right by people his whole life. He'd make a good leader.

Daniel wrote a song for you. Rusty, Landon, Daniel, and the Triplets are going into their last year of high school soon. They'll be the next to leave. Boy, that's going to be crazy. Daniel wants to travel to California and try to get a record deal for his music. He says if this happens he's making an album just for you. Rusty finally opened up to us, and he actually cried the other day. You really meant a lot to him, he says he always kept quiet around us because he was afraid if he wasn't then he'd say something about your dad that he'd regret. That's why he didn't really go around your house either, because he was afraid if he did he would beat your dad senseless.

Landon got serious about his life and finally settled down with a girl. He engaged to her a few days ago. It was kinda short term, but I guess they love each other so it's okay. He wants to go to law school to become a lawer so that he can fight to the bitter end to get guys like the kids that killed you and your dad in jail. He'll do really good at it too. The triplets haven't decided what to do yet. They want to wait until next year and decide together. I think it's crazy, but they think they should do everything together now because they don't know how long any of the others have left.

Dally got his girlfriend pregnent, and boy she's getting big fast. I think she might have twins, but we can't be too sure of that. He got a part time job at the gas station down the road and he's putting all his money into a savings account. After school and work he usually goes to Ashley's house to help her with stuff she might need for the baby. Her dad was pretty pissed at him for awhile but they settled their differences and moved on because well, the facts are, without Dally her dad would have to support her for a very long time.

Nick and Robby started writing to express their feelings. Neither of them have been happy since you died, and right now they're writing a book about your life and your accomplishments. They want the world to know that it's okay to tell if your being hurt. They want the world to know all about you Jordan, you were just that special. They also decided that they were going to send it into a lot of publishing companies and if they got published they'd keep working together on other books. Who thought they had that much talent as writers? They kept it hidden well.

Brandon has decided that over the summer he's going to go to youth groups across the city and talk to them about you. He wants to spread your story just like Nick and Robby do. He's going to keep telling everyone about you until the day he dies. He's already started telling middle school kids about you, and what to do if they're in your situation. He told them about the wrongness of judging people because of their race, or their religion, or where they live or what you call them. It was great, because he saw one of the socs little brothers get up and go over to one of the greasers and start talking to him. They became friends after that.

Tommy still won't accept that your gone. I'll ask him if he wants to go to the movies with me and some other people and he says "sure, is Jordan coming?" It's so hard for us to be around him because it's like peeling a scab. Opening an old wound just as we've started to heal. His parents even thought of putting him in an institution because they caught him talking to himself like you were there in front of him. They got him a counsoler (sp?) but he refuses to go. He says theres nothing wrong with him, and he says that it's mean to try to get him to stop talking to his best friend. He doesn't understand yet Jordan, but I think he will soon.

As for me, I know your gone, but I don't want you to be. You were my best friend Jordan, but you were so much more than that for me. I don't like to think about you but it seems I always am. It's hard to walk past your house in the morning only to know your not going to come out to walk to school with me. I've caught myself dialing your number and once I even asked for you. Matt didn't know what to do and Stephen got on the phone and I started crying and apologizing. The only thing that's really changed is your not here, and we hate it. I wish you were here to help us through this one.

We love you Jordan, we need you, we can't have you, but that's just life I guess. We'll see you again someday.

Love,

Brooke

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I thought I would kind of sum it up in a letter that she writes to him. I used a quote type thing in there, it's one of my favorites. The one about God only taking the best. I know this is true because otherwise my cousin wouldn't have had a stillborn baby and my Uncle wouldn't have died of Cancer. I hope you guys like it, I need more votes on the next character POV though otherwise I'm just going to pick one, here's the list of characters to choose from again.

Kayda

Avie

Devin

Chris

Caden

Justin

Aaron

Ryan

Austin

Bobby

Jack

Beau

Tony

Chad

Tyler

Dylan

Garret

Randy

Or you can have it in third person. Let me know!