Chapter 18 - Trust Me

[Bella's Point of View]

"Should I take that as a yes then?" I said as Edward held me, both of us feeling overwhelming joy.

"Yes, deferentially yes" Edward whispered. I never wanted to move again, for the first time in… well ever I was truly happy. And I don't mean the short lived fleeting happiness that disappears; I mean the lasting type the type that can never be broken. I felt stronger by it. We could have stayed that way, just holding each other for ever, we might have if I hadn't remembered… I let out a small groan.

"What's wrong?" Edward asked sounding worried.

"Oh nothing important, but I've got to go" I sighed, looking at Edward who was looking back at me quizzically "I promised Alice I would go shopping with her, god knows why. I really wish I didn't have to go" I pouted, Edward just gave me a crooked grin.

"Go then" He ordered, I just stood there confused "The sooner you go the sooner you get back… but then again with Alice and her shopping, I may not see you for a week" he chuckled.

"Very funny" I said sarcastically rolling my eyes "Come on, we'd better get back to the house before Alice puts a search party together for me." I pulled him along as we reluctantly headed back to the house.

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Two hours later I was in Alice's Porsche being driven to some shopping mall in Seattle I hadn't paid much attention to her plans, I had been to busy reflecting on what I had just done. Alice was chatting to me the entire way to the mall but I hardly heard any of what she was saying. I was still slightly in shock, I had told Edward everything, and I mean everything. I had just admitted how I truly felt about him, some of it hadn't even admitted to myself, yet alone voicing it out loud before, and I deferentially hadn't been expecting to ever tell Edward.

"…I was also thinking about burning my entire wardrobe and dyeing my hair green" Alice mussed watching me out of the corner of her eye.

"hmm, sounds good to me" I mumbled still not listening.

"ISABELLA MARIE SWAN!" Alice suddenly shouted snapping me out of my thoughts "You haven't been listening to one god dam word I've been saying have you?" She said accusingly.

"hmm… sorry, what were you saying?" I said after Alice had snapped me out of my thoughts.

"You just told me that burning my wardrobe and dyeing my hair green was a good idea. What's up with you? You haven't heard a single thing I've said since leaving the house, and you look so pale; well more pale than usual anyway." Alice was looking worried.

"I think I may have done something I am seriously going to regret... " I paused unsure whether I should tell Alice, but knowing she would get it out of me one way or another I continued reluctantly "... I told Edward I love him, which when you think about it is a completely ridiculous notion seeing as I hardly know him and I despised him when I first met him so how can I say I love him?" I looked at Alice helplessly, who was avoiding my eye.

"You know you do love him, everyone can see it. Our kind doesn't need to know someone to know they love them. Like me and Jasper we hadn't even met and I knew I was in love. Or Rose and Emmett, Rose saved him even though she did not know him there was just something about him that she fell in love with. I think you just need to trust him a bit more, I know after what happened it won't be easy but you can do it. I can see you love him, and I know he feels the same about you." She was right, and she knew it. I did love him but after all the hate I had felt for him I felt I should not let myself love him... "and anyway if you won't trust him, trust me I'm a psychic, I know how this story will end."

Hey, sooo sorry this chapter has not been released earlier but my laptop broke so all my work got lost have just had 2 re-write the chapter - wold have done it sooner but had to re-do a terms worth of coursework first.

Hope you liked it even though it was short - will try to get the next chapter out soon but i'm away for a while doin DofE Gold [fun fun fun] [NOT]. PLEASE REVIEW [would like at least another 10 comments - so 172].