Reviews:
Naruhinakiralacus: I know, poor Naruto. Their feeling are uncontrollable! Lol so cute.
MidnightHunter563: Ahh, so many relationships he has to deal with. Poor buddy.
Sesshomarurules01862: Aww thanks. It really was adorable.
Raven Halley: Blooming into cute fluff. :D
Sabaku No Kaori: Oh my gosh I never even noticed I was doing that! You're very perceptive. Thanks a bunch.
Demonscars: I do plan on finishing it, I don't know when will happen but I will. Thanks for the review.
Jesi: It's odd, I have no idea how you do it. Legit no joke every time something bad happens your review pops up. Thank you again for the picker upper. It's greatly appreciated.
Sorry, life lately hasn't been ideal but hopefully things will start to get better.
-Enjoy
You know that feeling of a fat tear running down your cheek?
The feeling of building mucus and snot gathering in the back of your nose from the rolling salt balls cascading down your face.
That's the feeling Gaara has when he can't feel himself. What was going on around him. How is he supposed to keep going? How is he supposed to looking on the bright side of things?
Everytime he hears his siblings laugh he thinks they are laughing about him. Anytime someone he doesn't know looks at him he wonders what bad thoughts they have about him. Maybe this was the day he ended himself. His room felt like an isolation chamber that bounced his negative thoughts around teasing him, they mocked and made fun of him on a constant basis. It didn't matter where he went, they always found him,
'You hate Neji, you hate Temari, you hate Kankuro, you hate yourself. You hate Neji, you hate Temari, you hate Kankuro, you hate yourself. You hate Neji, you hate Temari, you hate Kankuro, you hate yourself. You hate Neji, you hate Temari, you hate Kankuro, you hate yourself.'
Those words assaulted him constantly, they grated down his mind and no matter how hard he tried to get his mind to focus on anything else he couldn't. There was only one way he found relief, no not cutting. After the incident with Temari he couldn't leave anything that showed he was hurting himself. So he went down to the kitchen with the thought of relief on his mind. He looked at the knives with want but he knew they were not the option. He opened the cutlery draw and grabbed a fork, putting it in his pocket he went back up to his room and stuffed himself into his closet. Gently at first he rubbed it just under the nubby of his wrist. Gently he went but as his feelings wound their way into his heart he went faster, breathing out in a big huff when he felt the guilt, hate, and embarrassment disappear. He didn't do this for long, he only rubbed the prongs against his skin till it was red and raw. He ran his thumb down the raw skin enjoying the way he couldn't feel the pain. Today was a good day, he was all packed up to go with Neji.
His Father was very happy to hear that his wife's killer has going to be gone out of the house for an unknown amount of time, and even better it was a different country. Of course he let his son go, hopefully the plane would crash somewhere along the way.
"You all set?" Temari asked walking into Gaara's room.
Gaara, who had just made his way out of the closet nodded. "Just double checking if I missed anything."
The blonde nodded. "Your so lucky to be able to go to Japan!" She smiled. "Getting to meet Neji's family."
Gaara blushed a little at the look she was giving him. The look was practically asking if he and Neji were gonna get it on. "I don't think so Temari."
"Well I could definitely see you under him wriggling around like nobody's business." She winked at him internally laughing at how uncomfortable she was making her youngest brother.
"Please stop." Gaara groaned picking up his bag. He looked back one last time at a snickering Temari before heading downstairs.
The two waited by the front door, just sitting on the step enjoying the sun.
"You have to bring me back a souvenir." Gaara smirked as Temari kept rambling on about what he should bring back for her. "Oh and some really cool sunglasses!"
"You can get cool sunglasses at fucking Walmart."
The girl sighed and crossed her arms. "So rude."
Just then the round of rubber wheels against pavement was present. The two siblings looked up to see Neji pull up in a red jeep. The brown haired boy got out and waved at Temari and Gaara.
"Didn't think a Jeep was your style." Temari mused looking over the vehicle.
"It's not, I've been renting this car while I've been here." Neji replied grabbing Gaara's bags.
"I can get my own stuff in the car." Gaara pouted.
Neji smiled. "I would like to think it's my job."
Temari gave both boys one last hug before they went off. "Bye!"
Gaara waved from the window and looked over at Neji who was checking traffic.
So what's your family like?" Gaara asked resting his head back on the head rest.
"My Uncle is a bit uptight, my cousin is very shy and her sister is outgoing I guess." Neji replied. "My cousin Hinata, I told her about us and she was very excited. That's why we are heading back, well one reason. Her boyfriend is crazy, has some weird friends."
Gaara nodded. "She sounds nice."
"She is, but just very nervous around a large group of people, and ones she hasn't met yet."
"Hopefully she will like me."
Neji smiled. "I think she will, it's hard not to like you."
Gaara blushed at the comment and looked away hoping that he didn't see it.
"Cute." Neji smiled still looking at the road.
It didn't seem like long until they were at the airport, Neji insisted he take Gaara's bags but the redhead wouldn't have it. They walked hand in hand towards their gate and went through easily. While sitting on one of the seats Gaara looked in his carry on bag and blushed hard at what he saw. Temari had put a plastic ziplock in there, inside were condoms. Great. There was a small note stuck on the bag that read. 'Have fun'
"Something wrong?" Neji asked seeing Gaara's face.
"No. Nothing at all." Gaara replied quickly zipping the bag closed again. Hopefully he didn't see that, but it seemed as though Neji knew everything. Saw everything.
"So um, it's your cousin's party we are going to?" Gaara asked hoping to direct the subject onto something else.
"Yeah, it's her birthday and since I missed the last one I told her I'd come to this one. There shouldn't be much people, maybe ten kids our age including us and then the Hyuuga family." Neji answered. "Looks like we'll be boarding soon. Are you nervous?"
Gaara looked over at Neji. "Not if you are there with me."
"You do know that we don't have any orange juice right?" Kakashi looked at Iruka with a raised eyebrow. "Sasuke said he spilt Orange juice on Naruto?"
"That's what he said." Iruka said nodding to himself. He was telling Kakashi about his encounter with both boys last night.
"Interesting." Kakashi scratched at his head.
"Maybe you should use your police skills and find out what really happened." Iruka suggested.
"Iruka, I used my police skills on you only two nights ago. Are you really so eager?" Kakashi grinned.
The brown haired man blushed. "Pervert! Go find out what those boys did last night, or you have to use your police skills on yourself."
Kakashi paled and nodded walking out of the room and downstairs where a certain blonde haired boy was sitting outside. The man smirked. This was a prime opportunity for him to gather some information. Carefully he slid open the door and walked outside to sit with the blonde, they did this sometimes and it helped them both.
"So Naruto, how's it going?"
Naruto seemed to be in deep thought. "Fine I guess."
"Define that for me."
Naruto sighed a little. "I've been thinking about my... My little brother. I guess. I don't really know what to do about that. I see the way Sasuke loathes his older brother and I don't want that to happen with Kyuubi."
"I don't think you have to worry about that Naruto. Sasuke's older brother was involved in some bad stuff-"
"So was I!" Naruto looked at Kakashi with tears almost brimming over. "I've done bad things when I was with Danzo."
"Naruto, you were with a complete psycho. Nobody blames you for whatever he forced you to do." Kakashi said hoping to calm the boy down.
"I smuggled drugs for him..."
Well this was new. Kakashi wouldn't have thought that Danzo would let his pet dabble in something as dangerous as drug dealing.
"What happened?" Kakashi asked.
"Nobody would suspect a cute blonde in dealing drugs, it was his most high valued customer yet and he didn't want just anyone delivering his drugs." Naruto sighed and leaned back. "Little did I know that the man buying and a fetish for people like me."
"Disgusting." Kakashi whispered. "Kinks are one thing I like to indulge in, but to have your eyes set on someone so young..."
"Kakashi, do you think I can make someone happy love wise?" Naruto asked.
"Of course, I think I already know someone who likes you a lot."
Naruto nodded and started to stand up.
"Oh Naruto- wait a moment." Kakashi grasped the younger boy's hand. "May I ask you something?"
"S-Sure."
"I know that something happened last night, and if you're not comfortable in sharing I get that, but I need to know that you're okay with that and Sasuke's not forcing himself on you."
Naruto's face got a little red in the cheeks as he looked to the ground. "I promise nothing bad is happening."
Kakashi smiled. "Okay, if you need anything just ask alright?"
Naruto nodded and headed inside where he was Sasuke standing talking to Kiba, it seemed as though the two had just gone for a run.
"Hey Naruto!" Kiba smiled and waved at the blonde. "How are you doing?"
"I'm alright." Naruto replied.
"Oh, Hinata wanted me to give you this. You're invited to her birthday coming up next week." Kiba pulled out a card out of his bag and handed it to Naruto carefully.
"T-thank you. K-Kiba." Naruto replied looking at the card.
"Sasuke got one too so you can both come together." Kiba smiled. "Also if you need help on a gift idea maybe ask TenTen."
Naruto looked over at Sasuke with a confused look. "TenTen is a friend of ours, you'll meet her at the party."
"Alright, guess I'll catch you both later! Thanks for the run Sasuke, come one Akamaru." A bark came from beside Naruto and there was a gigantic dog. He nudged Naruto before heading out with Kiba.
"Cute dog huh?" Sasuke smirked and gave another sip to his water.
"Kakashi asked about l-last night." Naruto said.
Sasuke choked a little on his water and looked at Naruto wide eyed. "W-what did he say? What did he ask?"
Naruto smiled on the inside at Sasuke's reaction. "N-nothing much, he might talk to you to."
"I hope not." Sasuke muttered. "It's embarrassing enough sharing a wall with him."
"Why?"
"I envy your innocence." Sasuke smiled. "Let's just say that Kakashi likes to use his police officer skills on Iruka in the bedroom."
Naruto's eyes widened as he realised what that meant. "U-uh Sasuke..."
"Ya?"
"A-About las-lastnight.." Naruto curled his hand around the end of his tshirt. "You, y-you don't h-hate me d-do you?"
"Of course not, I don't regret what happened last night." Sasuke walked up and hugged the blonde running his hand through his long hair. "You should get a haircut, it's getting a bit long. Unless you like it long that it."
Naruto nodded into Sasuke's chest. "My Dad's hair is kinda long, isn't it?"
"I guess so."
"Hey Sasuke? You wouldn't never leave me right?" Naruto looked up into onyx eyes.
"Never."
Dedicated to my friend Shay.
I'm so sorry that you died so young, you were a great friend to me and I cherish the time we spent together. I will always think of you whenever I see Snakes or Zootopia and whenever there is cheesecake around. You were so kind paying for meals and opening doors for me. I only wish we could have spent more time together. I hope that in your next life you find a healthier being and not riddled by cancer, I hope that we might be able to find each other in another world.
Until we meet again.
-Emily