BPOV
"How does that make you feel, Bella?" The guy who looked to be only a few years older than Edward asked.
He might look young but those horn-rimmed glasses spoke levels.
"Isn't that the most stereotypical shrink phrase on the planet?" I asked with a snort.
I now had my elbows resting on my knees and let my hands cup my chin. Edward was rubbing my back with the hand that wasn't keeping Frankie still on his lap.
"Edward you were right she is very… honest."
"If you know Edward then that's putting it lightly," I supplied smiling at my sweet boy.
"Then how would you describe yourself?"
"Direct, frank, blunt, straight, candid, forthright, ingenuous," I ticked off on my fingers before ear-muffing Frankie. "Some might say bitchy," I shrugged.
"Those are some great adjectives, Bella," Dr. Garrett smirked in amusement.
"I try to be insightful."
"I can see that."
"I pay yet?" Frankie asked tilting her head at me.
I glanced at Dr. Garrett seeking his permission. Sure, he had all these puzzles and toys in this room, but I wasn't sure what went on these sessions. Edward did, but I'm pretty sure he didn't come here to play with the toys.
"You can play if you like Frankie," he smiled warmly.
Edward set her down and I watched her toddle over to the big spiral puzzle thing that even I would be interested in playing with. It was that cool.
"So back to my question before you smoothly avoided it," he started back up again.
"I miss my mom and it's been hard on Frankie…" I hesitated looking at Edward.
"She wakes up at night," Edward added.
"Nightmares?"
"She doesn't verbalize what wakes her up. She just asks for my mom and Phil."
"She has her own room?"
"It's barely used," I mumble.
"I would say for now it's fine that she sleeps with you because she's adjusting and for her age I don't see anything wrong with it," he said. "How are you sleeping Bella?"
"Okay."
"Could you be more specific?"
"I wake up when Frankie does, I'm not the one with nightmares, doc."
"She sleeps well," Edward murmured backing me up.
Dr. Garrett looked between us with a smile. "I like seeing the support system you two seemed to have built."
"Bella has changed my life for the better and I try to provide everything she'll need in this life." He is so damn gushy for his own good.
"What he said," I replied playfully pinching his side.
"I think we've had a good talk today, I can schedule you for the same time next week I know that you have Mondays off Bella."
"Uh yeah, that works."
Edward stood walking over to pick up Frankie. He whispered something to her and she nodded her head eagerly.
"It was nice to finally meet the infamous Bella," Dr. Garrett smiled shaking my hand.
"Likewise."
"Edward I'll see you for our regular appointment."
"Thank you Dr. Garrett."
With that, I slipped my arm through Edward's arm and we left.
"Not so bad?" he asked from the back seat as he buckled Frankie in.
"No, he was interesting."
"That's good in Bella speak, right?" he chuckled getting into the passenger seat shutting his eyes for a moment.
"He seemed not to be a total quack is all I'm saying," I said waiting for a sign that it was okay for me to pull out.
"He'll help us, love," Edward sighed opening his eyes.
I hoped Edward was right because right now I could use some guidance where Frankie was concerned. Esme wanted us for dinner tonight, since Frankie had been making frequent visits to the Cullen house, Esme had grown attached to her. Alice was the only one in the house that hid when she came over.
I didn't know if Alice had a hard time being around her due to her own loss or what, but I felt kind of bad that she would isolate herself like that. Jasper was a completely different story over the last few days. He was cautious around me and made his mother call for me to bring Franks over. I wasn't stupid I knew it was him.
Edward couldn't make anything out of it because he kept saying Jasper had never been around children only when he was little.
"She's asleep," he whispered.
"I guess she can have a nap before we head over," I said getting out of the car.
Edward carefully cradled Frankie into the house walking her up to her room. I guess a nap sounded like a good plan so I went up to our room.
I stripped down to my tank top under my flannel and Houdinied my bra off. Then I shimmed my jeans down my legs kicking them onto the couch. I slipped under the covers and lay on my stomach. I wasn't completely sure if Edward wanted to nap so I closed my eyes not waiting for him.
I felt him when he climbed in next to me. He started tugging at the back of my tank. I rolled over to look at him hovering over me. He definitely wasn't wearing anything and I smiled brightly at him.
"Can I take this off now since you seem to get the idea?" he asked quietly.
"What if Franks wakes up?" I asked moving to let him pull the shirt off.
"I locked the door and we have the monitor."
"Fuck me," I said in amazement.
"That was the plan," he said kissing me sweetly.
His hands moved down between my legs removing the frilly lace panties I bought with Rose last week. Good investment. His long fingers moved inside of me and then circled my clit, making me grow incredibly wet.
"Edward! I need you inside now," I moaned.
He entered me slowly moving, his hands to tightly grip my hips. He let out a hiss of pleasure as he increased his rhythm, gripping my ass and rocking into me. I loved seeing him like this, so lost in me. I flipped us quickly, eliciting a moan from him as he fell out of me. I reached for his hands and pinned them above his head. I kissed his forehead, his eyes, just under his ear, then finally his lips. I stretched my body against his, suddenly pulling him back into me. We cried out together.
I rode him gently as first, extending our bliss. His hands began to pull at my left boob, as his lips moved to the nipple of the other, nipping. I groaned in reaction, increasing my speed, moving my hips in a circular motion, which seemed to make him very pleased.
"Bella, you make me extremely happy," he murmured.
His hand gripped my hip, pulling me down on him harder. His other hand snaked between my legs, his fingers rubbing my clit. Suddenly he flipped us.
"Can we try something different?" he whispered kissing my neck.
"Different, kinky?" I panted.
"Just different," he answered.
I nodded and he directed me on my knees, which was different. I was kind of anxious because we hadn't done it this way before.
He kissed my shoulder before he entered me from behind, pulling my hair making my back arch. He started sucking my neck, and his fingers once again found my clit.
"This okay?" he asked in a hoarse voice, pumping at a steady pace.
"Ugh," was all I could manage, how he could even form words?
My walls began to clamp around him as I whimpered in delight. I felt him trembling inside of me and I lost it when I felt him fill me. I collapsed immediately on the bed. Edward fell to my side pulling me onto his chest.
"You…I… that was," I stammered kissing his chest.
"I Googled a few things," he said sheepishly.
"You can Google anything you ever want I'm totally fine with that if this is the out come," I breathed.
We were quiet and I was kind of drifting off when Edward began to talk.
"I know a lot has happened in the last month…" he said carefully.
"What do you want to say?" I said lifting my head and let my hand rest on his chest.
"Marriage and the baby we talked about it before everything."
"Was this phenomenal sex a way to butter me up," I said squinting at him.
"No," he gasped. "I would never do that, Bella."
"Then what about the marriage and baby conversation Edward?" I asked raising an eyebrow.
I felt like I was getting accusatory with him and an argument was a brewing.
"We haven't talked since everything has happened and now we have Frankie."
"So you think right after we fuck is the most opportune time for that," I spat.
"Bella, if you would calm down. I would be better at explaining myself," he said moving away from me and I could hear the anger in Edward's voice.
"I'm sorry if I don't understand why you want to talk about major life altering things post orgasm. Who the fuck interrogates like that?"
"Interrogates," he said evenly. "I was casually bringing something up."
"Oh, so you just casually bring up knocking me up? No big deal," I shrugged sitting up the sheets were now resting on my legs.
"We talked about it before."
"Do you seriously want a baby brought into all of this right now? We basically have a ready made child," I hissed.
Edward threw the covers off walking to his drawer. As much as I loved his ass especially his naked ass I was too pissed off to appreciate it. He grabbed a pair of briefs and sweat pants. I also noticed he didn't grab a shirt. He marched right out the door without saying a word.
I sat dumbfounded at what just happened and I'm pretty sure my defensiveness picked a fight with Edward. Another shocking factor in this was my timid Edward dished it right back to me. He wasn't putting up with my shit and he left me here naked.
I heard the shower and thought better about going in to join him. I flipped back onto my stomach and shut my eyes. My brain didn't want to shut off though. Did Edward want to talk about having babies now or holding off? Does he think Frankie is too much for us to handle? Would she be the deal breaker on us having kids of our own? What about marriage did he want to do that now?
God, stupid boy with all his big feelings. I heard the door open and shut and felt him sit on the bed his hand met the dip in my back. I gathered he thought I was sleeping.
"I love you," he murmured. "Why can't you drop the wall?"
I now felt like the shitiest person on the earth. I remained still to see if he had anything else to say to unconscious Bella.
"I will prove to you that you will worry for nothing. I will make that happen for you," he said quietly, lying down beside me.
I tried my hardest to hide my face from him because I knew I was crying. I let Edward hold me as we took our nap and I felt like we would be revisiting this conversation sooner rather than later.
A/N: They had a fight… sort of. I think I see a slight change in our boy. Dolphin62958 is my beta!