Outer Body Experience

"Come on, Nate."

This was probably the hundredth time I had said these words. He wasn't budging.

"Renesmee…"

"Come on" I said, pleadingly.

There was silence on the other side of the line. I almost crushed my iPhone as I awaited for his answer.

"Um…" I heard him say slowly.

"Please, Nate…" I said, basically crossing every part of my body for luck.

"Okay, Nessie."

I practically knocked everything over in my room because of all of the excitement.

"Thank you, Nate" I said, breathlessly "I can't wait."

"Me neither," He replied.

"By the way," I said "You wouldn't mind me bringing anybody?"

"You mean, Jenny?" he asked "'Cause I don't need the drama today."

"Hey, watch it," I said, with caution "That's my friend. But anyway, no, it is just another friend."

"No that's fine."

"Okay, see you there then." I said, dismissing the phone call.

"Nate!" I screamed "Over here!"

I quickened my pace when I walked toward Nate. I was really happy that I didn't have to do this by myself. Well, that is, being with Jake.

I ran up to him and hugged him. I wrapped my arms around him and kissed him. I could feel the tension in the air grow. For some reason, I wanted to make Jake mad. It wasn't my fault. It was the skank who's going to take him away from me's fault. Hmph.

He wanted to play dirty, then so did I.

"Hey Nessie," I heard Nate say, after he kissed me "How are you?"

I pulled back from our embrace and looked up at him "I'm really good." I put the extra smile right in there.

I saw Nate's eyes glaze over my head and concentrate on something else.

"Who's your friend, Ness?"

Even though I had just tried to make him jealous, I had almost forgotten all about Jake.

"Um," I said, nervously "This is Jacob Black. Jake this is Nate Archibald."

I awaited some kind of acknowledgment from either of them but I found none. They were just staring at each other with fierceness in their eyes that I couldn't understand.

"Well," I said, slowly "Let's go grab a seat in the café then…"

I slipped my hand into Nate's as we made our way to the table. I could tell already this was going to be awkward.

When we made our way to our seats, I heard someone yell from across the busy New York streets.

"Nate!"

All of our heads turn to the source and found a girl scurrying across the restaurant over to us.

I heard Nate scoot his chair to get up from the table. He knew this girl?

"Vanessa!" He met her on the sidewalk and gave her a hug. And I noticed it wasn't a short, friendly hug "I didn't know you were here."

Who the heck did this chick think she was?

"Do you mind if I sit with you," I heard her ask Nate "I was stopping by for some coffee."

"Um yeah," I heard him say back as he looked at me "I sure no one will mind."

They soon made it over to the table.

"Vanessa," Nate said "This is Renesmee Cullen. She just moved here a month or so ago from Washington."

Vanessa looked me up and down and rolled her eyes slightly. "It is nice to meet you, Renesmee. I'm Vanessa Abrams."

I smiled timidly. "It's Nessie, really."

But I found out she wasn't listening anymore. She was way too involved with Nate.

I felt my face fluster. I thought I was supposed to make Jake jealous but here I am being totally envious.

I heard Jake snicker beside me. I shot him an intense glare. He was going to get it when we got home.

I watched quietly as Vanessa giggled at whatever Nate said and touched his arm. Soon, I was going to rip her arm off if she touched him again.

"So, Nessie," I heard her say as she smiled at Nate "Who's your friend?"

"This is Jacob Black."

She smiled that smile of hers again and said, "Nice to meet you, Jacob."

"You too, I guess." I heard Jake speak for the first time today.

The waitress finally came to our table to take our orders. She said she was going to be back in a couple of minutes.

"So, how do you know Nate?" I heard Jake say "Are you brother and sister or something?"

"She's my fr-"

Vanessa laughed and said, "Oh no, nothing like that. We used to date a year back."

I almost choked on the Coke that I was drinking at that moment. I felt Jake pat me on the back to open up my airways.

"You used to date each other?" I sputtered out.

I saw Nate drop his head at this.

Why hadn't he told me?

"Yeah, Nate never told you that?" She said with her devious smile "We were really serious. Right, Nate?"

Nate just kept his head down after she said this. All I did was stare at him. I couldn't believe this.

"Why didn't you say anything, Nate?" I asked quietly.

He played with his fingers in his lap. He wasn't going to talk.

"Why didn't you tell me?" I asked again.

"Because I knew you wouldn't understand," he said, finally "I remember what happen with the whole Bella and me situation."

I felt Jake tense up at my Mom's name.

"So, you bring her here when you knew I was going to be angry?"

Nate was quiet again but he shortly spoke up.

"I didn't know she was here," I heard him say, quietly "You have-"

"I'll be back," I said as I felt the tears coming. I jumped up from my seat and walked toward the back of the café.

I heard Jake's chair scoot back also but I stopped him "No, Jake, stay."

I also heard Nate say something about taking a quick walk. I could have sworn I heard Vanessa say that she would come with him.

Soon, I made my way into the ladies' room. I grabbed a whole bunch of paper towels to dry my face. I watched as my mascara ran all down my face. I looked terrible.

Why was I upset?

Just because Nate had brought his ex didn't mean that anything was going on. That was beyond the contrary.

I assured myself as I looked in the mirror. Nothing was going on between the two.

After I reapplied my makeup and gotten a new attitude, I walked out of the bathroom.

I soon was hit by the familiar sent of my boyfriend. He was on the other side of the wall. All I had to do was walk around it to join him. I smiled. He had waited for me.

As I was going to join him, I heard Vanessa's voice pipe up.

"What is wrong with you, Nate?" I heard her ask "I thought you loved me."

I didn't hear the next part but I made sure that I was going to rescue my man.

When I made my way to the other side, my worst dream had come true.

Vanessa had her tongue down his throat and he looked like he thoroughly loved it.

"Nate…" I said, quietly, but loud enough for both of them to hear "How could you?"

"Renesmee, wait!" I heard him scream after me but I had already made my way back to the table.

"Come on, Jake, let's go." I said, as I felt my mascara run again. Water-resistant my butt.

"Nessie, what happened?" Jake asked me as he grabbed my arm gently.

"I-"

"Nessie!"

"Let's just go."

Jake and I made it back on the New York street. People were busily walking around us, like we were nothing.

"Nessie." I heard Nate say as he grabbed my forearm "It's not what you think."

I turned around to look him in the face. "How can I think any differently?"

I heard Jake yell over to me that a cab was ready for us.

I started to make my way over there but was stopped.

"Forgive me, Ness." Nate said, pleadingly "Please."

"How can I forgive you for kissing your ex?" I exclaimed.

I soon noticed that we had an audience

"I told you, it's not what you think!"

I heard Vanessa's annoying voice pipe up again "It was what you think!"

I quickly tried to make it over to Vanessa but I felt a strong pair of arms hold me back. I was going to kill her.

"Nessie, let's get in the car, sweetie." I heard Jake say in my ear.

If I hit her, I would have killed her. I couldn't kill someone. That was wrong.

"Go back to Washington!" I heard her scream again to me "No one wants you here! Especially your boyfriend! Well, maybe I should say ex-boyfriend." She cackled something like a hyena laugh that I had heard on one of the Animal Planet's specials.

I was ready to make that sacrifice.

"Shut up, Vanessa!" He said, angrily.

I pulled Jake with me as I made it over to Vanessa. I was all in her face.

I was going to hit her. I know it.

"You don't know me!" I screamed in her face "No one does!"

"Nate was with me the whole time he was with you!"

That's when it happened.

I watched my life flash again, just like it had when I was going to hit Blair.

"He stayed at my house, with me the day after he had lunch with you at the bistro." She said with a smirk "He was thinking of me the whole time."

I heard myself hiss viciously, which I never did before.

"What?" She asked with a smirk "Are you going to hit me?"

I could feel the venom coming up in my throat as I stared into her mean mug.

It felt like I was having an outer body experience. This evil person was not me. I didn't know who this was.

I calculated how long it would take me to kill both of them and make a getaway before anyone could notice.

It wasn't going to easy but I could do it.

Jake pulled me back, fairly hard, as I made a swipe at her face.

"Let me go!" I screamed "She wants it!"

I saw Vanessa being held back by Nate. She was going to try and fight me.

But what neither of them knew was that I could strategically kill both of them in .7 seconds.

"Nessie, let's go." Jake said as he pulled me into the taxi "You're making a scene."

I jumped out of Jake's arms quickly, inhumanely quickly, and tried to grab Vanessa again. But of course, Jake caught me.

"I'm going to kill her!" I screamed again as I wriggled in his arms. "I'm going to do it."

When the taxi door was pulled closed, I sat in the backseat staring out the window.

"What is wrong with you, Nessie?" I heard Jake say, slightly angrily "You know you can't do that in public."

I just kept looking out the window, completely clueless.

"I don't know who you are anymore!" He said, raising his voice again "You talk differently, dress differently, and act way differently. What happened to the little girl I used to know?"

We were both quiet for a second.

"Nessie, what has happened to you?"

I felt my eyes water again.

"You should have never left Forks. I know it."

We were quiet again.

I felt the backseat move as Jake made his way over to me from his seat.

"You okay, Ness?"

I looked over at him and stared deep, deep in his eyes.

I made my way down and put my head in his lap.

"I don't know who I am anymore, Jake."