ok guys so this is going to be written over multiple different days cause im busy, so if anything is wrong I apologize greatly. I dont want to abandon you guys

Clarys POV

As soon as I hung up the phone I rushed into Jaces room, tears threatening to spill out. I opened Jace's door, he was laying on the bed his arms under his head. He had put his shirt back on and had a blanket thrown over his legs haphazardly. When I shut his door he looked up at me, I could tell he saw my face because his eyes darkened and he tensed up.

I fell on to his bed next to him, I didnt want Jace to see me crying but it was to late. He sat up and lifted me to his lap. He wrapped his arms around me and I felt him place a kiss to the top of my head. He tightened his arms around me and I laid my head on his chest.

"Clary hey what happened, please what did he say?" I didn't want to say but he deserved it. "I.. He... Hodge is giving me one more month with you. And, well after I get a short break they, they are giving me another job. Jace I will never be with you, im a live in therapist I cant leave my patient." I was full on crying at this point.

"Oh Clary" Jaces voice was so sad, so disappointed and just so betraying of his emotions. We held on to each other tightly until Jace started to move. "Come on Clary we cant stay here all day."

we went out to the living room, Jace went to the kitchen for some reason and I turned on the TV. When Jace came navy he had two apples, he sat next to me and I leaned into him as I took a bite. We sat in comfortable silence until Jace took my hand.

"I love you, I will wait years until you are done with a patient. I dont care how long I will wait for you, no exceptions, I want you to be mine and I want to be yours eternally."

There was no was to respond to that so I kissed him softly. He tasted of apple, sour and sweet. He wrapped his arms around me and I leaned into him more, soo I was laying ontop of him and we were just looking at each other.

"Clary I want to tell you how I got it." I knew he was talking about his scar so I nodded abd held his hand. We sat up but I still held his hand, he pushed his hair back with his other hand and took a deep breath.

"originally I was just shot in the chest" he pointed to a spot through his shirt that was right under his left lung. "When I was shot I saw my brother Alec, he was trying to save me but he was shot in the head". His voice hitched slightly and I rubbed the back of his hand with my thumb.

"I blacked out after that and when I woke up I was being bragged by masked men. I knew the guys were going to kill me, somewhere in my heart though I hoped this was the kind of tribe that saves soilders. It wasn't, they dragged me to a small village where they chained me to a wall"

He quieted up a bit and I moved closer to him, I pressed a kiss to his upper arm and he smiled for just a second before continuing.

"they thought I was a captain, they wanted information. They tortured me and beat me, they whipped my back with steel tipped whips and they cut me with jagged knives. Thats where it came from, it wasn't a knife though, it was a machete that had been shaped and formed to be that way."

I didnt know if that was the whole story but he was done speaking, he pulled off his shirt and I looked closly at him. Just below his neck was a thin scar that was a couple inches, he shuttered softly when I ran my finger over it. He had his eyes shut and hands balled up again, I loosened his hands and I held on hand in mins. With my other hand I placed it on his cheek and had him face me. He opened his eyes and I rested my forehead on his.

We were so close I could feel our breathe mingling, he let go of my hand and put both his hands in my hair, I wrapped both my hands around his neck. "You are beautiful Jace, I love you and I will love you even of I am fired." He smiled and we kissed. This one was deep, he was mine and I was his and we knew it.

This time I leaned back and Jace laid over me, his elbows supported him but we were still kissing. I moved my hands down his back, sure enough you could feel the small outlines of scars. We stopped for a moment and just took in each other. His eyes were bright but of you looked deeper they were the slightest bit dark. His hair fell over both our faces like a curtain and his bare chest pressed against me. Warm and comforting but corded with muscle.

Looking into his eyes then I knew he meant every word he had said to me, I meant every word I said to him also. We will be there for one another, no matter what obstacles.

ok guys im so sorry i haven't updated. Today it the last day of the fair here though so I can write and update more. I hope you like this, i was writing it at midnight just so I can post it today, hey guys also can you ole erases help me reach my goal of 100 followers, love you all.