A/N I like the way I ended the last one, there is just something cute about falling asleep cuddled together on the couch, I love cuddling what an emotional day she had though...her mom is a real winner. Oh well she has others.

This chapter will have angst, mild violence, sex, swearing oh you know the usual

I do NOT own Degrassi

And It All Falls Apart

Addison's P.O.V

I paced my room, well mainly the spot between my room and the bathroom. I was ignoring the music blasting from my computer and the blonde girl sitting on my bed. This was not how I wanted to be spending my seventeenth birthday. "Addie calm down, you said yourself your on birth control." I nodded my head but Jenna's words barely registered. "I'm late, by like three months Jenna!" The girl nodded her head. "I know this too, but you've never been really regular...you said you had a light period last month."

"Yea well what if it was just spotting, I mean it was super light and I read that, that can happen." I passed back to the bathroom again. "I can't look at it! What if it's positive?" Jenna walked up to me and gave me a hug. "If it is then we'll deal with it, we won't know until we look at it." I nodded my head and let her go walking into the bathroom and picking up the dreaded test...two lines. I don't think I even had the chance to let it sink in; I broke down sinking to the floor. It was shocking at first when I felt arms wrap around me. I turned my head and wept into her shoulder my arms around her in a hug, I don't think I have cried like this since I was ten. "It'll be okay Addie."

"No it won't Fitz is going to be pissed, what am I going to tell him?" I stayed where I was looking at the white and blue test that just told me what I was hoping it wouldn't. What the hell was I going to do? Pulling away I stood and walked the sink so I could wash my face, better than having the mascara marks all down it. "Happy birthday to me." I muttered as I washed my face, I still had a party to go to. "Are we meeting the guys there or here?" I asked walking out of the bathroom to change.

I looked at the dress I had planned to wear and just wasn't feeling it anymore so I was about to put it away when Jenna stopped me. "Don't, it'll look awesome on you and you'll feel better." Sighing I took the dress from her and nodded going to get changed. My heart was in my throat as I thought of all the things that could happen tonight, I was going to have to tell him...I couldn't drink anything and me saying that I wasn't into it would look worse since it was my idea we all get drunk tonight..."Fuck, what the hell am I going to do?"

I asked as I changed into the dress, it was a pretty dress and well I guess I wasn't showing yet so that was something...I quickly made my way back into the bathroom and re-did my makeup and did my hair. Jenna poked her head into the bathroom she too had changed and she was smiling a bit. "You look great; I think he'll love it." I nodded my head and ran my hands down the front of my outfit. "Is this how you felt?" I asked sitting on my bed so that I could put on my knee high converse boots.

"Yeah, I kept thinking about what KC was going to say, and how he was going to react...of course he reacted in the complete opposite way I had expected him too..."She shrugged her shoulders. "But were working on things and he's been pretty good lately. I still love him and he still loves me." But babies made things more complicated than they should be. "He's going to flip, no doubt about it. I know he isn't going to be happy about this." I wasn't happy about this...

I jumped when the doorbell ring. "I guess their meeting us here. " Jenna said happily as she made to leave my room to get the door. "Wait! Should I tell him now? Or at the party after he's had a couple?" do I go for the sober route or the drunk route? Jenna paused and shrugged. "I don't know. You know him better than I do and well its Fitz."Sighing I nodded my head. "Alright well you let them in, I want to find my other jacket." I watched her disappear down the stairs and went into the bathroom grabbing the abandoned test from its spot on my bathroom carpet. Looking around I looked for a spot to hide it, I ended up not having the time to hide it or the box I was just about to drop them into the trash when I heard his voice. "Hey babe? Are you ready to get fucked up...?" He asked stopping in the doorway his eyes glued to my hands.

"What the fuck is that Addison?" I winced at the tone of his voice and set it on the counter, he wouldn't believe me if I lied about it. "A pregnancy test." My voice sounded calmer than I really felt at the moment...I was dying on the inside. "Yea and you have it because?" I swallowed and smiled tightly at him. "I was concerned that I haven't gotten my period in a couple months." I watched him lean back against the wall closing the bathroom door, which meant KC and Jenna were probably in my bedroom. "Your periods aren't usually regular." I nodded, I know this.

"Yes but over three months, that's not normal and my last one was so light it barely counted so I took a test." I leaned on the counter looking away from him. ".. ADDISON?" he was mad I could hear it in his voice and I didn't want him to be mad. "Positive." I barely managed to squeak the word out. "I'll deal with it." I said hastily not looking at him. "You're pregnant, that's fucking great. I thought you were taking birth control, or was that all a lie."

I flinched like he slapped me. "You know what fuck you Mark, you know for a fact I'm on the fucking patch! And if you paid attention in health class you would know that nothing is 100% effective." He wasn't making this all my fault. "You were never too worried while the act was being done." He took a step towards me so that we were almost face to face. "I didn't think you'd be stupid enough to have this happen." Before I could stop myself I slapped him across the face loud enough that it echoed in the small bathroom.

I don't know who was more shocked me or him, but his reaction defiantly wasn't what I expected. His hand touched his face briefly before he had me pushed up against the counter his mouth on mine in a passionate kiss, all his frustration and anger where there I could feel it with ever swipe of his tongue. His hands gripped my hips hard as he pressed himself against me. I could stop the moan that escaped from my mouth than his hands where all over me, moving up my bare legs to grab my ass and force my legs around his waist.

Neither one of us said anything as he lifted me onto the counter for more support his hands where now rubbing against me, his fingers slipping down the front of my panties, causing me to moan again. It didn't even register that KC and Jenna where waiting for me and Fitz so we could go to the party. His palm rubbed against my swollen clit as he plunged his fingers into my wet pussy. "Fuck." I hissed at the suddenness of it all, but he didn't give me time to get used to it.

I'm not sure when he did it but his pants where down and he pushed my panties to the side as he pulled me closer to the ledge so he could push into me. Nothing about this was sweet or anything like the sex I was used to with Fitz. Simply put this was fucking, pure animalistic lust as he pounded into me and I held his shoulders, my nails biting into his skin as if that was the only thing other than his cock pounding into me that kept me grounded to this room.

I bit my lip as I came, not wanting to scream, before his mouth was on mine again and he practically sucked a part of me into him. I don't think I have ever felt this close to him, it was incredibly hot and I never would have guessed that me slapping him across the face would lead to this, he came soon after me. When he was finished spilling himself into me he pulled away and stepped back turning on the facet, grabbing a wash cloth from the stack I had on the shelf there. He wet it and cleaned himself off before tucking himself back into his pants, and then he cleaned me up causing me to frown. "What was that?" I asked slipping off the counter to fix my clothes. "That was probably the best sex we've ever had."

I got that but...it wasn't what I had meant. "That doesn't change anything I'm still pregnant." I said through clenched teeth, I didn't want to cry in front of him. I haven't cried in front of him very many times. "I know." He sighed. "It's mine right." Snapping my head up I just about to cuss him out again when he held up a hand. "Your with me all the time Addison I know it's mine. What are you going to do?" I shrugged I don't know, I don't even know how far along I was. "Make a doctor's appointment and go from there." I jumped at the knock on the door and he turned to answer it.

"You guys done? Were missing your birthday party Addie." KC said shaking his head, his hands in his pockets. "Uh yea, were ready. Let's go." I said tightly taking the lead and walking from the bathroom. I don't know where he stood with this but I know he isn't happy and if I hadn't have slapped him he probably wouldn't have touched me at all. While he was usually all over me, he was now walking behind me, and I felt my heart breaking. I had some choices to make, and I didn't even know where to start. We were going to have to talk and see what we both wanted.

Party hardy

The party was pretty good, despite the fact that I barely saw Fitz and spent most of the night with my old friends and Jenna it was a good night, Owen would find me from time to time to give me updates on Fitz, which was fine I knew he was drinking like a fish so that he didn't have deal with anything other than that tonight. What bothered me was that Bianca was here and with them. Whatever if he wanted to risk throwing our relationship with that slut let him.

It wasn't until I was going to tell him I was leaving that I realized how mad or whatever it was he felt about this pregnancy...he was I didn't see who he was talking to but I'm guess it was KC, I stood off tot eh side and listened neither seeing me there.

"You probably understand this better than anyone else man, I don't want no baby." I could hear him say and I bowed my head, I couldn't hear the other person response it was Fitz answer that hurt. "Maybe she'll get rid of it, I mean I'd be there cause I knocked her up but it would probably ruin the relationship eventually. " I didn't stand around waiting to hear more, I found Jenna and tapped her on the shoulder hoping that I don't look upset. "I'm going home, can you let him know I left?" Jenna frowned but nodded giving me a hug. "Sure thing hun, you okay?" Nodding my head I let go and left the party.

Two weeks later...

As weird as it is to be pregnant I have accepted it and moved on, I even had my first doctor's appointment, I was too far along to terminate it without there being a risk to me so I was keeping it. I had called Fitz to let him know what was going on but he was spending an awful lot of time with Owen...and yes I know he's actually there since Owen and I talk daily and he doesn't lie to me. I've seen him at school but we haven't really been alone together since the night of my party and I miss him.

I was supposed to be doing homework instead I'm in the bathroom looking at my slight baby bump, I was four months along but you can't really tell, all my clothes still fit and everything. I dropped my shirt down and sighed as I heard a knock on my bedroom door, it wasn't my dad he wasn't talking to me. Telling him I was pregnant didn't go well. "One second!" I hollered making my way to the door, opening it I was a bit surprised to see Fitz. "Hi."

"What are you doing here?" I asked with a frown, all the while I wanted to throw myself at him. "I thought you and Owen had some movie night planned out." He nodded his head and brushed past me into my room, sitting on my bed. "We do...did." he picked up the book on my bed looking at it, it was a "What to expect when you're expecting" book and it looked so weird in his large hands. "I miss you." Closing my bedroom door I leaned against it, I needed distance when it came to him.

"I miss you too." It was the truth, we were still together but apart I guess. "Why are you here Fitz?" I crossed my arms over my chest and looked at him; he looked tired and maybe even a bit scared? No this was Fitz. "I'm still keeping the baby, and I'm not giving it up for adoption I just can't." I needed him to know where I stood on this matter. "I know, I wouldn't ask you to do either. God you must think I'm a fucking asshole. I know you Addison; I know you wouldn't do either." He was right I wouldn't even though I had thought about it.

"I can't be a dad Addison...but I can't leave you either, maybe I'm selfish or something but I still want to be with you." He seemed as torn as I felt; I loved him and wanted to be with him but at the same time I don't want to be with someone who doesn't want their own baby. "So what's your plan? Ignore it and hope it goes away?" he was shaking his head. "No, I'm going to be there for you and the baby and we'll try and make this okay." He sounded so sincere I wanted nothing more than to believe him. "Really? What about everything you said at my party or just now?" He nodded his head and I couldn't help myself I was in his arms again in seconds. "I love you, even though you're a jerk and you hurt me." I muttered as I hugged him. "I love you too, even though you change me." Oh how cute, he made it seem like it was a bad thing.

Two weeks after that...

Things were good, at 14 weeks along I was just starting to show a little bit more and Fitz was actually starting to take an interest in the baby, he'd even read my book talking about what the baby was able to do at this time. It had made me laugh but things were good. I haven't even missed all that much school. However today I was not going, I don't feel well at all, my stomach was sore and even though I was trying my best too think positive something is wrong.

I just don't want to think about what could be wrong, maybe it was nothing and I just need to eat? I was home alone right now so at least no one was going to bug me about what I ate; I've had some weird cravings. Getting out of bed I walked to the bathroom before heading down stairs to get something to eat...except I never made it to the kitchen, I felt my stomach clench...you know that crampy feeling you get when you get your period? Well times that by five and you have how I was feeling right now. I picked up my phone and texted Jenna knowing she was in school but it was close to lunch time.

Hey lady, something is wrong can you come over?

I don't remember if she texted me back or not...I don't remember anything after that, I was hit with another wave of pain and then everything went back.

A/N

Another cliff hanger...I am mean, I admit and accept it. This is a longer update and I throw me for a loop the more I wrote, I hope you guys like it. review please and thank you

I'll update soon.

P. Kitty