Chapter 21
Confessions & Memories
~Alexandria~
While our strange party gathered, the weird toad Jaken found us.
A wail sounded across the sky. "Lord Sesshomaru!" Sure enough there was Jaken and Ah-Un. "I found you mi lord!" Then our strange party was complete with the absence of Yukito, whom I didn't miss much.
It took a few hours until we reached our destination. Inuyasha was complaining non-stop. A trait I was glad Sesshomaru lacked.
"I can't believe you Kagome! Why did you have to go do something so stupid?"
"Shove it Inuyasha. Alexandria needs our help. Are you just going to abandon her?"
"Keh."
"What is wrong with those two?" I asked.
Jaken glared at me. "Who knows, foolish girl." He suddenly stopped at swayed on his feet. "I feel a little hot. Let me rest for a moment." He leaned against a tree and closed his eyes.
"Ha! Who's weak now?" Inuyasha teased.
I kneeled next to him. "Jaken? Are you okay?" I shook him and he didn't respond. "Jaken!"
"Now that you mention it." Inuyasha swayed on his feet and collapsed.
"Inuyasha!" Kagome called.
"I feel a little woozy too," said Shippo.
One by one each of them collapsed- except Sesshomaru and I.
"What's wrong with them?" I ask.
"They went under the spell." Sesshomaru said.
"What spell?"
"The same one you and I were under." He pauses as if thinking of something. "Come."
What? We're going to leave them? "Shouldn't we wait until they wake up?"
"In due time. We have something to discus." He turns his head. "Come."
It was probably not the right time to discus anything, but I was curious. So I followed him.
We went deep in the forest. Maybe I should tell him.
"Sesshomaru-" I started.
"Alexandria-" He began.
"You first." I said.
"It can wait. Speak."
I guess now was as good time as any. "I- I love you."
The moment felt like an eternity of silence. I almost thought it was my first crush all over again. Almost. Until he disappeared from sight that is.
His lips were crushed against mine before I knew it. It was like a breath a relief. Maybe he didn't feel the same way I did, but I was enthralled by this development.
"Alexandria."
"Sesshomaru?"
"I love you," he said.
I stared into his eyes in shock. A heart wrenching feeling filled me and tears leaked out of my eyes.
"These are tears." He flicked one away. "Why?"
"I don't know." The tears kept falling and wouldn't stop. "I just feel sad all of a sudden."
"Not yet." He let's me go. He heads back the way we came.
"Wait," I call. He stopped mid-step. "I don't want you to go."
His lips on mine. I felt safe, comforted. Nothing else mattered, but him and me. I felt him remove our clothing and I didn't want to stop him. This was bliss. This was heaven.
"Is this okay?"
"Yes. Don't stop." He wiped my tears away.
I couldn't find where he began and I ended. It was like a never ending symphony of music.
Everything was so right and so perfect until the middle, when he said, "This will hurt." Then, he bit my shoulder- hard. Through the mind numbing pain, I felt an odd sensation to bite something as I tried to pull away from him. So I bit him where he had his teeth into me- his shoulder. He howled with pain. It echoed throughout the forest. I wasn't really sure how this stuff works, but I was pretty sure this wasn't in the manual. I felt the world explode and my vision faded into stars.
As I laid with him while completely bare the way we were born. I couldn't feel happier or more relieved. I just knew he was the father of the unborn in my belly. I just knew. But of course all wonderful things come to an end.
"They're waking up," he said.
I sighed. "Of course they are."
He smiled. Just a bit, but it was so warm.
He dressed. Then he helped me into my kimono smirking at the mess I was making. I could live with him like this. It was just a thought, but it was one I was okay with. I loved him.
"I was wondering where you two were," a dark familiar voice said.
I whipped my head around. "Yukito?"
"I was right, Sesshomaru. You love her, but you can't be with her, can you? You have a deal with Lord Yukimura. If you decline, you will go to war. You don't want that, do you?"
I felt my heart breaking. A spur of the moment decision I shouldn't have made. I shouldn't have said anything. I am so foolish. "What?"
"You didn't tell her, did you? But I thought you loved her?" Yukito mocked.
I was so angry. "I hate you!"
"Alexandria-" I could here him say, but I was not turning around. I felt so humiliated.
I took off in to the forest. The forest glowed in bright bulbs of light. I waved them off.
"Alexandria."
I kept running. I didn't want to talk to him. I didn't want to hear his words. I couldn't stay. Not this time. Not ever again.
"Alexandria. Wait." He grabbed my arm in his grip. "Wait."
"No! I was wrong to ever trust you! All those times! I told you no! Why can't you just listen to me?!"
The thick atmosphere was crushing my lungs. "Do you remember?"
The tears flowed easily this time and I knew what they meant. "Yes." The glowing light in the forest enveloped Sesshomaru and I. And I knew he could see the same things I did.