Chapter 22

I slipped off the bed slowly, carefully not to wake her up. I glanced one last look at her before I leave. She looked like an angle. part of me thought i have lost all the feelings but no. it didn't leave, nothing of my feelings left, no matter how much i close it, it all comes back rushing.

Clouds of doubt dissipated. I knew what I needed to do.

Sky was beginning to slowly brighten yet the sun hasn't come up. I walked down the pavement to my apartment smelling the fresh cold air; putting my hands in my jacket pockets my eyes study the moving pavement as I walked. How would I fix this? I knew that I had to finish the mess I made. An ache burned inside my chest. Hell, I do actually know now. I know what I have been yearning for, it's been always out there and I was blinded.

Another ache of regret rushed into my chest. I close my eyes for a moment to clear my head but before that I since him. I look up to see Sasuke.

We greet each other. He asks if I'm all right. I don't know what to say? I hate the fact I'm feeling happiness and regretful discovered all this too late. But Sasuke reads my mind with his Uchiha eyes (sounds a bit sexual but okay). Those eyes are like daggers tbh. He knows about it?

He tells me the most important thing. I nod and leave.

I went home, showered and dressed.

She decided to meet on that place. Trees, grass and nature. Empty of people. my heart is beating nonstop the drumming is at my ears, I practice what i say in my mind times and times more.

I saw her walking, wearing a white summer dress, her black hair moves with the wind, she brushes it away from her face as she's walking up the hill. The sun is up, warm sunlight and cool breeze, the weather is suddenly perfect.

She looks at me, she smiles, I try to smile back but all I feel is the heartache I will be causing to her.

She greets me and I greet back.

"How's she?" She asks

I blink. What?

She looks down, her eyes turns a bit darker shade, I take a step forward.

She fumbles something in her hands, I take a closer step to her, closing the distance, only mere centimeters separated. Her hands are holding something and she looks up to me.

She unfolds her hands and there's a ring. The engagement ring..

"Hinata-ch -" I start to speak but I get interrupted.

"-don't" she says

" I knew it, from the beginning" she takes my hand, placing the ring.

" I nerve had a chance, i wish I can hate you for it." She smiles. Her eyes are not meeting mine. I could feel her face warms.

I try to touch her cheeks, "Hinata-chan" she take a step back.

She sniffs, "I'm calling it off, I... I also left something on your door" she sniffs again, her hand covering her mouth " i only hope to hate you," she says it, so softly. i reach to touch her arms but she take another step back.

"Wait. Hinata-chan please, listen to me, I would have-"

"Goodbye" it sounds more like an order, she turns around and leave.

My chest feels heavy, as if someone dropped a ton of metal block on it.

I follow her, i call her name, I wanted to tell her so many things, I wanted her to forgive me, I will do anything to.. I run, looking for her but she disappeared, but I decide that I will give her sometime alone, what's the point if I am looking for her and she doesn't want to see me...

I walked up to my apartment; feeling like a complete asshole loser.

And then I see a letter.. Is that what she left? She did say something about a letter..

I don't bother to open my apartment door I just take the letter and immediately open it,

'Dear Naruto

I am writing this paper two and half hours before I leave.

And I realized something, I don't want to go and not tell you this, I don't know the future.

It would be so stupid to say it now but Uzumaki Naruto, I love you, a lot actually. I tried to dodge those feelings and ignore them but I was wrong, they only grew more, I was afraid of so many things but now I am not, so make up your mind. I understand that you are surprised when reading this but those are my feelings and they won't change for a long time.

Love, Sakura'

I shake my head again, and re-read it. What the ?

I put the letter in my pocket without closing it, it crumbles in my pocket as I ran to find her. I will have to listen to what she says before... Before I make any mistakes

I go all the way to the Hyuuga Household, the servants there tell me that Hinata busy and I can't meet her or she's not here..

There's no point to ask them, I look for a route to her room, I go up the roofs and I knock on the window, "Hinata please.. Please open the window"

I don't hear an answer.

"Hinata please, things cannot end like this" I beg.

This is all my fault, regardless of this letter, the fact that I promised her something and I broke it off is something I need her to forgive me for it, forgiveness is not even enough…

I hear the window cracks. I sigh in relief.

A face of an old lady comes up "what do you want young man! I told you your Hinata-san is not here!"

I almost fall down.

I exhale an frustrated breath. She's not here. I leave the mansion and go look for her .. Basically everywhere.

i roam the whole village, i can't rest.. resting will follow that the guilt eats me. i go to the last place that she might be there.

The sound of waterfall blubbering in the distance, I walk steadily.. I knew she's here, I can sense her chakra, and she by now knows that I'm here too.

Her black hair is covering back, as she was sitting by the water.

I walk towards her and she looks up. She looks at me, i see different emotions running through her eyes.. the guilt is swallowing like a hungry flame.

I bow, immediately, "Hinata, I don't care what the letter means, it doesn't justify my actions for what I have done, i have promised to give you my heart when it belonged to someone else and i broke it" my voice was shaking. I have been preparing this and I just..

I bow still, i can hear she's taking steps towards me, i close my eyes, i wish she would use all her feelings and bash me with a fist or any physical violence… But all I sense is a gentle rub on my head.

She took a step back as I raised my head to look at her

"I have known that .. That she had confessed in the letter, I have found it. Under your furniture..I didn't mean to hide it..." Her voice is soft, as she's looking at the waterfall,.

"I ..umm I knew it, I knew that but I have hoped maybe I had a chance.. I apologise" her tone is a bit shaky.

I open my mouth to speak but her raises her hands, I stop and listen. She explains everything from the beginning.. She tells me that she had crush on me ever since academy days, she tells me she have known that chemistry was starkly obvious between Sakura and me. She tells me that she was devastated about the letter but she felt that she deserved a chance to see if.. But.. She stops there, she looks down again.

And I wish she could be beating me to death but not this...

i have to say the comment "kill yourself virgin" made me laugh for days. thank you.