So I realize it has been far too long since I've updated…but I'm guessing none of you want to hear my apologies and just want me to get on with the story, am I right? Well…You get your wish. Thank you for being so patient with me…and…here we go.

Jasper.

I wish I could explain to you the pure agony I felt watching her live her life with apparent joy. Watching her smile at every random person, listen to her hum peaceful melodies as she walked down the halls, even watching the joy in her eyes as she lay in the arms of my enemies lover.

Lies. All of it.

Edward had never been able to read her mind, so naturally he fell for the façade she was throwing at him now. He had no clue that her heart felt as if it had been cut into thousands of pieces, run over millions of times, thrown into an acid pool, and finally given back to her.

He had no clue that his touch made the pain ten times worse.

He had no idea that every kiss he gave her nearly drove her further over the edge.

He had no idea that she needed help…and even if he did, he wouldn't help.

No, the only help he'd ever offer…would be burying her.

I was the only thing that could ever possibly help her, but no matter what I did…I would destroy her. Betraying Alice, Bella dies. Ignoring Bella…Bella dies of her own terms. Glancing up at the sky towards the man she calls "Daddy" so often in her dreams…I asked a single question:

What's the right thing to do…when everything is wrong?

Hush little baby don't say a word,

Daddies gonna buy you a mocking bird,

But if that little bird flies away,

She'll have to find her own way.

To bring a mocking bird back home,

She'll have to find us on her own.

Bella

Daddy, I think it's working. I'm doing exactly what you did before the end…everyone is beginning to believe I finally found the one I was supposed to be with. Everyone is starting to wonder where the broken girl went. Hell I'm even sure Christine is falling for it. I'll be with you soon.

"Bella! Hey, are you Bella Swan?" I turned as a small squeaky voice called my name, but I didn't reply.

"Um…Do you remember that project you did for American History?" Squeaky voice asked. History Project?

"On the Great Depression?" I thought my teacher burned that…

"Yeah! Well…Mr. Alan showed it to us today and I was wondering…" He trailed off and stared at the floor with his ears turning red.

"Hey, Squeaky Voice, I really don't have time for you to stand there and be shy. I have to get to class and the more time I stand here waiting for you to tell me what you need the less time I get to see my boyfriend so…"

"I was wondering if you could tell me how to tea stain my papers like you did." That's it?

"It's easy. Get a cake pan and some tea bags, pour boiling water into the cake pan and add the tea bags until it's a dark brown color. Add your paper, wait thirty minutes, and let it dry." I walked off before he had a chance to say 'Thank you'. I glanced at my watch relieved that I only had two minutes before the bell rang, meaning less of an act around Edward.

Third period I'm an office aid, pretty much meaning that I sit in a chair and do whatever I want just as long as it doesn't make noise. I was lost in my thoughts trying to find something within sight that could possibly kill me. I made it to my seat before realizing that there was an Alice in the room. And of course, naturally, was Jasper awkwardly…but tenderly holding her. Her. Of all people.

What could anyone possibly see in her? She's short…but that does put her mouth in closer range of what men are usually controlled by. She never shuts up. Ever. I'd say she probably talks in her sleep…but…she's a vampire. She doesn't sleep. She has that stupid little haircut, and looks at him in that sick, disgusting way. Just watching her gaze into his eyes, and him coldly staring back as if they were talking…nearly made me gag.

Suddenly, it seemed, Alice finally noticed me and pretended to flinch at the hatred in my eyes and glanced at Jasper as if for support.

"I'll leave you two alone for a moment, I'll see you shortly." My stupid heart must have translated that to a double meaning…She just loves him.

My heart started to pound with every slow step he took. I knew he could hear it, he paced his steps to it. Finally he motioned I stand up and foolishly I complied. I wasn't sure what I was feeling…it was the most complicated mess I'd ever felt. Hatred, love, betrayal, guilt, lust, longing, agonizing pain, but strongest of all: fear. Fear of how he felt for me, fear of what he had to say-

My thoughts were instantly halted the second his lips touched mine. Without thinking I wrapped my arms around his neck holding him in an iron choke hold…even my body unwilling to let go. He let the kiss go on for a moment before pulling away, ignoring my agonized whimper.

"Please" was all he whispered in my ear as he trailed his cheek across mine, when my eyes flashed open, he was gone.

Please? Please WHAT?

"By the way, Bella?" Still unsteady I turned to a smiling Alice who stood in the doorway. "The movie night at Christine's sounds lame."

Moments later I was standing at my locker staring at the spot where a smiling Jasper used to be considering banging my head against it when I heard Christine call behind me.

"Hey Bella! I heard you like vampires and stuff and well…I've got True Blood…wanna bring Edward?"

I thought about Alice's silent warning and happily responded.

"I'd love to."

Hush Little baby please come home,

He doesn't like to be alone,

Little baby princess, don't you see?

You don't belong up here with me.