When he arrived back at the basement, Harrison was standing there, watching the fires burn in the distance.
"Is it done?" he asked.
Obi-Wan shrugged, "I don't know for certain, but I suspect so."
Harrison furrowed his brow and smiled slightly at him, "I was hoping you'd walk away."
"Like your sister did? Why didn't you tell me? Did you even know?"
Harrison shrugged, "You seemed pretty determined and you were doing it for her. I couldn't begrudge you that."
"You told me she told the others not to harm him."
Harrison shrugged, "Small embellishment on my part, but you know…I wanted to give you something to think about, that's all."
Obi-Wan put his hand on Harrison's shoulder, "Thank you. For everything."
Harrison smiled at him, "My pleasure, Master Jedi."
The two of them stood there, watching the fires in the distance.
The next morning, Obi-Wan left Suliana. He set a course for Tython. When he arrived, he went back to the Jedi Temple. This time, he allowed the feeling of familiarity to bring him a little peace.
He went to the place where the Code had been and sat on the ground, using the old space for what it was intended – as a place of meditation and calm. He thought about Kayla. He pushed aside the dark energies of the Force and allowed himself to reconnect with the light.
"Quite the journey you've had, Master Kenobi."
Obi-Wan was startled and opened his eyes. In front of him was an apparition of an ancient Jedi. Obi-Wan scooted back in wonder and alarm.
The ancient Jedi chuckled, casually glanced to the hole in the wall and said, "I suppose I should be grateful that you didn't destroy more."
Obi-Wan shook his head, still in disbelief, "I should've been more respectful…"
The Elder Jedi brushed the comment aside, "Stop. What's done is done, Master Kenobi. Weeping for your past will only hinder your future." The ancient Jedi smiled at Obi-Wan and continued, "That is why you're here, isn't it? To bring some sort of balance to your past and your future?"
Obi-Wan nodded, "I've never felt so lost before."
The ancient Jedi chuckled, "And yet, you've returned to a Jedi Temple. What does that tell you?"
Obi-Wan acknowledged it, "I am a Jedi. I always will be, I don't deny that."
"That's a start, isn't it?"
"But, the Code…"
The ancient Jedi cut him off, "You don't feel as though you can live within the Code, is that it?"
Obi-Wan nodded, "I can't be in love and adhere to the Code. I can't be a Jedi and love someone, it's not allowed."
The ancient Jedi cocked his head and stared at the Jedi Master, "You've been in love before, though, haven't you?"
Obi-Wan nodded, "Yes, and it didn't end well."
"How do you feel about it now?"
Obi-Wan searched himself and found that the guilt and pain of losing Satine was significantly diminished. He thought about Qui-Gon and realized that he no longer blamed himself. It's not like those feelings weren't there, entirely, but they simply no longer grieved him as much.
Before he could say anything, the elder Jedi spoke up, "You've accepted your past, Obi-Wan. By allowing yourself to live with those emotions, you've finally come to terms with them. It's time to allow yourself to move on and accept the next part of your future."
Obi-Wan shook his head, "I'm trying, but I don't know what that is, yet."
The ancient Jedi smirked at him and said, "Yes, you do. You only have to be willing to accept it." The ancient Jedi raised his hand as Obi-Wan felt a rush of light side energy take hold of him. It was peace, serenity, harmony and at the center of it was compassion for himself and his love for Kayla.
"That, Master Kenobi, is what the Jedi Code represents. The older Je'daii sought balance in the Force. The founders of our Order had seen the destruction the Force Wars had brought. They saw that a philosophy of balance was tenuous and allowed too much freedom for the dark side to take over. Instead, they advocated a philosophy of the light in order to dissuade their followers from venturing too far in the other direction. If the words of the Code are taken literally, to some Jedi they can feel somewhat unobtainable and do lead to frustration, confusion, and impracticality."
"You're saying that the Code isn't to be taken literally? That thousands of generations of Jedi have misinterpreted it?"
The ancient Jedi shook his head, "Not at all. It is the spirit of the Code that must always be maintained, if not the exact wording and traditions of it. You've allowed yourself to be overwhelmed by the dark energies of the Force and yet, you have still returned to this Temple. There can be little doubt that you will still continue to faithfully serve the Jedi Order. The purpose of the Code is to avoid Jedi falling to the dark side. It's underlying principle is as a set of rules to avoid that outcome. It's that simple, really."
Obi-Wan allowed the realization to give him a new purpose. He thanked the ancient Jedi for his help, boarded his ship and set off for Coruscant.
