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Chapter 20

Slowly pushing her way into the door of the nearest convenience store that Rachel could find, she nervously entered the store. Looking down at her hands, she noticed that her palms were very sweaty and they were shaking very violently. Walking towards the items in the store, she looked for the family planning aisle. Finding it after what seemed like decades of looking for it, she stopped in front of the contents and looked at them with the threat of tears falling from her face.

Rachel wasn't ready to be a mom yet. Maybe in the future, when she was both financially stable and married to the man of her dreams. But not now, as a teenager, trying to define herself in New York City, hoping to get a chance to become a Broadway star, while still struggling to keep up with the monthly rent. Any child deserved a better life than that, Rachel knew that for sure. She didn't know what she was going to do. In her mind, she kept convincing herself that she was pregnant, but the more and more she tried to convince herself, the less she actually believed it. What if she actually was pregnant? What would she do? Abortion would never be an option, she would not kill her innocent baby. Would adoption be good? What if she got attached to it? What if she kept it? She couldn't keep it, could she? She was so confused. Why did she have to get drunk at that wedding with him? Finn. How was she going to tell him? Now, fear replace all of her other feelings.

Scanning all of her options, she decided to grab the box that looked the most accurate. Grabbing the two most expensive boxes, Rachel turned and made her way to the checkout counter. Never in her life has she ever pictured herself buying a pregnancy test before. Walking up to the counter she placed the two boxes on the counter, as she dug in her purse for her wallet. Grabbing her wallet, she took out her credit card, and handed it to the cashier, who threw her a judged look. Ignoring it, Rachel waited for the cashier to finish with her card, then placed it in her wallet when she got it back. Grabbing the bag that contained her tests, she quickly made her way out of the store and back to her apartment. Hopefully Kurt wasn't home, this was something that Rachel wanted to do alone.

Walking into the front door, Rachel noticed that Kurt was in the apartment and by the sound of things he wasn't alone. Rachel heard another voice, which by the familiarity of it, she assumed it was Blaine. Quietly closing the door behind her, she quickly hid the bag with her pregnancy tests in her purse and held it close to her arms as she walked further into the apartment, making her way to her room. Walking into the living room, she was caught off guard as the two guests that Kurt had in the apartment noticed Rachel.

"Hey, Rachel" Blaine smiled as he got up and ran over to her to hug her.

"Hey, Blaine. What are you doing here?" Rachel asked with a nervous look on her face, as he got closer to her, causing her to hold her purse closer to her side.

"Well, Kurt said his calendar was clear all week, so I decided to come. Hope you don't mind, I brought someone with me." He smiled as Rachel looked past him to see Finn sitting on the opposite side of Kurt with his famous crooked grin, as he got up and made his way closer to Rachel.

"Good to see you again, Rach." He said as he pulled her into a huge hug.

"Good to see you too." Rachel tried to pull herself together while holding Finn in her embrace. While hugging him, Rachel looked up at the roof, as tears started to make their way down her cheeks. Pulling away from him, Rachel quickly wiped her tears before he could see her face.

"So, how long are you guys staying?" Rachel asked trying to give them a convincing happy face.

"We're just down for the weekend. We got Monday off from school, so we decided we would make the best of it and come to New York." Blaine explained as he made his way back over to sit next to Kurt.

"Oh, well then, welcome. Make yourselves at home." Rachel said as she made her way to her room.

"Where you rushing off to diva? You were gone all morning." Kurt asked with a look of curiosity on his face.

"I have to… uhmm… study. Yeah, I have to study. There's this huge test on Tuesday, so I want to start studying now so I can get a head start on the rest of my work this week." Rachel explained as she turned and ran off to her room, closing the door behind her.

"What was that all about?" Finn asked.

"I have no idea. She's nuts." Kurt explained before continuing his conversation about how beautiful Central Park is at 7:00 am to Blaine.

Walking further into her room, Rachel placed her purse on her bed, and grabbed the bag inside, making her way into her bathroom. Once in her bathroom, Rachel locked the door behind her, and placed the bag on the counter by the sink, and looked into the mirror at herself in disgust. Taking out her cellphone, she place it onto the counter and opened the first box from her bag. Taking out the stick, she was pretty sure she knew what to do.

Sitting on the floor in the bathroom, after what seemed like hours, Rachel's phone started beeping. Slowly getting up, she walked up to the sink and looked at herself in the mirror.

"Okay, Rachel. No matter what happens, you can do this. Even if you are pregnant, you will get through any challenge that is thrown your way. You're too strong to let go." She whispered to herself as she picked up the stick, and flipped it over, revealing her future.

While carrying on their conversation, Kurt, Blaine, and Finn were abruptly interrupted by Rachel, who was walking at a very quick pace towards the front door of the apartment.

"Rachel, where are you hurrying off too?" Kurt got up as Rachel stopped and turned around.

"I'm going out for a… run. I'll be back in an hour or two." She called back.

"But you're wearing heels." Kurt called back.

"I know. I have to get a lot of practice running in them, for Broadway shows. You never know when they will need me to do these sorts of things. It's better to start practicing now." Rachel said as she turned and walked out the door, leaving Kurt a little surprised.

"Okay, I know she's crazy and all, but there's definitely something up with her." Blaine stated.

"I agree." Finn said as he raised his hand.

Knowing exactly what was up with Rachel, Kurt tried to change the subject.

"That's just her normal self. Who wants tea?" He asked making his way to the kitchen.

"Me!" Blaine said quickly following Kurt.

"I'll take some too, lots of sugar. Kurt, where's the restroom?" Finn said as he looked around the apartment. We have two, but I would prefer if you used Rachel's because mine is a little messy right now. Just go into her room, and it's on the left when you walk in." Kurt instructed Finn.

"Okay thanks." Finn said making his way to Rachel's door. Entering Rachel's room, Finn couldn't help but smile as the smell of Rachel's perfume filled the air. He hadn't smelled it since high school. He missed it. Looking around, he found the door that he assumed was the bathroom. To Finn's surprise, Rachel's bathroom was very tidy. The floor was completely spotless, the mirror had no smears on it, and the counter was very neatly arranged to where her soap bars were stacked neatly and a wash cloth hung on the faucet. There were also two picture frames neatly place on the side of her sink, one of her smiling with her parents, and the other was from nationals of her, him, and Kurt. Finn smiled at the thought that Rachel still cared enough to have a picture of him in her home.

After finishing his business, something caught Finn's eye. There was something sticking out the trash can in Rachel's bathroom. He knew better than to go snooping around in her business, so he just turned around and slowly walked away. Stopping at the door knob, Finn paused for a moment, wondering if he should go back to see what it was. His curiosity was killing him, and it's not like Rachel was there to catch him, so he quickly turned back around and made his way back over to the trash can.

Pulling out the box, Finn's heart fell to his toes as he read what it was. Why did Rachel have a pregnancy test in here bathroom? Shaking the box, he felt an object inside of it. Opening the box, Finn pulled out a stick that looked like the one on the cover of the box, and looked at the sign. There were two lines on it? What did that mean? He never touched one of these things in his life. The only time he's ever seen one was either on TV shows or in stores when Puck and him would point at it and run away laughing but now that he has one in his hands, he doesn't feel laughter, more like fear. Looking for the instructions, he found them on the floor behind the trash. Picking them up, he found the same looking sign on the paper that he did, he read that the two lines indicated the woman was pregnant. Wait what? Pregnant? Rachel couldn't be pregnant. If she was, what would they do? Unless Rachel was the New York City slut, he could pretty much guarantee that he was going to be a daddy. He was pretty sure that this was the result from the night of the wedding.

Putting the box back in its exact place, Finn slumped down on the toilet, and rested his head on his hands, thinking more about the situation. Gosh, he should've been more careful that night. What was he going to do? He couldn't be a father. He just wasn't ready. He wanted to have kids someday, but not now, as a nineteen year old teenager who just found his true passion and who was still trying to find out what he wanted from life, while living in the basement of his parent's house. He wanted to wait to be financially stable and married to the woman of his dreams, even if it was Rachel. He could only imagine what Rachel was feeling right now. That's probably why she hurried out the apartment without stopping. He didn't know what they would do. He was scared.

After about an hour or two of pacing back and forth in Central Park, Rachel decided that she would put on a straight face and practice her acting skills in front of the boys in her apartment. No matter what happened, she would not crush Finn's spirits. She would not let him know. He seemed to be really happy to be visiting. Rachel would make it her mission, even if her last, to make sure that Finn stayed that way.

Walking back the apartment, Rachel knew that everyone would be in suspicion about her recent actions, so she decided to get them a treat and apologize for her actions, even if she had to give a false reason. Getting closer to the apartment complex, Rachel took a left turn to go to the bakery across the street. When Rachel walked out of the bakery, she walked back across the street, walking back to her apartment, until she got to the front door, closing it behind her as she found the boys sitting at the counter drinking tea. Walking towards them, Rachel place the big box of sugary treats in front of them and watched as all of their faces lit up.

"Enjoy." She said as she watched Blaine and Finn dive for the box.

"Thanks Rachel. What's all of this for?" Kurt asked as he grabbed a donut and placed it on a paper plate.

"I just wanted to apologize for my actions earlier, I'm just going through some stuff." She smiled slightly.

Moment of truth Finn thought to himself.

"What kind of stuff?" Blaine asked looking curious.

"Nothing too serious, don't worry." She said.

"What's up?" Kurt asked looking ate her.

"You really don't wanna know." She replied.

"Yes we do, what's going on?" Finn asked looking at her, trying to get her to confess the truth that he already knew.

"Guys, trust me you don't wanna know." She assured them.

"Yes we do." All three of them said in unison.

"Fine. It's that time again." She said looking at their clueless faces.

"What?" Blaine asked. "What time?"

"You know, that time of the month." She explained which gained an understanding from all three of them.

"Well, you guys enjoy this. I'm going to go to my room." She said as she placed her coat on the hook and headed towards her room. While walking back to her room, she glanced at Finn and couldn't help but notice he was looking at her with a sad expression on his face. What was his problem?

Looking at the half eaten donut on his plate, Finn thought about what he would do. She was acting as if nothing was going on. Why was she keeping to herself? Finn knew that this wasn't something anyone should face alone. Finally getting fed up with his thoughts, he looked up at Blaine and Kurt, who were obviously flirting with each other.

"I'm going to the restroom." Finn told them as he made his way over to Rachel's door. Should he just walk in or knock? He decided knocking would be the best option since he and Rachel weren't really on the closest terms.

After about three seconds of waiting, the door finally opened to reveal, Rachel standing in the door frame looking up with a confused gaze at him.

"Can I help you?" She asked.

"We need to talk." He assured her

Rachel opened the door a little wider and motioned for him to come in with her hand. After walking in, Rachel closed the door behind him.

"What do you want to talk about?" Rachel asked walking back over to her vanity where she continued coating her nails with nail polish. "If it's about the night of the wedding, I can honestly say for myself that we've already said everything that there was to-"Rachel went on before Finn interrupted her.

"I know."

"What do you know Finn?" Rachel asked blank-mindedly as she looked at him through the mirror.

"I know that you're pregnant. And correct me if I'm wrong, when I assume that I'm the father." He looked back at her as she froze.

"How did you find out?" She asked with a soft, low voice.

"Kurt told me to use your bathroom instead of his when you left. I found the test in the trash." Finn confessed.

"You had no right, Finn! That was my personal belongings!" She yelled as she pointed her fingers at him. His heart fell as he saw the tears falling from her face.

"Hey…" He said getting up from the chair across the room, making his way over to wear Rachel sat.

"Look at me. Everything's gonna be okay. We're going to be okay. I promise" He assured her as he pulled her into a tight embrace, while she cried into his chest. Just sitting there, Finn felt the tears fall down from his face, as he held Rachel in his arms, hearing her sobs while he stroked her hair away from her face.

So, I hoped everyone enjoyed, I will try to update soon. Review :) -Katherine