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A/N: firstly, I already told all of you that the decision lies with you and you all wanted Klaine and that's what will happen because that's what you choose, so if people who are still reading this though they object Kurt liking Blaine then please stop reading this fic, because your opinions to me doesn't matter, because I write what my readers want… end of story, so if you don't like it then don't bother telling me about it, please and thank you!

And to the rest of my awesome readers, I'm glad you are enjoying!

A lot of things will happen quickly from now on because only 4 chp are left

PLEASE IGNORE SPELLINGS

Chapter 21; Please Don't Leave Me

As morning arrived, Blaine stayed up all night, he was lying on his side of the bed staring up at the ceiling while having Kurt's used shirt, he left in his bedroom the other night, placed on his side; he tried closing his eyes but all he could picture was the kiss, how could it be true? He kissed me, the way he was holding me, and the way his soft fingers rubbed circles on my skin; he knew he screwed up Kurt's life, but he never knew Kurt would do this.

All the things Blaine was seeing, the various advances, and the many of times Kurt sat next to Blaine talking and the time he hugged him and slept next to him, it was just Kurt trying to get used to this, and to keep Blaine away from his old self, Kurt never did all of this because he wanted to be happy with Blaine.

Blaine slowly got up from bed, and walked into the bathroom to wash his face.

When he walked down the stairs he turned to walk to Kurt's bedroom, a habit he had developed over the time Kurt has been here, and then he remembered it was pointless, he probably is already awake and chatting with his friends again, as if it never happened.

He walked towards the kitchen and looked around, Nick, Lauren were sitting there along with Finn and Rachel; Blaine arched an eyebrow and said to Nick "hasn't Kurt woken up?"

"Don't know… last time I checked he was awake in his own room, and when I asked he didn't want to come here…" Nick shrugged his shoulders and Blaine glanced at Rachel who looked away from Blaine's gaze.

Blaine sighed and turned on his heel, when he was in front of Kurt's bed room door, he opened the door and stepped inside, the shades weren't drawn back and Kurt was awake, he could hear sniffles coming from Kurt, his body curled up in a ball, while holding a pillow in his arms; Blaine walked over to the curtains and drew them back to let the sunshine in, Kurt didn't move from his position, neither he looked up at Blaine.

Blaine walked towards the bed and sat down, he looked at Kurt's face and saw that his eyes were red and swollen, he had dark circles underneath them, and his face was ghostly pale. This image reminded him of the old Kurt, that Kurt who first came here; he shuddered at the memory.

"Why are you still here?" Blaine asked, but Kurt didn't reply back.

"You haven't been sleeping" he pointed out, and Kurt rolled his eyes and scoffed bitterly and said "well isn't that a surprise"

Blaine ignored Kurt's bitterness and stood up saying "did you have breakfast?"

"No" Kurt muttered under his breath.

"come on" Blaine said getting up from the bed, not looking back to see that Kurt had expectantly held his hand out for Blaine to take in his own and help him up like he mostly did; Kurt felt hurt at that.

They walked into the kitchen keeping an arm's length distance, Nick glanced at them and saw there was something weird going on between them, usually Blaine was weighing at his hand and feet and now he just casually sat down on the chair across from Nick without even bothering to help Kurt sit down, who gave Blaine a sad longing look before sitting down in the empty chair next to him.

Nick waited for Blaine to ask Kurt what he wants to eat, but he didn't; he could see the sadness in Kurt's eyes and see that he hadn't slept at all, he looked exhausted.

"Kurt?" Nick said, Kurt looked up from his lap when Nick asked "there some waffles I made for Jeff, I made enough for two, so do you want to eat that or can I get you something else"

"no, t-that's fine, thank you Nick" Kurt said in a low strained voice, he looked like he was about to cry, Kurt glanced at Blaine who was too much engrossed in the newspaper sipping coffee, Kurt bit his lip to stop it from trembling.

And right then before he could say anything else, Jeff came in the kitchen and right behind him was Finn and Rachel walking hand in hand leaning against each other, their smiles they gave each other were full of love that it made Kurt's heart ache.

And what made matters worse was that Jeff came towards Nick and sat down on his lap, wrapping his arms around his neck and giving him a chaste kiss, it still held passion and love in it, that Kurt could clearly see with the looks on their faces and the way they smiled at each other; he glanced at Blaine form the corner of his eyes and he saw that he was staring at the loving exchange too. Kurt sighed and looked down at his food, it seemed disgusting now; he felt an uneasy churn in the pit of his stomach and then looking at the two couples, who had so much love and devotion for each other made Kurt's heart ache more than it already did.

He wished he had that, he wanted that, he wanted to be loved and to hold the hand of the man he loves and smile at him and love him, and kiss him when he wanted… but sadly he could never have the love that his friends had; he would always be like this, alone, scared, lonely, hurt and sad.

Kurt felt tear forming in his eyes and he roughly pushed his chair back alarming everyone in the room; Kurt let out a sniff and said without looking up at the questioning eyes.

"if you'll excuse me" he said and ran out of the kitchen until he couldn't contain the sob that was daring to break through, as soon as he was out of the kitchen leaving behind the questioning eyes his friends, he let out a sob, he was half way to his bedroom, when he stopped to take a deep breath, covering his face in his hands and he leaned against the wall letting out a loud cry and gasping for air.

"Kurt, sweetie?" Kurt looked up and saw his mother standing right in front of him with concerned eyes, she opened her arms and Kurt immediately fell into them, burying his face in her shoulder and letting out a loud cry "I-it h-hurts so much!" he said grasping his mothers back for support.

She tightened her hold on Kurt and rubbed circles in his back "Ssh, honey, just let it out"

"He'll never know, mom! He can never know! We can never have what Rachel and Finn have… I can never have a happy ending!" he sobbed feeling all the rush of emotions, he wanted his happy ending, he craved for it.

Elizabeth felt her own tears roll down her cheek, she pressed her face into Kurt's hair, trying to be strong for both of them, she wished she could give Kurt the happy ending he deserved, if only fate had been kind to them, Kurt would have been still the same old Kurt he used to be.

"What's wrong with him?" Nick asked, giving Blaine a questioning look after Kurt had left.

Blaine shrugged his shoulders saying "I don't know"

"Aren't you going to go after him?" Nick said still holding Jeff in his lap who was now chatting with Rachel.

"no" Blaine mumbled taking a long sip of his coffee, trying not to care about the boy he loved so much, he knew Kurt was upset, and it hurts him so much that he wanted to run after him, wrap his arms around him and tell him he is never going to let go and be sorry for what he said to him last night; but he couldn't, he knew all of the love he showed for Kurt had no effect on him… he was just the rapist vampire to Kurt, Kurt would never love him.

"dude, he's fucking pregnant and well, emotional, he shouldn't be left alone" Nick said feeling annoyed by the way Blaine was acting as if Kurt didn't matter to him.

"As if I care" Liar, you love him Blaine thought to himself.

"Fuck the attitude Anderson! And go after him!" Nick snatched the mug from Blaine and gave him a stern look.

Blaine huffed and got up from his seat, he knew that deep down he was concerned as hell for Kurt but he was trying to ignore those feelings for his own good, he was silently walking towards Kurt's room when he stopped in mid track and saw Kurt sobbing and wrapped in his mother's arms.

He didn't want to intrude on this moment and he was just about to leave when he heard Kurt say "I-I wanna go h-home mommy, t-take me away! It hurts too much to be here… I can never be happy when he doesn't even care" Kurt cried into her shoulder.

Blaine felt a pang in his chest; he wanted to go home…he was staying behind because of me? I am keeping him for having a happy life… Blaine thought, he sighed and turned around, apparently he wasn't the only one who Kurt would go running after for comfort, of course why would he? It's not like Blaine is a significant part of his life.

Blaine was in his office once again, he kept his door locked not wanting anyone be there next to him, he was sitting on the window sill thinking of all the things he and Kurt had went through, he just wished Kurt loved him as much as he did, but their love was one-sided, Kurt could look past and move on, but would it be enough? Blaine wanted Kurt to be with him, but that also meant of him leaving his family behind and never looking back. Blaine wasn't good for him, he was not what Kurt needed, a person like Kurt deserved everything the world could give him; and seriously, bringing up a child with a person like Blaine, he can never be his own child's role model let alone be a good responsible father, a life partner, and a father… a husband Kurt deserved.

He knew that the thing he had decided was tough but if he really did love Kurt, this had to be done, he wasn't going to string Kurt along anymore… he loved him too much for that.

Blaine was walking down the hall and saw Kurt sitting on his bed, with Elizabeth by his side, the side which Blaine thought only he had with Kurt, she was singing to him, rubbing his back; just like a mother should, just like the way Blaine wished his parents did, Kurt was so lucky.

What made Blaine heart-break into two was the song she was singing to him

Let's not let our anger get us lost
And the need to be right comes with way too high a costThat's when love can build a bridge of light
That's what turns the wrong so right
That's when you know it's worth the fightThat's when love turns night time into day
That's when loneliness goes away,
That's why you gotta be strong tonight
'Cause only love can build us a bridge of light

Blaine squeezed his eyes shut and took a deep breath before stepping in the room when he couldn't bear it any longer.

"Kurt?" Blaine called out.

Kurt looked up from where he was sitting and narrowed his eyes, watching the uneasiness and uncertainty Blaine had.

He took a deep breath and looked up at Kurt with tears brimming in his eyes "I-I think it's about time you leave… as soon as the baby is born, I want you to pack your bags and leave with your parents"

"What-"

"my decision is final, Kurt!" he turned around and walked down the hall hoping he did not break down in front of Kurt, he still wanted to have his dignity intact after all that was the only thing he had.

He was now walking towards the main door when he heard Kurt yelling after him "BLAINE! STOP! What the hell is wrong with you?"

"What do you want Kurt?" Blaine said not turning around to look at Kurt.

Kurt grabbed his arm to turn him around to look at him when he said "I said why are you doing this! I told you-"

Blaine doesn't let him finish and says "I know what you told me! And I said for you to leave! And I'm sorry for what I said last night to you, it was rude of me, but it's better if we go our separate ways"

"I don't want to-" Kurt tried to protest, but Blaine had enough, why can't he just fucking listen! He thought and yelled

"I KNOW YOU DON'T FUCKING WANT TO! I DON'T WANT YOU HERE! CAN'T YOU FUCKING SEE THAT?"

Kurt felt tears in his eyes, and he shook his head, he knew Blaine was angry and he didn't mean it "You're lying"

"No I'm not! I told you I don't need you and you're just fucking stringing along" he said, he knew his breakout was wrong, but he was just pissed off and he had enough of all of this.

"I'm stringing along because of you!" Kurt cried out, by now everyone else in the house heard their argument and stopped walking towards them because they didn't want to be involved in this fight.

"Because I didn't want to let you go! I fell in love with you and you know that! And now you're fucking using one thing that I have and that's having you with me! You know I don't want to let you go! and you're doing all of this shit as if acting like you care about me and trying to get along with me! When that's all a fucking act! You never even give a shit in the start for me why would you do now!? It hurts seeing you every day! It hurts me knowing that I fucked up your life, that's one fucking regret I have to live with and I can't bear it anymore! I can't fucking stand you! So just fucking leave!" Kurt shook his head, tears spilled down his cheek.

"STOP IT! You don't know anything, I did all those things because I do care about you, I-"

Blaine snapped at him and yelled "don't patronize me! I heard you"

"w-what?" Kurt stuttered, his voice low.

Blaine huffed and said looking over to where Rachel was standing clinging to Finn's side and he said gesturing towards her as he yelled "I heard you telling your friend that you only kissed me for your own fucking good"

Kurt was confused, why did Blaine say that "I d-didn't-"

"DON'T LIE TO ME!" Blaine screamed.

"I'm not-" Kurt tried to protest and tell Blaine it was a lie but it wasn't going to work, Blaine was way too angry to listen

"THEN WHY THE FUCK DID YOU LIE TO YOUR FRIEND?! IF THAT KISS MEANT THAT MUCH TO YOU THEN WHY DID YOU KISS ME?! IS IT JUST ANOTEHR ONE OF YOUR SICK MIND GAMES!"

Kurt had it; he yelled back at Blaine, he wasn't going to listen so he will say exactly what Blaine wants to hear

"Yes it was all a plan, that I played mind games with you, is that what you want to hear? Then yes its true, I mean why the fuck should I care about you! You're nothing but a rapist! You fucked up my life! Raped me! Took away the life I used to have! Put me through hell and made me actually feel sorry for you… why should I even feel sorry for you, it's not like I give a shit about your crapped up life… and kissing you was a mistake! Why the fuck did I even kiss a disgusting, shit, rapist like you! I don't give a shit about you… then yes, you mean NOTHING to me! All you ever did to me was knock me up and fucking made my life complicated" as soon as those words left his mouth Kurt wanted to take them back.

Blaine looked heartbroken, which wasn't Kurt's intentions to say that, Blaine sighed and looked away from Kurt and said in a lower voice

"Well… then let me help you make your life less complicated… and thank you for reminding me how fucked up I am and how I fucked up your life… just leave already" and then he shook his head, his eyes darkened with anger mixed with pain and he glared at Kurt and yelled

"Or better yet… I'm leaving, at least its better than being fucking around you! Tell me when the kid's born and then fucking pack your stuff and get the fuck out of my house before I come back!"

"You're l-leaving?" Kurt stuttered, his hands shaking to garb Blaine before he turned towards the door.

"Its better than sticking around and having a fucked up kid next to me" Blaine said bitterly, turning around.

"B-Blaine, don't I didn't mean t-" Kurt leant forward and grabbed Blaine back by his shirt to stop him from walking.

"LET GO OF ME!" he pushed Kurt away, a tad bit too harshly and turned to walk towards the door.

"BLAINE! STOP! BLAINE!" Ignoring Kurt's cries to stop and he grabbed the door knob and opened the door; slamming it behind him; he took a deep breath before running away from his own house and leaving Kurt behind.

Kurt dropped down to his knees and let out a loud piercing cry, he buried his face in his hands letting out a sob, he didn't mean to say that to Blaine, he didn't tell him the truth…

A/N: okay, so hopefully… you guys liked it…I'm sorry for making everything happen so fast but there a reason why, because you all know TUF will have a part 2 and I have to leave for vacations on 20 June and I am going out of country so that's why I am trying to finish the part 1 and start part 2 before leaving…

Now only 3 more chapters of part 1 are left

I REALLY hope you enjoyed this chp though…

Love and Hug to all the Klainers who read this fic.