*Dream*
"Hi my sweet girl". Anna says, hugging her daughter.
"Mommy". Jordan cried.
Jordan flung herself in her mother's arms and cried, she doesn't know what to feel right now. The teen never had her mother so she doesn't know what her hugs are like, what her perfume would smell like, any of it. Being held by her mother felt strange but snuggled into her mother's embrace, she inhaled Anna's scent of strawberry and vanilla.
Anna had tears going down her cheeks, it's been so long since she was able to hold her little girl she didn't wanna let go of her forever. After a few more moments Anna pulled her daughter back and looked at her, it was as if she was looking at her reflection in a mirror.
"You look so much like me baby". Anna comments.
"Dad said I look like you but act like him". Jordan chuckled.
"I don't doubt that".
"So I don't get it, how are you guys here? Where am I?"
"This is all in you're head Jo Jo, all in your subconscious". Justin answered.
"I don't understand".
"Jordan, honey you're dying". Anna said next.
"What? No I can't be dying, I only hit my head". Jordan was horrified.
"There's pressure on your brain, you're in surgery right now". Justin spoke.
The field changed into the OR, Anna and Justin stood behind Jordan while she watched the scene in front of her. Connor was still doing her surgery the nurse was able to get her stats back up.
"Come on kiddo don't give up now, you're a fighter just like you're father. Don't give up Jo". Jordan heard the surgeon say to her.
"This can't be happening it can't be". Jordan says in disbelief.
"Honey you do have a choice in all this". Anna said to her.
"What choice?" The teen looked back to her mother.
"You can continue to live and be with your father, Erin, and everyone else or you can come with Justin and I".
"It's up to you Jo Jo". Justin said after a minute.
Jordan looked between the surgery and back at her mother and brother.
*Back to reality*
Connor was still doing Jordan's surgery, the nurse was able to get her stats back up. Hank and Erin still waited to see if Will would let them see the baby, the older man wanted to see his granddaughter to help give him some closure.
Will was walking the hospital trying to find Ms. Goodwin till he was finally able to find her. "Ms. Goodwin!" He called out.
"Dr. Halstead what's the update on Jordan". She replies as the two walk.
"She had an emergency C-section for an unknown pregnancy, t-the baby ended up dying. Jordan was stable for a while then her stats began to rise rapidly, we brought her up to get a CT she has pressure on her brain. Dr. Rhodes is in surgery with her as we speaking trying to relieve that pressure". Will explained.
"Oh my god, where's Hank?"
"He's waiting by Jordan's room, he and Erin wanted to know if they would be able to see the baby he wants to name the baby for Jordan while she's in surgery. I'd say let them see the baby".
"I agree, that is his grandchild and he is the next of kin for the child at the moment".
"Erin was hoping that they could...they want to hold the baby".
"I'll go talk to Hank myself you keep me updated on Jordan, the second the surgery is finished I want an update from Dr. Rhodes".
"Yes ma'am".
Sharon then walked away to find Hank. As everyone still waited for an update on Jordan, Antonio had seen Peter coming closer and noticed the look on his face.
"Hey, everything ok?" Antonio asked.
"Is Hank around? I gotta tell him something". Peter replied.
"Peter, Hank can't handle no more bad news right now. Jordan had an emergency C-section and she lost the baby she's upstairs getting a CT to find out what's going on with her. Whatever it is I don't think he'll be able to handle right now".
"Jordan has warrant out for her arrest".
"What the hell for". Adam said getting into the conversation.
"Jo jumped three girls in the bathroom at the school, she knocked one of them out, threw another into a mirror and backed the third girl into the wall". Antonio answered his friend.
"Their parents want her arrested and they all think Hank is hiding her, and due to him being a Sergeant they'll also think he'll make the charges disappear".
"Peter those kids tormented her, drove her over the edge, they all blame her for Derek's death, I wouldn't blame her if she fought back".
"I'll defend Jordan, this is her first offense but the judge will look into her because she is Voight's daughter".
"Hold on you're telling me Jordan's being judged because of who her father is". Jay said in disbelief.
"You'd be surprised how many judges heard of his name".
"That's bullshit". Adam cursed.
"I'm sorry but there's nothing I can do".
"Nothing you can do? Nothing you can do! You can explain to the judge that those kids bullied her, she was defending herself against them kids". Alvin spoke.
"You know Jordan she's a good kid, they drove her to do that". Kevin steps in.
"I was also informed that Jordan was drunk when she attacked those girls".
"She's a troubled girl, her brother died almost six months ago, she finds out she's sick, she was kidnapped twice almost died both times, finds out she's pregnant and loses the baby. Her life wasn't easy since Justin was killed, Jordan turned to drinking and cutting to ease her pain. Jordan did what she did because they provoked her to that, if it were any of us we would have fought back too". Jay said, her voice was full of anger.
"When she wakes up she's going to be arrested. I'm so sorry my hands are tied". Peter's voice was full of guilt and sorrow. He didn't wanna do this but he had to. "I need to tell Hank".
"Peter Can I talk to you a sec". Alvin said.
"Sure".
The two walk away from the group and they faced each other.
"Do you honestly wanna be the one to tell Hank that Jordan's going to be arrested when she wakes up? After everything they've been through? After everything she's been through? He's been through? Jordan is the only thing keeping Hank together right now if you tell him that who knows what he'll do, if anything happens to her he'll fall apart". Alvin spoke.
"I don't wanna do this but it's my job, if I don't do this they'll think I'm covering up for Hank and Jordan. Those parents already think that Hank has Jordan hidden somewhere and working on getting the charges dropped". Peter replied.
"Peter those kids bullied Jordan, they drove her to do that. She was drinking because they all blame her for Derek's death and what happened they all believe she killed him because he pretended to be in love with her".
"It's not up to me if it were I wouldn't do this it's my job".
"Don't tell him right now he's still grieving".
"If you don't mind me asking, was the baby a boy or a girl?"
"Girl, Jordan said if she ever had a girl she'd name her Anna after her mother".
"Tell Hank I'm so sorry for his loss".
"I will".
Hank and Erin were still outside Jordan's room waiting for any kind of update, Sharon saw the two and approached them. The detective saw the woman coming and got Hank's attention the two then faced Sharon.
"Erin, Hank, I'm so terribly sorry to hear about what happened. Is there something I can do?" Sharon says.
"May we see the baby?" Hank asked.
"Of course. Hank being you are Jordan's father and since she's still in surgery you are the next of kin for the baby".
"I don't have to decide anything right now do I?"
"No, maybe once Jordan is awake you can discuss it with her".
"I don't think I should tell her".
"Dr. Halstead or Dr. Choi could tell her if you're more comfortable with that".
"Sharon I don't want her to know at all, if she hears about it she will be crushed and I don't wanna see her like that again".
"You do what you think is best for her".
Sharon walked away while Erin sat there in shock and anger, she couldn't believe that Hank wants to keep this from Jordan.
"Hank how could you keep this from Jo? She has a right to know about the baby that's her child". Erin spoke, a bit of anger was in her voice.
"And Jordan is my child and if I say I don't want her knowing about the baby then I don't want her knowing. Do you wanna be the one to tell her that she lost the baby? Do you wanna see her cutting herself again? Drinking again? I don't if Jordan ever finds this out it will kill her I don't wanna see her in that state again". Hank replied.
"It's wrong that you wanna keep that from her".
"Wrong? It's not easy telling anybody that they lost a child, after everything Jo's been through don't you think it's enough? She suffered enough the past few months let's not add anymore on to her".
Back in the OR, Connor was just finishing up on Jordan he wouldn't give up on her for a second he didn't care what he had to do to save her he was gonna do she had slipped into a coma during the surgery they had to keep a close eye on her stats for a while. Jordan remained unconscious as her mind still wandered.
*Dream*
Jordan looked at her mother and brother, she had the choice to either go with them and die peacefully or go back to her father, Erin, and everyone else. The teen had tears going down her cheeks for her entire life she wanted to be with her mother and ever since Justin died she'd have done anything to be with him again but Jordan knew it wasn't her time to die yet. She looked back over at her unconscious body to see herself being wheeled out of the room by Connor and two nurses, Anna put a hand on her shoulder.
"I know it's a hard decision to make sweetie it doesn't have to be made now". Anna said.
"What do you mean? A few minutes ago I was dying now I'm fine". Jordan replies, clearly confused.
"Jo Jo you're in a coma there was a lot of pressure on your brain and during surgery you slipped". Justin explained.
"All I did was hit my head".
"You're body went through a lot of trauma Jordan, it needs time to heal". Anna says.
"Trauma what trauma?"
Anna and Justin looked at each other not wanting to tell her, the teen picked it up she knew what that look meant her father used it almost all the time when a certain subject came up.
"What aren't either of you telling me?" She looked between her mother and brother afraid.
"Sweetheart you were pregnant". Anna started.
"Were? Is the baby ok? Please tell me my baby is ok". Jordan was now pleading at this point.
"Jo Jo were so sorry". Justin comes in.
"No! No you're lying my baby is alive and fine".
"I'm sorry baby but she's gone". Anna then pulled her daughter in for a hug.
"She? I had a little girl". Jordan now crying into her mother's shoulder.
Anna held onto her baby girl for a good few minutes, Jordan was crying harder than ever before. She then pulled away from her mother to hug her brother, Justin wrapped his arms tightly around his sister. Jordan snuggled into her brother's warm embrace, she had missed it.
"It's very sweet how you wanted to name the baby after one of us". Justin said.
"Well I never got to have my mom so I figured if I had a girl she'd have my mom's name. And you were practically my best friend ever Justin and if I ever have a son he should be given your name not only because you're my friend and my brother but because you were strong, a fighter, you turned your life around". Jordan replied.
Anna then joined in on the hug and the trio had hugged each other, after a moment they all let go of each other. Anna then began to fade away which made Jordan concerned.
"Mom, what's going on?"
"I have to go for a little bit, I'll be back".
"No please don't leave me I need you".
"I love you my sweet girl".
"Mom no please".
"Tell your father I love him and I'm watching over the both of you".
"Mommy please don't leave me".
Anna wiped away her little girl's tears and kissed her head then disappeared, Jordan dissolved into tears and hugged her brother burying her face into his chest. After crying for a good few minutes the teen pulled away and wiped her eyes and nose.
"Um would it be possible for us to see daddy? I wanna see him". Jordan says, sniffing.
"Yeah". Justin answered.
The two siblings went from the OR to outside Jordan's room to see their father and Erin, their father looked heart broken as did Erin.
"Dad! Erin!" Jordan called
No answer from either of them.
"Daddy! I'm right here I'm ok!"
"Jo they can't hear you or see you for that matter".
"Justin I can't leave them yet, besides they're still so much of life I didn't experience yet. I wanna graduate high school, go to college, then to the police academy, if dad ever lets me I wanna get married, start a family. I'm not ready to leave yet".
"That's the Jordan I know, strong, stubborn, and one hell of a fighter".
"I wasn't much of a fighter, after you died I didn't know how to cope so I...I turned to cutting and drinking to ease the pain made me feel better for a while but one day I cut my wrist too deep Erin had found me and rushed me to the hospital. I saw the look in dad's eyes and knew I disappointed him after that I realized the cutting and drinking wasn't solving none of my problems because at the end of the day all it did was made me forget but it was still there".
"Back before you were born and dad met Anna, I'd get into all kinds of trouble because at that time my mom had died and I couldn't cope with that. It was small stuff at first fighting, cutting school, stuff like that then it would get more serious dad he had to bail me out of jail quite a few times. Then when you were born I wanted to change my way so you wouldn't turn out like I did it worked for a while till I ended up screwing up again".
"You didn't screw up you made mistakes but you never once screwed up, Justin you almost beat Michael to a pulp hadn't I pulled you off of him. People are entitled to make mistakes so we can learn from them. I've learned from the mistakes you made, dad made, everybody made and I screwed up a couple times. Hell I might just be a screw up in general".
"Hey you know that's not true". Justin's voice was sharp but kept it gentle.
"Then how didn't I know I was being stalked for four years? Dad's a cop I always know if I'm being watched, followed, or anything but for four years I didn't know".
"That doesn't make you a screw up Jo Jo you were a kid, you didn't think you were being stalked".
"I ended up drinking at school because the kids blame me for Derek's death, they all say I killed him because he pretended to be in love with me. Then I jumped three girls in the bathroom I didn't mean for it to happen but when that bitch called dad a bastard I lost it, knocked one girl out, threw another into a mirror, and backed another into a wall then punched the mirror".
"You so have mine and dad's temper".
Jordan looked at her father who still looked heart broken. "I can't leave him yet Justin, I can't. When you died it tore all of us up, we all took it hard I've never seen dad cry before and when I did I cried too".
"You watch over him for me and Anna".
"I will".
The teen walked over to where her father was and even though he couldn't see her she had seen him, tears were once again flowing down her cheeks. "I'm not going anywhere daddy, not now, not for a long time. I promise you I will wake up and we'll be a family again".
Hank sat on the floor resting his elbows on his knees and Jordan sat next to him resting her head on his shoulder and wrapped her arms around his midsection.
*Back to reality*
The surgery was finished and Jordan was being moved to her room, Connor had went to find Hank so he can update the worried father. As he was walking when the surgeon bumped into Sharon.
"Dr. Rhodes what's the update on Jordan". She spoke.
"We relieved the pressure from her brain but she slipped into a coma, it'll be hard to say when she'll wake up or if she even wakes up". Connor replied.
"Are you on your way to tell Hank?"
"I am".
"Would you mind if I tagged along? He's going through a really hard time right now".
"Let's go".
The two began walking to find Hank and Erin. The two still remained outside the teen's room Hank was sitting on the floor resting his elbows on his knees he was about to lose his mind if someone didn't say something about his little girl. Was she alright? Did the surgery go well? Was she still alive?
"Anna please watch over our baby, I can't lose her she's all I have left". Hank whispered.
Erin was wheeling herself around when she saw Sharon and Connor approaching them she then turned to her father figure. "Hank they're coming".
Hank stood up quickly just as they were approached by Sharon and Connor, his heart was racing in his chest this was the second time in his life he was truly scared.
"How is she Doc?" Hank asked right away.
"The surgery was a success we relieved the pressure off of Jordan's brain but somewhere during the surgery she slipped into a coma". Connor explained.
"When will she wake up?" Erin asked.
"All coma patients are different it could take days, weeks, months, years, there could be a chance she might not wake up at all".
"C-can we see her?" Hank managed to get out.
"Of course this way".
The surgeon guided the two down to the room Jordan was in, she was hooked up to a tracheotomy and the sight alone was enough to kill Hank and Erin.
"As you see we have her on a tracheotomy to help her breath, her stats are good right, her blood pressure is fine. We'll check up on her later".
"Thank you for not giving up on her and doing everything you can for her". Hank says, shaking his hand.
"You're welcome and Jordan's family you don't give up on family".
The surgeon walked away leaving Hank and Erin alone, they went inside the room to see the teen. The sight brought them to tears, the older father rushed to his baby girl's side and brushed her brown hair back off her forehead and kissed her head.
"I'm here baby when you wake up I'll be right here". He whispered.
He pressed his forehead against her's for a moment crying he pressed one last kiss to her temple, Erin them wheeled herself over and used her good hand to gently rub her thumb across Jordan's knuckles.
"You'll pull through this Jordy I know you will because your a strong fighter". Erin whispered.
After spending some time with his daughter Hank wanted to see his grandchild, he went to the nursery where they kept the baby. He saw the tiny infant and when he looked at his granddaughter she looked just like Jordan when the teen was a baby.
"May I hold her?" Hank asked the nurse.
"Sure". The nurse replied.
Very carefully Hank picked the tiny infant up and held her, he hugged the baby close and kissed her little mop of brown hair. He rocked the baby for a moment.
"Mr. Voight, Ms. Goodwin said you were gonna name the baby on behalf of your daughter. Do you have a name picked out for her?"
"Anna. Anna Lynn Voight".