Disclaimer: It all belongs to Stephanie Meyer. Why doesn't she make them more naked?
BPOV
January
Edward was so fast, it still amazed me sometimes. You'd think I would get used to it, after all it wasn't like I could forget, but as I pushed my muscles harder, I still marvelled. My newborn strength had long since waned and I knew that I wouldn't be able to keep up if I eased off even for a second. I was pretty sure that was the idea, my beloved husband was trying to distract me from the fact that our daughter was, at this very moment, out on her first date. It wasn't going to be so easy to forget.
Edward sensed me falling behind and slowed up to join me, "Too fast?" He smiled at me innocently, trying to spark my competitive side, a side which was easy to reach. Normally I would have sped away, forcing him to chase me. I liked the way those competitions tended to end.
Instead I slipped my hand into his and we ran together. "No, I was just enjoying the view," I said as I smiled at him.
He saw through the smile. I shouldn't have bothered trying to cover it from my husband. Edward pulled us to a stop and wrapped his arms around me, "As much as I'd love to believe that, I suspect you're thinking about other things."
I sighed and rested my forehead against his shoulder, "I'm sorry. I'm just...I don't know what I am."
"I do. You're her mother. Believe me, how do you put it 'I'm right there with you'." I could see from the look on his face that he meant it. Even someone as good at covering his reactions as Edward had to let it slip occasionally.
I bit my lip, feeling guilty even as I considered asking, "Edward, what was she thinking? What was he thinking? I know I shouldn't ask, but I can't bear not knowing." As a rule I tried not to ask Edward what he gleaned from people's minds, he didn't like to say. I was willing to make an exception on this occasion. Maternal concern was my excuse and I was sticking to it.
Edward's hands stroked my arms, "Of course. Jacob was excited, nervous to the point of nausea, but still very excited. Renesmee was nervous too, but she wasn't uncomfortable. She knows she's safe with him."
I nodded, "Yeah, yes of course she does. I'm just being silly." Edward wouldn't lie to me, but more than that. If Renesmee hadn't wanted to go he would have found a way to stop them. I believed that.
Edward pressed his lips to my forehead, "Then we're both silly together."
He led me over to a soft tuft of grass and pulled me down next to him. I sank into the familiar circle of his arms and felt a little better; comforted at least, "I love you, you know."
I felt Edward shift infinitesimally in surprise, "Of course I know. I love you too. That was random."
I pulled his arms tighter around me, "I like to tell you. I wouldn't want you to forget."
Edward smiled against my brow, "What's brought this on?"
I wondered that myself. I just had an overwhelming urge to remind him of how much he meant to me, "Well, this past few years have been the best of my life. But we seem to spend so much time worrying. Still. I know it's not about the same things anymore, but...I guess I just don't want you to forget that..." I looked into his eyes for a second, "I don't want you to forget that you are my world. However worried I am, I know everything's going to work out, we'll be fine if we're together. Don't forget that."
Edward kissed me gently; slowly and sweetly, "Bella, my Bella. I don't doubt it, I know it. I've felt it. The only thing that I sometimes worry about is that I can't show you in the same way. I wish I could show you how much I love you in return."
I smiled and kissed him again, "That's not something you have to worry about. I feel how much you love me every day."
"Ah, my plan is succeeding."
We hunted of course. It was always good to stay well fed; I wasn't interested in testing my limits unnecessarily. I liked my record the way it was, unblemished. Despite my concern I was starting to feel more relaxed. There was nothing I could do now. Whatever happened tonight would happen and all I could do was be there for Renesmee in the aftermath.
I still thought of her though. I remembered my first 'date' with Edward, if you could call it a date. Dinner in that little restaurant with the over-zealous waitress. It made me smile now. I had thought of that night many times when I'd first become a vampire, not wanting to forget it over time. I remembered how nervous I'd been to be in such close proximity to Edward. It was still similar now; I still got the same butterflies in my stomach whenever he touched me.
If Jake could be that person for my daughter I would be happy. She deserved it.
RenesmeePOV
Okay, well dinner was nice. I liked the little Italian restaurant. All the pasta was made freshly with egg and I found that Jake's recommendation of the carbonara was pretty good. It was creamy but light and I found I could enjoy it. It still wasn't blood though. I thought wistfully of running through the trees, but only for a moment.
Jake's choice became even clearer when the home-made ice cream was served. Yes, he'd put quite a lot of thought into this. Had I expected anything different? I actually felt normal, really normal. Like a human out on a first date. It wasn't something I felt very often, not that I really envied it. Of course, the guy in question wouldn't normally have been in love with you already and trying desperately to hide it. Which he was, I suspected he was worried about me feeling pressured, but he was very attentive. Topping up my glass, asking if I wanted more bread, asking if I was warm enough. He was being so sweet.
We talked about things we always talked about. What was going on in school, how he was doing at work. He had a habit of explaining things very clearly when he talked about cars. I had never had the heart to tell him that Rosalie had made a point of bringing both Cadie and up pretty much up to speed on engines. We could both strip an engine block and reassemble it. Jake liked to share the details of his day with me however, and I liked to let him. I should have been relaxed but I was starting to get the feeling that Jake was building up to something.
Sure enough once he'd ordered himself a coffee, which I declined as I couldn't stand the stuff, he took a deep breath, "Nessie, I know this must be strange to you, I've always been your friend and now I'm asking you to think of me differently. I just want you to understand, I'm not asking for anything you don't want to give..." he paused and seemed to stumble over his words, "I mean I don't want to. I just want you to think about it. If you're not happy I..."
I decided to take pity on him, "Jake, I know. It's okay. You don't have to explain, I understand." I really did, he was doing his best. This hadn't been quite as awkward as I'd been expecting. I reached over the table and took his hand, "I had a nice time Jake."
His eyes met mine and he was smiling. He stroked the back of my hand with his thumb. His huge hand was warm and familiar but I knew this was different to the others times he had held mine. This meant something entirely different. I felt a knot of tension form in my stomach. Never before had I been so aware of how much Jake loved me. Just holding my hand made him smile.
He seemed to pick up on my nerves because he kissed the back of my hand quickly and stood, "We should be heading back; it's getting late."
I checked my watch, a beautiful gift from Rose and Emmett, it was getting close to midnight, "Wow, the time just flew." It was good to know that some things about being with Jake stayed the same. It hadn't gotten harder to be in his company just because this was a date.
As we walked back to the car I watched his face in the dim light. It was perfectly clear to me of course. He was handsome. He had let his hair grow out and it shone. His eyes were dark but in no way scary. They were large and open and warm. I would never have to hide anything from Jake. He would always accept me. I could have all those things I'd seen on television. Jake could give me a normal life if I wanted. He would give me whatever I wanted.
Jake parked at the end of our long driveway and got out to open my door. He held out a hand to me, "Shall we walk back?"
Wow, gentlemanly. That was getting to be par for the course, "Sure, why not?"
I took his hand and let him help me out of the car even though he knew I didn't need help. He didn't let go of my hand as we started walking towards the house. I expected him to speed up and run with me but he seemed determined to keep things on a human basis and we walked slowly. I could hear the breeze stirring the leaves and I felt very peaceful.
"Do you think you might want to do this again? Something different next time?"
Of course, that was the question that ended any date. Sure it was fun, sure it was a good time, was it good enough to repeat? It had been. I nodded, "Sure, what something different would you like to do?"
He thought for a moment, "Well, I know how much you like ice skating, we could try that."
I smiled, trying to imagine Jake on ice. I'm sure he would be graceful, he normally was, but it was mixed in with the idea of a wolf, "You know that could probably be fun, like the cartoons when dogs try to walk on frozen lakes."
He nudged me gently with his shoulder, "Are you trying to say I'd look like Bambi on ice?"
I giggled, "If you did I would definitely need some sort of camera."
Jake put an arm around my shoulder for a one-armed hug, "Then it's a date."
The side of his body pressed against mine and I was very conscious of it. He wasn't much warmer than I was but compared to everyone else except Cadie, he was scorching. I thought of her then. I would be home with her soon, analysing every moment of this date no doubt. I made an effort to relax and didn't miss a beat in the conversation, "If I'm right and you fall, then dinner's on you."
Jake chuckled as we approached the door, "Agreed."
I turned from his arm and faced him, "Jake, I just wanted to tell you again, I had a really nice time."
He smiled at me and nodded, "I'm glad Nessie I really am." A silence fell as we looked at each other, and the knot in my stomach came back. Jake didn't look at all nervous, he was just looking at my face calmly, happily. His eyes drifted to my lips and I fought to keep my breathing even. Jake touched my shoulders gently; he was giving me time to pull away if I wanted to.
In that instant I wasn't thinking about pulling away, it wasn't even an option. I was going to let this happen. This was the whole point. Jake was a lot taller than me, I came up to his shoulder, so he had to bend to kiss me.
His lips touched mine softly. He smelled familiar, it was a comforting scent and it helped a little. The hands on my shoulders squeezed gently as I got my first kiss from Jacob Black. His lips were as warm as his hands and they were soft against mine. I responded to the gentle pressure and Jake sighed. The sound somehow brought my out of my bubble and I pulled away gently. One kiss was plenty for now, "I should go inside now Jake."
He was looking a little flustered but he nodded, "Yeah, it's late. I'll see you soon."
"See you soon," I smiled at him and swallowed nervously.
He disappeared back down the drive at a fast trot and I let out a breath I didn't know I'd been holding. I opened the front door and slipped inside, my heart beating in my ears. I knew there was no one on the ground floor, I would have heard them. I appreciated everyone's attempt to give me some privacy but now I wished there was someone around. I listened but could only hear Cadie's heartbeat. As I shut the front door, I heard her feet hit the floor, she must have been sitting down and she started downstairs. Other than her the house was empty.
Cadie appeared at the top of the stairs, she was smiling gently at me. I expected her to ask me how the evening had gone, but she just looked at my face for a second. The smile I'd plastered on it slipped a little and I shrugged, "I..."
Cadie held up a hand to quiet me and then held it out. I took her hand and let her lead me upstairs. I expected her to head to our room but she went to the main bathroom and pushed open the door. I gasped. The huge bath was filled with bubbles and the room smelled like oranges, my favourite bubble bath. There were candles and Nina Simone was playing. Cadie squeezed my hand and pointed to the robe and towels, "I figured you should relax. We have ice cream when you're ready."
I opened my mouth to thank her but nothing came out, "You're welcome, I figured that standard 'relax time' was in order," she said with a laugh, "Take your time."
The door had just shut behind her when I found my voice, "You're the best friend ever," I called after her.
"And I know it."
By the time I got out of the tub everyone was home. Cadie had gone down to join them and I slipped into my pyjamas and followed. Everyone was just a little bit rosier than usual and I realised that Cadie had stayed home to make sure I didn't come back to an empty house. There was an Xbox tournament going on. I noticed that Esme had gotten out the extra controllers; they didn't last long in vampire hands when Emmett got worked up. I smiled at my assembled family as I descended the stairs. My dad was the first to glance up at me. His eyes said it all. My dad was concerned about me. He wanted to know if I was okay.
I'm okay dad. Everything's okay. It was weird but I had a nice time.
He smiled and nodded towards Cadence. I saw ice cream on the table. How was it possible that I could never have too much ice cream? I would talk about it later, when I was done processing it. For now I was going to relax with my family.
BPOV
March
"Alice, really, five dresses each is more than enough." Esme normally had a lot of patience with this kind of thing. But to be fair we had been at this for over six hours. Then again, each dress was beautiful. Decisions, decisions. Still, apparently going to the prom was all about the dress. Alice had seen that in a movie.
Alice pouted a little, "Oh come on Esme, we're running out of 'firsts' to celebrate here."
My heart tugged a little as I flashed back to the conversation I'd had with Edward about our baby daughter's 'firsts'. She was so grown up now. As she twirled in a frothy red dress I was amazed by the beautiful young woman I saw. She was wonderful. She smiled at something Cadie said and stuck her tongue out. Ah, there was my little girl.
"You know, for the first time in shopping trip history I'm going to side with Alice. Let them get as many as they want." There was a moment when they all looked at me in shock, "Enjoy it, I'm sure I'll be the first one to get bored next time."
They all chuckled and Esme's face broke out in a beautiful smile, "Maybe sure we get the matching shoes for the black one.
Once we'd visited the make-up counter to get all the extra things Alice deemed necessary we headed home. I was glad Alice had insisted that we all needed to go. I wouldn't have missed watching the girls pick out their first prom dresses for anything. In contrast to my own prom, I couldn't have been more excited about this one, "So girls? Do you think you have everything you need?"
Cadie and Renesmee were both laden down with shopping bags. Esme, Rosalie and Alice were trailing behind. All with bags themselves, Cadie laughed, "I think we should invite the entire class over, we could have some sort of assembly line with all the girls."
Renesmee started giggling, "Even Alice couldn't make Mary Ann look good."
I was momentarily irritated with my daughter, "I hope you two aren't picking on anyone."
Renesmee dropped her bags onto the couch and shook her head, "Hardly, Mary Ann's the most popular girl in school, but she always has a sneer on her face. Like whomever she's looking at smells appalling."
My irritation instantly switched to concern, "She doesn't bother you does she?"
Renesmee hesitated and her eyes flicked to Cadence. Rosalie and Alice noticed this too, and Rose put an arm around the blonde girl's shoulders, "Is something wrong sweetheart?"
Cadie shrugged with a smile on her face, "It's no big deal. She's tried to get me riled up a few times. I refuse to rise to the bait and it annoys her."
"She's just pissed because Andy Martin asked you to the dance before he asked her," Renesmee chimed in.
I was about to reproach her on her language when I saw the look on her face and decided to let it slide, she was trying to be supportive of Cadence. Jake was taking Renesmee to the prom, but Cadence didn't have a date. There had been no shortage of offers which was not surprising, both the girls were gorgeous, but Cadence didn't seem interested in getting to know them. Edward had said, after I'd asked him that she didn't see the point. She thought she was too different to make it work out with a human.
And even if she did what then? She would be faced with all the same problems that Edward and I had gone through. She was immortal after all.
Alice perched on the arm of the sofa, Esme by her side, "She's probably just insecure."
Cadie laughed at her adoptive aunt and reached for her hand, "Have you been watching more teen dramas?"
The tension of the moment broke. Cadence didn't seem unhappy, and according to Alice we had clothes to unpack. I wondered how many costume changes the girls were going to be expected to endure on the actual night. We were scooping bags together and preparing to troop up the stairs when Alice froze. It caught all our attention.
Esme reached forward and took the bags which slipped from Alice's fingers. No one tried to disturb her. It was much harder for Alice to see our future now. It was always mixed up with Renesmee and Cadence. Her eyelids fluttered after a few seconds and she was back with us. "We're going to have a visitor."
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