Hey guys, sorry for the delay work has been crazy and when I've actually been home I've too tired to actually sit and write any of this but here is the next chapter :-) It is a bit of a filler chapter in a way building up to what is going to happen and it's really showing Emily trying to deal with her emotions over things as things build up.

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Chapter Twenty One

Emily

I stood completely motionless as I watched Jenna fall to the floor… I knew I should probably care, after all she was my mum but she had caused me too much pain… and something inside seemed to freeze all my emotions… the walls I had built up in relation to Jenna Fitch must finally be working. I felt Naomi snake her arm around my waist, I turned to smile softly at her as she mouthed "You ok?" I nodded slowly as I finally registered what was going on around me… Dad was kneeling by mums side trying to get her to move… to wake up, Katie was on the phone calling an ambulance. I felt like I should be doing something. I turned to walk away down the corridor… I grabbed Naomi's hand and took her with me. When we were away from everything Naomi pulled me into her arms and hugged me tightly "Everything will be ok Ems." I smiled slightly; I loved how she always made me feel better.

I kissed her softly "Thanks… you know for all your support with my family… I don't think anything will ever be ok with them again… mum has done too much damage that cannot be undone."

Naomi smiled "I will always be here to support you Ems… I love you."

I smiled "I love you too."

I kissed her softly once more "Now I pulled you away because I thought we could go make the necessary arrangements to close the gym for the rest of the day."

Naomi smiled "Yeah, good idea, it's one less thing for your dad to worry about then… I'll go tell the customers already here if you like whilst you go put a sign on the entrance and wait for the paramedics, then we can see what support your dad needs from there."

I kissed her quickly "You are the best fiancé ever." I watched Naomi smile "Don't you forget it."

I laughed "Trust me there is no way that will ever happen."

I then ran off down the corridor to the front entrance to do what needed to be done.

20 minutes or so later Naomi came to find me "Ok that's everyone gathering their stuff to leave."

I smiled "Thanks Naoms."

It was that moment the paramedics re-appeared with Jenna on a trolley still unconscious. Naomi took my hand and squeezed it as dad came over "Thanks girls for arranging everything, it's a huge help… I'm going with your mum, Katie has said she will come with me… we didn't think you would be up to it."

I hugged him quickly "Thanks Dad, and don't worry about James, I'll go pick him up and bring him down later."

Dad squeezed me tight like he always used to when I was little "Thanks Emsy, I love you."

I kissed his cheek "Love you too Dad."

He went and sat with Jenna in the ambulance as they settled her giving me the chance to give Katie a hug "I'll come down later so you have some support."

She pulled back and smiled "Thanks Emily, I'm only going so Dad has someone."

I smiled "Yeah, look after him."

Katie hugged me again quickly "I will."

I watched as she went to sit with Dad in the ambulance just before it drove away with the lights flashing and sirens going.

After a while… not sure how much time had passed, things still seemed to be a bit of a blur, we had locked the gym up and were getting ready to get James from school, I know it was early but he wouldn't thank me for not telling him now. Once outside I took Naomi's hand in mine and we walked into the school, thankfully they remembered me from my days there and they agreed to let James leave without parental permission due to the circumstances. I was extremely glad to have Naomi by my side as I told James what had happened… he wanted to go straight to the hospital so we got the next bus there.

Once we arrived at the hospital it was like there was a force pushing me back on me not allowing me through the door. I just couldn't seem to take those few steps over the threshold. Naomi must have felt my body stiffen and she squeezed my hand "Why don't you take a seat on one of those benches gorgeous and I'll take James to find you're Dad, and then I'll come back to you."

I smiled "Thanks babe." I sat down on the bench and put my head in my hands… I needed to pull myself together for Dad and Katie… and James, he really is going to need support now… but it all just seemed too hard, Jenna was still causing trouble for Naomi and I, and Katie just before she collapsed… she hadn't changed and I know she never will.

About 10 minutes later I felt Naomi wrap her arms around me and pull me into a hug. I buried my head into her chest and couldn't stop the tears from falling. Naomi just held me tight whispering that she was here and she always would be… I didn't think I could love her anymore than I already did but I was wrong as at that moment I fell even deeper in love with her… she really was my rock. After a while I lifted my head "Sorry… I made your shirt all wet."

Naomi giggled and kissed my forehead "You are so adorable."

I smiled knowing that was her telling me not to worry about it "Were Dad and Katie ok?"

Naomi nodded "Yeah as ok as they can be at the moment… Katie took James off; I think she was hoping you would go up too."

I nodded slowly "I was planning on it… I just… I couldn't do it when the time came…"

Naomi pulled me into another hug "It's ok, they all understand, they know you are doing what you can… they don't expect anything more from you under the circumstances."

I smiled "I know, I just want to be strong enough to be there for Dad, Katie and James… I will go up in a few minutes but I just want another few minutes alone with you first."

Naomi smiled and kissed the top of my head "You can have all the time you want with me… I'm not going anywhere."

I smiled and kissed her cheek "I love you Naomi Campbell."

She smiled "I love you too Emily Fitch."

We sat in silence just holding one another for a few minutes before I finally felt I was as ready as I could be to go inside.

As I walked down the corridor hand in hand with Naomi, Katie must have spotted us as she ran in our direction and flung her arms around me "Emily, I'm so pleased you came up… are you ok?"

I nodded "Yeah…I'm sorry Katie, I should have come up earlier, I should have been here for you… you have problems with Jenna too, it's not fair to leave everything to you."

Katie rolled her eyes at me and I couldn't help but laugh a little "Emily Fitch listen to me and listen very carefully… yes I do have problems with our so called fucking mother and I am only really here for the sake of Dad and James… but that women has tried to destroy your life on so many occasions we would all understand if you couldn't be here."

A tear slipped down my cheek as I hugged Katie "Thanks, you are the best twin sister ever."

Katie smiled "I'm your only twin sister and don't you forget it."

I laughed "I don't think I ever could… anyway how are Dad and James?"

Katie smiled "They're ok, James is upset as you would expect and Dad is ok, I think he is torn, we all know he isn't getting on very well with mum at the moment because of everything she has done, but we also know that you can't always choose who you love, and he does still love her."

I nodded "Yeah it must be pretty hard for him… he is stuck in the middle of everything really… where are they?"

Katie pointed somewhere down the corridor "Dad took James for a drink, mum has come round but she is sleeping mostly, they are just waiting for some rest results to see what's going on but you can probably guess what they think it is."

I couldn't help but roll my eyes "Kidneys."

Katie nodded "She's been drinking again."

I felt Naomi squeeze my hand "I'm sorry Ems, I should never have stopped those charges, I really thought that she was serious about getting the help she needed."

I turned to her "Don't you dare blame yourself for this… it's her fault not yours… you did everything you could to help her after she tried to kill you and look at how she has repaid everyone for that chance." I pulled her close and kissed her softly "Please don't blame yourself Naoms."

Katie stepped closer "She's right Naomi, it is all her own fucking fault… if I had been you I wouldn't have given her the chance back then after what she fucking did to you but you did it for Emily because you love her."

I watched Naomi smile slightly as she slipped her arm around my waist nothing more needing to be said.

A few hours later Dad, James, Katie, Naomi and I were sitting in the waiting room waiting for any news, Dad was keeping a brave face for the sake of James but I could tell he was worried. He kept telling Katie, Naomi and I that we could leave but we all made sure he knew we were there for him and James… anything they needed.

As we sat waiting Naomi slipped her arm around me and I rested my head on her shoulder. She kissed the top of my head and softly whispered "Do you need some fresh air?"

I shook my head without lifting it from her shoulder "I'm ok."

I squeezed her hand silently thanking her for being here and taking care of me. She kissed the top of my head again just as the doctor walked in "Mr Fitch."

Dad looked up quickly "Yeah… that's me… is Jenna ok?"

I watched as the doctor looked around the room at us all "Shall we go somewhere a little quieter" he obviously wasn't sure whether to discuss it in front of her children.

I watched as Dad shook his head "No… no its fine, whatever you have to say can be said to all of us."

He scanned the room again "Ok, I've spoken to Jenna and she has said I can share this information with you… we have her test results back and unfortunately one of her kidneys has failed and the other is badly damaged…"

Dad stood up "What does this mean for my wife doctor?"

I felt Naomi tighten her arm around my body as the doctor started speaking again "Unfortunately it means she is going to need a kidney transplant… this however is only something we will do if Jenna gives up drinking."

I could see the pain of the news flash through Dads eyes but I could also see he was trying to stay strong "Can I donate doctor?"

The doctor looked around the room at us all again "We can certainly test you Mr Fitch and if you are a match yes you can… however we are more likely to find a match from one of your children… I will give you all some time to think about all of this."

Dad managed a small smile "Thanks Doctor."

As the doctor left the room I was trying to stay strong… I didn't want to hurt my Dad but at the same time I knew that there was no way I could think about donating a kidney to Jenna… not after everything she had done. I could feel the room beginning to spin… I needed to get out of the room… I got up and just ran.

A few minutes later Dad found me wandering around outside, he pulled me into a hug "Naomi wanted to come after you, she's worried about you but I wanted you to hear this from me… nobody expects you to get tested Emsy, we all know what Jenna had put you through and I can tell you now if it was me in your shoes I would be thinking just like you right now… so please don't think you are letting anyone down."

I nodded slowly against my Dads body; he always knew what to say to make me feel better about things.

He kissed the top of my head "Do you want me to go and get Naomi and she can take you home."

I looked up at Dad "No… no, you need me here."

He smiled "I love you Ems for thinking of me but you need to get out of here… away from the pressure and spend some time with your girl."

I nodded slowly "Ok… thanks Dad… I love you."

He smiled "I love you to Emsy."

A few minutes later Naomi came rushing out to me and pulled me into a tight hug "You ok gorgeous?"

I pulled back slightly and looked into her eyes; I could see they were full of worry. I softly stroked her cheek "I am now I'm with you… I'm sorry for running… I just couldn't take anymore."

She kissed me softly "It's ok, I would have done the same… nobody expects you to be tested, you know that don't you."

I nodded slowly "Yeah… Dad said the same."

Naomi nodded "Good… I knew he would… now let's get you home, you look knackered."

I laughed "Thanks, I love you too."

Naomi giggled "Good because I love you."

I smiled as Naomi took my hand and we made our way home.

An hour later I was snuggled up to Naomi in bed… I was trying to hold back my tears but I just couldn't help it, the emotions inside me just seemed to bubble over. I felt Naomi tighten her hold around me and could feel the soft kisses she was placing on my face in-between telling me that everything was going to be ok. She always had a way of making me feel so much better about everything as I could feel my eyes begin to give in to my tiredness.