I heard the chatter of voices outside the ward and the Doctor took my hand and kissed it gently with a wink
"Let's put on a good show" he whispered as the nurses entered
"Morning Mr Smith" one of the nurses walked over smiling
"Morning" The Doctor said cheerily
"How're you feeling?" she asked, the Doctor just shrugged
"Meh, been better" he said casually, he wasn't acting ill at all.
"Oh sorry, you must be Mrs Smith?" The nurse said addressing me, I smiled and nodded
"Lillian Smith" I said brightly "nice to meet you". The nurse smiled and after politely excusing herself to check on other patients the Doctor looked at me
"Lillian?" he barked quietly "I thought we agreed on Jane?" I stuck my tongue out at him
"I didn't agree to anything". A few more minutes passed and nurses came in and out of the ward cooing at the patients asking the Doctor every five minutes if he was alright and how he was doing, whereas I was asking why we were REALLY here every two minutes, he only ignored me or answered with
"Don't worry dear the doctors will sort me out" but that was only when a nurse passed by, after a while of persistent questioning it had became very evident that he was getting sick of me
"Lily why don't you go to the cafe or something?" he asked staring at the ceiling
"Sick of me?" I asked with a grin "well maybe if you let me in on the plan..."
"I told you" he began "I'm a Doctor; I'm here to help people". After realising he wasn't going to tell me anything I sighed and got up.
"Fine, d'you want anything?" I asked
"Just a cup of tea please dear" he said with a happy smile, I held out my hand
"Pass me my jacket" I said motioning towards the jacket I'd placed on the other chair, he handed it over and I took my purse from its pocket
"I thought you didn't have any money" he said watching me curiously
"What made you think that?" I asked counting the notes I had left, about ten pounds.
"I noticed a... rather large mound of bills in your old flat" he said as I put my purse in my pocket
"So I didn't pay some bills? Doesn't mean I don't have money" I said casually
"But if you had money, why didn't you pay bills?" he asked, I sighed and put my hands in my pocket
"I was saving up for something else" I said bluntly "Now, I'm going to go get that cup of tea... I'll not be long" I said with a smile as I walked out of the ward. I followed the signs that were supposed to lead me to the cafe, I had quite a bit of difficultly so I asked a doctor who lead me there, it was odd, the hospital reminded me a lot of the institute but I could forget that if the Doctor was with me, he made me feel like a human and not a patient. I was OK for a while walking around on my own too, but when the doctor began leading me to the cafe, even though it was just the cafe, it reminded me a lot of the institute. I found myself walking timidly all of a sudden, watching my feet as they carried me. I looked up at the stranger who was leading me out of nothing but politeness and goodness and saw an evil devious man, responsible for the suffering of so many. I knew this wasn't the case, I knew his job was to save lives and I knew he was doing this to help me as a person, it wasn't in his job description to lead guests around yet here he was. He was clearly a polite and good man, but in a way, being with the Doctor had made me forget how much the institute messed me up, and not in a good way, because now, whenever I meet a good man in a white coat I develop an unfair resentment towards them. I'd forgotten about that until now, I maybe had even found a way to pretend it had never happened, but I realised then, I was raised as a human, with human emotions and when severe damage is done to a humans emotions, it doesn't just disappear because of one man. It was a devastating blow to my entire outlook on my current mental state, it made me realise that I wasn't better, not like I thought I was, I wasn't even close to better. Granted I'm not suicidal anymore but... what other progress had I made? I was still scared and resentful towards anyone with that particular title, well anyone but the Doctor.
"Miss?" Came the voice of a man, I looked around to find the doctor looking down at me concerned, I snapped out of my thoughts as he gained my attention "Are you alright Miss? You seemed to have zoned out for a while there, it seemed for a second like you couldn't hear me" The doctor explained to me in a concerned tone
"I'm fine thank you." I said forcing a smile; the doctor returned it with a much warmer, much more genuine one
"That's good to hear, still, even if you weren't you're in the right place" he joked and laughed very slightly, I forced a very awkward laugh myself and he smiled whilst I kept my eyes on the floor. "Well, we're here anyway, do you think you'll be able to find your way back to the ward OK?" he asked. Again, I forced a smile and nodded
"Yes, I'll be fine from here. Thank you for all your help" I said quietly and timidly, I tried to look him in the eye but it was like holding two negative ends of a magnet together, my eyes just kept avoiding his and staring at his lips or his eyebrows. He smiled and waved at me fairly awkwardly
"Well then I'll let you be, I would say I hope to see you soon but I don't suppose a hospital is the right location for a second meeting" he joked and I smiled slightly, I was trying to be genuine and it was working to an extent, he wasn't acting like the doctors at the institute which I suppose helped but I still couldn't look him in the eye.
"Thanks again" I said turning away, hoping he did the same. I didn't mean to come across rude in any way but it was bad enough without the awkward chit chat. I picked up the items from the shop and made my way difficultly back to the ward, it took me a little longer as I avoided help but I got there in the end, when I arrived the Doctors bed was surrounded by people, doctors, I froze in the doorway of the ward, the Doctor noticed me and called me over
"Ah there you are wifey!" he said happily, I smiled and walked awkwardly over
"You must be Mrs Smith" said the eldest of the doctors with a smile "hope you don't mind I'm just letting the students take a look at your husband, we won't be long". The doctor moved aside and allowed me into my seat. I placed the Doctors tea on a bedside table.
"Hi sweetie" I said to him keeping my head low, the Doctor watched me curiously
"Are you OK Lillian?" he asked as the young doctor looked confused as she tried to listen to his heartbeat. I nodded. The eldest doctor scolded his student
"I weep for further generations. Are you having trouble locating the heart, Miss Jones?" he asked her
"Um. I don't know. Stomach cramps?" She guessed and the older doctor sighed
"That is a symptom, not a diagnosis. And you rather failed basic techniques by not consulting first with the patient's chart." He picked up the chart but dropped it instantly after receiving what I can only assume was an electric shock.
"That happened to me this morning." Said the young student doctor, which kick started a buzz of chatter from the other student doctors all of which had experienced the same thing.
"That's only to be expected." Said the eldest doctor addressing all of his students "There's a thunderstorm moving in and lightning is a form of static electricity, as was first proven by - anyone?" He asked, to my surprise the Doctor was the one to answer
"Benjamin Franklin." He shouted out happily
"That's correct" stated the old doctor, but my Doctor kept chatting
"My mate Ben, that was a day and a half. I got rope burns off that kite, and then I got soaked…" he babbled on, partly to himself, partly to anyone who'd listen.
"Quite…" responded the eldest doctor, not sure what to say to this.
"…and then I got electrocuted" finished the Doctor, I giggled. Amused at how his story was most likely true yet he just sounded like a madman, it was amusing to think, what if everything all madmen said was true, it would be like living in Wonderland, I smiled to myself thinking how wonderful that would be, and the Doctor noticed and smiled at me as the other doctors left
"Someone's cheered up" he said to me "what's on your mind?" he asked, I folded my arms and smirked at him
"Nothing gets past you does it?"
"Oh come on!" he began "you said before I was your best friend, if you can't tell me who can you tell?"
"Why don't you just listen in on my thoughts?" I asked "worked fine for you before"
"Bah!" the Doctor exclaimed loudly "that takes all of the fun out of everything, besides, even if I wanted to, YOU won't let me anymore!" I smirked, happy that he'd finally noticed
"Yeah…" I began smugly "I know"
"Then why suggest it?" he asked, I chuckled a little
"it was fun to watch you try" he glared at me as I grinned, eventually he smirked at me and changed the subject
"Fine, you got me there, but come on Lily. Tell your ol' pal the Doctor." He asked jokingly, I sighed and smiled
"I just had a funny thought, that's all" I explained
"I don't mean that" he said taking his tea from the side table "You seemed… off when you came back". I shook my head smiling
"Oh it's noting don't worry" I said dismissing his questions, he smirked
"Funny, I thought I'd lost the only woman more bloody secretive than me" he said jokingly "I forgot what a pain you are" he mocked, I shoved him and stuck my tongue out at him
"Lucky we're in a hospital" I said
"Whys that?" The Doctor asked sipping his tea
"Because I'm awfully close to killing you!" I said jokingly turning in my seat to look out of the window to see it pouring down with rain, I watched it for a while not seeing anything unusual right away until I noticed, through the blur made by the water on the window, the sun still shining beyond the hospital, the sky was blue, the sun was shining and the ground was dry, there was no rain beyond the hospital, and not only that, looking closer it looked like the rain was going up… "Doctor…" I began in a concerned tone "Is this anything to do with why we're REALLY here?" I asked, he quickly jumped from his bed to look out of the window, I watched him trying to figure out what he was thinking, he looked extremely thoughtful and remained silent for a moment
"Yes…" he began thoughtfully "yes that might have something to do with it" I was about to ask him… well everything. I mean, what questions WOULDN'T I ask at this point? I opened my mouth to speak but was cut off as the hospital began to tremble viciously, both the Doctor and I stumbled, I landed on top of him. I sat up slightly and looked at him
"Sorry about that!" I said awkwardly getting up
"Don't be" the Doctor said brushing himself off "we're married after all" he joked
"Now then," I began as the Doctor turned to look out of the window "what the bloody hell was tha-" I froze as I saw for myself what was out of the window. I slowly walked forwards and placed my hand on the glass "Doctor…" I began "D-Did you fly the hospital to the moon?" I asked gobsmacked
"No sweetie" he said staring out of the window with me "I drive a TARDIS."