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I don't know how long I stood gaping at Jasper, but it was too long, far too long.

"Say something." Jasper said.

"Wh-" I mustered.

Well, what was I expecting? Him to stay a just take me loving another guy? I don't deserve him. Either of them. They both need someone who will love them, only them.

I hadn't realised that during this thought my had begun to breath in gasps.

"Alice?" Jasper and Edward both said.

I stepped away, heading across the meadow towards the stream. To drown myself? No, impossible. And too melodramatic.

I heard them following me cautiously, muttering to each other.

"What are you trying to do to her!?" Edward hissed.

"This is for the best." Jasper mumbled.

"I disagree." He replied.

"She shouldn't have to choose, it's killing her." Jasper explained.

I turned and looked at them.

"I…I shouldn't-!?" I said, outraged. Thinking of me again, always thinking of me.

"Of course he is thinking of you, we both are." Edward said as if it were obvious.

I swear my eye was twitching as I stared at them both.

"This…I …you!" I flubbed.

"Oh, for the love of God!" Someone yelled as the door of the house swung open, spreading light upon the lawn.

The three of us turned the see someone stomping, albeit gracefully, towards us. Rosalie. Her eyes glinted with determination. Her hand was extended to me. When she reached me I took it without thinking.

Emmett stood in the doorway. "No, babe. Don't do it." He said in a deadpan, smirking.

"Okay, you two are banned, you hear me? Banned! From talking to Alice for the time being." Rosalie instructed.

"You can't just-" Edward protested.

"Ababa!" She interrupted him, raising a finger to silence him. "You. With me." She told me, towing me along to the house.

As she walked into the house she turned to Emmett. "Hun, take them hunting, they haven't been in days."

"Will do." He said kissing her on the cheek before joining the other two.

I heard the mingled complaints of Edward and Jasper.

I looked back to where they were as if I were a puppy pining over my owner. No wait, I'm not owned. A child being torn away from they're favourite toy. They aren't play things! Goodness, I'm bad at analogies!

"But we haven't seen her in days!" Edward growled at Emmett.

"This truly isn't fair." Jasper backed Edward up.

Oh, God. That was it, all I wanted, their friendship. Seeing them work together like that was amazing.

"Jazz, you've broken up with her and Edward, you two aren't together. So neither of you have enough claim to make me listen. She's a free agent." Emmett debated.

Jasper and Edward looked up at me with longing. Rosalie turned my face away and tugged me into the house away from them.

"Rose, let me go. I have to talk to them about this." I said pulling my arm away.

We got to her and Emmett's bedroom which she threw me in and instructed me to sit on their bed, which I did. She paced for a moment.

"Rose, why are you so angry?" I asked.

"You!" She pointed to me accusingly.

"Me!?" I questioned.

"When you were with Edward, Jasper came to me for help, advice. Then again when Edward needed help, he came to me. But you! You are my sister, my best friend, and you haven't talked to me about this for years! I've been waiting and waiting. Thinking: she'll come to me eventually, she knows I'm there for her, but did you? No!" She ranted and then sat on the arm chair in the corner, head in her perfectly manicured hands.

I was silent.

"I had no idea you felt that way." I said guiltily after a while.

Then I really thought about it. "I should have come to you. I've been in a bubble for years. Only consumed with myself, Jasper and Edward. I've been ignoring the people who mean just as much to me."

"The penny-" She pointed to the ground. "-drops."

I zoomed over to her and hugged her. And, thanks to some divine miracle, she hugged back.

"I'm going to make more time for you and the family, okay?" I assured her, pulling away to look at her. "How do the others feel about this?"

"Not as strongly, or vocally." She grinned, I laughed. "But pretty much the same."

"Oh." I grumbled, we walked over to the bed and sat down.

"Now, do you want my advice or not?" She asked.

"Very much so." I nodded.

"Jasper's done the right thing, you can't be with either of them, it'll only cause friction." She mused.

I sighed. "You're right."

"But you know you wont have to worry about it in a few of years." She smiled.

"Hmm." I agreed.

She looked at me questioningly.

"Well, I know it's selfish but I'm upset that I'm not going to feel the same way, I feel like I'll be betraying him. It's like I want him to myself." I said.

"How are you going to deal with Bel-" She asked.

"No, no, no. When she comes into the picture I'll be fine. Just while she's not here, I feel almost jealous of her." It was all coming out now. Rosalie should have been a shrink.

"Wow." Rose said. "Think you can abstain then?" She asked doubtfully.

"I can try." I grinned.

I made amends to the family for my selfish ways, they embraced me with open arms. Again.

Then I had to get used to being without Jasper and Edward, both had been away hunting for over two days and I was out of my mind missing them.

EPOV

I tackled and drained a mountain lion quite expertly, I perched myself on the branch it had been resting on. Once I was done I threw the carcass of the animal to the floor and lolled against the tree.

"Aw, come on, Edward." Emmett whined from below. "Lets have some fun, like old times."

I dropped from the tree and lightly thumped the earth. "Emmett you have no idea how much I'd love the old times back."

Emmett huffed. "Just act like you're having fun, for my sake."

I rolled my eyes. He looked offended.

I relaxed, "Okay, Em. Lets…um…"

"Race. That's what we used to do to have fun." He reminded me.

"Right, race. On your mark…" I said getting ready.

"Hold up a minute, bro. Jazz!" He called.

I looked away and clenched my teeth. Yes, the old times would be great indeed.

Jasper emerged from the trees.

"What do you say to a little race?" Emmett challenged him.

"I'm up for that." He said taking the same stance a had been in earlier.

"Ready?" Jasper asked.

"Set." Emmett grinned.

"Go." I instructed. The three of us launched into action. We flew along, winding through the trees. I closed my eyes and felt the wind press against my face, breathing in the fresh air. We were all travelling close together, I thought it was time to give them a run for their money.

I sprinted ahead without hesitation, hardly any effort was needed to get far ahead.

I wish it was this easy, to get away. When I left Jasper in the dust it was like he was the physical manifestation of my troubles, and I was leaving them behind.

But obviously in real life I could not do that. Alice wanted him, I couldn't hurt her, therefore, I couldn't hurt him.

Eventually, I let them both catch up with me, trying to hide the smug smile I felt within me. I cooperated as much as I could muster on the way home, I was proud of myself for it too.

When we got nearer to the house Jasper and I both sped up, eager to see Alice again.

When we walked in the rest of the family were in the living room, talking. I could see that Jasper was focusing of her, just like I was.

Then I felt tension. Which one of us would she go to first? I don't think I could take not being her preference.

The family all turned to us giving us mingled welcomes.

Alice smiled in our direction, and then got up lithely and came towards us.

Here it comes. She'll choose him, I know it.

"Emmett!" She sang, stepping past both Jasper and I to get to him. "I need to talk to you."

I was so confused by the simple act of being put second to my brother that I even looked to Jasper, he returned my baffled stare.

Alice dragged Emmett into another room, after pausing so that he could kiss Rosalie.

Esme and Carlisle focused their attention on the television, but it was obvious they were trying to hide their smiles.

Rosalie, however, was less than courteous.

"Oh, burn." She mocked, grinning.

APOV

When I closed the door I couldn't get over how hard it was to just walked past both Jasper and Edward. I mean come on! Oh, wait. I didn't even say hello to them, I was focusing so hard on not…not… Oh, I don't even know.

"Um…Alice?" Emmett pulled me out of my reverie.

"Em!" I said almost surprised to see him. I went to him and sat cross legged upon the carpet. Emmett looked down at me for a moment, then he laughed and joined me. I laughed with him.

"Aw, my big bro." I giggled. Then I became sober. "I just wanted to apologise."

"For what?" He asked immediately.

"For being a terribly selfish sister." I sighed. "Rosalie opened my eyes. I have…basically been ignoring anyone who can't read minds or change people's moods."

"No, you haven't." He said assumingly.

I raised my eyebrows and cocked my head to the side.

"Okay, maybe you have." He nodded. " But needless to say, I forgive you."

I smiled up at him, then sprang to my feet, him got up swiftly too.

"Thanks, Em." I said hugging him. "I'll make more time for you. For everyone."

"Glad to hear it, Pixie." He replied.

Em and I walked out of the room we'd been in to see that Jasper and Edward weren't there.

I looked at Rosalie questioningly.

"They went upstairs. They seemed pwitty ubset." She said putting on a baby voice.

I shot her a playful warning look.

I was about to go up to welcome then home when I had a thought.

"Hm." I hummed, reflecting. "Want to go shopping, Rose?"

"Really?" She said eagerly. Then she looked at Emmett apologetically.

"Emmett can come too. Only if he wants, I wouldn't want to be a third wheel or anything." I shrugged.

"Sure, I'll come." Emmett said, just as eager as Rose. This shocked me, he never wanted to go shopping.

"Cool." I beamed. "I'll just go and get my purse."

I walked at a speed that was less than human to my room. Arg, I hated "My room", this was the first room I'd had on my own, ever! God, I'm spoilt.

As I walked along I heard nothing from Jasper and Edward's rooms. They were listening to me.

"Ah, boys. You almost had me fooled. I was about to come up to comfort you." I shook my head. "But if you think I'm going to let either of you get me alone so that you can have your way with me, then you've got another thing coming. I mean seeing as I'm vulnerably attracted to both of you, in love with you, that just wouldn't be fair would it?"

I chuckled before dropped out of my window, towards the garage.

JPOV

Wow, she's really getting good at reading us.

EPOV

"I know. Damn, foiled by a little minx." I replied to Jasper's thought.

Well, there's another chapter for you.

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