So this is the original Chapter 20 that (hopefully!) provides the lightheartedness I referred to in Chapter 19! Hope you enjoy it as things are going to get a bit angsty from now on...

Disclaimer: As of Tuesday I do own a shiny new I-Phone courtesy of my employers (because apparently working 13 hours days just isn't enough!), unfortunately Cold Case was not included in the deal.

"It's not right! It's just not right!" Scotty exclaimed. "You...you can't go through that! It's just not natural!"

Lilly Rush was standing in the corridor of the maternity department at Pennsylvania Hospital watching her partner pace up and down. Lilly was now officially in her third trimester and they had just completed their day of Lamaze classes where it had become apparent that Scotty was completely freaked out by the whole birthing process. Lilly was trying her very best not to laugh at her partner, but the expression on his face and the way his hands were pulling at the hair on his head was just so comical.

"It's ok Scotty, I already knew Bean was going to come out of...there. It's kinda drilled into us at a young age" she reassured ruefully.

If she was being honest with herself, the thought of going through childbirth did scare her but she felt much more prepared having been to the class and witnessed what she would be going through. She knew that Scotty would be there by her side – she'd have Boss, Nick and Will hunt him down if he wasn't- and he'd made an excellent birthing coach during the class, counting to 10 as she'd practiced breathing, supporting her in the various positioned they'd tried and asking the teacher so many questions she was sure that Scotty could deliver Bean if needed. He'd only started to freak out when they'd watched the "educational" video – even that had freaked her out and she'd known what to expect.

"But...but...it's just wrong!" he exclaimed again.

Lilly knew Scotty had gone to Catholic school so his sex education lessons must have been limited, but she was seriously beginning to wonder exactly what the nuns had taught him about childbirth. Did he honestly still think that a stork delivered the baby?

"How did you think Bean was going to come out of me?" Lilly couldn't help but ask Scotty curiously.

Scotty stopped pacing and turned towards her, his eyes wide with horror. He was saved from answering her question when Lilly became aware of someone approaching her from behind and felt someone tap her on the shoulder. Turning around she was greeted by Sarah, a women who went to the same yoga class as her and with who she had become friendly. Ironically Sarah had just completed the same Lamaze class and her husband, Andrew, didn't seem to be faring much better than Scotty judging by the parlour of his complexion.

"Hey Lilly" Sarah greeted her "Scotty's not doing much better than Andrew then?" she asked with amusement.

"I'm starting to wonder where he thought he baby would come from actually" Lilly replied. "What's up?"

"Oh, I just wondered if you and Scotty fancied meeting up one day? Scotty and Andrew seem to get on and it might be good for them if they could freak out together." Sarah asked with a chuckle.

Lilly didn't know what to say. Neither Scotty nor she had explained their situation to the class, both silently agreeing that it was easier for people to think they were a couple, rather than work colleagues who'd had a one night stand.

Toying with the idea, she thought it might be good for her and Scotty to have someone to talk to who was going through the same experience as them. Sarah was pregnant with her first child too and they were expecting a boy. She knew Scotty had his family to lean on but she really didn't have many friends, really only the guys and Kat on the team, and Sarah and she had hit it off straight away at yoga. Liking the idea of having a pregnant friend to go through the experience with she gratefully accepted Sarah's offer.

"Sounds great. Here's my card, I'll just write my home number on the back".

"Great!" Sarah exclaimed. "Here's mine. I'll see you at yoga on Tuesday?"

"Definitely." Turning to look at Scotty who had resumed his pacing and was now chewing his finger nails, she rolled her eyes and turned to Sarah and said her goodbye "I think Scotty and I had better get going before Scotty wears a hole in the floor"

"Yeah" Sarah said with a chuckle glancing towards her husband "me too" and with that Sarah and Andrew headed out of the hospital.

"Come on Scotty" she said grabbing his arm and guiding him towards the exit. "I'm starving and I have the biggest craving for a burger and fries. You can buy me dinner"

"You can't have fried food Lil! You know it's bad for Bean!" Scotty exclaimed with horror.

"Don't blame me, it's you kid that wants it!" Lilly exclaimed jokingly. Seeing the horrified expression had still not left her partners face, she rolled her eyes and sought to reassure him "It's one burger and fries in 7 months Scotty, it will be fine. Besides, Doctor Jenson said that Bean needs to gain body fat now and I think a burger and fries will be perfect for that. Come on, we can try that diner we saw on the way in".

It was a little over two weeks since Thanksgiving and ever since her revelation Scotty's protectiveness of her and Bean had kicked up a notch. At work, he'd managed to convince Boss that she was no longer fit to do interrogations which meant she was literally stuck at her desk all day, the highlight of her day now being a trip to the kitchen, the printer or the fax machine. She was actually looking forward to her maternity leave starting in 6 weeks so that she could actually do something rather than be stuck behind a desk.

Scotty was also constantly getting her to drink water as he'd read that in the third trimester pregnant women had to stay hydrated. As soon as her glass was empty, another one appeared before her. He'd even roped the guys on the team into helping him with his mission when he wasn't in the office. She'd found that Kat had been a great resource though, as she had a young daughter herself and had reassured her that it was better to drink too much then not enough, even if it did mean she was in the bathroom every 5 minutes thanks to Bean's frequent movements.

After work Scotty had taken to coming over nearly every day and cooking dinner whilst he insisted she relax and rest. He also insisted on giving her a foot or back massage after dinner. Prior to her pregnancy she would have refused profusely, but as much as she loved being pregnant, it was getting harder and harder as the weeks went by and her back and feet were aching more each day. She was actually starting to enjoy Scotty being around so much, her house just seemed more homely and alive when he was there. She was genuinely sad when he left each evening.

She was sure the extra weight she had gained wasn't helping either and she couldn't believe how fat she was, although Doctor Jenson had assured her her weight gain was perfectly healthy and exactly what he wanted at this stage in her pregnancy. Most of the time though she just felt like a beached whale. Scotty's massages did help, so she let him do them -secretly she thought he liked doing them.

Silently they arrived at the diner together and she looked over at Scotty only to find his expression had intensified and he still looked completely shell-shocked. Rolling her eyes she dragged him into the diner and pushed him down into one of the booths. Reaching for the menus, she shoved one in his hands whilst she perused the various burgers they had, her mouth salivating as she read the delicious ingredients.

"Can I take your order?" the young waitress asked as she approached the table.

"Hmmmm, I'll have a double bacon cheeseburger with extra cheese and fries, and an orange juice, please." Looking up at Scotty she noticed he was still staring vacantly into space "And he'll have the same, but with coffee rather than orange juice" Lilly responded looking up at the waitress and grabbing the menu out of Scotty's hand.

"No problem. Food with be about 15 minutes".

Lilly looked at Scotty and once again had to refrain from laughing. She couldn't believe how much the video had shocked him, sure it had been graphic and the thought of going through labour was daunting, but as a police officer she had seen much more horrendous things and she was going to be giving birth in a hospital surrounded by doctors and nurses and plenty of drugs. She was sure she could get through it, she was Lilly Rush, she could get through anything- ultimately she didn't have a choice.

Deciding that Scotty needed to be distracted, she frantically thought of a subject they could talk about. A smile lit up her face as she thought of the perfect topic just as their drinks arrived.

"Scotty" his eyes flicked to hers and she was glad she had his attention "what do you want?"

"Huh?" he replied blankly.

"Would you like a boy or a girl?"

"What?" he asked with confusion.

"Bean. Would you like it to be your son or daughter"

She looked into his eyes and saw his mind start to process the words she had just spoken.

"I...I don't really mind, I just want Bean to be healthy" he replied "although everyone at Thanksgiving was sure Bean is a boy".

"Really?" Lilly asked surprised.

"Yeah, apparently your carrying low which is a sure sign the baby is a boy and with the hard kicks and thumps Bean was giving everyone at the party the general Valens consensus is that Bean's a boy. Plus, there hasn't been a girl born into the family for something like 4 generations. It would be nice to have a boy to keep the Valens name going."

Lilly was taken aback, but not at the thought of having a son. No, it was the comment about the surname that had really bothered her.

"Oh" she said, hostility evident in her voice.

Scotty picked up on her tone and frowned "What's the matter Lil? Do you want a girl? I'd be happy with a daughter too, I just thought it would be nice to have someone carry on my family name"

"Why do you assume Bean is getting your name?" she replied icily.

This time it was Scotty who was taken aback. One minute they'd been having a nice conversation about Bean, the next she was fixing him with the Ice Queen glare.

"Cos I'm the father Lil and the baby usually takes the father's name" he replied with confusion, still amazed at how quickly Lilly's pregnancy moods could change. He was pretty sure that was the case, unless the father was a complete deadbeat.

"Well don't you think I might want my name in there somewhere? You know, I'm the one carrying Bean, getting stretch marks, putting on weight, re-arranging my house. Don't you think I might want my name carried on too? We're not married, we're not even together and Bean is going to be spending most of its time with me."

Scotty was hurt. Did Lilly really think that he was that much of a deadbeat that Bean didn't deserve his name? He'd really been trying these last 5 months to prove himself and he thought he'd done a good job, but now Lilly had just told him his name wasn't worth anything to her.

"Come on Lil" he replied angrily "You know I'm going to have Bean as much as I can once he or she is weaned and I have a bigger place. Sure, the first few months Bean will be with you a lot more, but afterwards I want us to share custody equally. Bean's part of me too and my name should be part of its life"

"Well, what do you suggest?" Lilly replied just as angrily.

The waitress appeared then with their food and Scotty took a moment to glance up and thank her. Something on her chest caught his eye and a smile appeared on his face as he read her name badge: Donna Williams-Smith. An idea popped into his head.

"Why don't we hyphenate our names?"

"Huh?" Lilly replied with confusion.

"We could hyphenate our names. Ya know, Valens-Rush or Rush-Valens?"

Lilly thought about his proposal. It did make sense to hyphenate their names as that way they both got what they wanted.

"I like Rush-Valens" she said sullenly as she took a massive bite out of her burger.

Scotty smiled. "Rush-Valens it is then. Now we just have to come up with a first name. Have you thought of anything yet?"

Lilly brightened instantly. "Not really, but I want a definite boy or girl name. Nothing like Leslie or Jamie that could be either a boy or girl. How about you?"

"I think my Dad would quite like it if we named a boy after him"

"Ramiro Rush-Valens? That's a bit of a mouthful" Lilly stated.

"Ok, well I've always liked Georgia for a girl's name"

"NO!" Lilly practically shouted. Scotty looked over at her perturbed.

"Nothing with George in" Lilly said quietly.

Catching the meaning behind her words, "Ok" he said quietly "How about Isabella?"

Lilly wrinkled her nose. "How about James for a boy?"

"Maybe, but wasn't that the name of the guy who hid his grandmother's body in the basement and semi-stalked you from prison?

"Good point" Lilly conceded. "Daniel?"

"That's ok. Mia?"

And on and on the conversation went, with them bouncing names around trying to find the perfect one for Bean. By the end of their dinner they still weren't any closer to finding a name they both liked, that went with the surname, and that had an appropriate nickname.

"God, I had no idea this would be so hard!" Scotty exclaimed "Maybe we should just wait until Bean's here and we can see what he or she looks like?"

Lilly paused. After her conversation with Scotty at Thanksgiving there was one name she had been thinking of, but she wasn't sure how Scotty would react.

"What about Elisa for a girl?"

"Pardon?"

"If we have a girl, would you like to name her after Elisa?"

Scotty was taken aback by Lilly's offer to name their child after his departed girlfriend. Most women would have hated the idea of naming their child after his deceased fiancée, but here Lilly was, putting the name on the table.

"That's kind of you Lil" he began hesitantly "but are you sure you want to name our child after...her...after what happened?"

Lilly lent forward to look Scotty in the eye and took his hand in her own "Scotty, I know I only met Elisa a few times, but she was one of the kindest, sweetest people I have ever met. I can tell how much you loved her, and still do. It would be an honour to name our child after her."

He was touched by her words and he thought long and hard about her proposition, finally coming to a conclusion.

"It hurts to think about her Lil. It hurts whenever I hear that name called in the street. I don't think I could say that name everyday" he whispered.

Lilly saw the raw pain in his eyes and felt guilty at unintentionally causing him to momentarily relive that pain when it had taken him so long to come to terms with what Elisa had done.

"Ok, but if you change your mind, or you want it as a middle name..."

"That would be nice" he interrupted "Elisa. As a middle name". He thought he could cope with that, he could honour the memory of his first love but not have the pain of having to say her name everyday.

"Well it's sorted then, if we have a girl her middle name is Elisa" Lilly said with a smile.

"Thanks Lil" he said, squeezing her hand as a gesture of his gratitude.

"I do like the idea of waiting to see what Bean looks like though before deciding on the first name, although I feel bad about not having a boy's middle name picked out." Lilly said.

Glancing up from her burger she noticed that Scotty suddenly looked rather uncomfortable, almost guilty.

"Scotty, what's the matter?" she asked in her best detective voice.

The awkwardness on Scotty's face just intensified as he replied.

"I was thinking of Scott, as a middle name"

"What?" Lilly replied stonily.

"Well, uh, you see there's a tradition in the Valens family that the first born son gets its father's forename. It's been going on for generations. Mike's middle name is Ramiro, and Emilo's is Micheal so I was kinda hoping for Scott as the middle name if it's a boy" Scotty replied in a rush, promptly taking a bite of his burger to avoid the Ice Queen glare that Lilly was no doubt giving him.

Lilly sighed. It wasn't that she personally had anything against Scott as a name, it's just that she didn't like the idea of their child being named after either one of them. However, the Valens' had been so good to her and she knew it would mean a lot to Scotty, and to Rosa and Ramiro too, if they continued with the tradition.

"Okay" Lilly replied "But on one condition"

Scotty brightened immediately, the prospect of being able to carry on the family tradition bringing a warmth inside his chest "Anything Lil?"

"What's your middle name?" Lilly asked inquisitively.

Scotty gulped. It wasn't that he was ashamed of his middle name, after all his parents had followed Valens' family tradition and as the second son he had received his maternal grandfather's name, it's just that it wasn't exactly common and it was a very Puerto Rican name.

"It's Eulogio"

For several moments there was silence until he heard what sounded like a giggle coming from the other side of the table. He looked up fully intent on giving Lilly the harshest glare he had ever given anyone, but as soon as her eyes met his Lilly Rush did something he had never heard before. She laughed. Full on gutch wrenching laughed - and it was the most beautiful sound he had ever heard. He realised that out of all the years they had worked together, and all the things they had experienced in the last 5 months, and he could not recall ever hearing her laugh.

"I'm sorry" she hiccupped, tears now forming in her eyes from where she had been laughing "It's just that I can't imagine you with a name like Eulogio! It's just so...so...geeky!"

The anger Scotty had been feeling immediately receded as he took in Lilly's flushed face and vibrant laugh. She just looked so happy.

"Scott doesn't seem so bad now, does it?" he replied jokingly.

"No, no it doesn't" she stated as she started to calm down.

"So I shared mine, what's your middle name?" Scotty asked Lilly.

"I don't have one" she replied smugly.

"What? Everyone has a middle name, I bet yours is even worse than mine. Hmmm, let's see Mildred, Gertrude? Come on Lil, what is it?"

Lilly giggled again and Scotty was quickly starting to realise how much he loved that sound.

"Seriously, I don't have one. I think my parents had enough of a problem coming up with one name, let alone two" she replied.

"I don't believe you Rush. Prove it." Scotty demanded jovially.

Lilly rolled her eyes, retrieved her driving licence from her wallet, and handed it to Scotty. Sure enough only one name was present: Lillian.

"Looks like you win Lillian" he replied, mirth evident in his voice. "So, I think we've just agreed on the middle names then. Elisa for a girl and Scott for a boy"

"Yeah, I guess we have" she replied softly, a slightly puzzled, wondrous look on her face that did nothing to hide the intensity of the smile that lit up Lilly's face. Seeing Lilly so happy made Scotty happy and he couldn't help smiling in return.

"Come on Lil, let me take you home. It's getting late and it's been a long day" Scotty stated as he signalled the waitress for the bill.

"You know, we haven't had dessert? Did you want to pick up some ice cream and come round mine to watch a movie?" Lilly asked, almost shyly.

"Sounds great Lil" Scotty replied softly, and it really did.

If anyone reading this has the same names as those mentioned above, please do not take offence. The Pueto Rican name came from a website so I hope it's accurate and I chose it as it seemed the least suitable for the Scotty character.