okay so this is very short and I intend to have another chapter up later today or early tomorrow.... sorry it took so long and that it's really short.. well enjoy hehe

Chapter 21 B.P.O.V

Oh god. How did I let this happen?? What was worse was the fact that I couldn't even remember. I mean, I was naked in Edward's arm and he was naked too which could only mean sex. I pulled away from him carefully trying not to wake him and I was ecstatic when I succeeded.

I pulled a sheet around me and made my way back to my room where I collapse on my bed and let a flood of tears run down my face. It was sometime later when Rosalie walked in.

"Bella what's wrong?" she threw her arms around my shoulders as the sobs within me began to fade.

"Edward.. Me… bed" it was the only words I could manage to get out from between my lips..

"Oh Bella" she pulled me closer to her before she spoke again..

"Is it really that bad? I know he loves you and I can see that you love him although you try to deny it. Maybe it will bring you closer together"

"Maybe it would have" I sobbed "If I could remember what happened" I heard her intake of breath..

"Bella are you sure you had sex?" I looked at my thigh to see the blood stain that was there, I noticed Rosalie's eyes followed mine but this time she didn't say anything. We just sat in silence until it grew too uncomfortable.

"I need to shower" I stated the obvious and made my way of the bed..

"Do you want me to stay?" she asked cautiously.

"Nope, it's okay, I'll see you in awhile" she made her way to the door before I called her back.

"Please don't tell Edward" she nodded but I needed her to say she wouldn't..

"Rosalie Promise me please"

"I promise Bella" she came and hugged me before she left..

I made my way to the showered and wondered what was going through Edwards head. Did he remember what we had done? Did he think this meant I loved him? It was too much for me to think about.

I decided I'd pretend nothing was wrong. We'd be okay. It's not like I'd end up pregnant or anything. It would be okay. We were going to Jacksonville in two days. We would talk about it then just not now.

I knew Rosalie wouldn't tell and I trusted her but It was Alice I needed to talk to, She was Edwards sister she'd know what to tell me. I knew Rosalie would try but it wouldn't be the same. I needed her but I also couldn't wreck her honeymoon over something as stupid as sleeping with her brother. I'd tell her in time.

I walked down to breakfast to find Emmett Rosalie and Edward sitting together. I sat with them and noticed Edward smile when I placed my hand on his knee under the table. For now everything was alright.

TWO DAYS LATER..

"Bella come on were going to be late" Edward shouted up the stairs..

"I'm coming" I closed the suitcase and carried it down the stairs to where Edward was waiting for me. I knew he could tell something was off but he didn't say anything about it.

We got into the car and I turned on the radio and let my head fall back into the head rest and let my eyes shut. I could hear him humming but he didn't say anything. The trip to the airport was silent. I could tell he was being extra cautious around me since the wedding but it wasn't helping. It just made me feel worse.

We boarded the plane and I sat on the inside. He turned to me and I could tell this was it. He was going to ask me about it.

"Bella?" He looked into me eyes trying to find something. I couldn't tell if he found it or not.

"Hmm" I was hoping we could hold of on this for as long as possible. Clearly two days was his limit.

"Tell me what's wrong please" he looked so vulnerable.

"Nothings wrong" I took his hand in mine and smile sweetly but I knew he could see through it.

"Bella please don't lie, something's been wrong since the wedding. I asked Rosalie but she said to ask you and this is the only chance we'll have to talk alone." He had tears in his eyes and I didn't want to be the one to make them fall.

"It's just I don't remember what happened, I cant remember anything" A tear trailed down my face. I looked over to him to see hurt in his eyes.

"You don't remember at all?"

okay so I know it's a horrible ending for the chapter but I thought it would make a nice opening for the next one.. hehe

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