DISCLAIMER: If I owned Divergnt, our lovely blonde wouldn't have died.
"Are you alright?" Tobias asks me once we sit in his car.
"Yes…No-I don't know." I tell him and turn to look at him, "I don't know."
"Tris, it's okay to cry every once in a while. You've been dealing with these problems since you were little. You can be weak and let someone else hold you."
"Well, these days it feels that I'm crying all the time," I say, "Anyway, who is going to hold me now? My brothers have been doing that since I was little. My mom…she has her own problems and dad is gone. Who is going to hold me now?"
"I will. I'm going to hold you, Tris." Tobias whispers and I turn to look at him.
He is staring at my eyes with such intensity that my knees feel like jelly. I look back at him and try to smile. Tobias makes me feel like everything will be okay, like my family problems will be solved and that maybe, I can have a normal life again and that he is going to be by my side while that happens. And I thank him deeply because I need that feeling in my life. And because I don't seem to find any words, I kiss him. I kiss him hoping he'll understand how much I appreciate what he does to me, how much I need him and how much I love him.
Love him, are you sure, Tris? A voice in my head suddenly asks. I smile in the kiss and pull away nervously.
"What's wrong?" he asks, smiling.
"I have something to tell you."
"And, what is that?" he asks.
"I think I might be in love with you." I whisper and look down.
"Well, I think that I am in love with you." He retorts as he lifts my chin with his finger. I meet his eyes and blush.
"You do?"
"Yep." He pecks me on the lips and I chuckle. "But I'm still waiting to be sure to tell you, though. I don't want to scare you."
"Then you should know me better." I say and he laughs softly. God, that sound.
"Well, then I love you." He says and I kiss him.
"I think it's time that you meet Dad." I tell him once we pull away.
"Wow, big step." He says and I laugh "You guide me,"
"To the cemetery."
…
Dad's stone is always decorated with flowers. Mom buys flowers every Sunday, comes here and leaves them around her husband's grave. Tobias insisted on buying flowers for him. I didn't know why but he said he wanted to make a good first impression. I laughed.
When we arrive to his place, I sit on the grass and hug my knees. Tobias sits next to me and puts an arm around my shoulders and kisses my temple. I try to smile as my eyes fill with tears.
"Hey, Dad." I greet an invisible person, "I wanted to introduce you to Tobias. He is my boyfriend now. Please don't be mad."
"It's a pleasure, Mr. Pedrad," Tobias says.
"I really hope you like him," I say, "He's been really supportive all this time and he even brought you flowers."
Tobias and I start placing the flowers around the stone as I cry silently, wondering what he would say if he was here. Would he want me to visit Natalie? Or ignore her because she just looked for me? I guess he would like the first option.
"Tobias, would you mind leaving me alone for a few minutes with my dad?" I ask him and he shakes her head before kissing me softly. He stands up and walks away. I turn to Dad.
"Why is Natalie here, dad? Does she expect me to run to her arms after 16 years? Did she look after me because she is sick?" I ask him and start crying, "I miss you so much, daddy. I need you more than ever. Mom misses you too. Zeke and Uriah need you. I wish you were here to tell me what the right thing to do is. I need you."
I sit in the grass sobbing until' someone hugs me from behind. I just cry louder. Tobias tries to calm me and, eventually, he does. I stare at his blue orbs and mutter:
"I hope Dad likes you."
"I hope so too." He says and pulls me to my feet with him. "I'll take you home, Tris."
We start walking to his car and head home. The way is silent and soft music plays on the radio.
Oh, won't you stay with me?
'Cause you're all I need
This ain't love, it's clear to see
But darling, stay with me
I look through the window for a while. I feel a hand grabbing mine. I look up and find Tobias staring at me.
Why am I so emotional?
No, it's not a good look
Need some self control
And deep down, I know this never works
But you can lay with me so it doesn't hurt
Everything happens too fast.
Both of us look in front to find a truck coming right to our direction. It doesn't look like it will stop. And it doesn't. It hits our car with such force that I end up collapsed in the windshield, pain invading my body.
Oh, won't you stay with me?
'Cause you're all I need
This ain't love, it's clear to see
But darling, stay with me
The last thing I feel is a squeeze on my hand.
Please, don't hate me. You see, this is something that had to happen. Tris will realize a few things because of this accident. As you know (If you read my disclaimer), I would never kill Trissy or Four. They are just too important for me.
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The song is "Stay with me" by Sam Smith. Just in case you didn't know already.
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Imagine being deaf and then finding out farts make noise.
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See you next week, my darlings,
-Tris.