So First i wanna say that i'm sooo sorry for the late late update, its been like a month and i feel horrible for taking this long. School has taken over so it doesn't exactly make me want to write lately, but i'm on Spring Break this week so i'm hoping to update this a few more times this week or at least once more :)
-Also this is kind of a filler chapter and not super long for the first chapter in forever but i think its still decent
Thank you to everyone who's reviewed, they mean sooo much to me :)
It's the last time I'll have this dream; it starts out like it always does where I'm falling into nothingness, but this time something is different. This time it doesn't seem as dark it's like the darkness is about to jump out at me and its then that I realize this whole time I've had my eyes closed. The moment I open them, I feel stupid but at the same time anxious as to what I've been missing out on with my eyes closed. Looking around though I finally realize that I was never falling, I've been flying. Flying until I see this cloudy island like thing in front of me that I stop on. Once I've landed I feel relaxed, like I've accomplished something and its then that the glowing words start to appear again but this time the message is different.
"You've come a long way and your journey is almost over so don't give up now. It's the last day to prove yourself, prove that you've really changed. One way or another, this is the LAST time you'll be living this day and at the end of it you'll either live to see another day and more or never see another one again. It's up to you now, good luck"
And then the words disappeared and calmness came over me as I knew what I had to do. I remember a book that I read once where the main character talked about knowing you would be having sex for the last time. I'm not exactly a sex expert but I do agree with the concept, it has to be sad knowing that you'd be doing something for the last time; like your last kiss or last day of high school or last sunset or last time you see someone you love. It would be horrible knowing you'd be doing things for the last time.
Honestly it's probably better not to know, I mean walking around knowing that this is the last time you'll be doing something, it has to feel like you have the weight of the world on your shoulders. I guess that's why they say you should cherish every moment for what it's worth, because you really don't know when it could be your time to go. It's like Ferris Bueller said "Life moves pretty fast. If you don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it".
"I love you, I'll see you later" That could possibly be the last thing that I ever say to my parents as I walked out the door to head to Sharpay's car. I then turned back a moment to take them in for what could be the last time and a smile comes over my face as I see them, happy. I just hope it's not that last time I see them happy.
As I'm about to go to Sharpay's car I hear Sophia calling from behind me bring my gloves out to me and I stop turning towards her.
"You forgot your gloves" She says to me and I lean down towards her
"Thanks Soph, I don't know what I'd do without you" I said hugging her tightly making her giggle
"I can't breathe" Sophia said and I let go of her and then started taking off our grandmother's star necklace from my neck and Sophia's eyes went big
"Turn around" I told her and she quietly turns around as I put the necklace onto her and once it's on her she turns towards me smiling "It looks good Soph"
"Are you really giving it to me forever or just for today?" she asked me softly and I shrugged
"It looks better on you anyways"
"Thanks Gabi" She replied
"Alright be good for mom and dad" I replied to her before I turned around towards Sharpay's car choking up but trying to keep it together knowing that I wouldn't want Sharpay or anyone really seeing me crying right now. All I could think was I don't want to lose all this, not after everything that's happened.
The whole way to school all Sharpay really does is talk about Zeke, but honestly I'm not really paying attention to what she's saying. All I can think is how weird it is being with Sharpay right now after everything that happened, but at the same time I'm glad.
I know It's weird because I know how hurtful and cruel and insecure but she's also still Sharpay Evans- the girl freshman year who went up to the bitchy, Kelly Mori's new car and keyed it because she was really the only girl wasn't afraid of her. She's brave and as much as she can be a bitch she's still my best friend and I know that no matter how many times she messes up I know she'll figure it out in the end.
Or maybe it's just my hopefulness, but part of me wants to believe that everything that happened last night mattered. I want to believe that when me and Troy kissed that it wasn't all for nothing. Honestly this is the first time in my life that I've missed kissing someone; the first time I really felt like I was missing something important.
"Maybe he's just freaking out because he's into you, right Gabi?" Kate said
"mhmm" I replied catching the end of the conversation but figuring that was a good enough response. As we're driving I just suddenly get this urge to just drive around town a little bit longer, take everything in just a little bit longer.
"Shar, can we stop by Dunkin Donuts, I suddenly want an iced coffee?" I asked her
"What? You hate Dunkin Donuts"
"yeah well I guess I just have a craving for it"
"You said it tasted like watered down cat pee" Sharpay replied to me
"Ew, come on Shar I'm eating back here" Kate said as she took a bite of her muffin
"Sorry, I'm just repeating the exact words of a miss Gabriella Montez" Sharpay replied to her
"If I'm late to class one more time I'm gonna get detention for the rest of the year" Kate replied
"and you'll miss the chance to make out with Joey before class" Sharpay said to her
"And you'll miss out on precious suck face time with Zeke" Kate replied to her
"Please Shar, please" I said to her and Sharpay took a moment before groaning and turning her blinker on to head towards Dunkin Donuts.
"Gabi gets what she wants today, It is her big day after all" Sharpay said laughing
"I think it's more Kyle's big day than hers" Kate said
"we can only hope" Sharpay said
"Ew guys seriously" I groaned
"Its gonna be a looong day Gabs"
"a hard day" Kate said causing her and Sharpay to just laugh more
"Oh so mature guys" I replied to them clearly not amused
As we go to Dunkin Donuts, I'm mentally taking in everything around me. Taking it in for what could be the last time and the places I've been to and the memories of the things that have happened at these places, both the good and the bad ones.
As we're walking out of Dunkin Donuts though I nearly drop my coffee seeing Marti Perkins waiting for a spot so she can go in and get some coffee herself.
"You have got to be fucking kidding me" I say a little too loudly looking at Marti's car causing Sharpay and Kate to look at me weirdly
"Yeah I would totally be saying the same thing if I had to drive around in that piece of crap all the time" Sharpay said referring to Marti's car.
"No I-" I start to say but stop realizing there was no explaining since they wouldn't understand what I was talking about.
"So how's your coffee?" Sharpay asked me
"like watered down cat pee" I replied to her getting back into her car
"What's her deal?" Kate said to Sharpay
"PNS: Parking Need Syndrome" She replied getting into the car herself and we headed off to school.
As we made our way to school it makes me think that maybe it's not that complicated. I mean 99% of the time you just don't know how or why things happen that way that they do. I mean sometimes you do a good thing that makes a bad thing happen or the opposite. Or you get the very rare occurrence where everything happens the right way, the way it's supposed to. I realize that maybe it wasn't the parking spot that screwed things up.
I look at Marti one last time as she running into Dunkin Donuts and I realize that her not getting the parking space wasn't our fault, it wasn't the main problem and maybe if she would have made her coffee at home she would have gotten the parking space.
Ok so like i said at the beginning i'll try to update this again this week since i'm on Spring Break :)
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-Heather