[OLI'S POV]

"What?!" I said as shock raced through my veins.

Was I dreaming or was this real? I mean did I really hear him right or was I just hallucinating? This was absurd and quite weird. But I just hope it was nothing. I looked at Matt with my eyes wide open and he asked me to walk outside with him. I agreed with him about the walk but I was nervous at the same time. I didn't know why thought but I just was.

Once we got out of the house and out of hearing distance, Matt started explaining. He told me that Natalie had told him about that Sunday she spent alone because I was out visiting my parents back home. As he spoke, rage started to fill me up and I started to breathe raggedly. Now this isn't just because I have a condition, the reason behind the ragged breathing is the anger I have in me. This happens when I get super furious. I was sorta ready to take Steven down and talk to Natalie and ask her why she hadn't told me about this sooner.

"I think that's it," Matt said as we started to walk back towards his house.

"I can't believe this," I said and sighed. I looked down at the pavement as I walked.

"She didn't want you to get hurt, Oli," he told me and patted my back.

"So let me get this straight," I said and looked up at Matt who was looking at the houses we passed as we walked down the sidewalk. "She wanted to have sex with him?" I asked him inappropriately. He looked at me with a look I couldn't decode and then looked in front of him.

"More or less yea, that's what she told me." He said sympathetically.

"So she cheated on me and Steven didn't rape her." I stated trying to tell myself that yes, she ditched me for that son of a bitch.

"Yes, Oli, that's what she said." He said reassuringly. For some reason, he was being extra patient with me today. I wonder why.

"That's just…" I trailed off.

"Crazy," Matt said finishing my statement.

"Exactly," I agreed.

We walked back inside the house and resumed band practice. We ended at around 4 P.M. or so and well once I exited the house, I knew that I had to confront her so I walked up to her house and knocked on her front door. I knocked three times before someone opened the door.

"Why, hello there, Oli," Mrs. Sanders said with a welcoming tone. I greeted her back and she let me in.

She called Natalie from her room and asked me to wait in their large living room. I decided to just stand up there since I wanted this to be quick. I wanted to be precise and brief so I won't make a big mess. I knew what I had to do and I knew that if I didn't do it, then I'd only torment myself with more pain. But once she went down the stairs and once Mrs. Sanders went back up to give us some space, I totally lost it not in a psychological way but what I mean is that everything I planned to do just vanished in my head.

She stood there looking at me with one eyebrow raised up and her arms crossed over her chest. Obviously, she was waiting for me to speak but I couldn't get past the ball in my throat that stopped all the words from flowing out. My body was malfunctioning and my brain went blank which was bad in situations like these. She sighed at me and was about to turn away and leave but luckily, I grabbed her wrist as gentle as possible before she I let her walk away again.

"Wait," I finally managed to say. She turned around to face me and I let go of her wrist. I was fully in control of my actions now meaning that this was something I could definitely do.

"Why didn't you just tell me about it?" I asked her and she avoided eye contact. She looked away from me and looked at some of the things in their living room. She didn't say anything at all and it was clear to me now that she was giving me the silent treatment. I really couldn't get anything out of her no matter how hard I tried. She was too difficult and it turns out what I came here to do was quite impossible.

"Even just one word?" I pleaded and suddenly the look on her face changed.

She sighed before she spoke. "I can't do this Oli, I'm sorry," she said and then she started to walk away.

"So you never loved me? Is that it?" I asked and she stopped in her tracks. She spun to face me and I noticed that her eyes were starting to tear up.

"I loved you Oli," she said as she looked into my eyes.

"But?" I said asking her to continue. She can't just leave it like that.

"But what I did was unforgivable so I did you a favor and stayed away. I was hoping you'd understand but apparently you don't." she said. I think that was the longest statement she uttered ever since I got here.

"But why didn't you just tell me? We could've gotten through it," I said not really sure if I wanted to make up or part ways with her.

"We could've but I don't think I could have lived with it." She said as tears started streaming down her face. I wanted to just run to her and hold her but I had to hold myself back.

"Natalie-"

"Oli, I don't think it's going to work out. I think this is it." She croaked out. She started to sob now.

I started towards her and stood right in front so that we were only inches apart. I stroked her cheek with my thumb and wiped away her tears.

"That's going to work," she said pushing my hand away gently.

"But our relationship will. I promise you that." I said and she looked up at me in disbelief.

I held her in my arms and was willing to give her a second chance. I don't know why though but I just had this feeling that I just needed to give her another try. It's too soon to give up now. I just hope and wish that I'm not just setting a re-run of everything that has happened to me.

"Are you sure?" she said sniffling.

"Yes," I said and smiled.

I never wanted to let her go and I just hope she feels the same way about me too. I know that I came here to just end it with her but I can't. Maybe if I did end it, I would ruin the chances of having newer experiences which I want to go through with her. Practically, she's my world and I just want to be with her every damn second of every minute of every day. It may sound corny but I know it's true.