My eyes scanned across the very blank and empty field from left to right, left to right, more than once. Eventually, I would see two bodies running towards me at full speed. I would probably brace myself for the impact I knew both of them were very capable of making. My spot leaning against the hood of my car had been my spot for almost three minutes now which meant they either had no idea where they were supposed to go, or they were fighting. A really huge part of me was hoping they had started fighting because then I would have to break them up and I know if I got in the middle one or both of them, would get pissed at me and want to fight me off. I wanted that. I needed that. I guess I'm sick because all I wanted was pain. To me, if I felt any kind of pain, it meant I still had feelings and hell…maybe even a heart and soul. The pain would give me reason to believe I had made the right choices.

Out of my thoughts I heard a noise…a laugh. I stood up quick and took my hands out of my pockets squinting. Right in the middle of the field were two dots gets closer and closer, at a fast speed, but definitely not the fastest. I smiled taking a few steps forward and put my hands on my hips .In less than 5 seconds those two dots that were running towards me, stopped inches form me, both laughing. I frowned and reached out for Max who glanced up at me and shook his head. He raised his left hand to show me a bloody dead rat. "I got to mine first." I smiled big, feeling nothing but pride and happiness.

"Yeah he only got his first because he was telling me some stupid joke and he made me laugh and lose concentration." I turned to James and chuckled also seeing a bloody dead rat in his hand. "I must admit. The kid has some skill." I nodded turning , urging them to follow. "What's next?" I walked them into the garage and shook my head hearing two rats get thrown back into the box I had taken them out not 5 minutes ago.

"Rest. You guys out up a hell of a fight today. You need to relax your bodies and your mind." I heard two soft groans behind me and I chuckled opening the small fridge in my garage underneath my work bench. I bent slightly and grabbed two full vile full of dark red blood. I shut the door quick turned to see both of them not looking happy at me at all. I grinned big handing them the blood and pushed between them walking back out of the garage.

I walked through my huge house right to the bedrooms, only hearing one follow me. I knew it was Max. Weather he liked to admit it or not, his body was in desperate need of rest and because he was so young he needed the rest. I walked into his room, which I was actually happy to make up for him because I've been alone for so long. Now I had two roommates who were going through the same things I have had to go through. It was comforting. I walked straight to his window which I closed and locked tight before pulling the blinds down and sighing. I turned and watched carefully as he kicked off his shoes, tore off his shirt and pushed the blankets back on his bed. He crawled in lying on his right side and pulled the blankets up under his chin, closing his eyes and sighing. I walked to his bed and sat on the edge putting my hands in my lap looking down at him. He opened his eyes and smiled shyly avoiding eye contact. "When are you going to let me go out with you and James at night?" I chuckled and glanced down at my hands, also avoiding eye contact. I remember a time when I was that young and asking a man I blindly trusted, the same thing.

"When you can stay awake past 9 at night." I pushed myself up off his bed and reached for the light switch. I turned it off fast and looked down at him seeing him staring at me.

"It's not my fault I get woken up at 4 am to start training." I quickly dropped to my knees by his bed and locked eyes with him shaking my head.

"Max…when I was 10 years old I watched my dad get killed. Right in front of me." He pushed his arms out from under his blanket and got ready to hear the same thing I tell him every night. "When I was 15 I was able to go out and try to find the person who ruined my life. The first night I went out, I was stabbed in my side. I thought I was tough and I could handle anything and I couldn't. Fortunately I had someone…Emilio…who was there to tell me I need more training and I needed to let people look out for me. It took me getting stabbed to realize that." I leaned in close to him resting my forehead don his gently. "I'm not going to let you come to that realization by getting stabbed. Just please trust me okay? In time you will understand why you can't come out with us right now and when your body thinks you're ready, you'll know. Trust me." He nodded twice moving out to me and throwing his arms around my neck hugging me tight. I sighed and softly patted his back. I wasn't really a hugging type.

When I walked back out into the living room I grabbed a sweater on the back of my couch and pulled it on walking to the kitchen. James was leaning against the counter with a glass of Dr. Pepper, if I had to assume in one hand, and his phone in the other. I walked past him and stopped in front of the coffee pot full of freshly brewed dark coffee. "We're going to 5th and West tonight. It's Saturday so all the clubs are going to be full of idiot drunks." I nodded pouring in some coffee and turned to him. He was watching me and when we locked eyes he turned away and shook his head laughing. "Can you believe…the two of us…are living together and actually consider each other friends? I mean it was what…4 months ago we were fist fighting in your living room? And now look at us." I laughed and turned standing right next to him leaning against the counter as well.

"Yeah…Logan would probably be proud." As soon as I said his name a nasty cold circled around the two of us. Neither of us ever really brought him up because for both of us it was torturous just to hear his name. But I actually didn't care anymore. I deserved to hate hearing his name. It was my fault. All of it. I cleared my throat drinking all of my plain black coffee and pushed off the counter gently setting my now empty mug in the sink. "Brad should be here soon. You might want to get ready."

Brad showed up 10 minutes later ready to babysit for us. Not that I didn't trust Max, I just didn't know all of what he was capable right now. He was still so young and new at this he could snap at anything, because of anything. If someone was here with him when I couldn't be, I would prefer it be Brad. He had to deal with me when I was that age so he would be able to deal. We left the house armed with guns and knives and the promise to Brad that we'd be alright and we'd call him if we needed him. I drove in silence listening to the radio and James singing along to it, quietly. Like we do every night we drove around downtown slowly just checking everything before going to the spot James was told. Before I parked I knew Carlos was here already. I saw his car parked across the street I stopped at and smirked watching him open his door. I shut my car off and also stepped out hearing James do the same.

It was easy to decided Carlos was going to be our "partner". Much like how we did it before without James knowing, except now he did. In fact he was the one who suggested we keep in contact with Carlos. I was against it at first because when we saw Carlos, Logan was always brought up. Neither James asked how he was doing, or Carlos would just tell us. I hated hearing about him, but was grateful he was slowly getting his life back on track. "Jesus Christ took you guys long enough .I do have a job I have to go to tomorrow. Which means I do have to sleep. I know that's an odd concept for the two of you…" He shoved his hands in his pockets and glared between the two of us. Both James and I leaned against my car staring at him. Something was off with him. He seemed…almost angry, but like…really worried too. I frowned and he looked down clenching his jaw in place.

"You alright man? You seem on edge."

"Yeah I wonder why." I turned to James quick, eyebrow raised and he sighed shaking his head.

"What's going on Los?" He looked back at us and shifted his vision between both of us. I crossed my arms over my chest and he swallowed hard putting his head back down.

"Logan found out we've been doing this…" He motioned between the three of us and looked up. "And got mad at me. Ya know…I've been living with him right? Well I guess his suspicion got the best of him because I'm gone like almost every night, and he called me out on it. So I told him the truth. I told him I've been seeing you guys and we've been watching the streets. He got super pissed and not really at me I guess." He turned to James fast and narrowed his eyes. "He doesn't understand why I can be around you and he can't. And then he got upset saying we've never thought of Logan as more than a helpless nerd we have to watch over and…" He stopped and looked back at me. "And then he had a few choice words for you but I don't want to repeat them." I chuckled to myself and glanced down at the ground beneath me. "I told him not to follow me and I don't think he did but now he's just going to be a pain in the ass…"

"That's new for you?" I turned to James who smirked and pushed off the car. "Logan is just going to sulk. Let him. We have to do this Carlos. He won't understand, but that's okay." James turned and walked away fast as if that was the end of the conversation leaving Carlos and I to only look at the back of his head as he disappeared into a dark alley. We sighed, both of us turning and headed to the alley as well.

"I am a little curious as to why Logan hasn't come searching for me at my house." I lifted an eyebrow and stared down at him as we walked. He shook his head and laughed reaching in his pocket and pulled out a cigarette and lighter.

"Well because you had Justin and James's brother on official Logan watching duty." I smiled and looked to the front. "They go everywhere with him bro. Logan can't go to the store for milk without Will or Justin right behind him. It was actually pretty funny at first because Logan was so fucking pissed. But now he just treats them like dogs. Pats their head…gives them treats. Let's them sleep on the end of his bed." I laughed probably a little too loud but so did Carlos. "Will is always asking about James and I got to say, I think we should just tell him. James has gone almost 32 years without knowing he had a brother. I think it's time dude." I shrugged and just as I was going to open my mouth and tell him, like I did before, James isn't as stable to deal with that I heard a loud, high pitched female voice yell for help. We stopped walking in the beginning of the alley and I squinted as best as I could to see a huge body, James, running towards the opposite end. I took off as fast as I could to help. However when I got down to the alley I stopped quick and let my mouth hang open. I could have sworn I saw…Logan. But he was running, and two guys were chasing after him. On the ground crying and trying to push her skirt down her legs was a young girl. Like Max young. And surrounding her were James, Will and Justin. James quickly helped the girl stand but she collapsed in his arms and he just scooped her up. I hurried over to the four of them and glared at Justin.

"What the fuck are you two doing here?" Justin glanced around and shook his head.

"Following Logan. Little asshole followed Carlos after their fight. We couldn't stop him in time and when we did catch up to him, he said he was going to get your attention, one way or another." That was all I needed to hear. I took off in the direction I saw Logan and the guys chasing him and ran as fast as I could. I could hear two idiotic laughs turn down another alley and two seconds later I heard a chain link fence get run into. As soon as I turned down the same alley the other three did I slowed down a little but not by much. The first thing I noticed was Logan. He was pushed up against a fence and he was…smiling. He was clutching onto the fence for dear life probably scared out of his mind, but he was smiling. And the two guys didn't even care. They moved towards him and one, the one on the right, raised his fist but I was faster. I got in front of him, grabbed his fist and squeezed hard while turning it. I heard a few different snaps and he cried out falling to his knees. I raised my knee hard and fast and kneed him in the face. He was knocked out instantly and I let him drop to the floor hard. I turned quick looking at the other guy who was staring at me mouth wide open. I made a move towards him and he turned quick and ran away as fast as he could. With that taken care of I was forced to finally face Logan, completely. I turned slowly and locked my jaw in place seeing him staring at me. His smile was gone yet he was still clutching onto the fence behind him. I made one tiny step towards him and he closed his eyes, tight. I stopped and breathed out hard shaking my head.

"What are you doing here? What would possess you to do something this stupid Logan?" He opened his eyes fast but put his head down.

"Well when Carlos told me what you three assholes have been doing I figured…you were going to treat me like a victim so I might as well become one." I put my hands on my hips and he looked back up at me. "Besides…why do you care? You left me. You lied to me about everything…the way you felt…so why does it even matter to you why I'm here?"

"I left because I'm not right for you." He pushed off the fence hard and shoved me by my right shoulder.

"You don't get to decide that for me jackass! I get to make my own decisions about who is right for me!" I put up my hands and backed away slowly. I turned quick and started walking down the alley. Justin and Will were standing at the end staring at me. And then I heard fast footsteps and before I had time to get away faster, he was in front of me, pushing me back. "No! Don't walk away from me! You aren't' going to leave me again Kendall! I don't care what you think is right for me! And I don't care if you think I deserve someone else! I want you! I need you! So you're going to stop walking, shut up and listen to me!" I raised my eyebrows at him and he furiously wiped his eyes. He glared up at me with big brown sad eyes and pouty pick lips. "I went through hell at the hands of a man that you were trying to protect me from! Do you know why?" I softly shook my head and he stepped closer. "Because you left me alone. You left me at your house and he just broke in and took me, so he could kill me. And then…again Michael…he tried to kill me seconds after James left giving me your stupid note, and do you know why?!"

"Logan…"

"No Kendall! Shut up!" I closed my mouth fast and he shoved me again. "He almost killed me again because you weren't there!" His yell was about 20 times louder making me actually feel…afraid of him. I had never heard him like this. "Every time I get hurt…or someone comes after me, you aren't there! I've almost died three times and all because you weren't there! So your theory that I need someone else…someone normal, is wrong! Because without you…I'm a danger magnet. It finds me, and tries to kill me! I can't get away from it and I can't…" He stopped and wiped his eyes again closing them. He took a hard breath in just exhale a shaky one. His voice dropped considerably. "I can't be without you. I can't live without you." He opened his eyes and we locked eye contact again. He bit his bottom lip and stepped forward slowly. I couldn't take away from his perfect chocolate eyes glistening with tears, even when I felt his hands on my arms. He squeezed softly before moving his hands down to my own hands and lacing our fingers together. "I need you Kendall. I love you. Please…" He took one more tiny step closer to me making our bodies touch. He put his head down and gently set his forehead don my chest. I swallowed hard, and idiotically let go of his hands, so I could move mine to the back of his head. I ran a few fingers through the brown hair I missed while my other hand held the back of his neck. "Please don't leave me Kendall. I love you." I closed my eyes pulling him into me tight making his arms wrap around my torso. Tight. I softly kissed the top of his head before lying my head on his.

"I love you too Logan." He squeezed me tighter and quietly cried out onto my chest. "If I bring you back into this…you have to know Max and James are still learning and are very dangerous." He pushed off me fast but kept his hands on my sides kind of on my waist. He laughed through his tears and wiped each cheek on his shoulder. He nodded and looked back up at me making my knees weak. "And…you should know…because they are both living with me, we can't really do much…extra activities." He chuckled again and looked down.

"Well considering I was just living with Justin and Will, I've learned to keep my thoughts and memories to myself. Especially with Will. I don't' think he would have liked hearing about all the times I had sex with James. It would have be weird telling his brother all the times we banged." I rolled my eyes and pulled him back into me, sighing softly and closing my eyes.

"My what?" We both turned quick and let go of each other seeing Will staring wide eyed at James who was staring back at him. I opened my mouth to speak, but no words came out. Logan stepped forward but stopped and turned to me.

"You didn't tell him?" I shook my head slowly and saw James turn and glare at Logan.

"Tell me what?" I again told my brain to say something reassuring, but nothing came out.

"Well I guess…" Logan slowly walked over to James who kept looking between Will and Logan. "Why don't we all go back to my place and talk? You're going to want to sit down for this."

THE END!

I'm happy with this ending and I think it answered alto of questions and I think I left it open enough for you, my beautiful readers, to imagine what would happen next with James and Will. I am on the fence about making a sequel, mostly because I don't have any idea where to go with this. Yet. But if you would like to see one, and have any ideas PM me. Thanks to everyone who read this, reviewed it, and loved it as much as I did!