Hey guys, I have a little question for all of you. How far after the rebellion would you like me to continue?

You all are so sweet and I love all my reviewers, you all make me smile!

Still don't own anything Hunger Games!

Reviews needed: 4 won't update til I get them.

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Peeta looks completely distraught when I walk into the room, he isn't furious with flashbacks. He just looks straight ahead with pleading eyes tugging on his restraints repeating one word over and over.

"Oaklan?" he looks up hopefully as the sound of the heavy metal door quietly swinging shut alerts him.

"Hey Peeta" I whisper back pushing the fear of an imminent flashback from my mind.

"I'm sorry" he winces as the words come from his mouth.

"Don't be Peeta, it's not your fault I had a flashback, it's not like you're the reason I went into the games in the first place" I reassure him walking over to touch his scared forearm.

"But" I silence him with a finger to his lips.

That's when he sees the ring. His whole body starts to shake profusely and his eyes go insane again. He clutches the ring and my hand with it in his hands. My eyes go wide with fear of what he could possibly do.

"Peeta" I warn.

"Oaklan, go. Get out of here" he whispers.

I don't listen to him; I put the hand he hasn't found yet on his cheek and start whispering madly at him. Maybe all the 13 residents are right, maybe their whispers are true, I may be crazy. That's what they say anyways. Everyone acts like I can't hear their whispers as I walk, or the points from the kids that mothers try to cover apologetically. I get it; I used to look at Haymitch and whisper too. We are like celebrities now, sick, crazy celebrities hanging on by a thread, or booze, or knives, or hunting, or even in Finnick's case a rope.

"Peeta, it's ok. Please come back, this is all my fault; I should have just gone with you. I should have at least tried to push you off with me. You are so good Peeta so pure; I should have at least forgiven you. All you tried to do was make me happy. You saw how broken I was and tried to fix it. I never even knew what great of a friend you were to me back then. Please Peeta, I can't lose you like this" I sound crazy, completely mad.

What he says next surprises me "Oaklan, I'm scared" he whispers back to the Peeta I know, the pure loving, caring Peeta.

"Don't be Peeta, you survived the games. Don't let them take any more of your life from you. It's all going to be ok, you can't let them get to you do you hear me?" I whisper furiously, not at him but at the Capitol for taking him and ripping him to shreds.

"Oaklan will you tell me something?" he says suddenly.

"Anything" I respond.

"What do you feel when you look at Gale?" he whispers to me slowly with a pained look on his face.

"Ok I'll tell you but you have to promise to answer one of my questions after" I say and he nods quickly "I don't know, there's this happy feeling, a hunger. I just want to hold onto him and never let him go. He's everything I need; he doesn't believe the doctors that I'm crazy. He loves me for me it's not some crazy act. He truly cares about me and my wellbeing. I've never felt the feelings I have for him with anyone else. He completes me I guess" I smile at the thought of Gale.

"That's nice Oaklan. They say I felt that about Katniss once, I don't believe it" he shudders at Katniss' name.

"You did Peeta; you loved her more than anything in the world. She was your everything. She was what you endured your mother's blows for, she was the one I caught you staring at every day during school, she meant the world to you." I let that settle in with him for a second, but I can tell he is still not convinced, then I ask my question "Peeta, there has to be a reason you thought you loved me and you better tell me the real reason" I look deep into his eyes seriously.

"I watched videos of us, and you were always on the ground with your head bleeding right there" he pauses to point up at the jagged scar on my forehead from the cave when I couldn't find Gale "You were crying screaming my name over and over. Then they showed me videos of us watching the stars together. You always had your head on my chest, and then I watched one of us kissing." I interrupt him then.

"Peeta, those were from years ago, we haven't watched the stars for at least two years now. How could you believe them?" I ask brokenly shaking my head.

"I wanted them to be real; I needed them to be something for me to hang on to. When I found out Katniss was a mutt, everything I knew as true was ripped from me. I needed to hang onto the fact that you were out there and I needed to stay strong for the girl I thought I loved. So it wasn't real, everything I saw?" he asks troubled.

"No Peeta, I'm so sorry. It wasn't real, they tricked you. You loved her with all that you were. I wish you could just remember" I cry out and he pulls me down into a brotherly hug.

"I'm sorry too Oaklan, I'm sorry too" he calls out after me as I power walk out of the room roughly wiping a tear from my face with the sleeve of my shirt.

I know where I'm going. I will not be weak anymore, Im going to demand that I be a part of the rebellion, sometimes the crazies turn out to be the best soldiers.

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