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It had been fifteen days. Fifteen days since their last kiss. Their last touch. Their last glance. Since their breakup, Elliot requested for two weeks of his vacation time. He told his captain that he needed to clear his head and spend time with his children. The first days were filled with alcohol and unconsciousness. The loneliness that haunted his soul was only exacerbated as Elliot found every room to possess Olivia's scent and memory. She claimed his heart and soul and she shattered him. He was lost. He was broken. Yet, he was still in love with her.

He wanted her to be joking. He wanted her to storm into his apartment and love the hell out of him. He had managed to leave town on the fifth day and go to his cabin in Hartford. It was a short but needed the break. The lack of communication. Olivia consumed every thought when he was awake and every dream and nightmare when he was asleep. He needed to let go, but longed for her touch and love.

Olivia wasn't much better. Her life consisted of her job and her wedding. As she made plans to become Mrs. Caleb Morley, her heart was breaking with every waking second. Her heart belonged to Elliot. Her nightmares are haunted with the brokenness in his eyes, the pain in his voice, the single tear that fell from his eye to her own cheek. She cries herself to sleep in the hopes of feeling him in the night.

Caleb had been good to her, for now. He funded the entire wedding. The wedding was set for the weekend. Invitations had been sent and news of the new couple spread in the city. Many in the squad doubted Olivia's decision due to the fact that they had never once met Caleb, except for during interrogation, and many knew of the love that Elliot had for her. They would never want Olivia to be unhappy, but they saw the once comforting candle her eyes possessed has been extinguished.

The future of the SVU was shaken.

Tonight was the night that Olivia Benson would introduce her fiancee, Caleb, to her coworkers. After the undercover case, Olivia and Elliot, along with the squadron, received rewards for their performance and service. It was a semiformal event that required the best behavior from the officers. Olivia was nervous about seeing the love of her life. Two weeks had been too long... forever will be torture.

It was coming to a little later than seven o'clock when Olivia and Caleb joined the event. Olivia was dressed in a red empire dress that was spaghetti strapped and hugged her chest. It fell with flowing cloth just above her knee and her diamond ankle bracelet and necklace shimmered in the warm room. Caleb, in his black suit and red tie, stood beside her and moved with her as she introduced him to her friends, Munch, Casey, Fin and his date, Karen.

"It's a pleasure," he would say to them. Elliot would never say that, she thought to herself.

Casey, in a silky blue number, moved to Olivia's side and whispered, "Have you seen Elliot?"

Olivia's eye's saddened, but her fake smile remained. "No, I haven't," she said confidently.

"Well, look straight ahead," she whispered and Olivia's eyes widened as he adjusted the microphone for his access.

"Excuse me..." Elliot said addressing the crowd. Everyone stopped and turned to the detective with attention and smiles. "Thank you. I wanted to congratulate and thank everyone for being here this evening. This is an honor and I am blessed to say that I have been serving the city of New York for thirteen years." He sighed and looked to his captain with a sad smile. "It is my unfortunate responsibility to inform all of you that I am transferring to Los Angeles Police Department for a captain's position in a week's time. As much as I love it here in New York, there isn't a reason for me to stay anymore. My children are grown and leaving for school this next year." He took a deep breath and looked up at his friends, seeing John hold Casey in a sideways embraces as she wiped tears away. Fin nodded in approval for his companion and Karen squeezed his hand. He couldn't look at Olivia or he would break. "I want to thank all of you, Officers and friends, who have been beside me. I would like to vocalize my appreciation for my captain, Captain Donald Cragen, for tolerating me for the past thirteen years." He took a breath and looked into Olivia's eyes. "I have no regrets," he said with a broken confidence. Instead of breaking, he smiled and motioned to the piano. "There is a song I would like to sing. Hey, who would have thought Stabler could sing?"

The crowd laughed and Olivia only had a flashback as he sang to her in his arms after they had made love for the very first time. If the tears hadn't been falling yet, they were now.

"This song is Kiss from a Rose, originally performed by Seal. Please, this is a thank you to all of you who continue to serve with me to defend this beautiful city. Thank you."

The crowd applauded as Elliot moved to the piano and adjusted the microphone to the proper setting. With one breath, Elliot began to press against the keys and let his voice be heard.

There used to be a greying tower alone on the sea.
You became the light on the dark side of me.
Love remained a drug that's the high and not the pill.
But did you know,
That when it snows,
My eyes become large and The light that you shine can be seen.
Baby,
I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the grey.
Ooh,
The more I get of you,
Stranger it feels, yeah.
And now that your rose is in bloom.
A light hits the gloom on the grey.

Olivia and Casey sat blown away by his performance. All the officers had taken their seats by this point as Elliot and the piano remained in the spotlight. Casey squeezed John's hand and he looked up to see her turquoise eyes shining. "Did you know Stabler could do this?"

"No, he never said anything," John replied. He kissed her quickly and smirked when he saw Olivia completely entranced. John moved to Casey's ear and whispered softly, "What's your take on Caleb?"

Casey sighed and turned to see him staring at Olivia and back at Elliot. She turned back to her boyfriend and answered, "He's okay. He's not the one for Olivia."

"No," he sighed. He looked up and pointed to the stage, where Elliot continued to sing. "He is the one her heart belongs to."

Casey nodded and continued to listen to Elliot perform.

There is so much a man can tell you,
So much he can say.
You remain,
My power, my pleasure, my pain, baby
To me you're like a growing addiction that I can't deny.
Won't you tell me is that healthy, baby?
But did you know,
That when it snows,
My eyes become large and the light that you shine can be seen.
Baby,
I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the grey.
Ooh, the more I get of you
Stranger it feels, yeah
Now that your rose is in bloom.
A light hits the gloom on the grey

Olivia was enamored by his beauty. His voice warmed her soul and the tears that spilled from her eyes were of admiration and regret. All she wanted to do was hold him and make love to him until neither of them could halt sleep. His voice, so rough yet so rhythmic, warmed her to her core and her heart was in the stages of healing and breaking. He was leaving her. There was no stopping him. He was moving to Los Angeles and she would never see him again.

My power, my pleasure, my pain!

His words were so raw. She saw his pain, his heart ache. She knew she did that to him. She studied him in his black suit and blue tie and couldn't help but wonder what he was thinking in this moment. If this song was for her. She chewed her bottom lip and unconsciously began rubbing her engagement ring, doubting her choice and doubting her heart's stability.

Caleb watched as she was completely enamored by the striking detective. His plan was failing in the manner of notes. Elliot needed to be destroyed. Both elements couldn't exist any longer. Elliot must die.

Caleb pulled his phone from his pocket and text a familiar phone number. Fin caught the movement and studied Caleb's tense mannerisms. Karen's hand remained linked in his, but continued to keep a suspicious eye on Olivia's fiancee.

I've been kissed by a rose on the grave,
I've been kissed by a rose
I've been kissed by a rose on the grave,
...And if I should fall along the way
I've been kissed by a rose
...been kissed by a rose on the grave.
There is so much a man can tell you,
So much he can say.
You remain My power, my pleasure, my pain.
To me you're like a growing addiction that I can't deny, yeah
Won't you tell me is that healthy, baby.
But did you know,
That when it snows,
My eyes become large and the light that you shine can be seen.

Elliot felt the music flow through his body. This was his sign off to Olivia Benson. All he wanted to do was move on. For days he had tried to think of ways to steal her away. But the position opened in Los Angeles, this was his opportunity to start over. Move on from her.

He had been kissed by a rose, but he was thrown through the thorns.

As he said, he didn't regret anything he has done. He will never forget his Olivia. Elliot knew he would always love her. He didn't believe that she didn't love him. He needed to see if she would go after him. If she didn't... he would know.

Caleb continued the text messaging, each button being pressed with much more purpose. Fin grew tense and nudged his partner quickly. John looked to him, then Fin looked over at Caleb. John took a glance at the tense fiancee and gave his partner a knowing stare. Jealousy. Fin nodded and returned his focus to Elliot.

Baby,
I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the grey.
Ooh, the more I get of you
Stranger it feels, yeah
Now that your rose is in bloom,
A light hits the gloom on the grey.
Yes I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the grey
Ooh, the more I get of you
Stranger it feels, yeah
And now that your rose is in bloom
A light hits the gloom on the grey
Now that your rose is in bloom,
A light hits the gloom on the grey.

The song was coming to a close and Elliot's words were laced with emotion. Olivia decided she needed to touch him... just one more time. The finals words were sung. The room remained silent. That is until Elliot's head rose from its downward fall. When he stood, everyone applauded and congratulated Elliot on his performance and promotion.

Olivia stood and looked startled as Caleb grabbed her wrist possessively. She looked into his dark eyes and smiled saying, "Im going to the restroom, Caleb. I'll be back."

The jealousy and fear of his plan failing was irritating him. He pulled her into a rough quick kiss and whispered against her, "Come back soon. Im getting... dissatisfied."

Olivia swallowed and moved away from him as quickly as possible. The touch of the devil remained even after the effect. She stepped away and moved toward the restroom... where Elliot happened to be standing.

He was drinking water. He probably took his truck. He looked strong, yet broken. She did that to him. She sighed and moved in front of him. "El."

"Olivia," he whispered dryly.

She knew the coldness was coming. It burned her more than she wanted to admit. "Can we talk?"

"What's left to talk about?" he said drinking the last of his water.

"Why didn't you tell me you were leaving for Los Angeles?"

"Why didn't you tell me that I wasn't enough for you? Why did you make me fall for you in the first place? What reason do I have for staying?" Elliot began walking away toward the terrace that led to a walk way which was covered with freshly fallen snow.

"Elliot, I had to leave. I--"

"You what, huh? You got scared, Olivia? You didn't trust my love for you, Olivia? What? I'd really like to know." He was getting angry and his voice was rising face.

"I do trust you, Elliot. I... I need to..."

"Just tell me this, huh? Okay, answer me one question and I can leave for Los Angeles in peace."

She nodded and stared into his blue eyes. Her own tears fell with every word he spoke. All she wanted to do was hold him. To love him. To touch him.

Caleb stood in the corner watching the scene unfold. Olivia was turning to him. They would find there way together once again. He would need to go through the hell of another lifetime, unless he got Olivia this time. He took his phone and dialed a familiar number. The recipient answered. He spoke in definition. "When I send "Go," do your job!" He hung up, turned and saw Fin beside him. He smiled and stared in the cold detective's eyes and smirked. "Business transaction."

Fin stood and spoke suspiciously, "What musician handles a business transaction in the middle of a police banquet?"

Caleb laughed and moved for a drink from the waitress walking past. "Goodnight, Detective Tutuola."

Fin watched him walk away and relaxed slightly when Karen slipped her hand into his. "You okay?" she whispered.

He turned back to her and kissed her lips deeply. When he separated, he stared into her green eyes and smiled. "Im glad you came."

She smiled and kissed the underside of his chin. "Come on, lets get back to the crowd."

Olivia stared at Elliot as he tried to gather the information he wanted to say. He looked at her, stepped toward her, so their chests touched and he stared into her wet brown eyes. His heart broke at her tears and he wanted to kiss them away. Instead, he needed the answer. "Did you ever love me?"

Olivia nodded and took his mouth with hers. He pulled her to his body and held her cold body close. She moaned into his caress and knew this kiss and their romance couldn't last. When they separated, she touched his chest and whispered, "Im getting married next week."

"Do you love him?" he asked, pained to hear the answer.

"Im getting married," she said strongly. She didn't want to look into his eyes. She didn't want to see his hurt anymore.

"Im leaving Saturday."

She nodded and he kissed her one last time. "Bye, Liv," he whispered painfully as he turned away from her. He made his way down the ramp to leave the building.

"Elliot!" she called out to him, wanting to say she loved him. Wanting to stay with him. He wasn't stopping. He was leaving her.

The sobs came and she turned around and made her way back inside. Her heart was shattered and no one can save her.

Suddenly a shot was heard. Then a thud. Then moaning. Olivia turned around sharply and screamed in horror as Elliot laid bleeding in the snow. "El!" she ran to his side and pressed against his wound and kissed his forehead. "Don't you dare leave me, Elliot! Don't you dare leave me!"