21. Jealous of a Dead Woman

A few days later Severus was looking up Russian book from the eighteenth chapters and a Magitrans which could translate any unknown language (as long as it wasn't a magic language like Parselmouth) to any given language. He had seen the words in Latin on how to make a Horcrux and hoped this would give some insight on unmaking Horcruxes like Harry. If there had ever been anyone like Harry in the first place which was both a good thing and a bad thing. That was when a fuming Harry Potter stormed in from dinner like a whirlwind.

'Harry?' Severus asked.

'Bint,' growled the hormonal teenager.

'You of all people should know I'm not female,' Severus said drily.

'Not you,' growled Harry, 'Ginny fucking Weasley!'

'What did the Weaslette do?' asked Severus.

'Claimed I was "confused",' growled Harry, 'and tried to show me I quote "what a real woman could do for you".'

Severus couldn't help the snarl that escaped his throat at this. How dare that … that … little whore … that hair brained wanabee … the little slut … try to take his Harry from him? Harry was his and only his? The slut hadn't even wanted Harry for Harry. She wanted his fame and money. She was nothing more than a fame jumper. She didn't deserve Harry or anybody else. Harry was right to be angry. She better not have kissed his Harry or Severus would not be responsible for his actions. Severus had once been a Death Eater and was still a spy.

'Did she kiss you?' asked Severus dangerously.

'Yes,' growled Harry, 'I had to push her off me and shouted at her that I was gay. This will be all around the school by tomorrow,' Harry slumped.

'You know in the Wizarding World doesn't care about sexual preferences,' Severus said quietly.

'I don't care,' growled Harry.

'Do you want me to hex her?' asked Severus softly.

This somehow seemed to calm down the hormonal teen. Severus was relieved. So he had done something right. Merlin knows what. His social skills weren't exactly the best considering that all his social skills were those that Lily and the Evans had managed to teach him as a child and he'd learnt in later life. Where was he going to learn it from his abusive father? And his mother by the time he came along was far too scared and intimidated by her husband to be much use in teaching the young Severus anything.

'Your very sweet,' Harry smiled.

Severus blinked at the smiling teenager. Pregnancy hormones were certainly something. Harry had gone from furious to sweet in the space of a few moments. If it was not for the fact that Harry was pregnant Severus would have thought he was bi polar. That was what Severus blamed the statement on because Severus Snape was certainly not sweet. No one had even suggested he was sweet even Lily who had been the only friend who actually knew him completely would never have suggested he was sweet.

'I assure you I am not sweet,' Severus said drily.

'Oh but you are,' Harry smiled, 'threatening to hex my attacker. You are my hero.'

Severus raised an eyebrow at this, 'if you need rescuing from little girls how in the name of Merlin are you going to defeat the Dark Lord?'

Harry scowled, 'you just had to ruin the moment. Can't you leave anything be?'

'So I'm not sweet,' Severus asked.

'Oh but you are,' Harry smirked in a way he had obviously picked up from Severus.

'I hate you,' Severus said.

'Back to that are we,' Harry laughed, 'that's not what you said last night.'

'What's said post copulation is not an accurate judgement on a Wizard's feelings,' Severus said stiffly.

'So you're saying you don't love me?' Harry turned those killer green eyes on him.

'No,' Severus said unable to help himself.

Severus grinned, 'see even you can't help but let me into your heart.'

'What's that supposed to mean "even" me?' demanded Severus.

'Well how many people have you let yourself trust enough to let into your heart?' asked Harry.

'You, your mother, my mother, Albus,' Severus said.

'You could do with more friends,' Harry said softly. 'People aren't genuinely out to hurt you.'

'Gryffindor mentality,' muttered Severus.

Harry smiled, 'if I wasn't so forgiving do you think I'd have fallen in love with you despite our past?' asked Harry. 'I'm not saying trust the whole world but give people a chance.'

'Leopards don't change their spots,' Severus said.

'Well what made you trust me, or mum or even Professor Dumbledore?' asked Harry quietly.

'I needed to trust Albus with Lily's life,' Severus said.

'What do you mean?' asked Harry whose brow was furrowed. Then his eyes widened, 'oh you were the spy who told Dumbledore they were after me,' he gasped.

'Yes,' Severus admitted, 'I was also the one to get them targeted.'

'I told you already that you are forgiven, Severus,' Harry said softly. 'I'm sure that my parents would forgive you owing to the fact you've saved my life so many times.'

Severus snorted, 'yeah but they'd hate me again when they found out that I seduced-'Severus began but was interrupted.

'I seduced you remember,' Harry retorted.

'I don't think either of us seduced the other,' Severus said softly. 'It just happened.'

Harry nodded, 'well whatever insanity it is I'm glad it happened.'

'Me too,' agreed Severus, 'the best thing I have ever done.'

'Even if it was "a complete disregard to school rules"?' asked Harry with a laugh.

'Definitely been spending too much time with me,' Severus said softly.

'What was my mother like?' asked Harry. 'Aunt Petunia never spoke much about her.'

'I'll bet,' muttered Severus darkly. 'Well Lily was wonderful. She had a complete thirst for knowledge and was brilliant at charms. She was half way through a Charms Mastery when she had to go into hiding. She didn't stand for bullying but had a wicked sense of humour. I have a feeling that is why your father loved her so much. Those two were always pulling pranks on each other. She was annoyingly perceptive but stunningly innocent in some respects. She had a heart as big as yours but if you ever offended her she would make quite clear that she would stay away from you. She had a very black and white way of thinking.'

'Us that why you drew apart?' asked Harry.

'That and she had begun to fall for Potter,' Severus said quietly.

Harry gave a sharp look at that, 'did you not like that because he bullied you?' asked Harry hopefully.

Severus closed his eyes but he knew that he had to tell Harry the truth as much as Harry might hate it. Merlin knows Severus would hate it. How do you tell the love of your life that you were once in love with their mother? If he was a Gryffindor it would be easy he would just blurt it out. But Severus Snape was no Lion. He was a Snake and that meant planning out everything first in his head. Severus shook his head once and opened them to see emerald green eyes peering out suspiciously at him. Severus sighed once more.

'Partly,' Severus said. 'I hated it because she was my first love.'

'But your gay,' Harry said.

'Bi,' Severus corrected waiting for the explosion.

'WHAT!' Harry shouted at him tears in his eyes a look of extreme jealously in his eyes. 'Is that what all this is about? You can't have a dead woman so you'll have the next best thing – her son?' Harry shouted.

'No,' Severus tried, 'no,' Severus repeated. 'It was never about Lily you and I. Lily and I began as friends and our love was built from that but ours was built on passion. Lily and I would never have worked for exactly the thing that we didn't understand each other whereas you are understand me like nobody else ever has. I love you more than I ever did Lily. Remember our first kiss.'

'What about it?' growled Harry.

'It wasn't till much later that I even thought about Lily,' Severus said. 'And that was about how much she would kill me for touching her son. I saw her with you in Order meetings towards the end of her life,' Severus said softly, 'you were the light of her world. She would have killed for you. I don't know which of your parents I'd be more frightened of facing for knocking you up.'

'So we really have nothing to do with mum?' asked Harry.

'Nothing,' agreed Severus, 'remember when I treated you so hatefully before. It was because I had to look into your eyes. It was like they were taunting me for what I had done, what I had lost. I claimed it was because I hated Potter but that wasn't true.'

'And now?' asked Harry.

'And now the emerald orbs are simply yours,' Severus said. 'Lily was my first love and best friend but you are my true love and soul mate.'

'I love you too,' Harry said softly.

Harry kissed Severus it wasn't a tender kiss. It was passionate and wonderful still with the sweet taste that Severus had found he was getting more and more addicted to as the days went by. Severus picked the slender, pregnant teen up and carried him to the bedroom. Severus began to strip the teen as he himself was being divested of his clothing. Their mouths were all over each other. Severus was worshiping his young lover remembering to be careful with the teen despite Harry's want of some rough action.

Severus pulled down Harry's jeans and boxers looking on the teen's glory and feeling a lust he always felt whenever he saw Harry. Severus doubted that he would ever feel differently about Harry. He was just waiting for Harry to get bored of him. Harry could do much better than an old man like him. But the fact that there was a baby between Harry and Severus mean the world to Severus. Maybe it meant that they were meant to be. That Severus could finally get his happy ever after. He temporarily forgot all about Horcruxes.

'Need you … in me … now,' demanded Harry.

Severus could never deny Harry anything so quickly prepared and penetrated the teen. Soon the two of them were groaning and kissing with love bites and licks all over each other. Soon with a shout of Severus' name Harry came all over the blankets. Severus came after a few more thrusts. The two of them sank down together. Harry was leaning on Severus' chest and Severus drawing the sweaty, sticky boy into his arms. Nothing could be more perfect than the two of them naked, Harry thickening with the baby their magic had made.

'I love you, Severus,' Harry said sleepily.

The glow that Severus felt was wonderful. What it was like to feel so completely loved, wanted and accepted by someone as precious as Harry Potter was like nothing in the world. Severus wished that they could remain this way forever.